ARWEN HAD A SULTRY,ย CURVED LOCK OF HAIR HANGING IN FRONT OF
her face as she sipped her ale. It was silky smooth and shiny in the flickering lanterns of the tavern. I wanted very badly to tuck the
chocolate strand behind her ear. So badly, it was making my palms sweat.
What kind of masochist tells the woman he loves that heโs in love with her, knowing full well she doesnโt feel the same? Perhaps the same idiot masochist who makes her come with his tongue and then swears never to do it again. Both reckless choices had turned merely being around Arwen into torture.
And now I was sweating over a lock of hair. Arwen raised a brow at me. โAre you all right?โ
โJust fine.โ I downed the rest of my drink. โCan we get another round?โ
The barmaid was a slim woman with a chest too large for her frame. She replaced our empty mugs with fresh, overflowing ones and flashed us a bright smile. I took in the tavern around us, growing busier as the light bled from the sky.
โAre you even thirsty, or do you just like when the pretty server fawns over you?โ
โCareful, bird, your talons are showing.โ โAm I wrong?โ
I put down my ale and appraised her. โYouโre a very jealous woman, do you know that?โ
โThatโs rude.โ
โAm I wrong?โ I mimicked.
Arwen blew out a breath. โNo, I guess not. Itโs kind of horrible, isnโt it?โ โFor you, perhaps. Envy is the poison we feed ourselves.โ
She took a sip of her ale and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. โI spent a long time feeling less than. And lonely . . . Itโs my default now, to assume nobody will pick me first. That youโll find other women prettier, thatโโ
โMari would rather befriend Ryder?โ
โIโm going to work on it.โ She grimaced. โI think I actually might owe Amelia an apology.โ
โIf it helps, I have eyes for none but you.โ
It was true, and despite the pain, there was potent relief in being honest with her. I took another swallow of the frothy spirit. When Arwen said nothing, I couldnโt help but add, โYou, on the other hand, seem to have eyes for many royal men. Is that a power thing?โ
Her pinched little nose was going to be the death of me. Why did I love to torment her so?
โYou are truly insufferable,โ she snipped, amusement in her eyes. โItโs a wonder anyone puts up with you at all.โ
โIโm not sure anyone does.โ
We had been seated at a sticky table with one short leg that made for an irritating wobble, and when I placed my forearm against its surface, I accidentally sent our full mugs of ale sloshing.
โYou and I especially,โ she said, stabilizing the table with both hands while I wiped up the spilled ale, โseem to fight like schoolchildren.โ
โDo you remember Lady Kleio and Sir Phylip?โ I asked, throwing the ale-covered napkins into the barrel behind her as she ducked.
โYes, theyโre two of your nobles. They hate each other.โ โTheyโre married.โ
Arwenโs eyes lit. โYouโre kidding me.โ โWill be twenty years this winter.โ
โThey canโt be happy, though. They tore each other to bits in that forum.โ
โThey challenge each other. Theyโre rather sweet together, actually.โ
Arwen glanced out the foggy window behind her. The cloud cover was so thick outside it was hard to tell what time it was, but I knew we had been here at least four hours.
โArwenโโ
โIโm not giving up on her.โ
I swallowed a sigh, her determination as impressive as it was frustrating. โBird, you donโt even know the girl.โ
Arwen maneuvered to peer out a different window, the one to my right. โYou can fly back to Shadowhold. Iโll find my own way there later tonight. Maybe Iโll hitchhike.โ
โYouโre hilarious,โ I said dryly.
โLetโs get one last round from your cute friend and give Esmeโs daughter another hour. Then weโll go.โ She trained her eyes on mine with sincerity. โPlease? I have a feeling about this.โ
โSure.โ I wasnโt in a rush to leave, really. I had everything that mattered to me right here in this tavern.
โWant to play roses and thorns?โ
I nearly spat my drink out. โIsnโt that a sex game?โ
The look of horror on Arwenโs face was worth all the coin in my kingdom. โNo! What is wrong with you? Itโs a childrenโs game.โ She shook her head. โBleeding Stones, Kane.โ
I laughed hard into my mug. โAll right, teach me this childrenโs game.โ
She tucked her hair behind her ears, finally moving the rebellious strand from its spot against her cheek. โYour rose is the best part of your day, and your thorn is the worst. My mother used to do this with us each night at dinner when I was growing up.โ A flicker of sorrow danced across her face, there and gone in an instant. โIโll go first so you can see how itโs done. My rose was coming here, to Cragโs Hollow. I love the sea air, the gloomy sky, the bustling town. Iโm grateful I got to see it.โ
Her love for my favorite town in Evendell made something soft and gentle swirl in my heart.
โAnd my thornโโ Arwen sighed. โAlmost everything else in my life, if Iโm being honest.โ
I narrowed my eyes at her. โFun game.โ
โItโs not usually this depressing.โ She looked to both windows once more. Still no sign of the little seer.
โMy turn?โ Arwen nodded.
โMy rose is getting to spend an entire afternoon in here with you.โ
Arwenโs eyes grew brighter, and it was enough to make my honesty well worth it.
โAnd my thorn,โ I said with a wicked smile, โis that I didnโtโโ
But her expression lit with surprise at something behind me, and I turned in the direction of her eyeline. There, a tiny brunette girl, nearly skin and bones, was pushing her way through the boisterous crowd. She was the spitting image of her mother, that same warm, brown hairโhers shorn to look more boyishโhuge dark eyes, and pointed, dainty chin. She couldnโt have been more than seven.
Arwen leapt from our table, sending it wobbling once more and nearly knocking our empty mugs to the floor. I narrowly righted the table in time before strolling after her.
โHello,โ Arwen said to the girl brightly. โYou must be Esmeโs daughter.
Iโm Arwen, and this is Kane.โ
โYouโre just as you look in my visions,โ the girl said.
A chill broke out along my spine. Arwen faltered for words but the girl only stood there, jostled by patrons, eyes full and solid and unwavering. The pub was growing livelier as the evening settled in, and I could barely hear my own thoughts. โHere, follow me.โ
Arwen offered a hand, but the girl didnโt take it, choosing instead to trail us out of the tavern and onto the cobblestone streets. I led them around the corner into a narrow alleyway wedged between a fish market laden with tentacles and scales in crates of crushed ice, and a candy shop with rows of bright green apples dipped in butterscotch.
Arwen leaned down to meet the girlโs eyeline. โWhatโs your name?โ
โBeth.โ
โHow did you know to come find us, Beth?โ โI overheard you. In my motherโs shop.โ
โYouโre very bright,โ Arwen said with a wry smile.
โYou were loud.โ Her voice was ice-cold. Devoid of any emotion. Likely thanks to years of seeing things far beyond what she shouldโ moments she had never and would never liveโlove and death and loss.
โI know what you seek,โ Beth continued. โBut I donโt know where the blade is. My visions of it are too fleeting.โ
I had lost faith in vague leads such as these a long while ago, but Arwen straightened beside me and grasped my wrist tightly. โWeโll take anything you can give us.โ
Beth, showing her age for the first time, fisted her hands in her trousers and cast her eyes down to the gray stone beneath us. A briny wind carried over the scent of fish from the shop next door. โThe blade has been in Onyx all along. It never left.โ
โThatโs not possible,โ I said, not unkindly. โIt was stolen from my vault five years ago. The entire keepโthe entire kingdom was searched.โ
Beth shook her head with vehemence, those dark, haunting eyes still downcast. โIโm never wrong. Even when I want to be.โ
Arwen swallowed hard and straightened to stand beside me. It seemed at once we both suffered the realization that the seerโs gift had been more of a curse on the young girl.
โThe Blade of the Sun is in Onyx. I have visions of it, thrown beneath heaps of other weapons. Tied to another master, but yearning to be paired with its mate.โ She turned to face Arwen. โYou.โ
The color had seeped from Arwenโs face, leaving her even paler than usual. โWhat do you know of me?โ
โYou are the final Fae of full blood born at last. As my nana said you would be. Daughter of the Gods.โ
Daughter of theย what?
โWhat does that mean?โ Arwen pleaded, crouching down to the young girlโs eyeline once more.
โYou donโt know?โ Bethโs depthless eyes met mine. โNeither of us do. Can you share?โ
She opened her mouth, but mustโve thought better of it and instead took a step back. โWhat about my father?โ
โWeโll find him for you, I promise,โ Arwen swore to her. I fought against my tensing muscles. The man was likely dead. It was a daring oath to make.
โThe king beside you thinks he is dead.โ
I bit my tongue. โA seer and a mind reader. Quite a lot of lighte youโve got there, Beth.โ
โItโs why my mom keeps me hidden. The world is not safe for Fae like me.โ
She was right. Not as long as Lazarus harvested lighte like wheat in a field. โThen why trust us?โ
Arwen shot me a devastating glare, and I shrugged at her. โI know what you fight for.โ
โWe will do our best to find your father, and if he is alive, we will return him to you and your mother,โ Arwen said. โIf I can find the blade, I will kill Lazarus. I will fight to give you a world in which you do not have to hide.โ
โYou will die,โ Beth said, devoid of emotion, and I tried to ignore the way three words from the mouth of a seven-year-old nearly brought me to my knees.
Arwen, to her credit, kept her voice even. โI know.โ
Beth turned to face Lake Stygian. The sun had disappeared behind Hemlock Isle in the distance, and the night had become chilling and forlorn. โThe story your mother told you was true. She met your father in a tavern, and they spent the night together. He left the next morning and she
never saw him again.โ
โSo sheย wasย my mother? How is that possible? Was she a full-blooded Fae, too?โ
โNo. She was mortal. Carrying a full-blooded Fae to term in her womb made her ill. She should have died, from the lighte that poisoned her. But
your abilities healed her over and over again. Eventually, she grew immune, and the months of holding a powerful being inside her took their toll.โ
โYouโre saying Iโkilled my own mother?โ
Beth, not one for sympathy, only nodded. โBut she knew what you were.
Your father told her the truth.โ
Arwen stalled, unable to find words to respond.
โAnd what was that?โ I asked, words forming around my own shock. We needed to wrap this up before Arwenโs shattered heart took some final blow it couldnโt withstand.
Beth brought her chin up to face me. โThat he was a Fae God. And he would father the final full-blooded Fae. A chosen one, a prophesied savior of Fae and mortal alike. And that it was unlikely she would survive the pregnancy.โ
โBut she did,โ Arwen said. Not a question. โShe survived.โ โYou healed her.โ
Arwen shook her head. โAnd then sheย lived. Even after I couldnโt heal her anymore.โ
โYes,โ Beth said, face almost careless.
Arwenโs brows pinched together, and her voice broke as she asked,
โWhy?โ
It could have killed me, to hear so much pain in her voice. I reached for her, but she was fragile, her emotions too precariousโlater. Iโd try somehow to soothe her later. I flexed my fingers and folded them into my pocket.
โI can only tell you what happened, or what will happen. Not why.โ โPerhaps it was her love for her children,โ I supplied.
โThat was what her stepfather thought, too.โ
Arwenโs eyes shot from the ground up to Beth. โPowell knew? He knew what I was?โ
โYour mother told him everything.โ
The beatings. Arwen had wondered why he hated her. Now we both knew. He thought she was killing the woman he loved. It was awful. It wasย unfathomable. It wasโ
โThank you, Beth,โ I said, breathing evenly. โCan you tell us one last thing?โ
Beth looked back up to the winding road that led up to her motherโs shop. โI donโt want my mother to come looking for me.โ
โQuickly, then. Is there any other way to kill Lazarus? Is Arwen truly the only one who can defeat him?โ
โI donโt know all that is to come. I only see bits and pieces. I have seen the way of the Crow, if thatโs what youโre asking. Itโs possible, but the cost will be greater to her than her own life.โ
The pit in my stomach expanded with the weight of the girlโs words.
What could cost Arwen more than her very life? The thought terrified me.
โIs there anything else you can tell us about the blade? About where it is in Onyx? About our battle with Lazarus?โ
โYou must defeat him. You are the only hope either realm has.โ โYes.โ I gritted my teeth. โThat I know.โ
I waited for Arwenโs reprimand of my tone, but it never came. She was looking off toward the lake, and I knew then.
I knew that I had lost her.
It mightโve been the clamor of my chest caving in on itself that rang in my ears. โBeth, what is your fatherโs name? What does he look like? Weโll do our best to bring him back to you.โ
For the first time the girlโs eyes lit up as she said, โVaughn. He has dark brown hair that reaches his shoulders, and a beard. I havenโt had a vision of him since they took him weeks ago. If I do, should I write a letter to you?โ
โYes, address it to Lieutenant Eardley at Shadowhold. Thank you for all your help.โ
She turned to leave and made it halfway up the slick road before spinning back to us, horror clouding her youthful eyes.
A chill rippled through me.
โWhat is it?โ Arwen managed to say.
โYouโll . . . youโll have to make the deal. When the time comes, youโll have to.โ
โWhat deal?โ I asked.
Beth stiffened. โI donโt know. I only get pieces . . .โ All I could think to say was โPlease.โ
โHer face will be wet with tears,โ Beth said, motioning to Arwen. โAnd your hands . . . they will be coated in blood.โ
The storm had moved in, and though the buildings beside us offered some cover, rain had begun to drench us both. Before I could say more, Beth ran back up the hill to her motherโs store, and we watched until her silhouette disappeared into the mist.