โYOU THINKย theyโre gonna win tomorrow, Miss Parker?โ Brad leans against the storage room door, watching me load the equipment from class. Itโd be lovely if heโd help but standing and watching while he gabs is his MO, so I canโt imagine heโd change now at the end of his high school career.
Next week is exams, which means the curriculum is done. For the most part, weโve been shooting hoops and sitting on the bleachers while we talk about nothing but hockey.
โI think so.โย I hope so. Carterโs motivated. Itโs been all Hank and hockey-talk around the house, with a side of moving my stuff in. I donโt know where he finds the time, but on the days heโs in town, I come home from work to find Carterโs been to my house, brought another box of my things to his place.ย Our place. That feels weird to say. โIโve never seen the boys all so serious.โ
Itโs eerie almost, like Iโm walking through the twilight zone. On off nights, the team is gathered in the basement, watching videos of their previous games, talking about where they went wrong and how they can be better. Thereโs no alcohol, no junk food, and very little laughing going on.
The thing that gets me the most is the lack of junk food. Carter hasnโt had Oreos since mid-May. Weโre a week and a half away from July. He caught me sneaking some into my lunch bag yesterday morning and the look on his face was utter betrayal. But the package was already open. It would be a travesty to let them go stale.
โI think theyโll win.โ Brad pushes off the wall, gathering balls from the floor, tossing them in the basket. His smirk tells me my expression must be highly amusing. โMe and the guys are gonna watch the game outside the
arena on Friday if they make it to game seven. Theyโre setting up screens. Weโre gonna sneak alcohol in our shorts.โ
โDonโt tell me that, Brad.โย Iโd totally do the same if I were eighteen.
โAlso, pockets are the first place security will look.โ
โThanks, Miss Parker,โ Brad chuckles, pulling the door closed for me.
The kid even gets down on the ground to click the lock into place. I wipe a nonexistent tear from my eye. โAre you growing up?โ
His head rolls with his eyes as he follows me to my office, watching me grab my bag, and walks alongside me down the hallway. โIโm sorry we kinda gave you a hard time this year.โ
โAll in good fun.โ I smile and wave at a group of girls who call out their good-byes. โNothing I canโt handle.โ
Brad pushes through the exit, holding the door open. โJust so you know, you were the best teacher I ever had. You treated us like real people, not a bunch of kids you had to work with every day to take home a paycheck. You made school fun.โ He gives me a salute. โThanks, Miss Parker.โ
If I werenโt an overly emotional wreck at times, my nose wouldnโt be tingling like I want to cry. Clearing my throat, I load myself into Carterโs truck that Iโve unofficially adopted, smiling for the fourth time at the note he stuffed in the cupholder somewhere between last night and this morning. Itโs definitely not work-appropriate, so I have to unfold it seventeen times before I get to the good stuff.
Iโm gonna eat you like the last slice of pumpkin pie on Thanksgiving when you get home.
Thatโs not why Iโm rushing home. That would be because he leaves tonight for tomorrowโs game, and I want to squeeze in all the time with him I can. Heโs been a wreck this week between worrying about getting Hank moved in and the finals. They lost last night on home ice, and he was so hard on himself. Theyโve been in the finals once before, Carterโs first year as the captain, and he blames himself for their loss, saying he was too inexperienced to be the leader they needed.
โBabbbyyy,โ Carter calls from the living room the second I walk through the door, Dublin at my feet, licking my toes as I slip my sandals off.
I find him sprawled out on the couch, arms in the air, making grabby hands for me. โCan I help you?โ
โYes. You can plant yourself rightโโ he points aggressively at the bulge in his shorts, โโhere.โ He gestures at his face. โHere would also be acceptable.โ
โDirty boy.โ I climb on top of him. Regardless of his request, his arms wind around me, tugging me down to my side, tucking my body into his. I run my fingers through his hair and down his back. โAre you nervous?โ
He nods, lips touching my neck as he throws one leg around both of mine, forcing them between his. โI wish you could come. Iโll need you if we lose.โ
My chest tightens. โIโm sorry, Carter.โ
โI know you have to work. Itโs okay. Iโm just gonna miss you, but I always do. Will you stay up to talk with me after?โ
โIโm always only a phone call away.โ Pulling his head back, I kiss his lips. Heโs been needier than usual lately, softer, which almost seems impossible. Though he has a domineering streak a mile wide, heโs mostly just a big, cuddly teddy bear. But the stress of everything thatโs been going on and all his responsibilities are weighing him down, and I can see how badly he needs this upcoming break.
โAdamโs picking me up for the airport in an hour and I just wanna snuggle you until then.โ
โThat sounds nice.โ I slip my hand between us and pat his belly when it chooses this moment to rumble. โBut we should probably get some food in here before you get hangry.โ
I whip up a quick stir-fry while Carter tells me about getting Hank settled into his new place. He cried when he said good-bye to Dublin, which makes me emotional. Even more so when I look down at Dublin, lying at Carterโs feet at the kitchen island. But Carter promises that Hank seems happy, and thatโs all that matters. Weโre going to do our best to make sure Hank and Dublin still get to spend lots of time together, and Iโm glad heโs only a ten-minute drive away.
Carterโs digging into his second helping when he asks me a question, looking down at his plate. Actually, itโs several questions, spilled out in the form of word vomit, which is usually my forte, not his.
โDo you wanna get married? What kinda wedding do you want? Big? Small? Chocolate cake or vanilla?โ He makes a noise, like he canโt believe
he asked that. โThatโs a stupid question.โ He twirls his hand, laying his palm faceup in the air. โChocolate, obviously. Maybe decorated with those tiny Oreos. Or big ones. Double stuffed.โ
He raises his head to peer at me only after silence has stretched between us for a good ten seconds. Itโs a slow raise, too, tentative, maybe a little nervous, and I watch pink splotch up his neck and pool in his cheeks, which, again, is usually common for me, not him.
The silence is broken when he offers me a crooked, wobbly grin, and I start laughing, folding over the counter, because what the hell is happening right now? Whatever it is, he looks equal parts terrified and adorable.
โCarter,โ I somehow manage through a fit of giggles that steals my breath. โIs this your way of asking me to marry you?โ
โWhat?โ His head shakes furiously. โNo.โ
โOh.โ I catch my breath and come down from my momentary high. โGood.โ I knew he wasnโt. Obviously. Itโs too soon.
White teeth pressing into his lower lip, Carter flashes me a grin that looks every bit devious and devilish as he slowly pushes to his feet, rounding the island to stop in front of me. He twirls a wayward curl around his pointer finger before tucking it behind my ear, touch blazing a path down my neck and across my collarbone.
โDo you even know me? I need an audience. I need flair. I need to embarrass the fuckingย shitย outta you.โ His fingers dig into my hips as he pushes me against the cold stone counter. โWhen I propose to you, everyone in the fucking world is gonna know, and youโre gonna be standing there with your gorgeous face buried in your little hands, because I sure as shit wonโt be quiet about it, and youโll be all like,ย Carterrr, stop ittt. Youโre embarrassing meee.โ
โThatโs not how I sound.โ Itโs all I can manage right now.
His face dips, lips touching the corner of my mouth, my jaw, my ear. โItโs exactly how you sound.โ
His fingers thread through my hair, pulling my head taut. โOne day, Iโm gonna ask you to marry me. Youโre gonna say yes, because thatโs the only acceptable answer; no isnโt an option.โ He nips my bottom lip, his hand dancing down my arm, leaving goose bumps in its wake. โAnd then Iโm gonna marry the fuck out of you in front of our family and friends, and youโll be Mrs. Beckett, and Iโll fuck you so hard that night youโll feel it in your throat for the rest of your life.โ
โJeremy!โ
Caraโs shriek startles every single one of us. Alannah throws the bowl of popcorn in her lap, Dublin darts in to clean it up, and Kristin nearly spills her entire glass of wine all over Jem, whoโs playing at her feet. Iโve never seen Jeremy look more terrified than he does right now, eyes wide, body still.
โItโs a simple forty-five-degree fold! Forty-five degrees! A child could do it!โ
โI can do it, Care,โ Alannah says confidently, puffing her chest out.
โYes, thank you, Alannah.โ Cara sweeps her arm out, lifting a brow at Jeremy. โSee? Your daughter can do it.โ Her eyes go wide as Alannah reaches for the card stock. โWait! No. Youโve got buttery popcorn fingers; that wonโt work.โ
Cara looks around the room while Alannah frowns at her hands. โJennie.โ She snaps her fingers. โYouโve got dainty, nimble fingers. Lord knows how; your brotherโs got damn sausage fingers. Youโll do.โ
โOh, goodie,โ Jennie mutters, planting herself on the floor around the coffee table, grabbing a stack of card stock. โJust what I was hoping for.โ
Cara narrows her eyes and Jennie gives her that signature Beckett grin, all charming and dimply. It works on everyone, even Cara. Even in this moment.
Caraโs been screaming all night. She thought itย made the most senseย if we worked on her wedding favors while we watched the game. Sheโs the only one who thought it was a good idea, but everyone was too afraid to tell her that to her face. At least we only have to work between periods; sheโs too busy shrieking at the TV the rest of the time. Alannah, Jem, and Hank are the only ones who got lucky enough to sit this one out. And I guess now Jeremy.
Cara and Emmettโs wedding is eleven days away, two Sundayโs away, the day before Canada Day. Caraโs high-strung as it is, and sheโs reached an entirely new level these past few weeks. She stayed over last night after the boys left for New York and insisted on sleeping with me. She was all too happy to snap a picture of herself in Carterโs bed and send it to him.
She also came to work with me today. You heard that right. She says she canโt get any work done for the wedding while sheโs at home, because it
reminds her of Emmett, and she misses him. So she sat on the gym floor while the kids helped her with table numbers. Iโm exhausted.
โCara, if I were still young and handsome, Iโd marry you myself.โ Hank thinks Caraโs the funniest person in the world.
โYouโre still handsome,โ Cara points out. โAnd you laugh at all my inappropriate jokes. Weโd make a great couple. But Iโd always come second to your Ireland, and therein lies the problem. Cara soon-to-be Brodie never comes second.โ
Jennie blows out a heavy breath, eyes bulging at the stack of card stock in front of her. โHow many more of these do we have to do?โ
โI think itโs fun,โ Holly, Carterโs mom, says. โI love doing this type of stuff. Maybe Iโll get to do it again in the near future for one of my children.โ Her eyes do a blatant shift my way, making Jennie and Cara snort.
โIโm not fucking helping with shit when you and Carter get married,โ Jeremy grumbles, arms pinned across his chest. โItโs bad enough I had to do it for my own wedding.โ
Alannah rockets to her feet, shoving her finger in her dadโs face. โTwo dollars for the swear jar! Pay up, buddy!โ She swipes the money from Jeremyโs unwilling hands, then plants herself between Hank and Dublin. โMommy said I get to keep all the money this week from Daddyโs swearing. Iโm making a lot because heโs extra stressed from the hockey games. What should I buy?โ
Hank taps his chin. โHow about we go for cheeseburgers and ice cream sundaes?โ
Her face lights. โHot fudge?โ โExtraย hot fudge.โ
Wedding prep is forgotten when the third period starts up, and Cara goes from shrieking to silent, which is way scarier. Sheโs sitting on the couch, kind of, one knee on the ground, fingernails in her mouth while she stares at the screen. I donโt think sheโs even blinking. Theyโre tied at two goals a piece with only three minutes left in the game.
Itโs when Emmett gets tangled up with two players from the other team and his stick slips between one of their legs that things heat up. The ref raises his hand and blows his whistle, indicating Emmett for tripping, though it was clearly unintentional.
โThatโs fucking bullshit!โ Cara screams, jumping to her feet. โBullshit! It was a fucking accident! Go home, ref; youโre drunk!โ She pulls a ten- dollar bill out of her back pocket and slaps it in Alannahโs waiting hand without looking at her. โKeep the change; youโre gonna need it.โ
Iโm too on edge to pay attention to anything other than the game. Itโs do or die; win and go to game seven, have one more chance at the cup, or lose and go home. And now they have to kill a two-minute penalty with less than two-and-a-half minutes left in the game. The odds arenโt great. Both teams are on fire tonight.
Carterโs busy arguing with the ref over the call when his coach calls a time-out. He switches up the lines, sending out a few huge guys who manage to keep the puck away from the net as the opposing team circles our end relentlessly, and with fifty seconds left, Carter and Garrett dive over the boards from the bench.
Carterโs screaming out orders, digging his way between a player and the boards, fighting for the puck, and when it springs free, he sends it across the ice to Garrett.
Garrett hammers it off the boards, around another player, and collects it on the other side before passing it back to Carter, who receives it right before he enters the defensive end.
Emmettโs penalty ends with sixteen seconds left on the clock. He bursts through the door, shouting for Carter. Carter spins around a defenseman, the puck moving so quickly, so fluidly between the front and back of his stick blade I can barely see it. Without so much as a glance at Emmett, he slips the puck backward and to the left.
Emmett winds up as the puck hurls toward him, and the second it hits his stick, it soars through the air.
Bloodcurdling shrieks drown out everything around me as the buzzer glows red, and the Vancouver Vipers flood the ice, falling to one big blue and green pile.
They won. Theyโre coming home, and theyโre going for the cup.