ONE SUMMER NIGHT I FELL ASLEEP, HOPING THE WORLD
would be different when I woke. In the morning, when I opened my eyes, the world was the same. I threw off the sheets and lay there as the heat poured in through my open window.
My hand reached for the dial on the radio. โAloneโ was playing. Crap, โAlone,โ a song by a group called Heart. Not my favorite song. Not my favorite group. Not my favorite topic. โYou donโt know how long . . .โ
I was fifteen.
I was bored.
I was miserable.
As far as I was concerned, the sun could have melted the blue right off the sky. Then the sky could be as miserable as I was.
The DJ was saying annoying, obvious things like, โItโs summer! Itโs hot out there!โ And then he put on that retro Lone Ranger tune, something he liked to play every morning because he thought it was a hip way to wake up the world. โHi-yo, Silver!โ Who hired this guy? He was killing me. I think that as we listened to the William Tell Overture, we were supposed to be imagining the Lone Ranger and Tonto riding their horses through the desert. Maybe someone should have told that guy that we all werenโt ten-year-olds anymore. โHi-yo, Silver!โ Crap. The DJโs voice was on the airwaves again: โWake up, El Paso! Itโs Monday, June fifteenth, 1987! 1987! Can you believe it? And a big โHappy Birthdayโ goes out to Waylon Jennings, whoโs fifty years old today!โ Waylon Jennings? This was a rock station, dammit! But then he said something that hinted at the fact that he might have a brain. He told the story about how Waylon Jennings had survived the 1959 plane crash that killed Buddy Holly and Richie Valens. On that note, he put on the remake of โLa Bambaโ by Los Lobos.
โLa Bamba.โ I could cope with that.
I tapped my bare feet on the wood floor. As I nodded my head to the beat, I started wondering what had gone through Richie Valensโs head before the plane crashed into the unforgiving ground.ย Hey, Buddy! The musicโs over.
For the music to be over so soon. For the music to be over when it had just begun. That was really sad.