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Chapter no 36

A Fire in the Flesh (Flesh and Fire Series, #3)

I slowly became aware of a faint taste in my mouthโ€”a sweet, smoky, lush flavor. Decadent. Powerful. My lips tingled. So did my fingers. I stretched, enjoying the pull of my muscles as I wiggled my toes.

A body moved against mine. A sudden inhalation of breath brought a chest against my back.ย โ€œLiessa,โ€ย a familiar, deep voice murmuredโ€”one Iโ€™d recognize anywhere, anytime. โ€œThere you are.โ€

Ash.

My eyes fluttered open to a vivid, deep sapphire sky streaked with trailing pink and amethyst clouds. Confusion rose as I squinted. Iโ€™d never seen such a sky before. My gaze lowered to trees in an array of blues and violets that bordered on pink, reminding me of the jacaranda trees outside Wayfair.

Disjointed memories flashed. The cavern of lilacs. Arriving in the Bonelands. Freeing Eythos. Wrenching, terrible pain, and then nothing.

I stared at the surreal, brightly colored landscape. Had Iโ€ฆhad I died?

That didnโ€™t make sense. If I had, I wouldnโ€™t be in Ashโ€™s arms. He couldnโ€™t be near souls who had gone beyond the Pillars of Asphodel without risking the destruction of their souls. And wouldnโ€™t I have remembered passing through them and being judged? Despite what Ash believed about my soul, I seriously doubted Iโ€™d end up someplace as beautiful as this. At the very least, I

wouldโ€™ve been one of those souls who needed a more thorough look. Could this be that? If so, why did my temples still ache?

โ€œAm Iโ€ฆ?โ€ I cleared my throat, causing the sultry taste to fade. โ€œDid I die?โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€ His arm tightened around my waist. โ€œFates, no, Sera.โ€

I wiggled again, feeling a soft mattress under me. We were on some sort of sofa. โ€œWhere are we?โ€

โ€œThe Thyia Plains.โ€ Ash shifted me in his embrace, and my head suddenly came to rest in the crook of his arm. I stared up at him. His hair was a rich, warm, reddish-brown and fell against the cut line of his jaw. The

golden-bronze hue of his skin was paler, and I saw concern etched into the striking lines and angles of his face. โ€œKeella thought youโ€™d be more

comfortable here. Weโ€™re on the veranda of her palace.โ€

My gaze inched away from his, running over the terracotta stone floor and then beyond to the cliffs that stretched out on either side. I saw Ehthawn. The draken was curled on one of the rocky bluffs, his head resting on the sun- warmed rock. I wouldโ€™ve thought him asleep if not for the one open crimson eye and the idle twitching of his tail. I scanned the other cliffs, not seeing

Nektas or the other draken.

Ash smoothed his thumb down my cheek, the coolness of his touch surprising me. It was even colder than before.

I swallowed, glancing down at my handsโ€”myย emptyย hands. My stomach twisted. โ€œWhere is The Star?โ€

โ€œKeella and Attes have it,โ€ he said, and I relaxed. โ€œHow are you feeling?โ€

โ€œIโ€ฆI donโ€™t know. Okay?โ€ My gaze flicked back to his. โ€œI passed out, didnโ€™t I?โ€

โ€œYou did.โ€

My mind cleared of the remaining fog, and I stiffened. โ€œOh, gods, Iโ€™m sorry.โ€

His dark brows furrowed. โ€œFor what?โ€

โ€œFor passing out right in the middle of freeing your father.โ€ Ashโ€™s expression smoothed out. โ€œSeraโ€”โ€

โ€œI saw him touch you. He was talking to you, wasnโ€™t he? In a way no one

else could hear?โ€ I could clearly see Eythosโ€™s soul drifting upward. โ€œPlease, tell me you didnโ€™t focus on me when I passed out.โ€

โ€œI could hear himโ€”his voice.โ€ Ashโ€™s thickened. โ€œI didnโ€™t think Iโ€™d ever hear it again, but I did. Thanks to you.โ€

โ€œI really didnโ€™t do much.โ€

โ€œLiessa,โ€ he chided softly, drawing his thumb across the skin below my lip. โ€œYou did everything.โ€

A knot lodged in my chest. โ€œBut then I had to go and pass out, ruining what was a beautiful moment. So that undoesโ€”โ€

โ€œIt undoes nothing, Sera. You didnโ€™t interrupt anything. His soul was leaving this realm.โ€

โ€œAre you sure I didnโ€™tโ€”?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m positive.โ€ Ash dipped his head, kissing my forehead. โ€œHe couldnโ€™t linger here. He didnโ€™t want to after all this time.โ€

I imagined not.

Gods, I really hoped he wasnโ€™t lying to me. โ€œWhat did he say to you?โ€ My eyes widened at my question. โ€œI mean, you donโ€™t have to tell me. Iโ€™m sure it was privateโ€”โ€

โ€œHe told me that he loved me.โ€ Ash drew his fingers along my jaw. โ€œThat he was proud of meโ€”of the man Iโ€™ve become.โ€

โ€œOh,โ€ I whispered, feeling the knot make its way to my throat. Tears pricked my eyes.

He stretched his neck to the side. โ€œI almost couldnโ€™t believe he said that, to be honest.โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€ I lifted a hand, relieved that it didnโ€™t take as much effort as walking up those damn Temple steps had. โ€œOf course, he would be proud of you.โ€

โ€œIโ€™ve done a lot of things that no one would be proud of.โ€

My heart ached for him. โ€œYou did things others made you do.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not talking just about that,ย liessa. Just in the last twenty-four hours, Iโ€™ve committed indisputable atrocitiesโ€”killing those who laid down their swords. Those who turned and ran from me.โ€

I frowned. โ€œI wouldnโ€™t consider that an atrocity.โ€

Ash raised a brow. โ€œSuch an act would likely send a mortalโ€™s soul into the Abyss.โ€

โ€œThis is different,โ€ I reasoned.

One side of his lips tipped up. โ€œCare to explain that reasoning?โ€ โ€œNot really.โ€

He chuckled.

I searched his features. โ€œDo you regret killing them? The ones who surrendered or ran?โ€

โ€œNo.โ€

His quick answer told me he spoke the truth. โ€œGood.โ€ Ash cocked his head.

โ€œWhat? I wouldโ€™ve regretted it for a whole three-point-five seconds and then moved right on. You know that.โ€ And he did because Iโ€™d shared my

struggles concerning my lack of guilt. โ€œYou told me before that all of us are capable of monstrous acts, but it does not make us monsters.โ€

โ€œI did.โ€

My gaze dropped to the collar of his shirt. The loose opening revealed a swatch of his shoulder and the black ink there. โ€œOne hundred and ten,โ€ I murmured, lifting my eyes to his. He may say he didnโ€™t regret taking those lives, but underneath his anger, he did. He was better than me, less monstrous. โ€œDo not add those lives to your flesh,โ€ I said. Right or wrong, I didnโ€™t want that for him.

Thick lashes lowered, and he nodded. I felt his chest rise again with a deep but shaky breath.

โ€œDid he say anything else?โ€ I asked.

Ash nodded. โ€œHe told me not to forget what he said when we were near the Red River, rounding up the Shades.โ€ His jaw tensed as his thumb skated over the line of my cheekbone. โ€œIt was the last time I saw him alive.โ€

โ€œWhat did he tell you?โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s the thing.โ€ Ash hesitated, his eyes darting away from mine before returning. He curtly shook his head. โ€œI donโ€™t remember.โ€

His denial hung in the air between us, and I bit down on the inside of my lip, tasting a hint of the sweet, smoky flavor againโ€ฆ

Wait.

โ€œYou gave me your blood.โ€ โ€œI did.โ€

โ€œAsh.โ€ Worry spread through me like a weed left to grow. Heโ€™d been imprisoned forย weeks, and what blood heโ€™d taken after being freed couldnโ€™t have been enough to restore him. โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t have done thatโ€”โ€

โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t have used the eather to free my father,โ€ he cut in gently. โ€œSo, we both did what we believed the other shouldnโ€™t have.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s not the same thing.โ€

โ€œWhat you did caused you to deplete your energy and pass out,โ€ he countered, the essence in his eyes dancing. โ€œI, on the other hand, didnโ€™t suffer those consequences.โ€

โ€œPassing out probably has more to do with climbing those damn Temple steps than using the eather to free Eythos.โ€

A small smile appeared. โ€œSera.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m serious. I hate stairs, and itโ€™s not any different. You need to conserve your energy.โ€

Ash sighed. โ€œI didnโ€™t give you very much blood, just enoughโ€ฆโ€

โ€œJust enough to make sure I woke up,โ€ I finished for him. Part of me was surprised that his blood had even done that at this point. Because the pain Iโ€™d felt in my chest? I wouldnโ€™t have been surprised if my heart had imploded.

โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t have done it.โ€

โ€œAnd whatย shouldย I have done?โ€ The softness vanished from his features. โ€œLet you die?โ€ His eyes narrowed when I opened my mouth. โ€œIf you say yes, so help me Fates, Seraโ€ฆ Because I will not let you die.โ€

I started to sit up, but the arm I rested on tensed, and his hand curved around my shoulder. Frustration swept through me. โ€œI wasnโ€™t going to say that.โ€

โ€œReally?โ€

โ€œNo.โ€ I struggled in his hold. โ€œYou know what you shouldโ€™ve done.โ€

โ€œI did exactly what I shouldโ€™ve done,โ€ he shot back. โ€œAnd stop trying to move around. You need to take it easy.โ€

โ€œWhat is taking it easy going to do for me?โ€ I threw up my arms, almost smacking him in the face. โ€œThe same as giving me blood? Delaying the

inevitable while wasting time?โ€

The skin of his cheeks thinned. Shadows blossomed, thickening. โ€œDisagree.โ€

โ€œDisagree?โ€ I sputtered.

โ€œI believe that is what I just said. You being angry with my response doesnโ€™t change it.โ€

My eyes widened as I stared at him. โ€œIโ€™m not angry with you.โ€ โ€œReally?โ€ he repeated dryly.

โ€œYes,โ€ I hissed, trying to rein in my temper. I wasnโ€™t angry with him. I

was furious withย thisโ€”the situation heโ€™d been put in. That I was in. What couldnโ€™t be avoided. โ€œYou neededโ€”โ€

โ€œI did what I needed to do, Sera.โ€

โ€œYou two are arguing.โ€ A deeper, raspier voice intruded. โ€œI suppose that means Sera is feeling better.โ€

I twisted in Ashโ€™s arms so fast I started to topple off the couch.

โ€œFor fuckโ€™s sake,โ€ Ash muttered, catching me. โ€œDid I not just tell you to take it easy?โ€

My gaze swung toward gauzy turquoise curtains rippling in front of open doors and then to the tall male with long, black hair streaked with red whoโ€™d walked out. โ€œNektas.โ€

I saw his lips curve slightly as he crossed the veranda, ridges of scales visible across his bare shoulders. โ€œHello, Seraphena.โ€

Emotion swelled so intensely in my chest upon seeing him in his mortal form that it caught me off guard. Once again, I felt tears crowding my eyes. I had no idea why I was so freaking emotional all the time.

It probably had something to do with me dying.

But Nektasโ€ฆhe had always been kind to me. Heโ€™d never held what I had originally planned against me. And heโ€ฆheโ€™d told me that if I were ever not feeling okay, I could come and talk to him. That we would make sure I got back to being okay together.

โ€œWe werenโ€™t arguing,โ€ Ash said, giving up on keeping me prone. He sat up, bringing me with him. I ended up sitting half in his lap and half between his legs.

Nektas lifted a brow.

โ€œWe were having a discussion,โ€ Ash tacked on. โ€œWhere we disagreed.โ€

Laughing under his breath, Nektas sat beside us. โ€œYouโ€™re both right and wrong.โ€

I drew back. โ€œYou heard us.โ€

โ€œAnyone near the veranda heard you two.โ€

โ€œOh.โ€ My cheeks flushed as I glanced at the swaying curtains.

Ash folded his arm over my waist again. โ€œWhat you meant to say is that I was right, and she was wrong.โ€

I shot him a glare over my shoulder. โ€œThat is not what he said.โ€ He glanced down at me. โ€œItโ€™s what I heard.โ€

โ€œThen thereโ€™s something wrong with your hearing.โ€

โ€œIs this a continuation of the discussion where you two were not arguing but disagreeing?โ€ Nektas asked.

โ€œYes,โ€ Ash and I snapped at the same time. โ€œAt least you can agree on that.โ€

โ€œI was simply telling him that he needs to take the embers,โ€ I began.

โ€œNot to sound repetitive,โ€ Ash said, โ€œbut I disagree.โ€ โ€œOh, my fucking gods.โ€

โ€œNow, youโ€™re just being sacrilegious.โ€ I glared at him.

His lips twitched.

โ€œThat wasnโ€™t even funny.โ€ Ash opened his mouth.

โ€œIf you say disagree again, I cannot be held accountable for my actionsโ€”

my extremely violent actions.โ€

โ€œAs I was saying,โ€ Nektas jumped in again, a lock of crimson-streaked hair sliding over his shoulder as he tilted his head. His eyes met mine.

โ€œYouโ€™re right. Ash cannot afford to weaken himself.ย But,โ€ he said before Ash

could intervene, โ€œhe only gave you a little of his blood. Not nearly enough to have stopped this inevitability.โ€

I snapped my mouth shut.

โ€œI think it was more like his sheer will made it so you woke up,โ€ Nektas continued.

His sheer will?

โ€œAnd is waking up in the arms of the one you care so deeply for a waste of time? There is nothing I would not give to have one more moment with Halayna.โ€

My breath snagged at the raw honesty and lingering pain in his voice. I twisted toward Ash. โ€œI donโ€™t think any extra time with you is a waste. I wasnโ€™t thinking.โ€

โ€œI know.โ€ Ash cupped my cheek.

โ€œBut Sera doesnโ€™t have much more of that precious time,โ€ Nektas said quietly. โ€œAnd that cannot be denied. I can feel it.โ€ He placed a hand against the coppery skin of his chest. โ€œScent it.โ€

My upper lip curled. โ€œYou canโ€ฆsmell it?โ€

โ€œThe body goes through natural changes when it begins to die. That is something we can smell,โ€ he explained. I thought about the last time heโ€™d said I smelled like death. Had I smelled like this the whole time? โ€œAnd we can sense the fading of the embers.โ€

I looked at where Ehthawn rested and thought about the low, mournful sound Iโ€™d heard him make.

โ€œSo can Ash,โ€ Nektas continued. โ€œSo can any Primal who is near you.โ€ Reaching down, I folded my hand over the arm at my waist.

Nektas lifted his ruby eyes to Ash. โ€œYou know what has to be done. And

soon.โ€

Ash was completely still behind me. I didnโ€™t even feel him breathe. โ€œI do.โ€

Briefly squeezing my eyes shut, I leaned against Ashโ€™s chest. There was so much I wanted to say, but most of it would only make things worse. I

knew that.

I took a deep breath. โ€œIโ€™m sorry about Orphine.โ€ โ€œAs am I.โ€

Glancing at Ehthawn, I wished there was more I could say than that, but there truly werenโ€™t words in any language that could capture the sorrow felt after a death. โ€œHowโ€ฆhow is Jadis? Reaver?โ€

Nektasโ€™s handsome features softened. โ€œThey are good. Safe. Reaver has asked for you, and my daughter often searches for you.โ€ His smile was sad. โ€œI think she misses sleeping on your legs.โ€

My lips trembled, and I pressed them together as Ash folded his other arm over my chest. Would Jadis even remember that? What about Reaver? The knot tripled in size. My nose burned, and it took several moments for me to speak. โ€œIโ€ฆIโ€™ve missed that,โ€ I rasped. โ€œI miss both of them.โ€

โ€œI know,โ€ Nektas said solemnly.

I met his gaze and tried to say more. What, exactly, I wasnโ€™t even sure, but I couldnโ€™t get anything out. The drakenโ€™s face blurred, and I tried to find that veil of nothingness because I didnโ€™t want Ash feeling any of what I was. I didnโ€™t want Nektas seeing it.

Nektas reached for me. His skin was so warm as he placed my hand between his palms. He said nothing as he drew it to his chest, pressing it over where I felt his heart beatโ€”felt two beats, almost side by side. Then he returned my hand to Ashโ€™s. His cool fingers threaded through mine. I blinked a couple of times, letting my head fall back against Ashโ€™s chest.

Nektas turned to the doors and rose as Keella walked out onto the veranda, followed by Attes.

Icy air blasted off Ash when he saw Attes.

โ€œI donโ€™t want to intrude,โ€ Attes announced, his steps slowing. โ€œBut youโ€™re going to,โ€ Ash replied coolly.

โ€œI wouldnโ€™t if I could.โ€ Attes approached us as Keella stayed back. My

gaze dropped to the leather saddlebag gripped tightly in his hand. โ€œHow are you feeling, Seraphena?โ€

Ash couldnโ€™t be more rigid if he tried. โ€œIโ€™m okay,โ€ I said.

His smile was more of a grimace. โ€œWhy do I have a feeling you say that when itโ€™s not true?โ€

โ€œBecause she does.โ€ Ashโ€™s palm flattened against my hip. โ€œBut knowing that wonโ€™t stop you.โ€

โ€œUnfortunately, no,โ€ Attes admitted quietly. โ€œWe need to take care of Sotoriaโ€™s soul.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t give a fuck about that soul,โ€ Ash snarled, shadows pressing against the flesh of the arm he had around my waist.

โ€œBut you need to care,โ€ Attes began.

Ashโ€™s head whipped toward the other Primal. โ€œWas I not clear?โ€ His voice vibrated with rageโ€”his entire body did. But he held me so carefully, as if I

were made of nothing more than fragile, spun glass. โ€œAsh,โ€ I said, twisting toward him.

โ€œI know sheโ€™s important.โ€ Attes inched closer, speaking before I could continue. โ€œI know sheโ€™s very important to you.โ€

The churning wisps of eather stilled in Ashโ€™s eyes. He lifted his gaze from mine and slowly turned his head to the Primal. The look he gave the Primal of War and Accord could freeze a soul.

Attes was undaunted. โ€œAnd I remember what thatโ€™s like. It fucking haunts me,โ€ he said. I thought of the children heโ€™d lost. โ€œIโ€™ve been told you had yourย kardiaย removed. In all honesty, I find that hard to believe, all things

considered.โ€ He shot a pointed look at Ash. โ€œHowever, if thatโ€™s true, you know what will happen.โ€

A low rumble of warning started in Ashโ€™s chest.

โ€œAnd Iโ€™m sorry. I really am,โ€ Attes was quick to add. โ€œI like Seraphena.

Sheโ€ฆโ€ He glanced at me, his sad smile not quite reaching his eyes. โ€œShe amuses me.โ€

The growl coming from Ash deepened.

Attesโ€™s attention shifted back to Ash. โ€œBut the soul in her is far more important.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not sure how any of that is helping right now,โ€ I said, pressing a hand to Ashโ€™s chest as his lips peeled back, revealing sharp fangs. โ€œAt all.โ€

โ€œWhat Iโ€™m trying to say is that when Seraphena dies, Sotoria will be lost,โ€ Attes stated. โ€œAnd that means the only chance to truly stop Kolis dies with that soul. If that happens? Nothing will be able to stop him. And you know

more than anyone, he doesnโ€™t need to Ascend into the Primal of Life and Death to wreak havoc.โ€

โ€œYou know an awful lot about this soul, given youโ€™re the fucking Primal of War,โ€ Ash spat. โ€œBesides that, Sotoria isnโ€™t really alive, now is she? Her soul is just an invader in Seraโ€™s body, whoย isย alive.โ€

My brows knitted. I got what Ash was saying, butโ€ฆ โ€œSheโ€™s alive,โ€ I whispered. Flat, chrome-hued eyes snapped back to mine. โ€œI mean, maybe conscious is better than saying sheโ€™s alive, but sheโ€™s aware.โ€

Ash frowned.

โ€œItโ€™s true.โ€ Attes had moved closer, maybe a few feet from us. โ€œI heard Sotoriaโ€”her voice and laugh from Seraโ€”when Kolis first had her. Itโ€™s a sound I would recognize anywhere.โ€

My lips parted in surprise. He was talking about when Kolis had tried to take the embers. Attes hadnโ€™t shared that before.

โ€œHow would you know that?โ€ Ash demanded.

โ€œHe knew Sotoria,โ€ I answered. โ€œI havenโ€™t had a chance to tell you.โ€

Attes nodded. โ€œI met her when Kolis first brought her back. In Dalos. I wasโ€ฆin her presence long enough to know her voice and laugh.โ€

โ€œI have so many questions about that,โ€ I murmured, but something suddenly occurred to me. โ€œEven if I were Sotoria, and what Eythos planned

worked, we still canโ€™t kill Kolis, right? He is the only one with true Primal of Death embers.โ€

โ€œCorrect.โ€ Keella drifted closer, a woodsy, earthy scent following her. โ€œIf Kolis dies without there being true embers of death in someone else, the

release of those embers would devastate the realms and upset the balance.โ€

My brows lifted. โ€œThat brings me back to the point I was making. Kolis cannot be killed.โ€

โ€œYet,โ€ Keella said.

โ€œThe Star.โ€ Ash eyed the leather satchel Attes carried. โ€œThe Star can be used to transfer the embers from Kolis.โ€

โ€œOf course,โ€ I murmured as I frowned. โ€œBut it would be holding Sotoriaโ€™s soul.โ€

โ€œHopefully, not for long,โ€ Attes said. โ€œEythos hoped Sotoria could weaken Kolis enough for the embers to be transferred to The Star.โ€

โ€œBut what if I hadnโ€™t found the diamond?โ€ I pointed out. โ€œThat was a huge risk to take.โ€

A wry grin appeared on Attesโ€™s face. โ€œAs I said, I didnโ€™t think Eythosโ€™s plan was all that great.โ€

โ€œMaybe it wasnโ€™t his only plan,โ€ Nektas commented. โ€œYes, Eythos could be impulsive, but I doubt he didnโ€™t think of all the possible ways things could go wrong. He couldโ€™ve had other plans and simply didnโ€™t share them.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s no way of knowing that,โ€ Attes said. โ€œBut what I do know is that once Sotoria is reborn, we will have The Star and can end Kolis.โ€

Once Sotoria was reborn, sheโ€™d likely be raised as I was, steeped in death and groomed for one purpose only: to seduce and kill. Not to be her own

person, with a future. My stomach twisted with nausea.

I shook my head. โ€œWhat about until then?โ€

โ€œSeveral things have to happen before then,โ€ Keella said. โ€œEven though Eythos was no longer the Primal of Life when we placed Sotoriaโ€™s soul in

your bloodline, he still had the true embers of life then. For me to do what we

did again, I will need the true Primal of Lifeโ€™s assistance.โ€

โ€œSo you will need Ash,โ€ I said. The subject of my statement tensed behind me. โ€œThen what?โ€

Keellaโ€™s gaze lifted to Ash and then returned to me, but it was Attes who said, โ€œThen we would have to incapacitate Kolis until Sotoria can be reborn and come of age. He will be weakened by the Ascension of the true of Primal of Life. It will be our one opportunity to strike.โ€

Ash spoke then. โ€œYou speak of entombing him. Putting him in stasis.โ€

I now knew how that could be doneโ€”by using the bones of the Ancients. โ€œYou speak as if this will be easy to do,โ€ Ash said. โ€œThose loyal to him

will resist. They will fight for him.โ€

โ€œThere will be war,โ€ I whispered, looking up at Attes. โ€œBut that war has been coming.โ€

Attes nodded. โ€œBut it wonโ€™t be the kind of war Kolis would wage.โ€

โ€œKolis claims he doesnโ€™t want war,โ€ I shared. โ€œI know thatโ€™s hard to believe, and only part of me thinks he spoke the truth. But that was beforeโ€ฆ well, before now. When he wakes and realizes Iโ€™m not really Sotoria, itโ€™ll be bad.โ€

โ€œAnd we will be prepared.โ€ Attesโ€™s stare moved to Ash. โ€œWe canโ€™t let the only hope we have of stopping Kolis die.โ€

โ€œThe only person I care about not dying is Sera,โ€ Ash swore. My heart, well, it was doing flips now. Weak ones.

โ€œAnd I understand that.โ€ Attes lowered his voice. โ€œBut this is bigger than

youโ€”than Seraphena. Than all of us. You know that. Deep down, you do.โ€

My gaze crawled back to Ash. โ€œHeโ€™s right,โ€ I said quietly. โ€œAnd you

know it. You might not think so now, but later? Whenโ€ฆwhen all of this was for nothing?โ€

โ€œThere wonโ€™t be a later when this was for nothing,โ€ he countered. โ€œAsh.โ€ A palpation in my chestโ€”a whooshing sensationโ€”took my

breath, but only for a second. I ignored it. โ€œThis is important.โ€

โ€œNo, Sera. That soul isnโ€™t important. You are.โ€ His whirling silver eyes fixed on the other Primal. โ€œShe is what matters. And if I have to repeat that, I will rip out your tongue.โ€

A buzzing, bubbling sensation filled me as I stared up at the harshly beautiful lines of Ashโ€™s face. It wasnโ€™t the rather grotesque threat that made my heart swell and fill. It was the other words heโ€™d spoken. Thatย Iย was important to him.ย Iย mattered to him. I already knew I did, but Iย feltย them in how he held me, tightly but gently. I heard them in how fiercely he spoke. I saw them in how he looked at me, his eyes a luminous, warm silver, and I knew them to be true.

I was important.

I mattered.

Not for what I had been born to do but for who I was.

And that realization wasnโ€™t something that came all of a sudden, only

because Ash had said them. It was something Iโ€™d always known, wasnโ€™t it? I

wouldnโ€™t have been so relieved all those years ago when Ash refused to take me as his Consort. Iโ€™d known then that my life mattered, despite my duty and so-called failures. I just hadnโ€™t allowed myself to accept the truth. Ash helped me see that. Accept it.

But I knew that Sotoriaโ€™s soul was also important.

Leaning into Ash, I cupped his cheek. Those frigid eyes landed on me. โ€œI love you,โ€ I whispered. โ€œI love your protectiveness. I love that you seeย me.

That Iโ€™m important to you. Thatย Iย matter. I love you so very much for that.โ€

A shudder went through him as the eather whirled more fiercely in his eyes. โ€œYou are the only thing that matters.โ€

โ€œBut Iโ€™m not,โ€ I told him. โ€œSotoria does. Like your father, she has been trapped and doesnโ€™t deserve what will happen if her soul remains in me.โ€

A muscle began ticking in his jaw.

โ€œThatโ€™s not fair to her. You know that.โ€ I drew my finger along his lower lip. โ€œAnd I know you wouldnโ€™t want that for her. My importance doesnโ€™t cancel out hers.โ€

Eather flared brightly in his eyes. โ€œI disagree.โ€

โ€œAre you sure yourย kardiaย was correctly removed?โ€ Attes asked dryly. He lifted a hand when Ashโ€™s head swung toward him. โ€œJust asking.โ€

โ€œIgnore him.โ€ I guided his gaze back to me. โ€œLook, Iโ€™ve started the Ascension, but Iโ€™m not going to fully Ascend right this moment. We have time to take care of this, and itโ€™s not like it will hurt me.โ€ I looked over my shoulder, glancing between the two Primals. โ€œRight?โ€

โ€œIt shouldnโ€™t,โ€ Keella answered.

โ€œThatโ€™s not entirely reassuring,โ€ Nektas murmured from where he stood.

โ€œNo, it isnโ€™t.โ€ Ashโ€™s eyes narrowed on the Primal goddess.

โ€œWhat we plan in regard to removing Sotoriaโ€™s soul and setting her on a path to be reborn is not without risk,โ€ Keella said. โ€œIt could incite the wrath of the Fates.โ€

โ€œWhat doesnโ€™t incite their wrath?โ€ I muttered dryly.

โ€œNot much.โ€ Keellaโ€™s brief smile vanished as she knelt beside Ash and me, her voice becoming solemn. โ€œThere is a balance to life, one that Eythos understood, but Kolis never truly could, no matter how hard he tried to. You see, if there is life, there must also be death.โ€

Understanding crept in as I thought about Marisol and my stepfather. โ€œIf you bring someone back to life, another loses their life? That kind of

balance?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s more than that, Seraphena. The Fates were never fond of restoring life. Not even what I do by giving those who never truly lived a chance to do so. But reincarnation is a loophole of sorts. What Kolis has done, what

Eythos and I took part in, and what we are about to do again will upset the balance.โ€

I wasnโ€™t sure what she was getting at.

Keella leaned in, her ancient gaze fixing on mine. โ€œThere was a reason

Eythos had to be careful when it came to restoring lifeโ€”giving it back to one whoโ€™d passed. It cannot be done twice for the same personโ€”mortal, god, or drakenโ€”without the Arae intervening in some fashion, becoming the checks and balances. Therefore, doing so will never end the way one intends. Either death will come for them again, or the Arae will reset the balance in some other way.โ€ Her lips quirked. โ€œAfter all, look at the mess weโ€”Kolis, Eythos,

and Iโ€”have created with Sotoria.โ€ She paused. โ€œAnd there is no way the Fates have not dipped their hands in this and made it even messier.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™sโ€ฆthatโ€™s why Holland called the Revenants an abomination, isnโ€™t it?โ€ I glanced at Ash. โ€œBecause they keep coming back.โ€

Keella nodded. โ€œSotoria has died multiple times and was brought back in one form or another. Then her soul was reincarnated. That ceased when we placed her with the embers. She was supposed to be reborn. That did not occur.โ€

It struck me then. โ€œCould the Fates have been why I wasnโ€™t reborn as Sotoria and instead became aโ€ฆa vessel for her?โ€

โ€œI cannot answer that for sure, but if I had to hazard a guess, I would say so.โ€

I shook my head. โ€œSo, they could do something similar again?โ€

โ€œOr not.โ€ Keella tilted her head. โ€œThey could do something far moreโ€ฆ concerning. Thereโ€™s no way to know, but it would be foolish of us not to consider the risk.โ€

I studied her. โ€œYou sound afraid of the Arae.โ€

โ€œThe oldest of us are wise enough to be wary of them.โ€ She smiled. โ€œWe may be Primals, but we are not the ultimate power.โ€

โ€œAt this moment, I couldnโ€™t care less about pissing off the Fates. That wasnโ€™t what I was asking,โ€ Ash stated, impatience filling his tone. โ€œWill removing Sotoriaโ€™s soul harm Sera in any way?โ€

Keellaโ€™s gaze flicked up to Ash. โ€œNo.โ€ That was a relief. โ€œHow is it done?โ€

โ€œHave you been able to sense the dual souls?โ€

He shook his head. โ€œIโ€™ve only ever been able to feel the imprint of Seraโ€™s soul.โ€

โ€œInteresting.โ€ Keellaโ€™s brows furrowed and then smoothed out. โ€œSince I have handled this soul before, I will be able to, but I need your help, Nyktos. I need you to keep your hands on Sera and concentrate on her soul.โ€

โ€œIs there a chance you will do something to Seraโ€™s soul?โ€ Ash demanded.

A trickle of unease ran down my spine as Ehthawn lifted his head from where it rested. Nektas stepped forward, his arms crossing.

Keella smiled. โ€œNot if you do as I request. You willโ€ฆbasically be anchoring yourself to her soul. Do you understand?โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ Ash said, and I was glad he did because I didnโ€™t. โ€œLetโ€™s do this then.โ€

Attes stepped forward, lifting the saddlebag. Reaching inside, he pulled out the diamond and extended his hand, his fingers opening.

The Star rested on his palm, its edges jagged and irregular. There was no milky light filling the diamond now, but every part reflected whatever light found its way to it, casting shimmering rainbow hues over my legs and across the floor.

Keella carefully took The Star. Her silver eyes met mine. โ€œAttes said you were able to feel Sotoriaโ€™s presence? Is that true now?โ€

Wetting my lips, I closed my eyes and concentrated. There was no hum in my chest, but there was an awarenessโ€”that presence near my heart. It was so faint, and I wondered if my being so close to death affected her. I nodded, opening my eyes. โ€œI can feel her.โ€

โ€œGood.โ€ Keella was looking at Ash as Attes took a step back. โ€œReady?โ€

Ash pressed his palm between my breasts. โ€œReady,โ€ he said gruffly.

A moment later, Keella placed her hand just below Ashโ€™s, her pinky finger overlapping his. My lips twitched as I fought a ridiculous giggle.

Ashโ€™s head tilted down. โ€œWhat are you thinking?โ€ he asked. โ€œJust that itโ€™s not often I have two Primal hands on my breasts.โ€

Nektas snorted as a dimple appeared in Attesโ€™s right cheek. I could feel Ash shaking his head behind me.

Keellaโ€™s smile tipped up. โ€œTry to concentrate on Sotoriaโ€™s soul.โ€

I nodded obediently and couldโ€™ve sworn I saw Attesโ€™s other dimple wink to life.

The white aura behind Keellaโ€™s pupils pulsed. Tendrils of eather seeped out, swirling across her irises and into her skin. Her eyes closed as the wisps spread over her smoky-reddish-brown cheeks and moved down her throat until her entire being was awash in essence.

Ash lowered his head, pressing his cheek against mine as I concentrated on Sotoriaโ€™s presence. A heartbeat passed, and then a faint coolness seeped into my torso. I wasnโ€™t sure if it was Ashโ€™s touch or moreโ€”him anchoring himself to my soul.

โ€œDo you have Seraphenaโ€™s soul?โ€ Keella asked. โ€œI do,โ€ Ash confirmed, his voice rough.

I almost asked what it felt like, what it looked like, but it probably

wouldnโ€™t be wise to break anyoneโ€™s concentration.

Including mine.

โ€œI feel her,โ€ Keella announced with a solemn sigh. โ€œSuu ta lene.โ€ย The essence around her flared. โ€œVas na sutum.โ€

โ€œIt is okay,โ€ Ash translated quietly for me. โ€œYou are safe.โ€

โ€œVena ta mayah,โ€ she urged. I knew that one. Come to me. Tendrils of eather crackled around her. โ€œIlla vol la sutum.โ€

โ€œShe willโ€ฆshe will be safe,โ€ Ash repeated.

That didnโ€™t make sense, exceptโ€ฆKeella had told her to come to her and then said she would be safe. She wasnโ€™t talking about Sotoria. She was talking about me.

Oh, gods. Was Sotoria somehow resisting because she was worried about me?

โ€œIlla vol ori,โ€ Keella told her. โ€œIlla volโ€ฆโ€ Whatever else Keella said was lost to the sudden buzzing in my ears.

Ash inhaled sharply, and my body jerked as I felt Sotoria respond. It was

like she was disentangling herself from me and suddenly moving closer to the surface. That was the only way I could describe it.

โ€œHold on to Seraphena,โ€ Keella instructed. โ€œAlways,โ€ Ash responded. โ€œAlways.โ€

My heart stuttered and then sped up as I looked down, barely able to see

past the aura coming off Keella. Still, Iย feltย the sudden warmth pulsing over the skin of my chest under their hands.

A soft, silvery-white light suddenly radiated from my chest. My eyes widened as Keella replaced her hand with the one that held The Star. The hard edges pressed into my skinโ€”

I heard Sotoria then.

Heard her speaking just as her soul left me and poured into the diamond.

Keella rocked back, the essence dimming around her as she looked down at The Star. An intense, bright white light floated inside the stone.

โ€œIt is done?โ€ Attes asked, his voice thick.

โ€œIt is.โ€ The Primal goddess rose, turning to Attes. โ€œWe will keep her safe.โ€

โ€œUntilโ€ฆโ€ I cleared my throat. โ€œUntil when?โ€

โ€œUntil itโ€™s best to allow her to be reborn,โ€ she said as Attes took the diamond. He handled it with reverence, gently placing it inside the satchel. โ€œOnce we can be sure that Kolis will not be able to find her before she is ready.โ€

Before she is ready.

A sour taste gathered in my mouth as I placed my hand on my chest. Ash asked me if I was okay, and I nodded. I didnโ€™t feel different, yet I did. The

presence I hadnโ€™t been aware of for most of my life was gone, but Sotoriaโ€™s parting words lingered.

We will meet again.

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