AS QUIETLY AS I CAN,ย I creep into the house, slowly closing the door behind me so I donโt slam it. The apartment is silent, like no one is here, and I breathe a sigh of relief.
โWhere the hell have you been all day?โ
Yelping, I turn to find my father standing at the mouth of the hallway, right next to their prized possessionโthe giant Andy Warhol painting hanging on the wall.
I try to smile at him. โWhat do you mean? I went to the art gallery.โ
โThat was hours ago.โ He squints at me, as if heโs trying to see inside my head. โYou were at the gallery all this time?โ
I slowly shake my head, but donโt say anything.
โCome with me.โ He turns and heads down the hall. I have no choice to follow him, entering the sitting room where my mother waits, dressed impeccably in a sleek black dress, clutching a wineglass in her hand. Her smile is brittle when her gaze meets mine, remaining quiet.
She has never been my ally. I donโt know why I always think she might be. Itโs a lost cause.
โHow did you get home, young lady?โ This is from my father, who has turned to face me, a glower on his face. Heโs a handsome man. Slightly balding, gray at the temples. Hazel eyes that are always filled with concern
when they land on me. I wonder if he worries about me constantly. Sometimes it feels like thatโs all he ever does.
I think about lying, but in the end, he would most likely get it out of me anyway. Is omitting a few facts also a lie? Maybe not. โI rode home in the car.โ
He lifts his brows. โWhose car? Because it wasnโt mine. The driver called me in a panic a couple of hours ago, Wren. Saying you never contacted him for pickup. When he went to the gallery, he realized you were already gone.โ
โHe went into the gallery?โ Guilt swamps me. Iโm sure itโs written all over my face.
โHe drove all over Tribeca, trying to find you, and just happened to see you exit a restaurant with someone.โ
Iโm light-headed at his words, and I fall onto the couch behind me. โWho?โ
Daddy steps toward me, thrusting his phone out so itโs in my face. On the screen is a photo of me and Crew leaving Two Hands together. Iโm smiling.
I donโt think Iโve ever seen myself look so happy before. โWho is that?โ Daddy demands.
โCrew Lancaster.โ My voice is surprisingly calm.
He frowns, shoving his phone back into his pants pocket. โWaitโReggieโs son?โ
โYes,โ Mother pipes up, โthe youngest one.โ
โI go to school with him,โ I add. โHeโs in my class.โ
โHmm.โ He glances over at Mother. โMight be a better prospect for her than the boy tonight.โ
She nods in agreement. My mouth drops open.
What are they talking about? Is there something behind tonightโs dinner with the Von Wellers beyond my father wanting to talk to them about business?
โWhat are you talking about?โ I ask when they donโt say anything further. โCrew and I are justโfriends.โ
โWhy was he at the gallery?โ Daddy asks. โIโฆโ
His phone rings, and he immediately pulls it out of his pocket, glancing at the screen before he says, โI need to take this.โ
And leaves the room.
The moment heโs gone, Mother takes a fortifying drink from her glass. โNext time, you should text your father. He was worried sick.โ
โIโm sorry,โ I whisper, hating that I automatically apologize for everything. I never try to explain myself. Or stand up for myself.
โYou know how he gets.โ
โI do.โ I nod, gathering up my courage to ask the question burning in my mind. โWhy did Daddy say that to you?โ
โSay what?โ Sheโs purposely playing dumb. I can tell. โAbout Crew being a betterโprospect.โ
She lifts her chin. โWeโre exploring all avenues for your future.โ
Iโm frowning so hard it hurts my head. โWhat are you talking about? Like
โmarrying me off to Larsen? Is that why weโre having dinner at their house tonight? Is that one of the avenues weโre seriously exploring?โ
Why am I bothering to use the word โweโ? Seems to me they were exploring my options, without involving me whatsoever.
โItโs not such a terrible prospect to consider. He comes from a good family. Theyโre very wealthy,โ Mother points out.
โAnd ours isnโt wealthy? Why do I need to worry about money? I donโt want to get married straight out of high school. Iโll only be eighteen.โ Just saying the words out loud sounds ridiculous.
โCalm down. You wouldnโt get married after high school, darling. Thatโs far too soon. But we want to pair you with someone to ensure your future.โ She takes another sip of wine, effortlessly cool, as if nothing ever bothers her.
While I feel like my life is imploding right in front of my eyes. โWhat if I want to go to college?โ
The skeptical look that crosses her face is obvious. โDo you really want to do that, Wren? Such a waste of time.โ
I flinch at her words. Is she implying she thinks Iโm dumb?
โI donโt know.โ I shrug, feeling defensive. I applied to a few colleges, listing art history as my major. โI might want to take a gap year first. I could travel around Europe and explore all of the galleries.โ
โYou wonโt be able to buy anything though.โ
I frown. โWhy not? I just bought a painting today.โ
โItโs hard to explain.โ She drops her gaze, fiddling with the giant diamond on her finger. Itโs not her wedding ring. I donโt know where that one came from, but itโs so large it almost looks fake. โYou wouldnโt understand.โ
My heart drops. Sheโs not behaving normally. โTell me.โ
A sigh leaves her and she lifts her head, her misty-eyed gaze meeting mine. โWeโre having to put a halt on big purchase spending for the moment. Large art pieces are costly. You know this.โ
โBut why? I donโt understand. Is business not going well for Daddy?โ
A watery laugh escapes her. โYour fatherโs company is fine. Business is booming. The real estate market is doing better than it ever has.โ
โThen what is it?โ
โYour father wanted us to tell you this together, but heโs abandoned us as usual.โ She sits up straighter, her chin tilting up. โWeโre separated.โ
I gape at her, the shock of her statement leaving me chilled to the bone. โWhat? I was just here last week for Thanksgiving and you two acted completely normal. You still live together.โ
โWe didnโt want to tell you yet, but he no longer lives here. He moved out a few weeks ago.โ
โA few weeks ago?โ I repeat, my voice weak.
โHe wanted to wait until the beginning of the year, to get you through Christmas and your birthday first, butโฆthereโs no point in keeping it from you any longer, darling. You deserve to know the truth. Weโre getting a divorce. Weโve already hired attorneys and weโre currently in discussion about all of the assets weโve acquired during our marriage, including the art.โ
Mother waves her hand at a sculpture standing nearby, one that she loves. โDivide it up?โ
โHe refuses to keep any of the pieces or split them up between us. Says if I want all of it, I have to buy him out.โ A bitter laugh escapes her. โIโm not going to give up millions of dollars ofย myย money to pay for art I already own. Thatโs ridiculous.โ
Iโm at a complete loss for words. I almost donโt believe her. Why would they get a divorce now? Wonโt it be too complicatedโand costly? Theyโve been together for such a long time. Almost twenty-five years.
โFor the settlement, weโll end up dividing all of the art work and selling it. Every bit of it. I wonโt be able to keep any of my pieces,โ she continues, her eyes welling up with tears.
โOh, Mama.โ I havenโt called her that in years. Seeing her like this is breaking my heart. โI know how much all of it means to you.โ
โYes, yes, thatโs true, but Iโll be fine. Itโs all right. There will be an auction.โ She sniffs, her fingers dashing away the tears on her face. โEvery piece in
the house will go. You probably shouldnโt have your new piece delivered here if you want to keep it.โ
โWait, what about the Colen piece in my bedroom?โ
โItโs too valuable, Wren. Anything in the house will be included in the total collection that we acquired during our marriage,โ Mother explains.
I blink away the tears forming. โBut Daddy gave that to me for my birthday!โ
โIโm so sorry, darling. Thereโs nothing I can do.โ She takes another sip of her wine, as if thatโs the end of the conversation.
Frustrated, I leave the sitting room and go to my bedroom, slamming the door behind me, not caring who hears it or if it makes someone angry. Weโre not a house where yelling and big fights and slamming doors happens. Everything is discussed civilly. Quietly. With dignity.
Sometimes all that quiet dignity is annoying. Like my mother and how calm she was, announcing their impending divorce.
As I change out of my outfit into leggings and an oversized sweater, I canโt stop thinking about what my mother said.
How did I not see it? I know they donโt always get along. Daddy is always working. Traveling a lot. Out until late. I didnโt see him much at all when I was very young. He tried to be there for me as I got older, especially when the whole phone/forum mess happened. He worked less during that time, and he made sure to be there for our nightly family dinners. Sometimes he even helped me with my homework, though that wasnโt often and usually consisted of the two of us sitting in his home office while he worked on his computer. Mother always told him I needed a more solid relationship with him. A positive male role model so I wouldnโt grow up and have Daddy issues.
But then they sent me to Lancaster and I donโt see much of either of them. Iโm not home for the day-to-day interactions. During the summer, they always plan lots of family trips. Though last summer we didnโt travel as much. Daddy was working.
Maybe it was fractured even then.
Thereโs a knock on my door and before I can say come in, itโs swinging open, Daddy standing there with an annoyed look on his face.
โCan I speak with you for a moment?โ
I plop down on my bed, folding my legs close to my body and curling my arms around them. โYes.โ
He closes the door behind him and leans against it, watching me. โYour mother said she told you.โ
I nod, not sure what to say.
โI wanted to tell you. The two of us together, as a united front,โ he starts, but I talk over him.
โYouโre really not united anymore though.โ
A rough exhale leaves him and he scrubs the side of his face. โThis isnโt how I wanted things to go.โ
โWhy are you forcing her to sell all of the art?โ I ask, my voice small. My gaze goes to the piece hanging on the wall. My gift that wasnโt a gift at all. โShe told me I canโt keep that.โ
He studies it before returning his gaze to mine. โItโs a valuable piece. One that could fetch a lot of money.โ
โIs that what this is all about? Money? Is that why youโre selling everything? Iโm sure youโll make a ton off of Momโs curated collection sheโs worked so hard at over the years.โ Oh, Iโm mad. Mad he would betray her like this. Angry he would so callously force her to give up everything sheโs collected over the past twenty years.
โI invested in those pieces. It was my money she used to purchase them. That collection is every bit mine as it is hers,โ Daddy says, pushing away from the door. โDonโt fall for her sob story. Sheโs just angry things arenโt working out in her favor.โ
โI donโt blame her. None of it is fair.โ
โLife isnโt fair, Pumpkin. Thatโs a good lesson to learn now, when youโre still young. Bad things will happen to you, and some of the time, itโs completely out of your control. It all comes down to the choices you make.โ He paces my room, pausing to stare at the art piece that no longer belongs to me. โIโve made some bad choices in my life, but the very best choice was marrying your mother and having you. I hope you believe me when I say that.โ
โThen why wonโt you stay married to her? If she was the best choice you ever made?โ I donโt realize Iโm crying until I feel the tears drip off my face.
โPeople change. They want different things.โ His expression softens. โI donโt want to hurt you. Neither does your mother.โ
โToo late,โ I whisper, my chest aching from holding back the tears.