Charles had more respect for Adam after he knew about the prison. He felt the warmth for his brother you can feel only for one who is not perfect and therefore no target for your hatred. Adam took some advantage of it too. He tempted Charles.
โDid you ever think, Charles,
that we’ve got
enough money to do anything we want to do?โ
โAll right, what do we want?โ
โWe could go to Europe,
we could walk around Paris.โ โWhat’s that?โ
โWhat’s what?โ โI
thought I
heard
someone on the stoop.โ โProbably a cat.โ
โI guess so. Have to kill off some of them pretty soon.โ
โCharles, we could go to Egypt and walk around the Sphinx.โ
โWe could stay right
here and make some good use of our money. And we could get the hell out to work and make some use of the day.
Those goddam cats!โ Charles jumped to the door and
yanked it open and said, โGet!โ Then he was silent, and Adam saw him staring at the steps. He moved beside him.
A dirty bundle of rags
and mud was trying to worm its way up the steps. One skinny hand clawed slowly at the stairs. The other dragged helplessly. There was a caked face with cracked lips and eyes peering out of swollen, blackened lids. The forehead was laid open, oozing blood back into the matted hair.
Adam went down the
stairs and kneeled beside the figure. โGive me a hand,โ he said. โCome on, let’s get her in. Hereโlook out for that arm. It looks broken.โ
She fainted when they carried her in.
โPut her in my bed,โ
Adam said. โNow I think you better go for the doctor.โ โDon’t you think we
better hitch up and take her in?โ
โMove her? No. Are you crazy?โ
โMaybe not as crazy as
you. Think about it a minute.โ โFor God’s sake, think
about what?โ
โTwo men living alone
and they’ve got this in their house.โ
Adam was shocked.
โYou don’t mean it.โ โI mean it all right. I
think we better take her in. It’ll be all over the county in two hours. How do you know what she is? How’d she get here? What happened to her? Adam, you’re taking an awful chance.โ
Adam said coldly, โIf
you don’t go now, I’ll go and leave you here.โ
โI think you’re making a mistake. I’ll go, but I tell you we’ll suffer for it.โ
โI’ll do the suffering,โ said Adam. โYou go.โ After Charles left, Adam went to the kitchen and poured hoi water from the
teakettle into a basin. In his bedroom he dampened a handkerchief in the water and loosened the caked blood and
dirt on the girl’s face. She reeled up to consciousness and her blue eyes glinted at him. His mind went backโit was this room, this bed. His stepmother was standing over him with a damp cloth in her hand, and he could feel the little running pains as the water cut through. And she had said something over and over. He heard it but he could not remember what it was. โYou’ll be all right,โ he
said to the girl. โWe’re getting a doctor. He’ll be here right off.โ
Her lips moved a little. โDon’t try to talk,โ he said. โDon’t try to say anything.โ As he worked
gently with his cloth a huge
warmth crept over him. โYou can stay here,โ he said. โYou can stay here as long as you want. I’ll take care of you.โ He squeezed out the cloth and sponged her matted hair and lifted it out of the gashes in her scalp.
He could hear himself talking as he worked, almost as though he were a stranger listening. โThere, does that hurt? The poor eyesโI’ll put some brown paper over your eyes. You’ll be all right.
That’s a bad one on your forehead. I’m afraid you’ll have a scar there. Could you tell me your name? No, don’t try. There’s lots of time.
There’s lots of time. Do you hear that? That’s the doctor’s
rig. Wasn’t that quick?โ He moved to the kitchen door. โIn here, Doc. She’s in here,โ he called.
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She was very badly hurt. If there had been X-rays in that time the doctor might have found more injuries than he did. As it was he found enough. Her left arm and three ribs were broken and her jaw was cracked. Her skull was cracked too, and the teeth on the left side were missing. Her scalp was ripped and torn and her forehead laid open to the skull. So much the doctor could see and identify. He set her arm, taped her ribs, and sewed up her scalp. With a pipette and
an alcohol flame he bent a glass tube to go through the aperture where a tooth was missing so that she could drink and take liquid food without moving her cracked jaw. He gave her a large shot of morphine, left a bottle of opium pills, washed his hands, and put on his coat.
His patient was asleep before he left the room.
In the kitchen he sat
down at the table and drank the hot coffee Charles put in front of him.
โAll right, what
happened to her?โ he asked. โHow do we know?โ Charles said truculently. โWe
found her on our porch. If you want to see, go look at the marks on the road where she dragged herself.โ โKnow who she is?โ
โGod, no.โ
โYou go upstairs at the innโis she anybody from there?โ
โI haven’t been there lately. I couldn’t recognize her
in that
condition anyway.โ
The doctor turned his head toward Adam. โYou ever see her before?โ Adam shook his head slowly.
Charles said harshly,
โSay, what you mousing around at?โ
โI’ll tell you, since
you’re interested. That girl didn’t fall under a harrow even if she looks that way. Somebody did that to her, somebody who didn’t like her at all. If you want the truth, somebody tried to kill her.โ โWhy don’t you ask
her?โ Charles said. โShe won’t be talking
for quite a while. Besides, her skull is cracked, and God knows what that will do to her. What I’m getting at is, should I bring the sheriff into it?โ
โNo!โ Adam spoke so explosively that the two looked at him. โLet her alone.
Let her rest.โ โWho’s going to take care of her?โ
โI am,โ said Adam. โNow, you look hereโโ Charles began.
โKeep out of it!โ
โIt’s my place as much as yours.โ
โDo you want me to go?โ
โI didn’t mean that.โ โWell, I’ll go if she has to go.โ
The doctor said, โSteady down. What makes you so interested?โ
โI wouldn’t put a hurt dog out.โ
โYou wouldn’t get mad about it either. Are you holding something back? Did
you go out last night? Did you do it?โ
โHe was here all night,โ
said Charles. โHe snores like a goddam train.โ
Adam said, โWhy can’t you let her be? Let her get well.โ
The doctor stood up and dusted his hands. โAdam,โ he said, โyour father was one of my oldest friends. I know you and your family. You aren’t stupid. I don’t know why you don’t
recognize ordinary
facts, but you don’t seem to. Have to talk to you like a baby. That girl was assaulted. I believe whoever did it tried to kill her. If I don’t tell the
sheriff about it, I’m breaking the law. I admit I break a few, but not that one.โ
โWell, tell him. But
don’t let him bother her until she’s better.โ
โIt’s not my habit to let
my patients be bothered,โ the doctor said. โYou still want to keep her here?โ
โYes.โ
โYour funeral. I’ll look
in tomorrow. She’ll sleep. Give her water and warm soup through the tube if she wants it.โ He stalked out.
Charles turned on his brother. โAdam, for God’s sake, what is this?โ
โLet me alone.โ โWhat’s got into you?โ โLet
me aloneโyou
hear? Just let me alone.โ โChrist!โ said Charles and spat on the floor and
went restlessly and uneasily to work.
Adam was glad he was gone. He moved about the
kitchen, washed the breakfast dishes, and swept the floor.
When he had put the kitchen to rights he went in and drew a chair up to the bed. The girl snored thickly through the morpnine. The swelling was going down on her face, but the eyes were blackened and swollen. Adam sat very still, looking at her. Her set and splintered arm lay on her stomach, but her right arm lay
on top of the coverlet, the fingers curled like a nest. It was a child’s hand, almost รค baby’s hand. Adam touched her wrist with his finger, and her fingers moved a little in reflex. Her wrist was warm. Secretly then, as though he were afraid he might be caught, he straightened her hand and touched the little cushion
pads on the
fingertips. Her fingers were pink and soft, but the skin on the back of her hand seemed to have an underbloom like a pearl. Adam chuckled with delight.
Her
breathing stopped and
he became
electrically alertโthen her throat
clicked and the
rhythmed snoring continued. Gently he worked her hand and arm under the cover before he tiptoed out of the room.
For several days Cathy lay in a cave of shock and
opium. Her skin felt like lead, and she moved very little because of the pain. She was aware of movement around her. Gradually her head and
her eyes cleared. Two young men were with her, one occasionally and the other a great deal. She knew that another man who came in was the doctor, and there was also a tall lean man, who interested her more than any of the others, and the interest grew out of fear. Perhaps in her drugged sleep she had picked something up and stored it.
Very slowly her mind assembled the last days and rearranged them. She saw the face of Mr. Edwards, saw it lose its placid self-sufficiency and dissolve into murder. She had never been so afraid before in her life, but she had learned fear now. And her
mind sniffed about like a rat looking for an escape. Mr.
Edwards knew about the fire. Did anyone else? And how did he know? A blind nauseating terror rose in her when she thought of that.
From things she heard
she learned that the tall man was the sheriff and wanted to question her, and that the young man named Adam was protecting
her from the
questioning.
Maybe the
sheriff knew about the fire.
Raised voices gave her
the cue to her method. The
sheriff said, โShe must have a name. Somebody must know her.โ
โHow could she answer? Her jaw is broken.โ Adam’s voice.
โIf she’s right-handed
she could spell out answers.
Look here, Adam, if
somebody tried to kill her I’d better catch him while I can. Just give me a pencil and let me talk to her.โ
Adam said, โYou heard
the doctor say her skull was cracked. How do you know she can remember?โ
โWell, you give me
paper and pencil and we’ll
see.โ
โI don’t want you to bother her.โ
โAdam, goddam it, it doesn’t matter what you
want. I’m telling you I want a paper and pencil.โ
Then the other young man’s voice. โWhat’s the
matter with you? You make it sound like it was you who did it. Give him a pencil.โ
She had her eyes closed when the three men came quietly into her room. โShe’s asleep,โ Adam whispered.
She opened her eyes and looked at them.
The tall man came to the side of the bed. โI don’t want to bother you, Miss. I’m the
sheriff. I know you can’t talk, but will you just write some things on this?โ
She tried to nod and winced
with pain.
She
blinked her eyes rapidly to indicate assent.
โThat’s the girl,โ said
the sheriff. โYou see? She wants to.โ He put the tablet on the bed beside her and molded her fingers around the pencil. โThere we are. Now.
What is your name?โ
The three men watched
her face. Her mouth grew thin and her eyes squinted. She closed her eyes and the pencil began to move. โI don’t
know,โ it scrawled in huge letters.
โHere, now there’s a fresh sheet. What do you remember?โ
โAll black. Can’t think,โ the pencil wrote before it went over the edge of the tablet.
โDon’t you remember
who you are, where you came from? Think!โ
She seemed to
go
through a great struggle and then her face gave up and became tragic. โNo. Mixed up. Help me.โ
โPoor child,โ the sheriff said. โI thank you for trying
anyway. When you get better we’ll try again. No, you don’t have to write any more.โ
The pencil wrote,
โThank you,โ and fell from her fingers.
She had won the sheriff. He ranged himself with Adam. Only Charles was against
her. When the
brothers were in her room, and it took two of them to help her on the bedpan without hurting her, she studied
Charles’ dark
sullenness. He had something in
his face that she
recognized, that made her uneasy. She saw that he touched the scar on his forehead very often, rubbed it, and drew its outline with his fingers. Once he caught her watching. He looked guiltily at his fingers. Charles said brutally, โDon’t you worry. You’re going to have one like it, maybe even a better one.โ
She smiled at him, and
he looked away. When Adam came in with her warm soup Charles said, โI’m going in
town and drink some beer.โ
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Adam couldn’t remember ever having been so happy. It didn’t bother him that he did not know her name. She had said to call her Cathy, and that was enough for him. He cooked for Cathy, going through recipes used by his mother and his stepmother.
Cathy’s vitality was
great. She began to recover very quickly. The swelling went out of her cheeks and the
prettiness of
convalescence came to her face. In a short time she could
be helped to a sitting position. She opened and closed her mouth very carefully, and she began to eat soft foods that required little chewing. The bandage was still on her forehead but the rest of her face was little marked except for the hollow cheek on the side where the teeth were missing.
Cathy was in trouble and her mind ranged for a way
out of it. She spoke little even when it was not so difficult.
One afternoon she heard someone moving around in the
kitchen. She called,
โAdam, is it you?โ
Charles’ voice answered, โNo, it’s me.โ
โWould you come in
here just a minute, please?โ He stood in the doorway.
His eyes were sullen. โYou don’t come in much,โ she said. โThat’s right.โ
โYou don’t like me.โ
โI guess that’s right too.โ โWill you tell me why?โ He struggled to find an answer. โI don’t trust you.โ โWhy not?โ
โI don’t know. And I
don’t believe you lost your memory.โ
โBut why should I lie?โ โI don’t know. That’s
why I don’t trust you. There’s somethingโI
almost recognize.โ
โYou never saw me in your life.โ
โMaybe not. But there’s something that bothers meโ that I ought to know. And how do you know I never saw you?โ
She was silent, and he moved to leave. โDon’t go,โ
she said. โWhat do you intend to do?โ
โAbout what?โ โAbout me.โ
He regarded her with a
new interest. โYou want the truth?โ
โWhy else would I ask?โ โI don’t know, but I’ll
tell you. I’m going to get you out of here just as soon as I
can. My brother’s turned fool, but I’ll bring him around if I have to lick him.โ
โCould you do that?
He’s a big man.โ
โI could do it.โ
She regarded him
levelly. โWhere is Adam?โ โGone in town to get
some more of your goddam medicine.โ
โYou’re a mean man.โ โYou know what I
think? I don’t think I’m half as mean as you are under that nice skin. I think you’re a devil.โ
She laughed softly.
โThat makes two of us,โ she said. โCharles, how long do I have?โ
โFor what?โ
โHow long before you
put me out? Tell me truly.โ โAll right, I will. About
a week or ten days. Soon as you can get around.โ โSuppose I don’t go.โ
He regarded her craftily, almost with pleasure at the thought of combat. โAll right, I’ll tell you. When you had all that dope you talked a lot, like in your sleep.โ
โI don’t believe that.โ
He laughed, for he had seen the quick tightening of
her mouth. โAll right, don’t. And if you just go about your business as soon as you can, I
won’t tell. But if you don’t, you’ll know all right, and so will the sheriff.โ
โI don’t believe I said anything bad. What could I say?โ
โI won’t argue with you.
And I’ve got work to do. You asked me and I told you.โ
He went outside. Back
of the henhouse he leaned over and laughed and slapped his leg. โI thought she was smarter,โ he said to himself. And he felt more easy than he had for days.
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Charles had frightened her badly.
And if he
had
recognized her, so had she recognized him. He was the only person she had ever met who played it her way. Cathy followed his thinking, and it did not reassure her. She knew that her tricks would not work with him, and she needed protection and rest.
Her money was gone. She had to be sheltered, and would have to be for a long time. She was tired and sick, but her mind went skipping among possibilities.
Adam came back from town with a bottle of Pain Killer.
He poured a
tablespoonful. โThis will taste horrible,โ he said. โIt’s good stuff though.โ
She took it without protest, did not even make much of a face about it. โYou’re good to me,โ she said. โI wonder why? I’ve brought you trouble.โ โYou have not. You’ve brightened up the whole house. Never complain or
anything, hurt as bad as you are.โ
โYou’re so good, so kind.โ
โI want to be.โ
โDo you have to go out? Couldn’t you stay and talk to me?โ
โSure I could. There’s nothing so important to do.โ
โDraw up a chair, Adam, and sit down.โ
When he was seated she stretched her right hand toward him, and he took it in both of his. โSo good and kind,โ she repeated. โAdam, you keep promises, don’t you?โ
โI try to. What are you thinking about?โ
โI’m alone and I’m afraid,โ
she cried. โI’m
afraid.โ
โCan’t I help you?โ โI don’t think anyone can help me.โ
โTell me and let me try.โ โThat’s the worst part. I
can’t even tell you.โ โWhy not? If it’s a secret I won’t tell it.โ
โIt’s not my secret, don’t you see?โ
โNo, I don’t.โ
Her fingers gripped his
hand tightly. โAdam, I didn’t ever lose my memory.โ โThen why did you say
โโ
โThat’s what I’m trying
to tell you. Did you love your father, Adam?โ
โI guess I revered him more than loved him.โ โWell, if someone you revered were in trouble,
wouldn’t you do anything to save him from destruction?โ โWell, sure. I guess I would.โ
โWell, that’s how it is with me.โ
โBut how did you get hurt?โ
โThat’s part of it. That’s why I can’t tell.โ
โWas it your father?โ โOh, no. But it’s all tied up together.โ
โYou mean, if you tell
me who hurt you, then your father will be in trouble?โ She sighed. He would make up the story himself. โAdam, will you trust me?โ โOf course.โ
โIt’s an awful thing to ask.โ
โNo, it isn’t, not if you’re
protecting your
father.โ
โYou understand, it’s
not my secret. If it were I’d tell you in a minute.โ
โOf course I understand. I’d do the same thing myself.โ
โOh, you understand so much.โ Tears welled up in her eyes. He leaned down toward her, and she kissed him on the cheek.
โDon’t you worry,โ he
said. โI’ll take care of you.โ She lay back against the pillow. โI don’t think you can.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ โWell,
your brother
doesn’t like me. He wants me
to get out of here.โ โDid he tell you that?โ โOh, no. I can just feel it.
He hasn’t your
understanding.โ
โHe has a good heart.โ โI know that, but he
doesn’t have your kindness. And when I have to goโthe sheriff is going to begin asking questions and I’ll be all alone.โ
He stared into space.
โMy brother can’t make you go. I own half of this farm. I have my own money.โ
โIf he wanted me to go I would have to. I can’t spoil your life.โ
Adam stood up and
strode out of the room. He went to the back door and looked out on the afternoon. Far off in the field his brother was lifting stones from a sled and piling them on the stone wall. Adam looked up at the sky. A blanket of herring clouds was rolling in from the east. He sighed deeply and his breath made a tickling, exciting feeling in his chest.
His ears seemed suddenly clear, so that he heard the chickens cackling and the east wind blowing over the ground. He heard horses’ hoofs plodding on the road and far-off pounding on wood where
a
neighbor was
shingling a barn. And all these sounds related into a kind of music. His eyes were clear too. Fences and walls and sheds stood staunchly out in the yellow afternoon, and they were related too. There was change in everything. A flight of sparrows dropped into the dust and scrabbled for bits of food and then flew off like a gray scarf twisting in the light. Adam looked back at his brother. He had lost track of time and he did not know how long he had been standing in the doorway. No time had passed.
Charles was still struggling with the same large stone.
And Adam had not released the full, held breath he had taken when time stopped.
Suddenly he knew joy and sorrow felted into one
fabric. Courage and fear were one thing too. He found that he had started to hum a droning little tune. He turned, walked through the kitchen, and stood in the doorway, looking at Cathy. She smiled weakly at him, and he thought. What a child! What a helpless child! and a surge of love filled him.
โWill you marry me?โ he asked.
Her face tightened and
her hand closed convulsively. โYou don’t have to tell
me now,โ he said. โI want
you to think about it. But if you would marry me I could protect you. No one could hurt you again.โ
Cathy recovered in an instant. โCome here, Adam. There, sit down. Here, give me your hand. That’s good, that’s right.โ She raised his hand and put the back of it against her cheek. โMy dear,โ she said brokenly. โOh, my dear. Look, Adam, you have trusted me. Now will you promise me something? Will you promise not to tell your brother you have asked me?โ โAsked you to marry
me? Why shouldn’t I?โ โIt’s not that. I want this night to think. I’ll want maybe more than this night.
Could you let me do that?โ She raised her hand to her head. โYou know I’m not sure I can think straight. And I want to.โ
โDo you think you might marry me?โ
โPlease, Adam. Let me alone to think. Please, my dear.โ
He smiled and said nervously, โDon’t make it long. I’m kind of like a cat up a tree so far he can’t come down.โ
โJust let me think. And, Adamโyou’re a kind man.โ
He went outside and walked toward where his brother was loading stones. When he was gone
Cathy got up from her bed
and moved unsteadily to the bureau. She leaned forward and looked at her face. The bandage was still on her forehead. She raised the edge of it enough to see the angry red underneath. She had not only made up her mind to marry Adam but she had so decided before he had asked her. She was afraid. She needed protection and money. Adam could give her both.
And she could control himโ she knew that. She did not want to be married, but for the time being it was a refuge. Only one thing bothered her. Adam had a warmth toward her which she did not understand since she had none toward him, nor had
ever experienced it toward anyone. And Mr. Edwards had really frightened her. That had been the only time in her life she had lost control of a situation. She determined never to let it happen again.
She smiled to herself when she thought what Charles would say. She felt a kinship to Charles. She didn’t mind his suspicion of her.
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Charles straightened up when Adam approached. He put his palms against the small of his back and massaged the tired muscles. โMy God, there’s lots of rocks,โ he said. โFellow in the army told
me there’s
valleys in
Californiaโmiles and miles
โand you can’t find a stone, not even a little one.โ โThere’ll be something else,โ said Charles. โI don’t think
there’s any farm
without something wrong with it. Out in the Middle West it’s locusts, someplace else it’s tornadoes. What’s a few stones?โ
โI guess you’re right. I thought I would give you a hand.โ
โThat’s nice of you. I thought you’d spend the rest of your life holding hands
with that in there. How long is she going to stay?โ
Adam was on the point
of telling him of his proposal but the tone of Charles’ voice made him change his mind. โSay,โ
Charles said,
โAlex Platt came by a little while ago. You’d never think what happened to him. He’s found a fortune.โ
โHow do you mean?โ โWell, you know the
place on his property where that clump of cedars sticks outโyou know, right on the county road?โ
โI know. What about it?โ โAlex went in between
those trees and his stone wall.
He was hunting rabbits. He found a suitcase and a man’s clothes, all packed nice.
Soaked up with rain though. Looked like it had been there some time. And there was a wooden box with a lock, and when he broke it open there was
near four thousand
dollars in it. And he found a purse too. There wasn’t anything in it.โ
โNo name or. anything?โ โThat’s the strange part
โno name; no name on the clothes, no labels on the suits. It’s just like the fellow didn’t want to be traced.โ
โIs Alex going to keep
it?โ
โHe took it in to the sheriff, and the sheriff is going to advertise it, and if nobody answers Alex can keep it.โ
โSomebody’s sure to claim it.โ
โI guess so. I didn’t tell Alex that. He’s feeling so good about it. That’s funny
about no labelsโnot cut out, just didn’t have any.โ โThat’s a lot of money,โ
Adam said.
โSomebody’s bound to claim it.โ
โAlex hung around for a while. You know, his wife goes around a lot.โ Charles was silent. โAdam,โ he said
finally, โwe got to have a talk. The whole county’s doing plenty of talking.โ โWhat about? What do you mean?โ
โGoddam it, about that
โthat girl. Two men can’t have a girl living with them. Alex says the women are pretty riled up about it.
Adam, we can’t have it. We live here. We’ve got a good name.โ
โYou want me to throw her out before she’s well?โ โI want you to get rid of
herโget her out. I don’t like her.โ
โYou never have.โ
โI know it. I don’t trust her.
There’s
somethingโ somethingโI don’t know
what it is, but I don’t like it. When you going to get her out?โ
โTell you what,โ Adam said slowly. โGive her one more week and then I’ll do something about her.โ โYou promise?โ
โSure I promise.โ โWell, that’s something.
I’ll get the word to Alex’s wife. From there on she’ll handle the news. Good Lord, I’ll be glad to have the house to ourselves again. I don’t suppose her memory’s come back?โ
โNo,โ said Adam.
6
Five days later, when Charles
had gone to buy some calf feed, Adam drove the buggy to the kitchen steps. He helped Cathy in, tucked a blanket around her knees, and put
another around her
shoulders. He drove to the county seat and was married to her by a justice of the peace.
Charles was home when they returned. He looked sourly at them when they came into the kitchen. โI thought you’d took her in to put her on the train.โ
โWe got
married,โ
Adam said simply. Cathy smiled at Charles. โWhy? Why did you do it?โ
โWhy not? Can’t a man get married?โ
Cathy went quickly into the bedroom and closed the door.
Charles began to rave. โShe’s no damn good, I tell you. She’s a whore.โ โCharles!โ
โI tell you, she’s just a two-bit whore. I wouldn’t trust her with a bit pieceโ why, that bitch, that slut!โ โCharles, stop it! Stop it,
I tell you! You keep your filthy mouth shut about my wife!โ
โShe’s no more a wife
than an alley cat.โ
Adam said slowly, โI
think you’re jealous, Charles. I think you wanted to marry her.โ
โWhy, you goddam fool! Me jealous? I won’t live in the same house with her!โ Adam said evenly, โYou won’t have to. I’m going away. You can buy me out if you want. You can have the farm. You always wanted it. You can stay here and rot.โ Charles’ voice lowered. โWon’t you get rid of her?
Please, Adam. Throw her out. She’ll tear you to pieces.
She’ll destroy you, Adam, she’ll destroy you!โ โHow do you know so much about her?โ
Charles’ eyes were
bleak. โI don’t,โ he said, and his mouth snapped shut.
Adam did not even ask Cathy whether she wanted to come out for dinner. He carried two plates into the bedroom and sat beside her. โWe’re going to go
away,โ he said. โLet me go away. Please, let me. I don’t want to make you hate your brother. I wonder why he hates me?โ
โI think he’s jealous.โ
Her eyes
narrowed. โJealous?โ
โThat’s what it looks
like to me. You don’t have to worry. We’re getting out.
We’re going to California.โ She said quietly, โI don’t want to go to California.โ โNonsense. Why, it’s
nice there, sun all the time and beautiful.โ
โI don’t want to go to California.โ
โYou are my wife,โ he
said softly. โI want you to go with me.โ
She was silent and did not speak of it again.
They heard Charles slam
out the door, and Adam said, โThat will be good for him. He’ll get a little drunk and he’ll feel better.โ
Cathy modestly looked
at her fingers. โAdam, I can’t
be a wife to you until I’m well.โ
โI know,โ he said. โI understand. I’ll wait.โ โBut I want you to stay with me. I’m afraid of Charles. He hates me so.โ โI’ll bring my cot in
here. Then you can call me if you’re frightened. You can reach out and touch me.โ โYou’re so good,โ she
said. โCould we have some tea?โ
โWhy, sure, I’d like
some myself.โ He brought the steaming cups in and went back for the sugar bowl. He settled himself in a chair near her bed. โIt’s pretty strong. Is it too strong for you?โ
โI like it strong.โ
He finished his cup.
โDoes it taste strange to you? It’s got a funny taste.โ.
Her hand flew to her mouth. โOh, let me taste it.โ
She sipped the dregs.
โAdam,โ she cried, โyou got the wrong cupโthat was mine. It had my medicine in it.โ
He licked his lips. โI guess it can’t hurt me.โ โNo, it can’t.โ She laughed softly. โI hope I
don’t need to call you in the night.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ โWell, you drank my sleeping medicine. Maybe
you wouldn’t wake
up easily.โ
Adam went down into a heavy opium sleep though he fought to stay awake. โDid the doctor tell you to take this much?โ he asked thickly. โYou’re just not used to
it,โ she said.
Charles came back at eleven o’clock. Cathy heard his tipsy footsteps. He went into his room, flung off his
clothes, and got into bed. He grunted and turned, trying to get comfortable, and then he opened his eyes. Cathy was standing by his bed. โWhat do you want?โ
โWhat do you think? Move over a little.โ โWhere’s Adam?โ
โHe drank my sleeping medicine by mistake. Move over a little.โ
He breathed harshly. โI already been with a whore.โ โYou’re a pretty strong
boy. Move over a little.โ โHow about your broken arm?โ
โI’ll take care of that. It’s not your worry.โ Suddenly
Charles
laughed. โThe poor bastard,โ he said, and he threw back the blanket to receive her.