I didn’t let Lucien’s declaration sink in.
Nesta, however, whirled on him. โShe isย no such thing,โ she said, and shoved him again.
Lucien didn’t move an inch. His face was pale as death as he stared at Elain. My sister said nothing, the iron ring glinting dully on her finger.
The King of Hybern murmured, โInteresting. So very interesting.โ He turned to the queens. โSee? I showed you not once, but twice that it is safe. Who should like to be Made first? Perhaps you’ll get a handsome Fae lord as your mate, too.โ
The youngest queen stepped forward, her eyes indeed darting between all the Fae men assembled. As if they were hers for the picking.
The king chuckled. โVery well, then.โ
Hate flooded me, so violent I had no control over it, no song in my heart but its war-cry. I was going to kill them. I was going to killย allย of themโ
โIf you’re so willing to hand out bargains,โ Rhys suddenly said, rising to his feet and tugging me with him, โperhaps I’ll make one with you.โ
โOh?โ
Rhys shrugged.
No. No more bargainsโno more sacrifices. No more giving himself away piece by piece.
No more.
And if the king refused, if there was nothing to do but watch my friends die โฆ
I could not accept it. I could not endure itโnot that.
And for Rhys, for the family I’d found โฆ They had not needed meโ not really. Only to nullify the Cauldron.
I had failed them. Just as I had failed my sisters, whose lives I’d now shattered โฆ
I thought of that ring waiting for me at home. I thought of the ring on Elain’s finger, from a man who would now likely hunt her down and kill her. If Lucien let her leave at all.
I thought of all the things I wanted to paintโand never would.
But for themโfor my family both of blood and my own choosing, for my mate โฆ The idea that hit me did not seem so frightening.
And so I was not afraid.
I dropped to my knees in a spasm, gripping my head as I gnashed my teeth and sobbed, sobbed and panted, pulling at my hairโ
The fist of that spell didn’t have time to seize me again as I exploded past it.
Rhys reached for me, but I unleashed my power, a flash of that white, pure light, all that could escape with the damper from the king’s spell. A flash of the light that was only for Rhys, only because of Rhys. I hoped he understood.
It erupted through the room, the gathered force hissing and dropping back.
Even Rhys had frozenโthe king and queens openmouthed. My sisters and Lucien had whirled, too.
But there, deep within Day’s light โฆ I gleaned it. A purifying, clear power. Cursebreakerโspellbreaker. The light wiped through every physical trapping, showing me the snarls of spells and glamours, showing me the way through โฆ I burned brighter, looking, lookingโ
Buried inside the bone-walls of the castle, the wards were woven strong.
I sent that blinding light flaring once moreโa distraction and sleight of hand as I severed the wards at their ancient arteries.
Now I only had to play my part.
The light faded, and I was curled on the floor, head in my hands. Silence. Silence as they all gawked at me.
Even Jurian had stopped gloating from where he now leaned against the wall.
But my eyes were only on Tamlin as I lowered my hands, gulping down air, and blinked. I looked at the host and the blood and the Night Court, and then finally back at him as I breathed, โTamlin?โ
He didn’t move an inch. Beyond him, the king gaped at me. Whether he knew I’d ripped his wards wide open, whether he knew it was intentional, was not my concernโnot yet.
I blinked again, as if clearing my head. โTamlin?โ I peered at my hands, the blood, and when I beheld Rhys, when I saw my grim-faced friends, and my drenched, immortal sistersโ
There was nothing but shock and confusion on Rhys’s face as I scrambled back from him.
Away from them. Toward Tamlin. โTamlin,โ I managed to say again. Lucien’s eye widened as he stepped between me and Elain. I whirled on the King of Hybern. โWhereโโ I again faced Rhysand. โWhat did you do to me,โ I breathed, low and guttural. Backing toward Tamlin. โWhat did you do?ย โ
Get them out. Get my sisters out. Playโplease play along. Pleaseโ
There was no sound, no shield, no glimmer of feeling in our bond. The king’s power had blocked it out too thoroughly. There was nothing I could do against it, Cursebreaker or no.
But Rhys slid his hands into his pockets as he purred, โHow did you get free?โ
โWhat?โ Jurian seethed, pushing off the wall and storming toward us.
But I turned toward Tamlin and ignored the features and smell and clothes that were all wrong. He watched me warily. โDon’t let him take me again, don’t let himโdon’tโโ I couldn’t keep the sobs from shuddering out, not as the full force of what I was doing hit me.
โFeyre,โ Tamlin said softly. And I knew I had won. I sobbed harder.
Get my sisters out, I begged Rhys through the silent bond.ย I ripped the wards open for youโall of you. Get them out.
โDon’t let him take me,โ I sobbed again. โI don’t want to go back.โ
And when I looked at Mor, at the tears streaming down her face as she helped Cassian get upright, I knew she realized what I meant. But the tears vanishedโbecame sorrow for Cassian as she turned a hateful, horrified face to Rhysand and spat, โWhat did you do to that girl?โ
Rhys cocked his head. โHow did you do it, Feyre?โ There was so much blood on him. One last gameโthis was one last game we were to play together.
I shook my head. The queens had fallen back, their guards forming a wall between us.
Tamlin watched me carefully. So did Lucien.
So I turned to the king. He was smiling. Like he knew. But I said, โBreak the bond.โ
Rhysand went still as death.
I stormed to the king, knees barking as I dropped to the floor before his throne. โBreak the bond. The bargain, theโthe mating bond. Heโhe made me do it, made me swear itโโ
โNo,โ Rhysand said.
I ignored him, even as my heart broke, even as I knew that he hadn’t meant to say itโ โDo it,โ I begged the king, even as I silently prayed he wouldn’t notice his ruined wards, the door I’d left wide open. โI know you can. Justโfree me. Free me from it.โ
โNo,โ Rhysand said.
But Tamlin was staring between us. And I looked at him, the High Lord I had once loved, and I breathed, โNo more. No more deathโno more killing.โ I sobbed through my clenched teeth. Made myself look at my sisters. โNo more.ย Take meย homeย and let them go. Tell him it’s part of the bargain and let them go. But no moreโplease.โ
Cassian slowly, every movement pained, stirred enough to look over a shredded wing at me. And in his pain-glazed eyes, I saw itโthe understanding.
The Court of Dreams. I had belonged to a court of dreams. And dreamers.
And for their dreams โฆ for what they had worked for, sacrificed for
โฆ I could do it.
Get my sisters out, I said to Rhys one last time, sending it into that stone wall between us.
I looked to Tamlin. โNo more.โ Those green eyes met mineโand the sorrow and tenderness in them was the most hideous thing I’d ever seen. โTake me home.โ
Tamlin said flatly to the king, โLet them go, break her bond, and let’s be done with it. Her sisters come with us. You’ve already crossed too many lines.โ
Jurian began objecting, but the king said, โVery well.โ โNo,โ was all Rhys said again.
Tamlin snarled at him, โI don’t give aย shitย if she’s your mate. I don’t give a shit if you think you’re entitled to her. She isย mineโand one day, I am going to repay every bit of pain she felt, every bit of suffering and despair. One day, perhaps when she decides she wants to end you, I’ll be happy to oblige her.โ
Walk awayโjust go. Take my sisters with you.
Rhys wasย onlyย staring at me. โDon’t.โ
But I backed awayโuntil I hit Tamlin’s chest, until his hands, warm and heavy, landed on my shoulders. โDo it,โ he said to the king.
โNo,โ Rhys said again, his voice breaking. But the king pointed at me. And I screamed.
Tamlin gripped my arms as I screamed and screamed at the pain that tore through my chest, my left arm.
Rhysand was on the ground, roaring, and I thought he might have said my name, might have bellowed it as I thrashed and sobbed. I was being shredded, I was dying, I was dyingโ
No. No, I didn’t want it, I didn’t want toโ A crack sounded in my ears.
And the world cleaved in two as the bond snapped.