โMal.โ
โMaaaaaaal!โ
I blink awake. Darcyโs nose is pressed up against mine, eyes Galรกpagos- blue in the morning light.
I yawn. โWhatโs going on?โ
โEw, Mal.โ She recoils. โWhy does your breath smell like a skunk during mating season?โ
โI . . . is everything okay?โ
โYes. I made my own oatmeal this morning. Weโre out of Nutella.โ
I sit up, or some approximation of it. Rub sleep out of my eyes. โYesterday we had more than half a jar leftโ โ
โAnd today weโre out. The circle of life, Mal.โ โAre Mom and Sabrina okay?โ
โYup. McKenzie and her dad picked up Sabrina. Momโs fine. She got up, then went back to bed because she was having a rough morning. But thereโs someone at the door for you.โ
โSomeone at theโ ?โ
Memories of yesterday slowly begin to surface.
Sawyerโs king, held in check by my queen. Tripping on the sidewalk as I ran to the train. Texting Easton about a made-up emergency, then turning
off my phone. The dull urban landscape outside the trainโs windows, ever morphing into a chessboard. Then the rest of the nightโ aย Veronica Marsย marathon with my sister, my head emptied out of everything else.
Not to brag, but Iโm good at compartmentalizing. Together with always picking the best item on the menu, itโs my greatest talent. Thatโs how I made myself get over chess years ago. And thatโs how I manage to survive day by day without hyperventilating about all sorts of stuff. Itโs either compartmentalizing or going broke buying inhalers.
โTell Easton thatโ โ
โNot Easton.โ Darcy flushes. โThough you could invite her over. Maybe this afternoonโ โ
Not Easton? โWho, then?โ โA random person.โ
I groan. โDarcy, I told you: when people from millenarian restorationist Christian denominations come knockingโ โ
โโ we politely inform them that eternal salvation is beyond us, I know, but itโs someone else. They asked for you by name, not for the head of the household.โ
โOkay.โ I scratch my forehead. โOkayโ tell them Iโll be there in a minute.โ
โCool. Oh, and also, this arrived yesterday. Addressed to Mom, but . . .โ She holds out an envelope. My eyes are still blurry. I have to blink to read, but when I do, my stomach twists.
โThank you.โ
โItโs a reminder, right?โ โNo.โ
โThat we have to pay the mortgage?โ โNo. Darcyโ โ
โDo you have the money?โ
I force myself to smile. โDonโt worry about it.โ
She nods, but before stepping out she says, โI pocketed it when the mailman brought it. Mom and Sabrina havenโt seen it.โ The freckles on her nose are shaped like a cloudy heart, and with the single neuron currently
working in my brain I contemplate how unfair it is that she needs to worry about this stuff. Sheโs twelve. Whenย Iย was twelve, my life was boba and refreshingย chess.com.
I slip on dirty shorts and yesterdayโs tee. Given Darcyโs gentle feedback, I decide to gargle with mouthwash while I turn on my phone. I discover that itโs 9:13, and that I have a million notifications. I swipe away dating app matches, Instagram and TikTok alerts, News highlights. I scroll through my texts from Easton (a panicked string, followed byย Essay question: what does Nolan Sawyer smell like? Two paragraphs or longerย and a picture of her vengefully biting into a cookie- macaron), then head outside.
Iโm not sure who I expect to find. Definitely not a tall woman with a pixie haircut, a full sleeve of tattoos, and more piercings than I can count. She turns around with a grin, and her lips are a bold, perfect red. She must be in her late twenties, if not older.
โSorry,โ she says, pointing at her cigarette. Her voice is low and amused. โYour sister said you were sleeping and I thought youโd take longer. Youโre not going to start smoking because you saw me smoke, right?โ
I feel myself smile back. โDoubtful.โ
โGood. You never know, the impressionability of the youths.โ She puts out the butt, wraps it in a napkin, and pockets it, either to avoid polluting or to conceal her DNA.
Okay, no moreย Veronica Marsย for me. โYouโre Mallory, right?โ
I cock my head. โHave we met?โ
โNope. Iโm Defne. Defne Bubikoฤluโ but unless you speak Turkish, I wouldnโt try to pronounce it. Itโs nice to meet you. Iโm a fan.โ
I let out a laugh. Then realize sheโs serious. โExcuse me?โ
โAnyone who trounces Nolan Sawyer like you did gets a lifetime supply of admiration from me.โ She points to herself with a flourish. โFree home delivery, too.โ
I stiffen. Oh, no. No, no. Whatย isย this? โIโm sorry. You have the wrong person.โ
She frowns. โYouโre not Mallory Greenleaf?โ
I take a step back. โYes. But itโs a common nameโ โ
โMallory Virginia Greenleaf, who played yesterday?โ She takes out her phone, taps at it, then holds it out with a smile. โIf this is not you, you have some serious identity theft issues.โ
She has pulled up a video. A TikTok of a young woman checkmating Nolan Sawyer with her queen. There are wisps of whiteblond hair falling across the side of her face, and her eyeliner is smudged.
I canโt believe Easton didnโt tell me that my eyeliner looked like shit.
Also, I canโt believe that this stupid video was taken and it has overย twenty thousand likes. Are there even twenty thousand people who play chess?
โWhat was up with the dramatic exit, by the way?โ she asks. โDid you double- park?โ
โNo. Iโ okay, thatย isย me.โ I run a hand down my face. I need coffee. And a time machine, to go back to when I agreed to help Easton. Maybe I could go back even further, just murder our entire friendship. โThe game . .
. It was a fluke.โ
Defneโs brow furrows. โA fluke?โ
โYeah. I know that it looks like Iโm some kind of . . . chess talent, but I donโt play. Sawyer must be in some kind of funk, andโ โ I stop. Defne is laughing and laughing. Apparently, Iโm hilarious.
โYou mean, the current world chess champion? Who also happens to be the current rapidย andย blitz champion? In a funk?โ
I press my lips together. โHe can be the current champion and still be having a bad month.โ
โUnlikely, since he won Sweden Chess last week.โ
โWell,โ I scramble, โheโs tired because of all the winning, andโ โ โDude, stop.โ She takes one step closer, and I smell something
pleasantly citrusy mixed with the tobacco. โYou won against the best player in the world. You completely blindsided him in a damn good gameโ the way you feinted a feint? How you got yourself out of that pin? Your queen? Stop putting yourself down and take credit for itโ you think Nolan would be half as reticent? You thinkย anyย guy would be?โ
Defne is yelling. With the corner of my eye I see Mrs. Abebe, my neighbor, stare at us from her yard, a clearย Do you need saving?ย in her eyes. I subtly shake my head. Defne just seems like a very passionate, very loud cheerleader. I think I might even like her.ย Despiteย the fact that sheโs here to talk about chess.
โI canโt be the first person to win against Sawyer,โ I say. As a matter of fact, I know Iโm not. I studied his play, back when I still . . . studied plays. Antonov- Sawyer, 2013, Rome. Sawyer-Shankar, 2016, Seattle. Antoni- Sawyer, 2012โ
โNo, but itโs been a while. And when people win against him, itโs because he makes dumb mistakesโ which he didnโt, not that I could see. Itโs just that you were . . . better.โ
โIโm notโ โ
โAnd itโs not like this is your first feat when it comes to chess.โ I shake my head, confused. โWhat do you mean?โ
โWell, I looked you up, and . . .โ She glances at her phone. Her case says,ย Check, mate!ย on a galaxy background. โThere are articles of you winning tournaments in the area, and pics of you doing blindfolded simultaneous exhibitionsโ you were anย adorableย kid, by the way. Iโm surprised you didnโt play in rated tournaments, โcause youโd haveย killedย it.โ
I might be flushing. โMy mother didnโt want me to,โ I say, without quite knowing why.
Defneโs eyes widen. โYour mother doesnโt support you playing chess?โ โNo, nothing like that. She just . . .โ
Mom loved that I played. She even learned the rules to be able to follow my never- ending chess- related chatter. However, she also didnโt shy away from pushing back against Dad. For most of my childhood, the greatest hit in the Greenleaf household was Dad insisting that someone as good as I was at manipulating numbers and pattern recognitions should be cultivated into a pro; Mom replying that she didnโt want me dealing with the hyper- competitive, hyper- individualistic environment of rated chess from a young age; Sabrina emerging from her room to ask flatly,ย When youโre done arguing about your favorite daughter, can we maybe have dinner?ย In the
end, they agreed that Iโd start competing in the rated divisions of tournaments when I was fourteen.
Then I turned fourteen, and everything changed. โI wasnโt interested.โ
โI see. Youโre Archie Greenleafโs daughter, arenโt you? I think I met him
โ โ
โIโm sorry,โ I interrupt her sharply. Sharper than I mean to, because of the sour taste in my throat. The things sheโs saying, itโs like unearthing a corpse. โIโm sorry,โ I repeat, gentler. โWas there . . . Is there a reason youโre here?โ
โRight, yes.โ If sheโs offended by my bluntness, she doesnโt let it show.
Instead she surprises me by saying, โIโm here to offer you a job.โ I blink. โA job?โ
โYup. Waitโ are you a minor? Because if so, one of your parents should probablyโ โ
โIโm eighteen.โ
โEighteen! Are you heading off to college?โ โNo.โ I swallow. โIโm done with school.โ
โPerfect, then.โ She smiles like sheโs giving me a gift. Like Iโm about to be happy. Like the idea of makingย meย happy makesย herย happy. โHereโs the deal: I run a chess club. Zugzwang, in Brooklyn, over byโ โ
โIโve heard of it.โ Marshall might be the oldest, most renowned club in New York, but in the last few years Zugzwang has become known for attracting a less traditional crowd. It has a TikTok account that sometimes goes viral, community engagement, stripchess tournaments. I vaguely remember hearing about a more-or-less acerbic rivalry between Marshall and Zugzwangโ which would explain her glee at my beating Sawyer, a Marshall member.
โHereโs the deal: some of our members decide to use their overgrown chess brains for something that isnโt chess, andโ well, they go out in the world, get jobs in finance and other lucrative, amoral fields, make tons of money, andย loooveย tax write- offs. Long story short, we have a bunch of donors. And this year we instituted a fellowship.โ
โA fellowship?โ Does she want to hire me to keep track of donors? Does she think Iโm an accountant?
โItโs a one- year salary for a player who has the potential to go pro. Youโd be mentored and sent to tournaments on our tab. The primary goal is to give a head start to promising young chess players. Theย secondaryย goal is for me to eat popcorn while you hand Nolan his ass,ย again. But thatโs not, like, a must.โ
I scratch my nose. โI donโt understand.โ
โMallory, Iโd love for you to be this yearโs Zugzwang fellow.โ
I donโt immediately parse her words. Then I do, and I still have to turn them around in my head over and over, because Iโm not sure I heard them correctly.
Did she just offer to pay me to play chess?
This is wild. Incredible. This fellowshipโ itโs like the stuff of dreams. Life changing. Everything fourteen- year- old Mallory Greenleaf would have wished for.
Too bad fourteen- year- old Mallory Greenleaf is nowhere in sight.
โIโm sorry,โ I tell Defne. Sheโs still looking at me with a bright, happy expression. โI told you, I donโt play anymore.โ
The bright, happy expression darkens a little. โWhy?โ
I like her. Iย reallyย like her, and for a moment I almost consider explaining things to her. Stuff. Life. My sisters, and Mom, and roller derby fees. Bob, and changing windshield wipers, and the fact that I donโt need a one- year fellowship but a job that will be there next year, and the year after, and the one after that. Dad, and the memories, and the night I swore to myself that I was done with chess. Forever.
It seems like too much for a first meeting, so I condense the truth. โIโm just not interested.โ
Sheโs instantly subdued. Her brow furrows in a slight frown and she studies me for a long while, as though realizing that there might be something she doesnโt know about me. Ha. โTell you what,โ she says eventually. โIโm going to get goingโ Sundayโs peak day at Zugzwang. Lots of prep. But Iโll give you a few days to think about itโ โ
โIโm not going to change my mindโ โ
โโ and in the meantime, Iโll email you the contract.โ She pats my shoulder, and Iโm enveloped by her lemony scent once again. One of her tattoos, I notice, is a chessboard, with pieces developed on it. A famous game, perhaps, but I donโt recognize it.
โIโ You donโt have my email,โ I tell her. Sheโs already at her carโ 2019 Volkswagen Beetle.
โOh, I do. From the tournament database.โ โWhich tournament?โ
โYesterdayโs.โ She waves goodbye as she gets into the driverโs seat. โI organized it.โ
I donโt wait for her to drive off. I turn around, walk back inside the house, and pretend not to notice Mom looking at me from the window.