She makes him laugh. Itās no small gift.
T
HE PROBLEM OF USING A GIFT AS AN EXCUSE TO VISIT GOVERNOR
Davenport is that we cannot show up empty-handed. It takes one hour in Human territory, three different antiques stores, and a whole lot of bickering before Lowe and I find a present we both consider appropriate. He nixes my choice of a vintage bicycle pump (āThatās a hookah, Misery.ā). I veto his ceramic vase (āSomeoneās grandpaās in there, Lowe.ā). We insult each otherās taste, first covertly, then passive-aggressively, then with unabashed contempt. When Iām about to suggest that we fight it out in the parking lot and see how well his claws hold up against my fangs, he has a
momentous realization and asks, āDo you even like the governor?ā āNope.ā
āIs it possible that weāre putting too much thought into this?ā My eyes widen. āYes.ā
We slip back inside the last store and buy a mysterious ashtray shaped like a polar bear. Itās simultaneously the ugliest thing we can findĀ andĀ well over three hundred dollars.
āWhere does the money come from, anyway?ā I ask. āWhat money?ā
āYour money. Your secondsā money. Your packās money.ā I glare at him on our way back to the car, making sure no one is around. Iām wearing brown contacts, but havenāt shaved my canines in a while. Opening my
mouth in public would probably get animal control called on me. āDo you work in insurance while Iām passed out during the day?ā
āWe rob banks.ā
āYouāā I stop him with a hand on his arm. āYouĀ rob banks.ā āNotĀ bloodĀ banks, donāt get too excited.ā
I pinch his left side, miffed.
āOuch. My . . .ā An elderly Human couple walks past, giving us an indulgentĀ Young loveĀ look. āLiver?ā
āWrong side,ā I whisper. āAppendix.ā
āStill wrong.ā āGallbladder?ā āNope.ā
āFucking Human anatomy,ā he mutters. He laces his fingers with mine, pulling me in his direction.
āYouāre not serious, right? About robbing?ā
āNo.ā He opens the door for me. āA lot of Weres have jobs. Most Weres.
I had a job, before . . . Before.ā
Before his life became something his pack owned. āRight.ā
āMost Were packs have highly organized investment portfolios. Thatās where the expenses for infrastructure and the leadership roles who donāt have the time to hold other jobs come from.ā He watches me slip into the passenger seat and then leans forward, one hand on the door and the other on the roof of the car. āItās different from the financial framework of Vampyres.ā
āBecause our leadership positions are hereditary.ā
āIām sure that families like yours rely on estates passed on over generations, but generally, Vampyres are not as centralized. Thereās fewer of you, less community culture.ā
I purse my lips. āKind of annoying, that you know more about my people than me and that youāre such a show-off about it.ā
āIs it?ā he drawls. He leans forward and presses a kiss against my nose. āIāll have to do it more often.ā
Itās the most fun Iāve had with someone whoās not Serena. EvenĀ more, at times. Although that might be due to the way I find him glancing at me between bouts of perusing stained glass lamps, and the fact that he silently hands me his sweater when I shiver in the AC of the store, and how when weāre alone in the car he steals a kiss that has me forgetting how to breathe, his tongue soft across my fangs until I taste a drop of blood, and thenĀ heĀ is the one groaning, pressing his hand around my waist, telling me that he cannot wait to be home.
Home.
I try not to think about itāthat the territory of his pack is most definitelyĀ notĀ my homeābut itās difficult. Iām relieved when Governor Davenport welcomes us at his door, making a show of explicitly inviting me in. I wonder if in all their years of political dealings, my father never dispelled that specific myth for him. Itās the kind of mindfuck heād indulge in.
āItās so refreshing to see a Were-Vampyre union that has not yet ended in bloodshed.ā Going by the smell of his blood, heās not fully drunk, but on his way there. His house is a mix of pretty and ostentatious, and his wife is definitely not his first. Probably not his second, either. When he tells me, half paternal and half salacious, āYou must have been behaving, young lady,ā Loweās glance at me clearly asks,Ā Would you like me to hold him down while you tear his jugular to shreds?
I sigh and mouth aĀ Nah.
Still, Loweās āThank you for having usā is accompanied by a more-than- firm handshake. The governor holds his fingers to his chest as he escorts us to a sitting room, and I tip my head down to hide my smile.
He appears to have a prurient interest in the workings of our marriage, and heās not shy about asking. āIt must be challenging. Full of arguments, I bet.ā
āNot really,ā I say. Lowe takes a sip of his beer. āDisagreements, at least.ā
I glance around the room. Lowe sighs.
āI cannot imagine that when topics such as the Aster come up you see eye to eye.ā
āThe what?ā Lowe looks at me blankly. It occurs to me that the Were might remember the event by another name. One less centered on Vampyresā blood.
āThe last attempt at an arranged marriage before ours,ā I explain. āWhere the Weres betrayed and massacred the Vampyres.ā
āAh. The Sixth Wedding. It was an act of revenge. At least, thatās what we are taught.ā
āRevenge?ā
āFor the Vampyre groomās violent treatment of his Were bride during the previous marriage.ā
āThey donāt tell us that,ā I snort. āWonder why.ā
āAre you going to argue about it?ā the governor asks, like weāre his personal source of entertainment.
āNo,ā we say at once, giving him harsh looks.
He clears his throat bashfully. āItās time for dinner, donāt you think?ā
Lowe doesnāt have the Machiavellian, manipulative skills of Father, but heās nonetheless crafty at guiding the conversation where it needs to go without giving too much away. The governorās wife is mostly silent. So am I: I stare at my risotto with mushrooms, which according to Serena are different from the fungus she once got under her foot, though I canāt really recall in what way. I lazily wonder why Humans and Weres keep throwing food at me, and listen as the governor informs us that he and my father are āgreat friendsā whoāve been meeting in Human territory about once a month to discuss business for the past decadeādespite the fact that Father visited me once per year when I was the Collateral; Iād love to be shocked, but Iād rather save the energy. The governor has never been in Were territory, but has heard beautiful things and would love an invitation (which Lowe doesnāt extend). Heās also going to transition to a lobbying position once Maddie Garcia fully takes over.
Then Lowe moves the conversation to his mother. āShe used to be one of Roscoeās seconds,ā he says, switching our plates once he is done with his dinner and starting the meal over. āWorked closely with the Human-Were Bureau, as a matter of fact.ā
āAh, yes. I met her once or twice.ā āDid you?ā
The governor reaches for a piece of bread. āA lovely woman. Jenna, right?ā
āMaria.ā I hear the displeasure in Loweās tone, but I doubt anyone else can. āI was under the impression that most of her dealings were with someone in charge of border affairs? Thomas . . . ?ā
āThomas Jalakas?ā
āThat sounds right.ā Lowe chews my risotto in silence. āI wonder if he remembers her.ā
I tense. Until the governor says, āSadly, he passed a while ago.ā
āHe did?ā Lowe doesnāt act surprised. Paradoxically, it makes his reaction more believable. āHow old was he?ā
āYoung, still.ā The governor sips on his wine. Next to him, his wife plays with her napkin. āIt was a terrible accident.ā
āAn accident? I hope my people were not involved.ā
āOh, no. No, it was a car accident, I believe.ā The governor shrugs. āUnfortunately, these things happen.ā
Loweās stare is so intense, I suspect heās going to confront him. But after a moment, it relaxes, and the entire room breathes out in relief. āToo bad. My mother talked of him fondly.ā
āHa.ā The governor downs the rest of his wine. āI just bet she did. I heard he got around.ā Of all the things he could have said, this one is the most wrong.
Lowe calmly dabs his mouth with his napkin and rises to his feet. He unhurriedly walks around the table, toward the governor, who must realize the error of his ways. His chair screeches against the floor as he stands and begins retreating.
āI meant no offenseāĀ Ow.ā
Lowe slams him against the wall. The governorās wife screams, but stays put in her chair. I run to Lowe.
āArthur, my friend,ā he murmurs in the governorās face. āYou stink like youāre made of lies.ā
āIām notā I donātā Help!Ā Help!ā
āWhy did you have Thomas Jalakas killed?ā āI didnāt, I swear I didnāt!ā
Four Human agents storm inside the room, weapons already drawn. They instantly point them at Lowe, shouting at him to let the governor go and step back. Lowe gives no sign of noticing them.
āTell me why you killed Thomas, and Iāll let you live.ā āI didnāt, I swear IĀ didnātāā
He leans in. āYou know I can killĀ youĀ faster than they can killĀ me, right?ā
The governor whimpers. A drop of sweat trickles down his red face. āHe
ā I didnāt want to, but he was talking to journalists about some embezzling my administration was involved in. We had to! WeĀ had to.ā
Lowe straightens. He dusts himself off, takes a step back, and turns to me as though we are the only two people in the room and four firearms are not still trained on him. His hand leisurely finds my elbow, and he smilesā first at me, then to the guards.
āThank you, governor,ā he says, leading me away. āWe will see ourselves out.ā
āI HAVE SEVERAL PEOPLE TAILING HIM,āĀ LOWE INFORMS ME ONCE WEāRE IN
the car. āAnd Alex is working on monitoring his communications. He knows weāre onto him, and weāll be alerted as soon as he makes the next move.ā
āI hope ten wolves are currently shitting in his backyard,ā I mutter, and Lowe half smiles and puts his hand on my thigh in an easy, absentminded way that would only make sense if weād been driving places together for years.
āIt just doesnāt add up,ā I vent. āSay Serena really did just interview him for a financial crime story. Maybe she was the journalist he was talking to. Where does Anaās name on her planner come from?ā I guess it could be
unrelated. But. āThere is no way she coincidentally met with Anaās fatherĀ andĀ found out about Ana through other channels. No fucking way. Did someoneĀ plantĀ the name? But it was in our alphabet. No one else knew about it.ā Weāre silent while I churn on it, staring at the streetlights. Then Lowe speaks.
āMisery.ā
āYeah.ā
āThere is another possibility. Regarding Serena.ā I look at him. āYeah?ā
He appears to painstakingly line up the words. When he speaks, his tone is measured. āMaybe it wasnāt Thomas who told Serena about Ana, but the opposite.ā
āWhat do you mean?ā
āMaybe Serena found out about Ana from another source, and then used the information to blackmail Thomas over his relationship with a Were and force him to tell her about financial crimes he might know about. Maybe she wanted to break the story, but changed her mind when she realized that she was in danger of being targeted by Governor Davenport. Unlike Thomas, she wasnāt a public individual, and she had the option to disappear.ā
I shake my head, even as I realize that some of this is a distinct possibility. āShe wouldnāt have left without telling me, Lowe. Sheās my sister. And there are no digital traces. She wouldnāt know how to avoid them. Sheās notĀ me.ā
āSheās not. But she did learn from you for years.ā He looks deeply sorry to have to say this.
I let out a laugh. āNot you, too, trying to convince me that Serena didnāt care about me as much as I cared about her. She wouldnāt leave me here to picture the worst. She always told me everythingāā
āNot everything.ā His jaw tenses. Like this conversation is painful for him, because itās painful forĀ me. āYou mentioned that you had a fight before she left. That sometimes sheād leave for days on her own.ā
āNever without saying.ā
āMaybe there was no time. Or she didnāt want to put you in danger.ā
I wave it away. āThis is ridiculous. What about Sparkles? She
abandonedĀ her cat.ā
āTell me something,ā he asks. I hate how measured and rational he sounds. āDid she know you well enough to predict that youād go looking for her and find the cat?ā
I want to say no so bad, my lips almost hurt. But I canāt, and instead I remember her last words to me:
I need to know that you care about something, Misery.
And she did leaveĀ somethingĀ behind. Something that needed caring for.
The damn fucking cat. God, what a wacky plan this would be.
A Serena plan.
āMaybe youāre right, and she doesnāt want to be found. But she wouldnāt put the life of a child at risk, not even in exchange for the biggest, juiciest story of her career. I know Serena, Lowe.ā
And thatās the problem with Loweās theory: it would mean that Serena is safely tucked somewhere, but also that she wasnāt the person I believed her to be, and I canāt accept it. Not for a minute.
Lowe knows this, because he opens his mouth to say something else, something that undoubtedly will make impeccable sense and feel like a punch in the solar plexus. So I stop him by asking the first thing that comes to mind:
āWhere are we going?ā Weāre headed south, toward downtown. Toward Vampyre territory.
āTo meet your brother. Weāre nearly there.ā āOwen?ā
āYou have others?ā
I frown. āI thought heād come to us.ā
āWere territory is more tightly patrolled and harder to infiltrate. Since we donāt want to attract attention and turn this into a formal summit, itās safer to meet with him at the Vampyre-Human border.ā
Iām well familiar with this road. I took it for the first time at eight years old, on my way to the Collateral residence, and I still remember that
drowning, sticky feeling low in my throat, the fear that Iād never get to go home again. I squeeze my eyes shut, trying to redirect my thoughts to theĀ lastĀ time. Shortly before the wedding, I imagine. Maybe when I was asked to choose between flowers that all looked the same, white and pretty and ready to wither. A handful of days and a million lifetimes ago.
āAre you okay?ā Lowe asks softly.
āYeah. Just . . .ā Iām not usually sentimental, but something about being with him softens me. My guard is down.
āFeels weird, huh?ā I nod.
āWe can always turn around,ā he offers quietly. āIāll figure out a way to have Owen come south.ā
āNo. Iām fine.ā
āOkay.ā He turns into a small side street. When I glance at the GPS itās not on the map, but we come to a stop at the edge of a cultivated field.
Loweās expression is bemused. āIām actually curious about this.ā
I glance around. All I can see is darkness. āAbout the wholesome experience of picking your own tomatoes?ā
āAbout meeting your brother.ā
He gets out of the car, and I immediately follow him. I thought we were alone, but I hear another car door clicking, andāthere he is.
Owen, sneering at the soil sticking to his loafers, swatting away bugs. Itās shocking how happy I am to see him. That jerk, climbing up my good graces uninvited. Iām tempted to yell some insults at him, just to make up for it, until I hear another click.
Owen didnāt come alone. Thereās a woman with him. A woman Iāve never met. A woman whose blood smells a lot like a Wereās.
Loweās mate.