I slowly became aware of a faint taste in my mouthโa sweet, smoky, lush flavor. Decadent. Powerful. My lips tingled. So did my fingers. I stretched, enjoying the pull of my muscles as I wiggled my toes.
A body moved against mine. A sudden inhalation of breath brought a chest against my back.ย โLiessa,โย a familiar, deep voice murmuredโone Iโd recognize anywhere, anytime. โThere you are.โ
Ash.
My eyes fluttered open to a vivid, deep sapphire sky streaked with trailing pink and amethyst clouds. Confusion rose as I squinted. Iโd never seen such a sky before. My gaze lowered to trees in an array of blues and violets that bordered on pink, reminding me of the jacaranda trees outside Wayfair.
Disjointed memories flashed. The cavern of lilacs. Arriving in the Bonelands. Freeing Eythos. Wrenching, terrible pain, and then nothing.
I stared at the surreal, brightly colored landscape. Had Iโฆhad I died?
That didnโt make sense. If I had, I wouldnโt be in Ashโs arms. He couldnโt be near souls who had gone beyond the Pillars of Asphodel without risking the destruction of their souls. And wouldnโt I have remembered passing through them and being judged? Despite what Ash believed about my soul, I seriously doubted Iโd end up someplace as beautiful as this. At the very least, I
wouldโve been one of those souls who needed a more thorough look. Could this be that? If so, why did my temples still ache?
โAm Iโฆ?โ I cleared my throat, causing the sultry taste to fade. โDid I die?โ
โWhat?โ His arm tightened around my waist. โFates, no, Sera.โ
I wiggled again, feeling a soft mattress under me. We were on some sort of sofa. โWhere are we?โ
โThe Thyia Plains.โ Ash shifted me in his embrace, and my head suddenly came to rest in the crook of his arm. I stared up at him. His hair was a rich, warm, reddish-brown and fell against the cut line of his jaw. The
golden-bronze hue of his skin was paler, and I saw concern etched into the striking lines and angles of his face. โKeella thought youโd be more
comfortable here. Weโre on the veranda of her palace.โ
My gaze inched away from his, running over the terracotta stone floor and then beyond to the cliffs that stretched out on either side. I saw Ehthawn. The draken was curled on one of the rocky bluffs, his head resting on the sun- warmed rock. I wouldโve thought him asleep if not for the one open crimson eye and the idle twitching of his tail. I scanned the other cliffs, not seeing
Nektas or the other draken.
Ash smoothed his thumb down my cheek, the coolness of his touch surprising me. It was even colder than before.
I swallowed, glancing down at my handsโmyย emptyย hands. My stomach twisted. โWhere is The Star?โ
โKeella and Attes have it,โ he said, and I relaxed. โHow are you feeling?โ
โIโฆI donโt know. Okay?โ My gaze flicked back to his. โI passed out, didnโt I?โ
โYou did.โ
My mind cleared of the remaining fog, and I stiffened. โOh, gods, Iโm sorry.โ
His dark brows furrowed. โFor what?โ
โFor passing out right in the middle of freeing your father.โ Ashโs expression smoothed out. โSeraโโ
โI saw him touch you. He was talking to you, wasnโt he? In a way no one
else could hear?โ I could clearly see Eythosโs soul drifting upward. โPlease, tell me you didnโt focus on me when I passed out.โ
โI could hear himโhis voice.โ Ashโs thickened. โI didnโt think Iโd ever hear it again, but I did. Thanks to you.โ
โI really didnโt do much.โ
โLiessa,โ he chided softly, drawing his thumb across the skin below my lip. โYou did everything.โ
A knot lodged in my chest. โBut then I had to go and pass out, ruining what was a beautiful moment. So that undoesโโ
โIt undoes nothing, Sera. You didnโt interrupt anything. His soul was leaving this realm.โ
โAre you sure I didnโtโ?โ
โIโm positive.โ Ash dipped his head, kissing my forehead. โHe couldnโt linger here. He didnโt want to after all this time.โ
I imagined not.
Gods, I really hoped he wasnโt lying to me. โWhat did he say to you?โ My eyes widened at my question. โI mean, you donโt have to tell me. Iโm sure it was privateโโ
โHe told me that he loved me.โ Ash drew his fingers along my jaw. โThat he was proud of meโof the man Iโve become.โ
โOh,โ I whispered, feeling the knot make its way to my throat. Tears pricked my eyes.
He stretched his neck to the side. โI almost couldnโt believe he said that, to be honest.โ
โWhy?โ I lifted a hand, relieved that it didnโt take as much effort as walking up those damn Temple steps had. โOf course, he would be proud of you.โ
โIโve done a lot of things that no one would be proud of.โ
My heart ached for him. โYou did things others made you do.โ
โIโm not talking just about that,ย liessa. Just in the last twenty-four hours, Iโve committed indisputable atrocitiesโkilling those who laid down their swords. Those who turned and ran from me.โ
I frowned. โI wouldnโt consider that an atrocity.โ
Ash raised a brow. โSuch an act would likely send a mortalโs soul into the Abyss.โ
โThis is different,โ I reasoned.
One side of his lips tipped up. โCare to explain that reasoning?โ โNot really.โ
He chuckled.
I searched his features. โDo you regret killing them? The ones who surrendered or ran?โ
โNo.โ
His quick answer told me he spoke the truth. โGood.โ Ash cocked his head.
โWhat? I wouldโve regretted it for a whole three-point-five seconds and then moved right on. You know that.โ And he did because Iโd shared my
struggles concerning my lack of guilt. โYou told me before that all of us are capable of monstrous acts, but it does not make us monsters.โ
โI did.โ
My gaze dropped to the collar of his shirt. The loose opening revealed a swatch of his shoulder and the black ink there. โOne hundred and ten,โ I murmured, lifting my eyes to his. He may say he didnโt regret taking those lives, but underneath his anger, he did. He was better than me, less monstrous. โDo not add those lives to your flesh,โ I said. Right or wrong, I didnโt want that for him.
Thick lashes lowered, and he nodded. I felt his chest rise again with a deep but shaky breath.
โDid he say anything else?โ I asked.
Ash nodded. โHe told me not to forget what he said when we were near the Red River, rounding up the Shades.โ His jaw tensed as his thumb skated over the line of my cheekbone. โIt was the last time I saw him alive.โ
โWhat did he tell you?โ
โThatโs the thing.โ Ash hesitated, his eyes darting away from mine before returning. He curtly shook his head. โI donโt remember.โ
His denial hung in the air between us, and I bit down on the inside of my lip, tasting a hint of the sweet, smoky flavor againโฆ
Wait.
โYou gave me your blood.โ โI did.โ
โAsh.โ Worry spread through me like a weed left to grow. Heโd been imprisoned forย weeks, and what blood heโd taken after being freed couldnโt have been enough to restore him. โYou shouldnโt have done thatโโ
โYou shouldnโt have used the eather to free my father,โ he cut in gently. โSo, we both did what we believed the other shouldnโt have.โ
โThatโs not the same thing.โ
โWhat you did caused you to deplete your energy and pass out,โ he countered, the essence in his eyes dancing. โI, on the other hand, didnโt suffer those consequences.โ
โPassing out probably has more to do with climbing those damn Temple steps than using the eather to free Eythos.โ
A small smile appeared. โSera.โ
โIโm serious. I hate stairs, and itโs not any different. You need to conserve your energy.โ
Ash sighed. โI didnโt give you very much blood, just enoughโฆโ
โJust enough to make sure I woke up,โ I finished for him. Part of me was surprised that his blood had even done that at this point. Because the pain Iโd felt in my chest? I wouldnโt have been surprised if my heart had imploded.
โYou shouldnโt have done it.โ
โAnd whatย shouldย I have done?โ The softness vanished from his features. โLet you die?โ His eyes narrowed when I opened my mouth. โIf you say yes, so help me Fates, Seraโฆ Because I will not let you die.โ
I started to sit up, but the arm I rested on tensed, and his hand curved around my shoulder. Frustration swept through me. โI wasnโt going to say that.โ
โReally?โ
โNo.โ I struggled in his hold. โYou know what you shouldโve done.โ
โI did exactly what I shouldโve done,โ he shot back. โAnd stop trying to move around. You need to take it easy.โ
โWhat is taking it easy going to do for me?โ I threw up my arms, almost smacking him in the face. โThe same as giving me blood? Delaying the
inevitable while wasting time?โ
The skin of his cheeks thinned. Shadows blossomed, thickening. โDisagree.โ
โDisagree?โ I sputtered.
โI believe that is what I just said. You being angry with my response doesnโt change it.โ
My eyes widened as I stared at him. โIโm not angry with you.โ โReally?โ he repeated dryly.
โYes,โ I hissed, trying to rein in my temper. I wasnโt angry with him. I
was furious withย thisโthe situation heโd been put in. That I was in. What couldnโt be avoided. โYou neededโโ
โI did what I needed to do, Sera.โ
โYou two are arguing.โ A deeper, raspier voice intruded. โI suppose that means Sera is feeling better.โ
I twisted in Ashโs arms so fast I started to topple off the couch.
โFor fuckโs sake,โ Ash muttered, catching me. โDid I not just tell you to take it easy?โ
My gaze swung toward gauzy turquoise curtains rippling in front of open doors and then to the tall male with long, black hair streaked with red whoโd walked out. โNektas.โ
I saw his lips curve slightly as he crossed the veranda, ridges of scales visible across his bare shoulders. โHello, Seraphena.โ
Emotion swelled so intensely in my chest upon seeing him in his mortal form that it caught me off guard. Once again, I felt tears crowding my eyes. I had no idea why I was so freaking emotional all the time.
It probably had something to do with me dying.
But Nektasโฆhe had always been kind to me. Heโd never held what I had originally planned against me. And heโฆheโd told me that if I were ever not feeling okay, I could come and talk to him. That we would make sure I got back to being okay together.
โWe werenโt arguing,โ Ash said, giving up on keeping me prone. He sat up, bringing me with him. I ended up sitting half in his lap and half between his legs.
Nektas lifted a brow.
โWe were having a discussion,โ Ash tacked on. โWhere we disagreed.โ
Laughing under his breath, Nektas sat beside us. โYouโre both right and wrong.โ
I drew back. โYou heard us.โ
โAnyone near the veranda heard you two.โ
โOh.โ My cheeks flushed as I glanced at the swaying curtains.
Ash folded his arm over my waist again. โWhat you meant to say is that I was right, and she was wrong.โ
I shot him a glare over my shoulder. โThat is not what he said.โ He glanced down at me. โItโs what I heard.โ
โThen thereโs something wrong with your hearing.โ
โIs this a continuation of the discussion where you two were not arguing but disagreeing?โ Nektas asked.
โYes,โ Ash and I snapped at the same time. โAt least you can agree on that.โ
โI was simply telling him that he needs to take the embers,โ I began.
โNot to sound repetitive,โ Ash said, โbut I disagree.โ โOh, my fucking gods.โ
โNow, youโre just being sacrilegious.โ I glared at him.
His lips twitched.
โThat wasnโt even funny.โ Ash opened his mouth.
โIf you say disagree again, I cannot be held accountable for my actionsโ
my extremely violent actions.โ
โAs I was saying,โ Nektas jumped in again, a lock of crimson-streaked hair sliding over his shoulder as he tilted his head. His eyes met mine.
โYouโre right. Ash cannot afford to weaken himself.ย But,โ he said before Ash
could intervene, โhe only gave you a little of his blood. Not nearly enough to have stopped this inevitability.โ
I snapped my mouth shut.
โI think it was more like his sheer will made it so you woke up,โ Nektas continued.
His sheer will?
โAnd is waking up in the arms of the one you care so deeply for a waste of time? There is nothing I would not give to have one more moment with Halayna.โ
My breath snagged at the raw honesty and lingering pain in his voice. I twisted toward Ash. โI donโt think any extra time with you is a waste. I wasnโt thinking.โ
โI know.โ Ash cupped my cheek.
โBut Sera doesnโt have much more of that precious time,โ Nektas said quietly. โAnd that cannot be denied. I can feel it.โ He placed a hand against the coppery skin of his chest. โScent it.โ
My upper lip curled. โYou canโฆsmell it?โ
โThe body goes through natural changes when it begins to die. That is something we can smell,โ he explained. I thought about the last time heโd said I smelled like death. Had I smelled like this the whole time? โAnd we can sense the fading of the embers.โ
I looked at where Ehthawn rested and thought about the low, mournful sound Iโd heard him make.
โSo can Ash,โ Nektas continued. โSo can any Primal who is near you.โ Reaching down, I folded my hand over the arm at my waist.
Nektas lifted his ruby eyes to Ash. โYou know what has to be done. And
soon.โ
Ash was completely still behind me. I didnโt even feel him breathe. โI do.โ
Briefly squeezing my eyes shut, I leaned against Ashโs chest. There was so much I wanted to say, but most of it would only make things worse. I
knew that.
I took a deep breath. โIโm sorry about Orphine.โ โAs am I.โ
Glancing at Ehthawn, I wished there was more I could say than that, but there truly werenโt words in any language that could capture the sorrow felt after a death. โHowโฆhow is Jadis? Reaver?โ
Nektasโs handsome features softened. โThey are good. Safe. Reaver has asked for you, and my daughter often searches for you.โ His smile was sad. โI think she misses sleeping on your legs.โ
My lips trembled, and I pressed them together as Ash folded his other arm over my chest. Would Jadis even remember that? What about Reaver? The knot tripled in size. My nose burned, and it took several moments for me to speak. โIโฆIโve missed that,โ I rasped. โI miss both of them.โ
โI know,โ Nektas said solemnly.
I met his gaze and tried to say more. What, exactly, I wasnโt even sure, but I couldnโt get anything out. The drakenโs face blurred, and I tried to find that veil of nothingness because I didnโt want Ash feeling any of what I was. I didnโt want Nektas seeing it.
Nektas reached for me. His skin was so warm as he placed my hand between his palms. He said nothing as he drew it to his chest, pressing it over where I felt his heart beatโfelt two beats, almost side by side. Then he returned my hand to Ashโs. His cool fingers threaded through mine. I blinked a couple of times, letting my head fall back against Ashโs chest.
Nektas turned to the doors and rose as Keella walked out onto the veranda, followed by Attes.
Icy air blasted off Ash when he saw Attes.
โI donโt want to intrude,โ Attes announced, his steps slowing. โBut youโre going to,โ Ash replied coolly.
โI wouldnโt if I could.โ Attes approached us as Keella stayed back. My
gaze dropped to the leather saddlebag gripped tightly in his hand. โHow are you feeling, Seraphena?โ
Ash couldnโt be more rigid if he tried. โIโm okay,โ I said.
His smile was more of a grimace. โWhy do I have a feeling you say that when itโs not true?โ
โBecause she does.โ Ashโs palm flattened against my hip. โBut knowing that wonโt stop you.โ
โUnfortunately, no,โ Attes admitted quietly. โWe need to take care of Sotoriaโs soul.โ
โI donโt give a fuck about that soul,โ Ash snarled, shadows pressing against the flesh of the arm he had around my waist.
โBut you need to care,โ Attes began.
Ashโs head whipped toward the other Primal. โWas I not clear?โ His voice vibrated with rageโhis entire body did. But he held me so carefully, as if I
were made of nothing more than fragile, spun glass. โAsh,โ I said, twisting toward him.
โI know sheโs important.โ Attes inched closer, speaking before I could continue. โI know sheโs very important to you.โ
The churning wisps of eather stilled in Ashโs eyes. He lifted his gaze from mine and slowly turned his head to the Primal. The look he gave the Primal of War and Accord could freeze a soul.
Attes was undaunted. โAnd I remember what thatโs like. It fucking haunts me,โ he said. I thought of the children heโd lost. โIโve been told you had yourย kardiaย removed. In all honesty, I find that hard to believe, all things
considered.โ He shot a pointed look at Ash. โHowever, if thatโs true, you know what will happen.โ
A low rumble of warning started in Ashโs chest.
โAnd Iโm sorry. I really am,โ Attes was quick to add. โI like Seraphena.
Sheโฆโ He glanced at me, his sad smile not quite reaching his eyes. โShe amuses me.โ
The growl coming from Ash deepened.
Attesโs attention shifted back to Ash. โBut the soul in her is far more important.โ
โIโm not sure how any of that is helping right now,โ I said, pressing a hand to Ashโs chest as his lips peeled back, revealing sharp fangs. โAt all.โ
โWhat Iโm trying to say is that when Seraphena dies, Sotoria will be lost,โ Attes stated. โAnd that means the only chance to truly stop Kolis dies with that soul. If that happens? Nothing will be able to stop him. And you know
more than anyone, he doesnโt need to Ascend into the Primal of Life and Death to wreak havoc.โ
โYou know an awful lot about this soul, given youโre the fucking Primal of War,โ Ash spat. โBesides that, Sotoria isnโt really alive, now is she? Her soul is just an invader in Seraโs body, whoย isย alive.โ
My brows knitted. I got what Ash was saying, butโฆ โSheโs alive,โ I whispered. Flat, chrome-hued eyes snapped back to mine. โI mean, maybe conscious is better than saying sheโs alive, but sheโs aware.โ
Ash frowned.
โItโs true.โ Attes had moved closer, maybe a few feet from us. โI heard Sotoriaโher voice and laugh from Seraโwhen Kolis first had her. Itโs a sound I would recognize anywhere.โ
My lips parted in surprise. He was talking about when Kolis had tried to take the embers. Attes hadnโt shared that before.
โHow would you know that?โ Ash demanded.
โHe knew Sotoria,โ I answered. โI havenโt had a chance to tell you.โ
Attes nodded. โI met her when Kolis first brought her back. In Dalos. I wasโฆin her presence long enough to know her voice and laugh.โ
โI have so many questions about that,โ I murmured, but something suddenly occurred to me. โEven if I were Sotoria, and what Eythos planned
worked, we still canโt kill Kolis, right? He is the only one with true Primal of Death embers.โ
โCorrect.โ Keella drifted closer, a woodsy, earthy scent following her. โIf Kolis dies without there being true embers of death in someone else, the
release of those embers would devastate the realms and upset the balance.โ
My brows lifted. โThat brings me back to the point I was making. Kolis cannot be killed.โ
โYet,โ Keella said.
โThe Star.โ Ash eyed the leather satchel Attes carried. โThe Star can be used to transfer the embers from Kolis.โ
โOf course,โ I murmured as I frowned. โBut it would be holding Sotoriaโs soul.โ
โHopefully, not for long,โ Attes said. โEythos hoped Sotoria could weaken Kolis enough for the embers to be transferred to The Star.โ
โBut what if I hadnโt found the diamond?โ I pointed out. โThat was a huge risk to take.โ
A wry grin appeared on Attesโs face. โAs I said, I didnโt think Eythosโs plan was all that great.โ
โMaybe it wasnโt his only plan,โ Nektas commented. โYes, Eythos could be impulsive, but I doubt he didnโt think of all the possible ways things could go wrong. He couldโve had other plans and simply didnโt share them.โ
โThereโs no way of knowing that,โ Attes said. โBut what I do know is that once Sotoria is reborn, we will have The Star and can end Kolis.โ
Once Sotoria was reborn, sheโd likely be raised as I was, steeped in death and groomed for one purpose only: to seduce and kill. Not to be her own
person, with a future. My stomach twisted with nausea.
I shook my head. โWhat about until then?โ
โSeveral things have to happen before then,โ Keella said. โEven though Eythos was no longer the Primal of Life when we placed Sotoriaโs soul in
your bloodline, he still had the true embers of life then. For me to do what we
did again, I will need the true Primal of Lifeโs assistance.โ
โSo you will need Ash,โ I said. The subject of my statement tensed behind me. โThen what?โ
Keellaโs gaze lifted to Ash and then returned to me, but it was Attes who said, โThen we would have to incapacitate Kolis until Sotoria can be reborn and come of age. He will be weakened by the Ascension of the true of Primal of Life. It will be our one opportunity to strike.โ
Ash spoke then. โYou speak of entombing him. Putting him in stasis.โ
I now knew how that could be doneโby using the bones of the Ancients. โYou speak as if this will be easy to do,โ Ash said. โThose loyal to him
will resist. They will fight for him.โ
โThere will be war,โ I whispered, looking up at Attes. โBut that war has been coming.โ
Attes nodded. โBut it wonโt be the kind of war Kolis would wage.โ
โKolis claims he doesnโt want war,โ I shared. โI know thatโs hard to believe, and only part of me thinks he spoke the truth. But that was beforeโฆ well, before now. When he wakes and realizes Iโm not really Sotoria, itโll be bad.โ
โAnd we will be prepared.โ Attesโs stare moved to Ash. โWe canโt let the only hope we have of stopping Kolis die.โ
โThe only person I care about not dying is Sera,โ Ash swore. My heart, well, it was doing flips now. Weak ones.
โAnd I understand that.โ Attes lowered his voice. โBut this is bigger than
youโthan Seraphena. Than all of us. You know that. Deep down, you do.โ
My gaze crawled back to Ash. โHeโs right,โ I said quietly. โAnd you
know it. You might not think so now, but later? Whenโฆwhen all of this was for nothing?โ
โThere wonโt be a later when this was for nothing,โ he countered. โAsh.โ A palpation in my chestโa whooshing sensationโtook my
breath, but only for a second. I ignored it. โThis is important.โ
โNo, Sera. That soul isnโt important. You are.โ His whirling silver eyes fixed on the other Primal. โShe is what matters. And if I have to repeat that, I will rip out your tongue.โ
A buzzing, bubbling sensation filled me as I stared up at the harshly beautiful lines of Ashโs face. It wasnโt the rather grotesque threat that made my heart swell and fill. It was the other words heโd spoken. Thatย Iย was important to him.ย Iย mattered to him. I already knew I did, but Iย feltย them in how he held me, tightly but gently. I heard them in how fiercely he spoke. I saw them in how he looked at me, his eyes a luminous, warm silver, and I knew them to be true.
I was important.
I mattered.
Not for what I had been born to do but for who I was.
And that realization wasnโt something that came all of a sudden, only
because Ash had said them. It was something Iโd always known, wasnโt it? I
wouldnโt have been so relieved all those years ago when Ash refused to take me as his Consort. Iโd known then that my life mattered, despite my duty and so-called failures. I just hadnโt allowed myself to accept the truth. Ash helped me see that. Accept it.
But I knew that Sotoriaโs soul was also important.
Leaning into Ash, I cupped his cheek. Those frigid eyes landed on me. โI love you,โ I whispered. โI love your protectiveness. I love that you seeย me.
That Iโm important to you. Thatย Iย matter. I love you so very much for that.โ
A shudder went through him as the eather whirled more fiercely in his eyes. โYou are the only thing that matters.โ
โBut Iโm not,โ I told him. โSotoria does. Like your father, she has been trapped and doesnโt deserve what will happen if her soul remains in me.โ
A muscle began ticking in his jaw.
โThatโs not fair to her. You know that.โ I drew my finger along his lower lip. โAnd I know you wouldnโt want that for her. My importance doesnโt cancel out hers.โ
Eather flared brightly in his eyes. โI disagree.โ
โAre you sure yourย kardiaย was correctly removed?โ Attes asked dryly. He lifted a hand when Ashโs head swung toward him. โJust asking.โ
โIgnore him.โ I guided his gaze back to me. โLook, Iโve started the Ascension, but Iโm not going to fully Ascend right this moment. We have time to take care of this, and itโs not like it will hurt me.โ I looked over my shoulder, glancing between the two Primals. โRight?โ
โIt shouldnโt,โ Keella answered.
โThatโs not entirely reassuring,โ Nektas murmured from where he stood.
โNo, it isnโt.โ Ashโs eyes narrowed on the Primal goddess.
โWhat we plan in regard to removing Sotoriaโs soul and setting her on a path to be reborn is not without risk,โ Keella said. โIt could incite the wrath of the Fates.โ
โWhat doesnโt incite their wrath?โ I muttered dryly.
โNot much.โ Keellaโs brief smile vanished as she knelt beside Ash and me, her voice becoming solemn. โThere is a balance to life, one that Eythos understood, but Kolis never truly could, no matter how hard he tried to. You see, if there is life, there must also be death.โ
Understanding crept in as I thought about Marisol and my stepfather. โIf you bring someone back to life, another loses their life? That kind of
balance?โ
โItโs more than that, Seraphena. The Fates were never fond of restoring life. Not even what I do by giving those who never truly lived a chance to do so. But reincarnation is a loophole of sorts. What Kolis has done, what
Eythos and I took part in, and what we are about to do again will upset the balance.โ
I wasnโt sure what she was getting at.
Keella leaned in, her ancient gaze fixing on mine. โThere was a reason
Eythos had to be careful when it came to restoring lifeโgiving it back to one whoโd passed. It cannot be done twice for the same personโmortal, god, or drakenโwithout the Arae intervening in some fashion, becoming the checks and balances. Therefore, doing so will never end the way one intends. Either death will come for them again, or the Arae will reset the balance in some other way.โ Her lips quirked. โAfter all, look at the mess weโKolis, Eythos,
and Iโhave created with Sotoria.โ She paused. โAnd there is no way the Fates have not dipped their hands in this and made it even messier.โ
โThatโsโฆthatโs why Holland called the Revenants an abomination, isnโt it?โ I glanced at Ash. โBecause they keep coming back.โ
Keella nodded. โSotoria has died multiple times and was brought back in one form or another. Then her soul was reincarnated. That ceased when we placed her with the embers. She was supposed to be reborn. That did not occur.โ
It struck me then. โCould the Fates have been why I wasnโt reborn as Sotoria and instead became aโฆa vessel for her?โ
โI cannot answer that for sure, but if I had to hazard a guess, I would say so.โ
I shook my head. โSo, they could do something similar again?โ
โOr not.โ Keella tilted her head. โThey could do something far moreโฆ concerning. Thereโs no way to know, but it would be foolish of us not to consider the risk.โ
I studied her. โYou sound afraid of the Arae.โ
โThe oldest of us are wise enough to be wary of them.โ She smiled. โWe may be Primals, but we are not the ultimate power.โ
โAt this moment, I couldnโt care less about pissing off the Fates. That wasnโt what I was asking,โ Ash stated, impatience filling his tone. โWill removing Sotoriaโs soul harm Sera in any way?โ
Keellaโs gaze flicked up to Ash. โNo.โ That was a relief. โHow is it done?โ
โHave you been able to sense the dual souls?โ
He shook his head. โIโve only ever been able to feel the imprint of Seraโs soul.โ
โInteresting.โ Keellaโs brows furrowed and then smoothed out. โSince I have handled this soul before, I will be able to, but I need your help, Nyktos. I need you to keep your hands on Sera and concentrate on her soul.โ
โIs there a chance you will do something to Seraโs soul?โ Ash demanded.
A trickle of unease ran down my spine as Ehthawn lifted his head from where it rested. Nektas stepped forward, his arms crossing.
Keella smiled. โNot if you do as I request. You willโฆbasically be anchoring yourself to her soul. Do you understand?โ
โYes,โ Ash said, and I was glad he did because I didnโt. โLetโs do this then.โ
Attes stepped forward, lifting the saddlebag. Reaching inside, he pulled out the diamond and extended his hand, his fingers opening.
The Star rested on his palm, its edges jagged and irregular. There was no milky light filling the diamond now, but every part reflected whatever light found its way to it, casting shimmering rainbow hues over my legs and across the floor.
Keella carefully took The Star. Her silver eyes met mine. โAttes said you were able to feel Sotoriaโs presence? Is that true now?โ
Wetting my lips, I closed my eyes and concentrated. There was no hum in my chest, but there was an awarenessโthat presence near my heart. It was so faint, and I wondered if my being so close to death affected her. I nodded, opening my eyes. โI can feel her.โ
โGood.โ Keella was looking at Ash as Attes took a step back. โReady?โ
Ash pressed his palm between my breasts. โReady,โ he said gruffly.
A moment later, Keella placed her hand just below Ashโs, her pinky finger overlapping his. My lips twitched as I fought a ridiculous giggle.
Ashโs head tilted down. โWhat are you thinking?โ he asked. โJust that itโs not often I have two Primal hands on my breasts.โ
Nektas snorted as a dimple appeared in Attesโs right cheek. I could feel Ash shaking his head behind me.
Keellaโs smile tipped up. โTry to concentrate on Sotoriaโs soul.โ
I nodded obediently and couldโve sworn I saw Attesโs other dimple wink to life.
The white aura behind Keellaโs pupils pulsed. Tendrils of eather seeped out, swirling across her irises and into her skin. Her eyes closed as the wisps spread over her smoky-reddish-brown cheeks and moved down her throat until her entire being was awash in essence.
Ash lowered his head, pressing his cheek against mine as I concentrated on Sotoriaโs presence. A heartbeat passed, and then a faint coolness seeped into my torso. I wasnโt sure if it was Ashโs touch or moreโhim anchoring himself to my soul.
โDo you have Seraphenaโs soul?โ Keella asked. โI do,โ Ash confirmed, his voice rough.
I almost asked what it felt like, what it looked like, but it probably
wouldnโt be wise to break anyoneโs concentration.
Including mine.
โI feel her,โ Keella announced with a solemn sigh. โSuu ta lene.โย The essence around her flared. โVas na sutum.โ
โIt is okay,โ Ash translated quietly for me. โYou are safe.โ
โVena ta mayah,โ she urged. I knew that one. Come to me. Tendrils of eather crackled around her. โIlla vol la sutum.โ
โShe willโฆshe will be safe,โ Ash repeated.
That didnโt make sense, exceptโฆKeella had told her to come to her and then said she would be safe. She wasnโt talking about Sotoria. She was talking about me.
Oh, gods. Was Sotoria somehow resisting because she was worried about me?
โIlla vol ori,โ Keella told her. โIlla volโฆโ Whatever else Keella said was lost to the sudden buzzing in my ears.
Ash inhaled sharply, and my body jerked as I felt Sotoria respond. It was
like she was disentangling herself from me and suddenly moving closer to the surface. That was the only way I could describe it.
โHold on to Seraphena,โ Keella instructed. โAlways,โ Ash responded. โAlways.โ
My heart stuttered and then sped up as I looked down, barely able to see
past the aura coming off Keella. Still, Iย feltย the sudden warmth pulsing over the skin of my chest under their hands.
A soft, silvery-white light suddenly radiated from my chest. My eyes widened as Keella replaced her hand with the one that held The Star. The hard edges pressed into my skinโ
I heard Sotoria then.
Heard her speaking just as her soul left me and poured into the diamond.
Keella rocked back, the essence dimming around her as she looked down at The Star. An intense, bright white light floated inside the stone.
โIt is done?โ Attes asked, his voice thick.
โIt is.โ The Primal goddess rose, turning to Attes. โWe will keep her safe.โ
โUntilโฆโ I cleared my throat. โUntil when?โ
โUntil itโs best to allow her to be reborn,โ she said as Attes took the diamond. He handled it with reverence, gently placing it inside the satchel. โOnce we can be sure that Kolis will not be able to find her before she is ready.โ
Before she is ready.
A sour taste gathered in my mouth as I placed my hand on my chest. Ash asked me if I was okay, and I nodded. I didnโt feel different, yet I did. The
presence I hadnโt been aware of for most of my life was gone, but Sotoriaโs parting words lingered.
We will meet again.