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Chapter no 25 – ARWEN

A Promise of Peridot (The Sacred Stones, #2)

I STUMBLED PAST KANE,ย OUT INTO THE MERCILESS RAIN.ย MY BURNS SINGED

against the wet cotton of my shirt.

Please be all right, please be all right.

โ€œArwen!โ€ Kane called after me, but I could hardly hear him over the sloshing of my shoes.

I flung the canvas of Fedrikโ€™s tent open.

Mari and Griffin were sitting on either side of him. I went still. Fedrik looked like a corpse.

His usual radiance had been replaced with a ghoulish, gray pallor and he was sweating, despite the wind and chill of the tropical storm.

And his leg.

His poor, ruined leg. Someoneโ€”my guess was Griffinโ€”had done as much as they could, wrapping the pulverized thing in bandages and a tourniquet, but it was not enough. Based on the blotchy plum and dull blue under his skin, he was bleeding internally, and even if we could get him to an infirmary, he would likely lose the leg below the knee. I needed my lighte to heal him tonight if he had any shot of keeping the limb.

โ€œItโ€™s fine,โ€ Fedrik croaked before I could speak. โ€œNot as bad as it looks.โ€ โ€œNo, it is,โ€ I cautioned. โ€œItโ€™s actually far worse than it looks. Youโ€™re just

very handsome.โ€

A tiny bit of that exceptional Fedrik glow inched its way back into his eyes. But not enough. Not nearly enough.

โ€œYouโ€™re here,โ€ he said. โ€œThatโ€™s whatโ€™s important.โ€

My stomach sank. โ€œNo, no,ย no,โ€ I muttered. My lighte was coming back too slowly. โ€œI canโ€™tโ€”โ€ How could I explain? โ€œI canโ€™t heal very well right now.โ€

โ€œNo.โ€ Fedrik laughedโ€”a dry, rattling sound. โ€œI meant only . . . youโ€™re alive.โ€

Kane slipped into the now very crowded tent behind me. His woodsy scent was amplified by the rain, and it assaulted my nostrils. I whirled on him, wincing at the pinching from my burns, and slammed a fist into his chest.

โ€œHow could you not have told me when I first woke?โ€ I seethed. โ€œAnd after all that you said about being lessโ€”โ€

Fedrik interrupted my tirade. โ€œI asked him not to.โ€ โ€œBegged, actually,โ€ Kane amended.

I spun to Fedrik. โ€œWhy?โ€

โ€œKane said when he found you, you were in rough shape and needed to rest.โ€ Fedrikโ€™s eyes met mine, pain sweeping across his face. But not for himself . . . for me. โ€œItโ€™s just a leg,โ€ he said, more buoyantly. โ€œI do have two, you know.โ€

โ€œOh, stop.โ€ It almost came out like a sob. โ€œYou have made a life of exploring. Climbing, hikingโ€”โ€ I shook my head. โ€œOf course, you can do all that with one leg, but . . .โ€

โ€œHe canโ€™t do it at all if heโ€™s dead,โ€ Mari muttered. โ€œMari!โ€ I snipped at her.

Fedrik stiffened a little.

โ€œSheโ€™s just being theatrical,โ€ Griffin reassured Fedrik. โ€œIโ€™ve seen worse on the battlefield.โ€

Griffin was lying, and if I could tell, Fedrik could, too.

They hadnโ€™t taken him into town. I had to believe that wasnโ€™t just to avoid the prying eyes of enemy soldiers. They had been waiting for me. To fix him. And I had returned without my lighte. I was sure it was the only reason Kane had kept me in the darkโ€”he knew there was nothing I could do.

Well, even if I had no lighte to use, I was still a healer. I could still help.

I crouched to sit beside Fedrik. โ€œIโ€™m going to try to set your leg. I need two long, sturdy branches, and as many bandages as we have,โ€ I said to Mari. โ€œAnd if you can conjure ice, that would help as well.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m on it.โ€ She stood and maneuvered past us.

โ€œThis wonโ€™t be pleasant,โ€ I warned him, wincing as I shifted around. I could actually have used some ice as well.

โ€œDistract me,โ€ he said, holding my eyes with his. โ€œStart by telling me that isnโ€™tย yourย blood on your shirt.โ€

โ€œNot all of it,โ€ I said drily as I began to clear space to work.

โ€œWen,โ€ Fedrik soothed. โ€œWhat happened to you after we escaped the cavern?โ€

โ€œSome pirates offered to help me return to Frog Eye. But they were ambushed and killed in front of me by Amber soldiers. They took me . . .โ€ I swallowed. โ€œAnd hurt me. An old friend did, actually.โ€

โ€œHalden?โ€ Griffinโ€™s low growl rattled the tent around us.

I couldnโ€™t look at him. I didnโ€™t want to see the rage on my behalf. โ€œYes.โ€ I felt Fedrikโ€™s shin, assessing the damage.

โ€œHow did you get away?โ€ Fedrik asked through gritted teeth.

โ€œI got very lucky. Kane found me outside the Amber encampment.โ€

โ€œRight.โ€ Fedrik fidgeted. โ€œWatching Mari cast that spell was . . . illuminating.โ€

I was aware of both Griffin and Kane shifting around me. What was I missing? Griffinโ€™s words cut through my confusion. โ€œWhyโ€™d the Amber boy hurt you?โ€

โ€œWhat, and not just kill her?โ€ Mari asked, returning with my supplies. โ€œHoly Stones, Commander, have you no tact?โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s not what I meant,โ€ Griffin grumbled, but his downcast eyes told me otherwise. Maybe Griffin was an even worse liar than I was.

The tent had grown too crowded for its size. Mari knelt in the corner beside me as I leaned over Fedrik, whose pallet bisected the floor. Griffin sat on the other side of him, his considerable frame cramped alongside Fedrikโ€™s many packs. Kane stood at the entrance, hunched to accommodate

the sloped canvas. I wasnโ€™t sure if he preferred to stand or if there was just nowhere left to sit. The hearth in the corner fought to stay alive.

โ€œHe wanted to know where the blade was. If we had it.โ€ But I had thought it was strange, too. If I was dead, per the prophecy, there would be no one left who could kill Lazarus. Why didnโ€™t Halden take me out when he had the chance? โ€œIf I said we had it, they would have come after you all. But I couldnโ€™t tell them we didnโ€™t and lose any leverage we might need.โ€ I swallowed bile at the memory. โ€œSo I just . . . let him.โ€

The sound of screeching, twisting metal shook me from my work. I whirled to see Kaneโ€™s hand around a mangled mug.

Fedrikโ€™s eyes widened. โ€œQuite the grip you have there, King.โ€ โ€œWhy donโ€™t you go get someย air,โ€ I said to Kane pointedly.

His response punched through clenched teeth. โ€œPlenty of air right where I am, thanks.โ€

I huffed at him and turned to place the long branches Mari had found along Fedrikโ€™s leg, aligning the bones as close as I could to where they should have been. From what I could feel, his shinbone was cracked down the center and needed to be worked back in line with his knee and ankle. The swelling was tough to feel around, but at least that was a cleanโ€”orย cleanerโ€”break. The smaller one, his fibula, was practically shattered. Not much to do there but wrap it tightly with bindings around the branch and support the jutting bits back in the right direction.

Though Fedrik had to be in great pain, he hardly showed it, aside from the beads of sweat he couldnโ€™t help but loose onto his tunic, and the occasional slow inhale or grunt.

The more I elevated the limb, and the tighter I bandaged it, the more the swelling went down.

My heart rate had lowered, my thoughts flowing in a slower, more even pace. I had missed healing. Had missed helping people, with or without my lighte. When Fedrik grimaced at a tight yank of the dressing, I recalled how I was supposed to be distracting him.

โ€œHalden did say one thing that stuck with me. That the seer had a daughter. He said theyโ€™re the only two Fae to ever have visions such as

these. I know the seer died decades ago, but could her daughter still be alive?โ€

Silence enveloped the tent. โ€œWhat is it?โ€ I asked.

โ€œI canโ€™t believe they tracked her down,โ€ Griffin murmured.

โ€œAnd for nothing,โ€ Kane mused. โ€œEsme never inherited her motherโ€™s gift.โ€

Esme?

โ€œWhy would Garethโ€™s army think that she did?โ€ Griffin asked.

โ€œIโ€™m not sure,โ€ Kane said. โ€œWeโ€™ll have to pay her a visit, wonโ€™t we?โ€

โ€œYes. The blade isnโ€™t here and Iโ€™ve never sweat so much in my life,โ€ Griffin said, wringing out his shirt and exposing a sliver of cut abdomen.

โ€œGo where?โ€ Mari asked, though she sounded distracted.

My lighte tingled at my fingertips once more, regenerating faster the more I used it, as Dagan had once told me it would. With Fedrikโ€™s leg reset, I snuck my hand under his bandages and fused his bones back together with careful precision. His leg would be able to bear weight by morning, and might even function fully by the next day. It would look like a miracle.

โ€œTo Cragโ€™s Hollow,โ€ Kane said.

Finished with Fedrikโ€™s leg, I climbed over Mari to sit in the corner, wiping dampness from my brow that had gathered while I worked. โ€œBack to the Onyx Kingdom?โ€ I remembered Cragโ€™s Hollow from a map in the Shadowhold apothecary. It was a coastal town outside of Willowridge.

Kane ran a hand through his damp hair. โ€œItโ€™s worth a shot.โ€ โ€œHow do you know the seerโ€™s daughter?โ€ I asked.

โ€œI doubt she remembers either of us. Griffin and I helped her escape Lumera when she was young. After her mother was killed during the rebellion, we brought her here to Evendell and helped her set up a new life.โ€

โ€œUnguarded?โ€

โ€œI never thought theyโ€™d come for her, all these years later. There was no reason to.โ€

โ€œWeโ€™ll find out why they think she has her motherโ€™s visions,โ€ Griffin said. โ€œItโ€™s the only thread we have to follow.โ€ My heart chilled with the unspoken words:ย Since the blade wasnโ€™t in Reaperโ€™s Cavern, and we have no other leads.

โ€œMaybe the seer had another daughter? Or a son?โ€ Mari suggested. โ€œAnd Halden was mistaken?โ€

โ€œOnly women Fae are born with the ability,โ€ Kane said. โ€œAnd the seer only had one daughter. If Halden knows about Esme, there must be a reason sheโ€™s valuable to them.โ€

โ€œIf sheโ€™s still alive,โ€ Griffin added.

Silence swallowed us whole once more.

โ€œI hate to burst everyoneโ€™s bubble, but I donโ€™t know if Arwen or I will be in any shape to travel tomorrow.โ€

I bit my lip and cut a sidelong glance at Fedrik. โ€œI just need to brew some potions overnight. I have a feeling weโ€™ll both be healthier come morning.โ€ I had already slipped my hand underneath my own shirt, wincing at the burns as my palm pressed against them, cupping my breast to heal the blisters there and lacing together the skin of my palm, still shredded from the treasure room door.

โ€œYouโ€™re the healer, but I donโ€™t think thisโ€โ€”he grimaced, gesturing to his legโ€”โ€œcan be fixed with a potion of any kind.โ€

I wanted to tell him the truth. It was the right thing to do. But when Fedrik looked at me, he didnโ€™t see the weak, naive girl from Abbington or the full-blooded Fae fated to save the continent. He didnโ€™t see a child who had been beaten or a fearful, anxiety-riddled coward or a woman with a yearโ€”if thatโ€”left to live.

He only saw me. โ€œTrust me,โ€ I said.

His eyes held mine with nothing but avid affection as he took my hand. โ€œI do.โ€

His skin was smooth and soft, so different from Kaneโ€™s calloused fingers. I looked down to see his tan hand dwarf mine. He smelled warm and soothing, like figs and bergamot.

โ€œIโ€™ve got to piss,โ€ Kane huffed.

My face and neck burned, and I pulled my hand from Fedrikโ€™s.

Griffin shifted awkwardly in his corner before standing. โ€œAnd Iโ€™ve got to gather the . . .โ€ He scratched his jaw. โ€œLeaves. Got to gather the leaves.โ€ Griffin left almost as fast as Kane had.

I cut a glance at Mari, and tried to sayย donโ€™t you dareย with my eyes. โ€œAnd Iโ€™m going to leave.โ€ Mari stood. โ€œBecause this is awkward.โ€ She slipped out of the tent, leaving just Fedrik and me.

An involuntary laugh slipped out of me, but my pulse was racing. The sensation felt more like anxiety than lust, but didnโ€™t it make sense to be jittery? After all the adrenaline, and fear, andโ€”

โ€œHey,โ€ Fedrik said, taking my hand in his once more. โ€œIโ€™m sorry. About what you went through today.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s not that bad.โ€

โ€œMay I?โ€ he asked, gesturing toward my stomach.

I nodded stiffly and he let go of my hand to lift my shirt, ever so slightly.

โ€œBastards,โ€ย he hissed when he saw my healing burns. Fedrik looked back up at me, his eyes simmering.

โ€œIโ€™m all right,โ€ I said, and meant it.

โ€œIโ€™m not,โ€ he retorted, his breathing uneven. His blue eyes had regained some of their vivid color, and it was as if two boundless oceans were staring back at me. When I remained silent, he lowered my shirt.

โ€œIโ€™m glad he was there. To help you.โ€ โ€œMe, too,โ€ I confessed.

โ€œI know it was more than just a kiss . . . with him.โ€

I knew this would come out eventually. I sighed up at the apex of the tent. The rain had softened now, and was barely pattering above us.

โ€œIt was extremely complicated,โ€ I said, thinking of my conversation with Kane before we entered the caves this morning. How sometimes I had a tendency to see things in black-and-white.

Fedrikโ€™s brows knitted inward. โ€œYou must know . . .โ€ He pressed his lips into a line as if debating his next words. โ€œYou must know heโ€™s madly in love with you, right?โ€

I felt my eyes go wide. It wasnโ€™t that I hadnโ€™t had the thought. I just hadnโ€™t expected Fedrik to be the one to say it.

I had hoped as much, once. Wanted it to be true more than I wanted my heart to beat. But the energy between us, the jealousy and possessiveness, the constant poking, taunting, the push and pullโ€”it wasnโ€™t what I imagined love to look like. And truthfully, he had needed me to serve a purpose. That was what drew him to me. My lifeโ€”myย death, ratherโ€”was what he had always been after. Somewhere along the way he had become attracted to me, and thenโ€”

โ€œNo.โ€ I shook my head. โ€œHeโ€™s not.โ€ โ€œWenโ€”โ€

โ€œIโ€™m like a plaything to him. A game. And he doesnโ€™t like to lose.โ€ I bit my lip. โ€œOr have other people play with his toys.โ€

Fedrikโ€™s eyes glowed with heat. โ€œAre you implying I want to play with you?โ€

Had I not seen the clear desire written across his face I would have flushed with embarrassment. But lately the only tonic to my misery was being bold. โ€œDonโ€™t you?โ€

Fedrik laughed, a little guilty. โ€œI donโ€™t wish to interfere somewhere I am not wanted.โ€

Did I?

Want him?

Not really.

I liked Fedrik immensely. He was sophisticated and kind, worldly and easygoing. And he offered me something nobody else in my life could: the ability to see myself through the eyes of someone who didnโ€™t know my fate. I had grown so much in the past few months I felt like stretched-out skinโ€” so worn from the changes Iโ€™d been through that I wore them across me in long pale streaks.

Fedrik made me feel supple and new.

But still . . . No. Try as I might, I didnโ€™tย wantย him. Not wholly and thoroughly the way I always wanted Kane. Not even in the childlike way I

had wanted Haldenโ€”longing for what he could be one day rather than what he was.

But before I found the right way to say all of thatโ€”if thereย wasย a right way to say any of itโ€”he gave me the slightest catlike twitch of a smile, mistaking my silence for affirmation, and leaned in to brush his mouth against mine.

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