Chapter no 35

East of Eden

Lee helped Adam and the two boys move to Salinas, which is to say he did it all, packed

the things to be taken, saw them on the train, loaded the back seat of the Ford, and, arriving in Salinas, unpacked and saw the family settled in Dessie’s little house. When he had done everything he could think of to make them comfortable, and a number of things unnecessary, and more things for the sake of delay, he waited on Adam formally one evening after the twins had gone to bed. Perhaps Adam caught his intention from Lee’s coldness and formality.

Adam said, โ€œAll right. I’ve been expecting it. Tell me.โ€

That broke up Lee’s memorized speech, which he

had intended to begin, โ€œFor a number of years I have served you to the best of my ability and now I feelโ€”โ€

โ€œI’ve put it off as long as

I could,โ€ said Lee. โ€œI have a speech all ready. Do you want to hear it?โ€

โ€œDo you want to say it?โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ said Lee. โ€œI don’t. And it’s a pretty good speech too.โ€

โ€œWhen do you want to go?โ€ Adam asked. โ€œAs soon as possible.

I’m afraid I might lose my intention if I don’t go soon. Do you want me to wait until you get someone else?โ€ โ€œBetter not,โ€ said Adam. โ€œYou know how slow I am. It might be some time. I might

never get around to it.โ€ โ€œI’ll go tomorrow then.โ€ โ€œIt will tear the boys to

pieces,โ€ Adam said. โ€œI don’t know what they’ll do. Maybe you’d better sneak off and let me tell them afterward.โ€

โ€œIt’s my observation that children always surprise us,โ€ said Lee.

And so it was. At breakfast the next morning Adam said, โ€œBoys, Lee is going away.โ€

โ€œIs he?โ€ said Cal.

โ€œThere’s a basketball game tonight, costs ten cents. Can we go?โ€

โ€œYes. But did you hear

what I said?โ€

โ€œSure,โ€ Aron said. โ€œYou said Lee’s going away.โ€ โ€œBut he’s not coming back.โ€

Cal asked, โ€œWhere’s he going?โ€

โ€œTo San Francisco to live.โ€

โ€œOh!โ€

said Aron.

โ€œThere’s a man on Main Street, right on the street, and he’s got a little stove and he cooks sausages and puts them in buns. They cost a nickel.

And you can take all the mustard you want.โ€

Lee stood in the kitchen door, smiling at Adam. When the twins got their

books together Lee said, โ€œGood-by, boys.โ€

They shouted, โ€œGood-by!โ€ and tumbled out of the house.

Adam stared into his coffee cup and said in

apology, โ€œWhat little brutes! I guess that’s your reward for over ten years of service.โ€

โ€œI like it better that way,โ€ Lee said. โ€œIf they

pretended sorrow they’d be liars.

It doesn’t mean

anything to them. Maybe they’ll think of me sometimes

โ€”privately. I don’t want them to be sad. I hope I’m not so small-souled as to take satisfaction in being missed.โ€

He laid fifty cents on the table in front of Adam. โ€œWhen they start for the basketball game tonight, give them this from me and tell them to buy the sausage buns. My farewell gift may be ptomaine, for all I know.โ€

Adam looked at the telescope basket Lee brought into the dining room. โ€œIs that all your stuff, Lee?โ€ โ€œEverything

but my

books. They’re in boxes in the cellar. If you don’t mind I’ll send for them or come for them after I get settled.โ€ โ€œWhy, sure. I’m going to miss you, Lee, whether you want me to or not. Are you

really going to get your bookstore?โ€

โ€œThat is my intention.โ€ โ€œYou’ll let us hear from you?โ€

โ€œI don’t know. I’ll have

to think about it. They say a clean cut heals soonest.

There’s nothing sadder to me than

associations held

together by nothing but the glue of postage stamps. If you can’t see or hear or touch a man, it’s best to let him go.โ€ Adam stood up from the table. โ€œI’ll walk to the depot with you.โ€

โ€œNo!โ€ Lee said sharply.

โ€œNo. I don’t want that. Good-by, Mr. Trask. Good-by, Adam.โ€ He went out of the

house so fast that Adam’s โ€œGood-byโ€ reached him at the bottom of the front steps and Adam’s โ€œDon’t forget to writeโ€ sounded over the click of the front gate.

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That night after the basketball game Cal and Aron each had five sausages on buns, and it was just as well, for Adam had forgotten to provide any supper. Walking home, the twins discussed Lee for the first time.

โ€œI wonder why he went away?โ€ Cal asked.

โ€œHe’s talked about going before.โ€

โ€œWhat do you suppose he’ll do without us?โ€ โ€œI don’t know. I bet he

comes back,โ€ Aron said. โ€œHow do you mean?

Father said he was going to start a bookstore. That’s funny. A Chinese bookstore.โ€ โ€œHe’ll come back,โ€ said Aron. โ€œHe’ll get lonesome for us. You’ll see.โ€

โ€œBet you ten cents he don’t.โ€

โ€œBefore when?โ€ โ€œBefore forever.โ€ โ€œThat’s a bet,โ€ said Aron.

Aron was not able to collect his winnings for nearly a month, but he won six days later.

Lee came in on the ten-forty and let himself in with his own key. There was a

light in the dining room but Lee found Adam in the

kitchen, scraping at a thick black crust in the frying pan with the point of a can opener.

Lee put down his basket. โ€œIf you soak it overnight it will come right out.โ€ โ€œWill it? I’ve burned everything

I’ve cooked.

There’s a saucepan of beets out in the yard. Smelled so bad I couldn’t have them in the house. Burned beets are awfulโ€”โ€œLee!โ€ he cried, and then.

โ€œIs anything the matter?โ€

Lee took the black iron

pan from him and put it in the sink and ran water in it. โ€œIf we had a new gas stove we could make a cup of coffee in a few minutes,โ€ he said. โ€œI might as well build up the fire.โ€

โ€œStove won’t burn,โ€ said Adam.

Lee lifted a lid. โ€œHave you ever taken the ashes out?โ€

โ€œAshes?โ€

โ€œOh, go in the other room,โ€ said Lee. โ€œI’ll make some coffee.โ€

Adam waited

impatiently in the dining room but he obeyed his orders. At last Lee brought in two cups of coffee and set

them on the table. โ€œMade it in a skillet,โ€ he said. โ€œMuch faster.โ€ He leaned over his telescope basket and untied the rope that held it shut. He brought out the stone bottle. โ€œChinese absinthe,โ€ he said. โ€œNg-ka-py maybe last ten more years. I forgot to ask whether you had replaced me.โ€

โ€œYou’re beating around the bush,โ€ said Adam. โ€œI know it. And I also

know the best way would be just to tell it and get it over with.โ€

โ€œYou lost your money in a fan-tan game.โ€

โ€œNo. I wish that was it. No, I have my money. This damn

cork’s brokenโ€”I’ll

have to shove it in the bottle.โ€ He poured the black liquor into his coffee. โ€œI never drank it this way,โ€ he said. โ€œSay,

it’s good.โ€ โ€œTastes like

rotten

apples,โ€ said Adam. โ€œYes,

but remember

Sam Hamilton said like good rotten apples.โ€

Adam said, โ€œWhen do

you think you’ll get around to telling me what happened to you?โ€

โ€œNothing happened to me,โ€

said Lee. โ€œI

got

lonesome. That’s all. Isn’t that enough?โ€

โ€œHow about your

bookstore?โ€ โ€œI

don’t want a

bookstore. I think I knew it before I got on the train, but I took all this time to make sure.โ€

โ€œThen there’s your last dream gone.โ€

โ€œGood riddance.โ€ Lee seemed on the verge of

hysteria. โ€œMissy Tlask,

Chinee boy sink gung get dlunk.โ€

Adam was alarmed.

โ€œWhat’s the matter with you anyway?โ€

Lee lifted the bottle to

his lips and took a deep hot drink and panted the fumes out of his burning throat. โ€œAdam,โ€ he said, โ€œI am incomparably,

incredibly, overwhelmingly glad to be home. I’ve never been so goddam lonesome in my life.โ€

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