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Chapter no 25

A Shadow in the Ember

All I could do was stare at Ash as what he said echoed over and over in my head. Denial immediately rose because of what it meant. I wanted to latch onto that denial, but Ash had said at the lake that not all Primals had been the first.

Iโ€™d just never thought he was referring to the Primal of Death.

My thoughts whirled. โ€œYourโ€ฆyour father was the Primal of Death? He made the deal?โ€

โ€œHe did.โ€ Ash stared down at his nearly empty glass. โ€œMy father was many things.โ€

Was.

โ€œAnd he died?โ€

โ€œIt is not often that a Primal dies. The loss of a being so powerful can create a ripple effect that can even be felt in the mortal realm. Could even set in motion an event that has the potential to unravel the fabric that binds our realms together.โ€ He swished the remaining liquid in his glass. โ€œThe only way to prevent that from occurring is having their powerโ€”their eather

โ€”transferred to another who can withstand it.โ€ His hand stilled. โ€œThat is what happened when my father died. All that was his transferred to me. The Shadowlands. The Court. His responsibilities.โ€

โ€œAnd me?โ€ I asked hoarsely.

โ€œAnd the deal he made with Roderick Mierel.โ€

I exhaled roughly as the strangest burst of emotions blasted through me. There was definitely relief because if that deal hadnโ€™t transferred to Ash, there would be no way to stop the Rot. But then I realized that if it hadnโ€™t transferred, the deal wouldโ€™ve been severed in favor of Lasania at the time of the Primalโ€™s death. It hadnโ€™t. Obviously, it had moved to Ash. And what I felt wasnโ€™t relief. It was an emotion I didnโ€™t want to acknowledgeโ€”and couldnโ€™t.

He hooked one leg over the other. โ€œDrink,ย liessa. You look like you need

it.โ€

I needed an entire bottle of whiskey to get through this conversation, but I took a healthy swallow. I was surprised that I actually did it. Something occurred to me as I placed the glass on the table. โ€œYou said there were Primals younger than some of the gods. You were talking about you, werenโ€™t you?โ€ When he nodded, my grip tightened. โ€œWere youโ€ฆwere you even alive when he made the deal?โ€ Immediately, I wished I hadnโ€™t asked because if he hadnโ€™t been, and he now had to die for something his father didโ€ฆit made it all the worse.

โ€œI had just gone through the Cullingโ€”a certain point in our lives where our body begins to go into maturity, slowing our aging and intensifying our eather. I wasโ€ฆโ€ His lips pursed. โ€œProbably a year or so younger than you are now.โ€

Hearing that he had at least been alive didnโ€™t make it better at all. Heโ€™d been my age. What heโ€™d said in the Great Hall came back to me.ย Choice ends today, and for that, I am sorry.ย Gods. It wasnโ€™t just the loss of my choice but his, too. He hadnโ€™t chosen this. I felt like I would be sick.

His head tilted. โ€œYouโ€™re surprised?โ€

I tensed. โ€œAre you reading my emotions?โ€

โ€œA bit of your shock got through my walls, but theyโ€™re up.โ€ His gaze met mine. โ€œI swear.โ€

I believed him because staying out of my emotions would be aย kind and decentย thing to do.

I took another drink. โ€œOf course, Iโ€™m surprised. By a lot. Youโ€™re really not as old as I thought you were.โ€

A dark eyebrow rose. โ€œIs there a difference between two hundred years and two thousand to a mortal?โ€

Had he not asked the same while weโ€™d been at the lake? โ€œYes. As bizarre as that may sound, there is a difference. Two hundred years is a long time, but two thousand is unfathomable.โ€

Ash didnโ€™t respond to that, which allowed me time to try and make sense of all of thisโ€”of why his father would do this. โ€œYour motherโ€ฆ?โ€

That eyebrow climbed more. โ€œYou say that as if youโ€™re not sure that I had one.โ€

โ€œI figured you did.โ€

โ€œGood. I was afraid for a moment that you might believe I was hatched from an egg.โ€

โ€œI really donโ€™t know how to respond to that,โ€ I muttered. โ€œWere your parents not together?โ€

โ€œThey were.โ€

I opened my mouth, then closed it before trying again. โ€œAnd did theyโ€ฆ like each other?โ€

His chin lowered. โ€œThey loved each other very much, from what I recall.โ€

โ€œThen Iโ€™m sure you understand why Iโ€™m even more confused that your father wouldโ€™ve asked for aย Consortย when he already had one.โ€

โ€œHe no longer had one when he made that deal,โ€ Ash corrected quietly. โ€œMy motherโ€ฆshe died during the birthing.โ€

My lips parted as sorrow rose within meโ€”sadness I didnโ€™t want to feel for him. I tried to shut it down, but I couldnโ€™t. It sat on my chest like a boulder.

โ€œDonโ€™t apologize.โ€ He stretched his neck from side to side. โ€œI donโ€™t tell you this to make you feel sorry for me.โ€

โ€œI know,โ€ I said, clearing my throat. I resisted the urge to ask how theyโ€™d died. I wanted to know, but instinct told me the more I knew about their deaths, the harder it would be for me to do what I must. โ€œThis is why you never collected on the deal.โ€

โ€œYou never consented to it.โ€

The ball of tension inside my chest tightened even further when it shouldโ€™ve loosened. As did the knowledge that he hadnโ€™t been the one to make the deal that had made me what I was today. A killer. A deal that had taken away every choice I could make. A deal that had set my life on a path that would ultimately end with the loss of my life.

But, gods, I wished he had. Because I could hold onto that. I could convince myself that he was getting what was coming to him. I could justify my actions.

โ€œYou didnโ€™t consent, either,โ€ I stated flatly, looking up at him.

He watched me in that intense way of his. His gaze flicked away. โ€œNo, I did not.โ€

I looked down at my drink, no longer feeling as if I would be sick. Instead, I felt like I wanted to cry. And, gods, when had I cried last? โ€œDo you know why your father asked for a Consort?โ€

โ€œI have asked that question myself a thousand times.โ€ Ash laughed, but there was no humor to the sound. โ€œI have no idea why he did it. Why he

would ask for a mortal as a Consort. He died loving my mother. It made no sense.โ€

It really didnโ€™t, which made all of this so much more frustrating. โ€œWhy didnโ€™t you come to me at any point and tell me this?โ€ I asked. It wouldnโ€™t have changed anything, but maybe it could have? Perhaps we could have found another way.

โ€œI considered itโ€”more than onceโ€”but the less contact I had with you, the better. That is why Lathan often watched over you.โ€

Watched over me? โ€œThe one who was killed?โ€

โ€œHe was aโ€ฆtrusted guard,โ€ he said, and I caught that he did not refer to him as a friend then. โ€œHe knew about the deal my father made, and he knew I had no intention of fulfilling it. But that didnโ€™t mean that others wouldnโ€™t learn that a mortal had been promised as my Consort. Either because of your family speaking about the deal, or because you were marked at birth, born in a shroud because of the deal.โ€

My breath caught as a shiver danced along the nape of my neck.

โ€œAnd that mark, while unseen by mortals and most, can be felt at times. That would make some curious about you.โ€ Ash drew his booted foot off the table. โ€œIt was Lathan who noticed the godsโ€™ activity in Lasaniaโ€”the ones we saw that night.โ€

โ€œThe ones that killed the Kazin siblings and the child? Andreia?โ€

โ€œThere was some concern that they may have felt this mark and were searching for it.โ€

My stomach hollowed. โ€œYou think they died because of me? Because they were looking for me?โ€

โ€œAt first, possibly.โ€ He tapped his fingers on his knee. โ€œBut who they killed never really made sense or fit a pattern, other than the possibility that they all mightโ€™ve had a god perched somewhere on their family trees. Thatโ€™s the only thing I could figure out. They werenโ€™t true godlings, but they couldโ€™ve been descendants of a god.โ€

โ€œGodlings?โ€ I repeated, brows pinching.

โ€œThe offspring of a mortal and a god,โ€ he explained. โ€œIf a godling then has a child with a mortal, that child would carry some mark upon them, too, but they would not be a godling.โ€

I understood then. Children could be born of a mortal and a god but it was rareโ€”or at least that was what Iโ€™d believed. โ€œI havenโ€™t heard them called that before.โ€

โ€œIt is a term we use. Some of them will have certain godly abilities, depending on how powerful the parentage is. Most godlings live in Iliseeum,โ€ he continued, his lips pursed. โ€œOnly the seamstress was someone you seemed to have had any contact with. And as far as we know, what was done to her wasnโ€™t done to the others.โ€

There was a little relief there. I didnโ€™t want their blood on my hands. There was already enough. โ€œThe Kazin siblings? Magus? Apparently, he was a guard, but I donโ€™t know if I ever saw him or if he was even stationed at Wayfair.โ€

A thoughtful look crept into Ashโ€™s face. โ€œStill, if you did not know him nor the seamstress well, I donโ€™t see how their deaths are related to you.โ€

I didnโ€™t either. But it also seemedโ€ฆtoo close to me. โ€œHave you found out anything more related to what was done to Andreia?โ€

โ€œNothing. No one has heard of such a thing, even a mortal with the possibility of a god somewhere in their family line. And, yes, I find the lack of information to be beyond frustrating.โ€

It must not be often that a Primal couldnโ€™t figure something out.

Another thought rose. โ€œWas Lathan mortal?โ€

The breath Ash let out was long. โ€œHe was a godling. I shouldโ€™ve corrected your assumption.โ€

But would it have been necessary? Godling or mortal, a life was a life. โ€œHow did he die?โ€

โ€œHe tried to stop them.โ€ His features were unreadable as he stared out the balcony doors. โ€œHe was overpowered and outnumbered. He knew better, but he did it anyway.โ€ Ash finished his drink. โ€œEither way, I didnโ€™t come to you because I didnโ€™t want to risk revealing you to those who would seek to use you.โ€

โ€œYour enemies?โ€ I asked. โ€œDo those gods serve the Court of a Primal who likes to push you?โ€

โ€œThey do.โ€

โ€œBut why would any Primal or god believe that what happens to me would sway you?โ€

โ€œWhy wouldnโ€™t they? They would not have known my intentions regarding you, especially if they had no knowledge of the deal my father made.โ€ His gaze cut to me. โ€œThey would have no reason not to believe you were important to me.โ€

He was right.

I realized in that moment that Iโ€™d spent a lifetime believing that the Primal of Death was a cold, apathetic being because of what he represented. Iโ€™d been wrong. Ash wasnโ€™t either of those things. He knew that each death left a mark. He understood the power of choice. I even thought of what Aios had said. That there had to be a reason she felt safe with him and trusted him. Ash cared, and I was willing to bet there was more than one decent bone in his body.

And none of that helped. At all.

My duty was bigger than meโ€”than what I felt. But it hadnโ€™t been him whoโ€™d forced that duty upon me.

โ€œThank you,โ€ I whispered, and the words still felt strange on my lips.

They hurt a little this time.

His gaze returned to me. โ€œFor what?โ€

I let out a short laugh. โ€œFor having that one decent bone in your body.โ€

A faint smiled appeared. โ€œAre you hungry? I know the cooks sent up some soup, but I can have more of whatever you want made.โ€

I wished heโ€™d refuse me food. โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€ I dragged my finger over the beveled edges of the glass. Another question rose from the endless cyclone of them. โ€œAre there anyโ€ฆconsequences for you?โ€ A surprising, unwanted and wholly hypocritical dose of concern blossomed within me. โ€œI mean, from what I understand of the deals, they require fulfillment from all parties involved.โ€

โ€œThere are no consequences, Sera.โ€

I eyed him. Heโ€™d answered without hesitation. Maybe even too quickly, but that wasnโ€™t a concern of mine. At all. โ€œHow long had Lathan been keeping an eye on me?โ€

โ€œIt wasnโ€™t until the last three years, when you were moreโ€ฆactive,โ€ he told me. โ€œDoes it make you angry to know that?โ€

It was really weird to know that someone had been keeping an eye on me without my knowledge. Of course, I didnโ€™t like it, but it wasnโ€™t that simple. โ€œIโ€™m not sure,โ€ I admitted. โ€œI donโ€™t know if I should feel angry or not.โ€ However, it did make me think of all the weird and dumb things Lathan could have witnessed. But it made sense that there wouldโ€™ve been no need to keep an eye on me before the night of my seventeenth birthday. Before then, Iโ€™d only ever left Wayfair to travel into the Dark Elms outside

of a few, rare occasions. โ€œWhy did you have him do that? You didnโ€™t know me. You didnโ€™t make the deal. You have no obligation to me.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s a good question.โ€ Ashโ€™s thundercloud-hued eyes drilled into mine. โ€œMaybe if I hadnโ€™t, I wouldnโ€™t have been there that night to stop you from attacking those gods. They wouldโ€™ve killed you. And, perhaps, that wouldโ€™ve been a better fate for you.โ€

Ice drenched my skin as he continued holding my stare. Air thinned in my chest.

โ€œBecause now here we are. Youโ€™re in the Shadowlands. And soon, you will be known as the Consort,โ€ Ash said. โ€œMy enemies will become yours.โ€

 

 

Sleep came surprisingly easy after Ash left, leaving me with even more questions. I expected to do nothing but lay in bed and dwell on everything heโ€™d shared, but either I was exhausted, or I simply wanted to escape everything Iโ€™d discovered. I slept deeply, and it felt like a long time before I woke. I had no idea how many hours had passed. The sky was the same shade of gray, still full of stars, but a dull twinge had taken up residence in my upper shoulders. When I checked them in the standing mirror, the wounds appeared significantly less red and swollen. Whatever was in that balm Ash had used was a miracle.

Cinching the sash on my robe, I walked to the balcony doors and opened them. The gray sky was full of stars and no clouds as I walked to the railing overlooking the canopy of blood-colored leaves and the twinkling lights of the city beyond.

Iโ€™d learned so much that my thoughts raced from one thing to the next, but they kept coming back around.

Ash hadnโ€™t made the deal.

Sucking in a sharp breath, I closed my eyes as I gripped the railing. It had been his father, for reasons known only to him. A great bit of unease still festered in the pit of my stomach. It wasnโ€™t right that Ash should pay with his life for what his father had done. It wasnโ€™t right that I would also pay with mine.

Nothing about this was fair.

The smooth stone pressed into my palms as I continued to squeeze the railing. Nothing had changed, though. It couldnโ€™t. The Rot had to be stopped, and Ashโ€ฆhe was the Primal of Death, the one who now held the deal. I had to fulfill my duty. If I didnโ€™t, Lasania would fall. People would continue dying. There would be more families like the Coupers, no matter who took the Crown.

Was one life more important than tens of thousands? Millions? Even if it was a Primal? But what would happen if I managed to succeed? If he fell in love with me, and I became his weakness, what kind of wrath would his death force upon the realms? How many lives would be lost until another Primal took his spot?

A Primal that didnโ€™t have a kind and decent bone in their body. Who didnโ€™t think highly of freedom and consent. A Primal who didnโ€™t interfere when others took delight in violence. Who didnโ€™t care about murdered descendants that carried some small trace of godly blood within them.

โ€œGods,โ€ I whispered, stomach twisting. How could Iโ€ฆhow could I do this? How could I hide this mess of emotion from him, stop it from piercing whatever walls he had built around himself?

How could I not?

The people of Lasania were more important than my distaste of what I must do. They were more important than Ash. Than me.

Opening my eyes, I jerked back from the railing as movement from the courtyard below snagged my attention. I scanned the ground, breath catching as I recognized Ashโ€™s tall, broad form. Even from a distance, I knew it was him. A breeze moved across the courtyard, tossing the loose strands of his hair around his shoulders. His strides were long and sure as he walked alone, heading toward the cluster of the dark red trees.

What was he doing?

A knock on the door drew me from my thoughts. Knowing it wasnโ€™t Ash, habit had me reaching for my thigh, but there was no dagger there. No real weapon at all. I went to the door, only to discover that it was Aios.

She flowed into the room with clothing draped over her arm. โ€œGlad youโ€™re awake,โ€ she said. โ€œWe were starting to worry. Youโ€™ve been asleep for a day.โ€

A day?

I blinked as a younger man entered behind her, bowing his head in my direction before placing a covered dish and a glass on the table. The aroma

of food reached me, stirring my nearly empty stomach. He kept his head down, and most of his face was hidden behind a sheet of blond hair. Aios made a beeline for the wardrobe, throwing it open as I watched him turn to leave, noticing that he favored his right leg over his left. It wasnโ€™t until he was closing the door behind him that he looked up, and I saw that his eyes were brown and there was no glow of eather in them.

โ€œI wasnโ€™t sure what youโ€™d like to eat,โ€ Aios said. โ€œSo, I had a little bit of everything made. Please eat before it gets cold.โ€

Somewhat in a daze, I roamed over to the table and lifted the cloche to reveal a mound of fluffy eggs, a few strips of bacon, a biscuit, and a small bowl of fruit. I stared at the food for several moments, unable to remember the last time Iโ€™d had warm eggs. I sat slowly, my gaze falling to the glass of orange juice. For some reason, the back of my throat burned. I closed my eyes, wrangling my emotions. It was just warm eggs and bacon. That was all. When I was positive that I had control of myself, I opened my eyes and slowly picked up the fork. I tasted the eggs and nearly moaned. Cheese. There was melted cheese in them. I nearly devoured the entire mound in less than a minute.

โ€œYouโ€™ll be happy to know that I was able to find some clothing for you,โ€ Aios said as she hung the items inside the wardrobe.

Forcing myself to slow down, I looked over my shoulder at her. I thought of the glow in her eyes. โ€œYouโ€™re a goddess, right?โ€

Aios faced me with a quizzical lift to her brows. โ€œOn most days.โ€

I cracked a grin. โ€œAnd the young man that was just here. Is he aโ€ฆa godling?โ€

She shook her head as she turned back to the wardrobe, hanging what appeared to be a gray sweater. โ€œHave you ever met a godling?โ€

โ€œNot that I know of,โ€ I admitted, thinking of Andreia. โ€œI donโ€™t know much about them.โ€

โ€œWhat would you like to know?โ€ she said, turning from the wardrobe. โ€œEverything.โ€

Aios laughed softly, the sound warm and airy. โ€œFinish eating, and Iโ€™ll tell you.โ€

For once, I didnโ€™t mind being told what to do. I broke apart the toasted, buttery biscuit as Aios said, โ€œMost godlings are mortal. They carry no essence of the gods in them. Therefore, they live and die just like any other mortal.โ€

I thought of how Ash had said that most godlings lived in Iliseeum. โ€œDo they typically reside in the mortal realm?โ€

โ€œSome do. Others choose to live in Iliseeum. But for those who carry the eather in their blood, itโ€™s usually because their mother or father was a powerful god. That eather is passed down to them.โ€

Was that the case for the Kazin siblings? One of them, or maybe even the babe, had enough eather in them to make them a godling? The babe with the missingย father? Or did they just have a trace? Either way, why would the gods kill them?

โ€œFor the first eighteen to twenty years of life, they live relatively mortal lives,โ€ she continued, snapping my attention back to her. โ€œThey may not even know that they carry the blood of the gods in them. But they soon will.โ€

โ€œThe Culling?โ€ I guessed, picking up a slice of bacon.

She nodded. โ€œYes. They will begin to go through the Culling. That is when some learn that they are not completely mortal.โ€

My brows lifted. โ€œThat would be one hell of a way to find out.โ€

โ€œThat it would be.โ€ Her head tilted, sending several long locks of red hair cascading over a shoulder. โ€œBut for most, they donโ€™t survive the change. You see, their bodies are still mortal. And as the Culling sets in, and the eather in them begins to multiply and grow, infiltrating every part of them, their bodies canโ€™t facilitate such a process. They die.โ€

โ€œThatโ€ฆโ€ I shook my head as I dropped the slice of bacon back onto the plate. โ€œThe eather sounds like a weed growing out of control in their bodies.โ€

Aios let out a surprised laugh. โ€œI suppose that is one way to look at it. Or maybe, for some, a beautiful garden. Those who survive the Culling will then age much, much slower than mortals. Basically, for every three or so decades a mortal lives, it is equivalent to one year for a godling.โ€

What mortal lived to a hundred? Odetta had to have been close. โ€œThat sounds like immortality to me.โ€

โ€œGodlings can live for thousands of years if theyโ€™re careful. They are susceptible to very few illnesses. But theyโ€™re not asโ€ฆimpervious to injuries as the gods and Primals are,โ€ she explained. โ€œFor that reason, most godlings who survive the Culling live in Iliseeum.โ€

That made sense. A five-hundred-year-old person who looked as if they were twenty would definitely draw attention. That was also probably why

we believed that the children of mortals and godsโ€”godlingsโ€”were rare. A thought struck me, causing my stomach to twist. โ€œCan Primals and mortals have children?โ€

She shook her head. โ€œA Primal is an entirely different being in that way.โ€

I took a drink of the juice to hide my relief. It could take monthsโ€ฆor even years to fulfill my duty. I didnโ€™t want to bring a child into this only to leave them orphaned like Ash had been.

Like, in some ways, I had been.

My hand trembled slightly as I placed the glass down. โ€œSo how do some survive, while others donโ€™t?โ€

โ€œIt all depends on whether a god assisted the godling,โ€ she said, reaching up to toy with the chain around her neck. โ€œThat is the only way a godling survives.โ€

โ€œAnd how would a god assist them?โ€

She grinned, a mischievous sort of look filling her golden eyes. โ€œYou may find such information to be quite scandalous.โ€

โ€œDoubtful,โ€ I murmured.

Aios laughed again. โ€œWell, all right, then.โ€ The hem of her flared sweater swished around her knees as she drifted closer. โ€œThey need to feed from a god.โ€

I leaned forward. โ€œI assume you do not mean the type of food I just consumed?โ€

โ€œNo.โ€ Her grin spread as she lifted a finger to her rosy lips. She tapped a fingernail off one delicate fang. โ€œThey do not grow these, but they will need blood. Quite a bit of it at first. And then, every so often once the Culling is complete.โ€

โ€œDo all gods need to feed?โ€ I asked. โ€œLike that?โ€ She sat on the chair opposite me. โ€œYes.โ€

My stomach tumbled a bit. Iโ€™d obviously known that they couldโ€ฆbite, but I hadnโ€™t known it was something they had to do.

A bit of her smile faded. โ€œDoes that bother you?โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ I said quickly. โ€œI mean, the idea of drinking blood makes me a little nauseous.โ€

โ€œAs it would for most who are not like us.โ€

But Iโ€ฆI also remembered the scrape of Ashโ€™s fangs against my skin. I felt myself flush. โ€œDo you all feed off mortals?โ€

Aios arched a brow as she watched me. โ€œWe can. It does the same for us as feeding off a god would.โ€

My gaze flicked back to Aiosโ€™s beautiful face. Who did Ash feed from? โ€œAre Primals the same?โ€

โ€œThey do not need to feed unless theyโ€™ve experienced some sort of weakening.โ€ Her fingers returned to the chain. โ€œWhich isnโ€™t often.โ€

โ€œOh,โ€ I murmured, not exactly thrilled with the buzz of relief I felt. Something occurred to me. โ€œDoes anything happen to the mortal when a Primal or god feeds off them?โ€

โ€œNo. Not if weโ€™re careful. Obviously, a mortal may feel the effects of the feeding more than any of us would, and if we were to take too much, thenโ€ฆwell, it would be a tragedy if they were not third sons or daughters.โ€ Her lips tensed. โ€œItโ€™s forbidden to Ascend themโ€”to save them.โ€

Curiosity trickled through me. โ€œWhy?โ€

Tension bracketed her mouth. โ€œThey would become what we call demis

โ€”a being with godlike power that was never meant to carry such a giftโ€ฆ and burden. They are something else.โ€

I frowned, thinking that wasnโ€™t much of an answer.

โ€œBut to answer your original question,โ€ she continued, changing the subject, โ€œthe young man who was in here? His name is Paxton, and heโ€™s completely mortal.โ€

So manyย moreย questions flooded me. Surprise flickered through me. โ€œWhat is a mortal doing here?โ€

โ€œMany mortals live in Iliseeum,โ€ she told me, and it was clear that she thought that was common knowledge.

โ€œAre they allโ€ฆlovers?โ€ I fiddled with the sash on the robe, thinking Paxton appeared far too young for that.

โ€œSome have befriended a god or became their lover.โ€ She lifted a shoulder. โ€œOthers have talents that appealed to one of the gods. For many of them, coming to Iliseeum was an opportunity to start over. Their paths are all different.โ€

An opportunity to start over. My heart skipped. Wouldnโ€™t that be nice? I glanced down at my plate. There was no starting over, no other paths. There never had been.

โ€œMay I ask you something?โ€ Aios asked, and I looked up, nodding. โ€œDid you know?โ€ She had come closer, her voice lower. โ€œAbout the deal, before he came for you?โ€

โ€œI did.โ€

โ€œStill, that mustโ€™ve been a lot to deal with.โ€ Aios clasped her hands together. โ€œTo know you had been promised to a Primal.โ€

โ€œIt was, but I learned a while ago that if you canโ€™t deal with something, youย findย a way to do so,โ€ I said. โ€œYou have to.โ€

A far-off look crept into Aiosโ€™s features as she nodded slowly. โ€œYes, you have to.โ€ She cleared her throat, rising abruptly and making her way to the wardrobe. โ€œBy the way, I was able to find two gowns that I believe will fit. But Nyktos mentioned that you preferred pants over gowns.โ€

I rose slowly and tentatively walked forward. Heโ€™d thought enough to mention that to Aios?

โ€œI couldnโ€™t get my hands on any tights, but these breeches should fit you.โ€ Aios tugged on a pair of fawn-colored pants and then on a black pair sheโ€™d hung. โ€œI hope these are sufficient.โ€

โ€œActually, I prefer them over tights. Theyโ€™re thicker and have pockets.โ€

She nodded, flipping through the items sheโ€™d hung. โ€œYou have some long-sleeved blouses, vests, and sweaters. Theyโ€™re a bit plain,โ€ she said, running a hand over something silky and pale. โ€œThere are two nightgowns here for you and some basic undergarments. I imagine youโ€™ll soon have many more items to choose from.โ€ Turning to me, she once again folded her hands. โ€œIs there anything else you need?โ€

I opened my mouth, reluctant to let her leave. Iโ€™d spent the vast majority of my life alone and left to my own devices. But this room was huge, and nothing about it was familiar. I shook my head.

Aios had just started for the door when I stopped her. โ€œI do have one more question.โ€

โ€œYes?โ€

โ€œAre you from the Shadowlands Court?โ€ I asked.

She shook her head. โ€œI once belonged to the Court of Kithreia.โ€

It took me a moment to recall what I had learned about the different Courts. โ€œMaia,โ€ I said, surprising myself by remembering the name of the Primal of Love, Beauty, and Fertilityโ€™s Court. โ€œYou served the Primal Maia?โ€

โ€œAt one time.โ€

Curiosity buzzed within me. I hadnโ€™t known that any gods left the Primal they were born to serve. โ€œHow did you end up here?โ€

Her shoulders tensed. โ€œAs I mentioned before, it was the only place I knew would be safe.โ€

Feeling unsettled, I didnโ€™t stop her as she left. While I took some comfort in knowing she felt safe here, I couldnโ€™t help but wonder how secure it could truly be when those who liked to push the Primal of Death had strung those gods to the wall.

That was around the time I realized that Ash hadnโ€™t told me who had done that to the gods.

I turned back to the wardrobe. The undergarments were nothing more than scraps of lace that I imagined most would find indecent. I flipped past the gowns and found a narrow leather strap beside the remaining clothing. I grabbed a sweater and breeches and changed into them.

After locating a comb and spending an inordinate amount of time working out the numerous knots in my hair, I braided it, recalling Ashโ€™s words about hair that looked like spun moonlight.

That was such a silly thing to say.

Returning to the bedchamber, I found myself staring at the chamber door.

Was I locked in my room?

Oh, gods, if theyโ€™d imprisoned me, I wouldโ€”I didnโ€™t even know what I would do, but it would probably involve finding the closest blunt object and knocking Ash over the head with it.

My heart hammered as I went to the door, bare feet whispering over the cool stone. I placed my hand on the brass knob. I took a deep breath and turned.

It wasnโ€™t locked.

Relief shuddered through me, and I opened the doorโ€”

I gasped. A light-haired and fair-skinned god stood in the middle of the hall, facing my room. He was dressed as before, in black adorned with silver scrollwork across the chest, a short sword strapped to his side.

โ€œEctor,โ€ I squeaked. โ€œHi.โ€ โ€œHello.โ€

โ€œCan I help you with something?โ€

He shook his head, remaining exactly where he stood, feet planted in the center of the hall like an unmovable tree.

Waitโ€ฆ

I inhaled sharply. โ€œI doubt youโ€™re standing there because you have nothing better to do, correct?โ€

โ€œI have many, many better things I could be doing,โ€ he replied. โ€œAnd yet, youโ€™re standing guard outside my chamber?โ€

โ€œSure appears that way.โ€

Anger simmered, threatening to boil over. What good did an unlocked door do whenย heย placed a guard outside my room? โ€œYouโ€™re here to make sure I donโ€™t leave my chambers.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m here for your safety,โ€ Ector corrected. โ€œIโ€™ve also heard you tend to wander off into dangerous areas.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t have a habit of roaming.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sorry. Maybe I misheard and itโ€™s that you have a habit of entering places without making sure theyโ€™re secure.โ€

โ€œOh, well, now Iย knowย you spoke to Ash.โ€

โ€œAsh?โ€ Ector repeated. His brows rose. โ€œI didnโ€™t know you two were on that kind of name basis.โ€

And he wasnโ€™t?ย I am not that to you.ย That was what Ash had said when Iโ€™d called him Nyktos.

I blew out an aggravated breath. It didnโ€™t matter. โ€œIf I wanted to leave my room right now, would you stop me?โ€

โ€œAt the moment, yes.โ€ โ€œWhy?โ€

โ€œBecause if something were to happen to you, I imagineย Nyktosย would probably be displeased.โ€

โ€œProbably?โ€ Ector shrugged.

โ€œWhat about later?โ€ I demanded.

โ€œThat will be different, and we would have to see.โ€

โ€œHave to see?โ€ I laughed harshly. Unbelievable. โ€œWhere is he?โ€ โ€œHeโ€™s busy at the moment.โ€

โ€œAnd I imagine he canโ€™t be interrupted?โ€ Ector nodded.

โ€œSo, what am I supposed to do?โ€ I asked. โ€œStay in my room until he isnโ€™t busy?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not entirely sure what youโ€™re supposed to do.โ€ Amber eyes met mine. โ€œAnd to be honest, I donโ€™t think evenย heย knows what to do with you.โ€

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