โRORY,ย come help me with the salad,โ Mom called.
I left the living room where Iโd been sitting with Dad and Aiden, the three of us uncomfortable for totally different reasons. Them because they were about to have the man whoโd negotiated Terry Tahoneโs deal with the Brentwood Badgers and given our local team an actual chance at the Superbowl in our house. Me because Beckett was in my house to get my parentsโ approval.
Mom had her red gingham apron on over a sharp black dress. That along with the display of healthy dishes on the island made her the picture of healthy domestication, a reminder of everything I was not.
โWhat do you need?โ I asked. โLooks like youโre already done.โ
โI am.โ Her hands went behind her back to untie the apron. โI just wanted to talk.โ
My feet were way ahead of me, taking a step back toward the living room and my dadโs unassuming presence. Which, now that I thought of it, was strange since he was a lawyer and my mom was a health teacher.
โHoney,โ she chuckled. โYouโre not in trouble. I just havenโt been able to catch you all week. Between parent-teacher conferences and Aidenโs race and you hanging out with your friends…I want to hear about your life.โ
She leaned against the island, waiting.
I sighed and followed suit opposite her. โWhat do you want to talk about?โ
โBeckett Langley, of course. What happened to bring that boy and his father to our house?โ
โWe so donโt have time to go into that,โ I said before I could guard my words.
โWhat do you mean? Itโs complicated?โ
As in, my appearance at homecoming depends on him having mutual feelings? Yes, but I left it at, โWe donโt exactly run in the same circles.โ
โIโll say,โ she said. โBut then again, Iโm not sure what circle you do run in. I never see you at lunch anymore, and when I did, you sat by yourself with your books.โ
Suddenly the feeling of living in a fishbowl was stronger than ever. โI told you, I eat with the girls in the AV room so Ginger can stay on top of her extra work for the AV club.โ
โYou did.โ She sighed and looked out the window over the sink into the darkening sky outside. โI donโt want you to get hurt.โ
I stood up from the counter, folding my arms across my chest. โWhat does that mean?โ
โI just…โ She raised her hands and put them on the granite. โBeckett seems like a decent kid, but high schoolers arenโt always the nicest people. Trust me, I teach them every day.โ
My mouth fell open. Was I hearing my own mother right? โSo you think itโs a pity date?โ
โOf course not.โ
โThen heโs playing a prank on me?โ The truth behind her words hit me. โYou think heโs out of my league.โ My chest ached. I knew it; I just didnโt expect my own mother to agree.
I left the kitchen, ready to text Beckett and tell him to forget it. That I could do whatever he and his dad wanted instead of sitting in on this dinner with my mom, who clearly thought I didnโt deserve a guy like Beckett.
Just as Iโd reached my purse by the door, retrieved my phone, and opened myย Sermoย app, the doorbell rang.
Dad and Aiden sprang from the couch and surrounded me at the door. โAnswer it,โ Dad whispered.
โYeah.โ Aiden pushed me slightly forward. โAnswer it.โ I glanced at them over my shoulder. โCowards.โ
But I wasnโt much braver. With shaking hands, I opened the door, and there stood Beck, looking more amazing than Iโd ever seen him before. I took him inโall of himโwith his slacks that hugged him in all the right places, his navy suit jacket framing broad shoulders, and the dark green of
his shirt, bringing out the depths of his hazel eyes. A smile fell onto my lips like it was just waiting for the missing piece that was Beckett Langley.
I barely even noticed the man beside him, who was just as built at Beck, but older, with a crooked nose that looked like it had been broken.
Dad cleared his throat. โHi there.โ
I jerked, straightening my back. โCome in.โ That was the right thing to say…right?
With an amicable smile, Beckettโs dad started inside. Aiden offered to take his coat, then did the same for Beckett, almost as an afterthought.
Beckettโs eyes stayed on me, roving me like I had him. His stare trailed a path from my loose braid to the easy wrap of my jersey dress over my chest and hips. Iโd felt self-conscious before, but now I felt…warm. My ears were so hot they had to be red. It was a good thing they were covered by my hair.
As Aiden, my dad, and Mr. Langley walked toward the dining room, falling into an easy conversation about football, Beckett stepped closer to me. We were alone now in the foyer.
He reached out, his fingers skimming along my braid. โThis is pretty.โ They brushed over my shoulder, and my nerves danced under his touch,
brought alive by the simple contact. It took all I had not to shiver. Instead, I tilted my head. โYou dressed up.โ
โHad to make sure Iโd get the parentsโ approval.โ
His words heated my stomach just as his eyes had warmed my cheeks. โThis is important to you?โ
โOf course,โ he said. โWhy wouldnโt it be?โ
I smiled and took one of his hands in mine.ย Fortune favors the bold.
He gripped my hand back and walked with me toward the dining room. When we reached our audience, we parted ways, sitting across the table from each other.
It was too far, until his foot gently nudged my own. The butterflies danced happily, and I tried not to be too obvious about it. Especially under the prying eyes of my parents. His dad seemed comfortable, sitting with his son and a girlโs parents, but my mom and dad were like hawks, their eyes tracking every move Beckett and I made.
โSo, Beckett,โ my mom said. โHave you applied to any colleges?โ
Beckett opened his mouth to answer, but Mr. Langley chuckled. โMore like theyโve applied to him. He has UCLA, Duke, LSU, OU, and KSU on
our voicemail almost every day, checking in to see if heโs made his decision yet.โ
Mom beamed at him. โYou must be proud.โ
Mr. Langley smiled at his plate, cutting his ham. โHard not to be. My head might not fit in our house once he becomes a second gen Heisman winner.โ
Beckett met my eyes, and I instantly recognized the struggle I saw there. His dad had said โonceโ he wins it. Not โif.โ The weight of that expectation didnโt escape me.
Mr. Langley looked at me. โWhat about you, Rory? Iโm assuming movie star isnโt your biggest aspiration.โ
I caught the dig at Merritt, but it didnโt please me. What made him assume I wouldnโt have a future in acting? There were plenty of curvy women to aspire toโRebel Wilson, Queen Latifa, Melissa McCarthyโthey were inspiring and comedic and wonderful as any skinny actress.
โRory wants to be an art teacher,โ Dad said. โSheโs a brilliant painter.โ
Mr. Langley raised his eyebrows. โGood to have a fallback plan, if the art fails.โ
Something deep within me bristled. Teaching wasnโt a โfallback planโ for me. It was a career where I could work with studentsโpeople just like meโand make a real difference for them. Be the support my mom hadnโt been to me, regardless of their size, shape, or color. I could help them embrace the outlet creating had been for me.
I was about to speak, but Beckett beat me to it.
โSheโs an amazing artist. She doesnโt need a fallback.โ
Dad subtly raised his glass to Beckett as Mr. Langley backtracked. โThereโs nothing wrong with art, but a teacherโs salaryโฆitโs tough without supplementing. Youโre a brave young woman.โ
Being a teacher like my mom didnโt seem brave, but maybe it was to someone like Mr. Langley, who expected teenagers to follow the path laid out for them.
โAnd you,โ Mr. Langley said to Aiden. โI hear youโre quite the runner.
Any plans for collegiate athletics?โ
Aiden straightened in his chair. โYes, sir. If theyโll take me.โ
Mr. Langley winked at him. โI might have a few connections for you.โ โThank you,โ Aiden said, stars practically shining in his eyes. โThat
would be great.โ
Dad nodded. โIโm sure theyโll be watching him at the state meet.โ
Mr. Langley drowned his red wine down his muscled throat. โOf course.โ
As the conversation dissolved into small talk around football, I pushed my salad around my plate. I wished Beckett and I could have a second to ourselves. It was so much easier to be around him without the oppressive weight of our parents.
His foot nudged mine again, demanding my attention, and I looked up into his sparkling eyes. Barely hiding a smile, I pressed the toe of my sandal against his shoe.
โYou know,โ Mr. Langley said to my dad, โI may need some of your services for my clients in the future. Do you have some time to talk confidentially?โ
Dadโs shoulders straightened, all business now. โJoin me in my office?โ
They excused themselves from the table, and Mom said, โAiden, help me with the dishes. Rory, you should show Beckett your studio.โ
โIโd love that,โ Beckett said quickly.
I threw a glare at Mom so Beckett couldnโt see. Really? My studio was private. Iโd shown Beckett the painting of us, but that had been a single piece. Showing him all of my work was like baring a part of myself to him that hardly anyone knew.
Mom painted a smile on her lips. โYou two go up; weโll take care of the cleanup.โ
Right in front of my mom and my brother, Beckett took my hand and stepped so he was inches from me. โIโd like to see it.โ
How could I say no with him overwhelming my senses in every single way?
โLetโs go,โ I breathed.
We walked toward the stairs, and I started up first, acutely aware of the view Beckett had from behind me. I tried not to be too self-conscious, but I still kept my gaze forward as I walked past my room toward the studio.
Beckettโs footsteps went silent behind me, and I turned to see him stalled by my bedroom, looking at the pictures on the door.
I had it decorated with my name and a long strip of pink fabric that had clothespins holding photos.
His fingers brushed the corners of one Iโd taken with Anna.
โI read chapter books with her,โ I said. โTo help with her dyslexia.โ
He glanced up from the photo. โI know.โ
My eyebrows came together. โWhat do you mean?โ โI had Anna for Christmas Pairs last year.โ
Every year, a high school student paired with a grade schooler and spent the day with them, reading, playing games in the gym, and watching a movie with the rest of the school.
โThatโs right,โ I said. Iโd almost forgotten heโd been partnered with her. His lips turned up at the corners. โWhat do you mean โthatโs rightโ?โ Busted. โUm.โ My cheeks reddened as I stared at the floor. โI meant,
thatโs right, we-uh-have partners.โ
His finger brushed under my chin, turning my gaze toward him. โYouโre a terrible liar.โ
I laughed. โWell, itโs not fair. You were way too adorable with her.โ
โYeah, except for when she wouldnโt stop talking about how her tutor makes the cute voices and acts out the story! I couldnโt compete with that.โ
My smile grew wider with each word.
He brushed my forearm and trailed his fingers to link with mine before turning back to the pictures. There was one of me and Aiden together, before a cross-country meet, before Iโd started wearing makeup and dressing in clothes that actually fit me.
โThis is a pretty one of you,โ he said.
My eyes nearly bugged out of my head. โAre we looking at the same picture?โ
โWhat are you trying to say?โ he asked. His fingers left the photo, and he tugged me closer. When he was just inches away, the heat from his body radiating toward me, it was impossible to think.
I pressed my lips together, wanting nothing more than him to still my words with his kiss. But he was waiting, watching. โIโthatโs not a good picture of me,โ I finished lamely.
He brushed back a strand of hair that had escaped my braid, the tips of his fingers trailing over my cheek and leaving a path of sparks. โI disagree.โ
He was tall enough I had to look up at him, and man, I could have taken in this sight all day. โEasy for you to say. You donโt have a bad angle.โ
He smiled and feathered his lips over my cheek. โNeither do you.โ He laced his fingers through mine. โNow, show me your studio.โ
โOkay,โ I said softly and led him farther down the hall, my hand in his. I did my best to breathe and pretend that I had myself together, but the
butterflies tickling my insides didnโt help the breathing problem.
As we neared the door to my studio, the splash of soft watercolors on a stretched canvas came into view. It hung from an ornamental hook on the door with the words โRoryโs Studioโ written in black script.
โWeโre here,โ I said, nerves rampant now that he was about to see a part of me I rarely shared with anyone other than my family. I swallowed and gave him a side glance.
Beckettโs eyes were alight, like we were about to discover gold. If only the idea of him seeing my work didnโt make me feel like I was standing in front of a classroom buck naked.
I stepped through the door and flipped on the switch, illuminating easels of artwork, shelves of paint, and long, gauzy curtains. I tried to imagine what it looked like through the eyes of someone who hadnโt spent hours in here.
Would they notice the drips of paint that had escaped my canvases and landed on the easels? What about the carefully organized baskets of every kind of paint from acrylics to oils? Or the showpieces I hung on the walls, a blend of pastels and neon colors?
He approached one, the latest painting to earn a space on the wall, and took it in.
Anxiously, I stood beside him, wishing I could hear all the thoughts whirring behind his hazel eyes. Instead, I had to watch as his gaze traced the plane of the canvas, the strokes Iโd painted of each of my friends at the AV table. Even though our friendship might not last past homecoming, I wanted the memory ofย belongingย to last forever.
โThis is amazing,โ Beckett finally said, awe clear in his voice.
My heart twisted and clenched, clinging to each word. Maybe I wasnโt classically pretty or my momโs ideal daughter, but maybe my art made up for itโhelped me shine. โDo you really think so?โ
He nodded. โIโve never looked at something andย feltย it before, you know? But this…it feels like happiness.โ
I smiled. โIt is.โ And Iโd be forever grateful to the girls because theyโd given me this, a moment, a chance with Beckett. I hoped with every piece of my heart it would last.