โPip couldnโt see, sweat stinging at the corners of her eyes. She might have pushed herself a little too hard this time. Too fast. Like sheโd been running away, not just running.
At least she hadnโt seen Max out this time. Sheโd looked for him, ahead and over her shoulder, but he never appeared. The roads were hers.
She lowered her headphones to her neck and walked home, catching her breath as she passed the empty house next door. She turned down her driveway and stopped. Rubbed her eyes.
They were still here, those chalk figures. Five little stick people without their heads. Except, no, that couldnโt be right. It had rained yesterday, hard, and they definitely hadnโt been here when Pip left for her run. They hadnโt, she swore. And there was something else too.
She bent to get a closer look. They had moved. On Sunday morning theyโd been at the intersection between pavement and driveway. Now they had shuffled several inches over, down the brickwork, moving closer to the house.
Pip was certain: these figures were new. Drawn in the hour sheโd been out on her run. She closed her eyes to focus her ears, listening to the white- noise sound of trees dancing in the wind, the high whistle of a bird overhead, and the growling sound of a lawnmower somewhere close by. But she couldnโt hear the squawking sounds of the neighbourhood kids. Not one peep.
Eyes open, and yes, she hadnโt imagined them. Five small figures. She should ask her mum if she knew what they were. Maybe they werenโt supposed to be headless people, maybe they were something entirely innocent and her wrung-out mind was twisting them into something sinister.
She straightened up, the muscles in her calves aching and a sharper sensation in her left ankle. She stretched out her legs, and continued towards the house.
But she only made it two steps.
Her heart picked up, knocking against her ribs.
There was a grey lump further along the driveway. Near the front door. A feathered grey lump. She knew before she even got close what it was. Another dead pigeon. Pip approached it slowly, steps careful and silent, as though not to wake it, bring it crashing back to life. Her fingers fizzed with adrenaline as she towered over the pigeon, expecting to see herself again reflected in its glassy dead eyes. But she wasnโt there. Because there were no dead eyes.
Because there was no head.
A clean, tufted stump where it should be, hardly any blood.
Pip stared at it. Then up at the house, then again at the headless pigeon. She took herself back to last Monday morning, peeled away the week, sorting through her memories. There she was, rushing out the door in her smart suit, stopping as she caught sight of the dead bird, fixating on its eyes, thinking of Stanley.
It had been here. Right here. Two dead pigeons in exactly the same place. And those strange, shifting chalk figures with arms and legs and no heads. This couldnโt be a coincidence, could it? Pip didnโt believe in those at the best of times.
โMum!โ she called, pushing open the front door. โMum!โ Her voice rebounded down the hall, the echo mocking her.
โHi sweetie,โ her mum replied, leaning out of the kitchen doorway, a knife in her hands. โIโm not crying, I promise, itโs these damn onions.โ
โMum, thereโs a dead pigeon out on the drive,โ Pip said, keeping her voice low and even.
โAnother one?โ Her mumโs face fell. โFor goodness sake. And, of course, your fatherโs outย again, so Iโm the one who has to do it.โ She sighed. โRight, just let me get this stew on and then Iโll deal with it.โ
โN-no,โ Pip stammered. โMum, youโre not getting it. Thereโs a dead pigeon in exactly the same place as the one last week. Like someone put it there on purpose.โ It sounded ridiculous, even as she said it.
โOh, donโt be silly.โ Her mum waved her off. โItโs just one of the neighboursโ cats.โ
โA cat?โ Pip shook her head. โBut itโs in exactly the same plโโ
โYes, probably this catโs new favourite killing spot. The Williamses have a big tabby cat; I see it in our garden sometimes. Poos in my borders.โ She mimed stabbing it with her knife.
โThis one doesnโt have a head.โ โHuh?โ
โThe pigeon.โ
Her mumโs mouth turned down at the corners. โWell, what can I say? Cats are disgusting. Donโt you remember the cat we had before we got Barney? When you were very small?โ
โYou mean Socks?โ Pip said.
โYes, Socks was a vicious little killer. Brought dead things in the house almost every day. Mice, birds. Sometimes these great big rabbits. Would chew their heads off and leave them somewhere for me to find. Trails of guts. It was like coming home to a horror show.โ
โWhat you guys talking about?โ Joshโs voice called down the stairs. โNothing!โ Pipโs mum yelled back. โYou mind your own business!โ โBut this…โ Pip sighed. โCan you just come look?โ
โIโm in the middle of dinner, Pip.โ
โIt will take two seconds.โ She tilted her head. โPlease?โ
โUh, fine.โ Her mum backtracked to place the knife on the side. โQuietly though, I donโt want Mr Nosy coming down and getting involved.โ
โWhoโs Mr Nosy?โ Joshโs small voice followed them out the front door. โIโm getting that kid some earplugs, I swear to god,โ Pipโs mum
whispered as they walked out on to the drive. โRight, yes, I see it. A
headless pigeon, exactly as I imagined it. Thanks for the preview.โ
โItโs not just that.โ Pip grabbed her arm and walked her down the driveway. She pointed. โLook, those little chalk figures. They were here a couple of days ago too, nearer the pavement. The rain washed them away, but theyโre back, and theyโve moved. They werenโt here when I left on my run.โ
Pipโs mum bent over, leaning on her knees. She screwed her eyes.
โYou see them, right?โ Pip asked her, doubt stirring in her stomach, cold and heavy.
โEr, yeah, I guess,โ she said, squinting even harder. โThere are some faded white lines.โ
โYeah, exactly,โ Pip said, relieved. โAnd what do they look like to you?โ
Her mum stepped closer, tipped her head to look at them from another angle.
โI donโt know, maybe itโs a tyre-tread from my car or something. I did drive to a building site today so there could have been dust or chalk around.โ
โNo, look harder,โ Pip said, her voice spiking with irritation. She narrowed her own eyes; they couldnโt just be tyre-treads, could they?
โI donโt know, Pip, maybe itโs dust from the mortar joints.โ โThe… what?โ
โThe lines between the bricks.โ Her mum blew out a funnelled breath, and one of the little figures all but disappeared. She straightened up, running her hands over her skirt to smooth out the creases.
Pip pointed again. โYou donโt see stick people? Five of them. Well, four now, thanks. Like someone has drawn them?โ
Pipโs mum shook her head. โDonโt look like stick people to me,โ she said. โThey donโt have heโโ
โHeads?โ Pip cut her off. โExactly.โ
โOh, Pip.โ Her mum eyed her with concern, that eyebrow slipping up her forehead again. โThey arenโt connected. Iโm sure itโs just something from my tyres, or maybe the postmanโs car.โ She studied them again. โAnd if someone did draw those, itโs probably just the Yardleysโ kids. That middle one seems a bit, well, you know.โ She pulled a face.
It made sense, what her mum was saying. It was just a cat, of course. Just tyre-treads or a kidโs innocent doodle. Why had her mind jumped so far ahead, thinking they must be connected? She felt the creep of shame under her skin, that sheโd even considered the idea someone had left them both here. Even more shameful, that theyโd left them just for her. Why would she think that? Because she was scared of everything now, the other side of her brain answered. She had a fight-or-flight heart, felt danger pressing in on her when there was none, could hear gunshots in any sound if she wanted
to, scared of the night but not of the dark, even scared to look down at her own hands. Broken.
โAre you OK, sweetie?โ Her mum had abandoned the chalk figures, studying her face instead. โDid you get enough sleep last night?โ
Almost none. โYes. Plenty,โ Pip said.
โYou look pale, is all.โ The eyebrow stretched even higher. โIโm always pale.โ
โLost a bit of weight too.โ โMum โโ
โIโm just saying, sweetie. Here,โ she slotted her arm through Pipโs, leading her back towards the house, โIโll get back to dinner and Iโll even make tiramisu for dessert, your favourite.โ
โBut itโs a Tuesday?โ
โSo?โ Her mum smiled. โMy little girlโs going off to uni in a few weeks, let me spoil her while I still have her.โ
Pip gave her mumโs arm a squeeze. โThanks.โ
โIโll deal with that pigeon in a minute, you donโt need to worry about it,โ she said, shutting the front door behind them.
โIโm not worried about the pigeon,โ Pip said, though her mum had already moved away, back to the kitchen. Pip listened to her clattering around in there, tutting about theseย industrial-strength onions. โIโm not worried about the pigeon,โ Pip said again quietly, just to herself. She was worried about who might have left it there. And then worried that sheโd thought that at all.
She turned to the stairs, walking up to see Josh perched on the top step, chin between his hands.
โWhat pigeon?โ he asked as Pip rested her hand on his head, navigating around him.
โSeriously,โ she muttered, โmaybe I should let you borrow these more often.โ She tapped the headphones cradled around her neck. โGlue them to your head.โ
Pip went into her room, leaning against the door to close it behind her. She freed her arm from the Velcro phone holder and let it drop to the floor. She peeled her top off, the material clinging to her sweat-sticky skin,
getting tangled around the headphones. They came off together, now in a heap on her carpet. Yeah, she should definitely shower before dinner. And
… she glanced at the second drawer down in her desk. Maybe just take one, to calm her and settle her spiking heart, keep the blood off her hands and her mind off headless things. Her mum was starting to suspect something was wrong; Pip needed to be good at dinner. Just like her old self.
A cat and tyre marks. Those made sense, perfect sense. What was wrong with her? Why did she need it to be something bad, like she was looking for trouble? She held a breath. Just one more case. Save Jane Doe and save yourself. Thatโs all it would take, and she wouldnโt be like this any more: misplaced inside her own head. She had a plan. Just stick to the plan.
Pip quickly checked her phone. A text from Ravi:ย Would it be weird to have chicken nuggets ON TOP of pizza?
And an email from Roger Turner:ย Hi Pip, Should we have a chat sometime this week, now youโve had a chance to think about the offer from the mediation? Best wishes, Roger Turner.
Pip exhaled. She felt sorry for Roger, but her answer was the same.
Over her dead body. What was the most professional way of saying that?
She was about to open the email when a new notification slotted in beneath. Another message had come through the form on her website, toย [email protected]. The preview read:ย Who will look for you… and Pip knew exactly what the full text would say. Yet again.
She opened up the message from anon to delete it. Maybe she could set up some kind of blocker that would send them straight to spam? The message opened and Pipโs thumb hovered over the bin icon.
Her eyes stopped her just in time, catching on one word. She blinked.
Read the message in full.
Who will look for you when youโre the one who disappears? PS. Remember to always kill two birds with one stone.
The phone slipped from her hands.