Iย didnโt play Jamesonโs game. I didnโt guess which of the things heโd just said was true, but there was no mistaking the way his throat had tightened when heโd said those last words.
I watched Emily Laughlin die.
That didnโt tell me what had happened to her. It didnโt explain why heโd told me thatย Graysonย had happened to her.
โShall we turn our attention to the bridge, Heiress?โ Jameson didnโt make me guess. I wasnโt sure he really wanted me to.
I forced my focus to the scene in front of us. It was picturesque. There were fewer trees here to block the moonlight. I could make out the way the bridge arched the creek, but not the water below. The bridge was wooden, with railings and balusters that looked like theyโd been painstakingly handmade. โDid your grandfather build this himself?โ
Iโd never met Tobias Hawthorne, but I was starting to feel like I knew him. He was everywhereโin this puzzle, in the House, in the boys.
โI donโt know if he built it.โ Jameson flashed a Cheshire Cat grin, his teeth glinting in the moonlight. โBut if weโre right about this, he almost certainly built somethingย intoย it.โ
Jameson excelled at pretenseโpretending that Iโd never asked him about Emily, pretending he hadnโt just told me that heโd watched her die.
Pretending that what happened after midnight stayed in the dark.
He walked the length of the bridge. Behind him, I did the same. It was old and a little creaky but solid as a rock. When Jameson reached the end, he backtracked, his hands stretched out to the sides, fingertips lightly trailing the railings.
โAny idea what weโre looking for?โ I asked him.
โIโll know it when I see it.โ He might as well have saidย when I see it, Iโll let you know.ย Heโd said that he and Emily were alike, and I couldnโt shake
the feeling that he wouldnโt have expected her to be a passive participant. He wouldnโt have treated her as just another part of the game, laid out in the beginning to be useful by the end.
Iโm a person. Iโm capable. Iโm here. Iโm playing.ย I took my phone from the pocket of my coat and turned on its flashlight. I made my way back over the bridge, shining the beam on the railing, looking for indentations or a carvingโsomething. My eyes tracked the nails in the wood, counting them out, mentally measuring the distance between every one.
When I finished with the railing, I squatted, inspecting each baluster. Opposite me, Jameson did the same. It felt almost like we were dancingโa strange midnight dance for two.
Iโm here.
โIโll know it when I see it,โ Jameson said again, somewhere between a mantra and a promise.
โOr maybe I will.โ I straightened.
Jameson looked up at me. โSometimes, Heiress,โ he said, โyou just need a different point of view.โ
He jumped, and the next thing I knew, he was standing on the railing. I couldnโt make out the water down below, but I could hear it. The night air was otherwise silent, until Jameson started walking.
It was like watching him teeter on the balcony, all over again.
The bridge isnโt that high. The water probably isnโt that deep.ย I turned my flashlight toward him, rising from my crouched position. The bridge creaked beneath me.
โWe need to look below,โ Jameson said. He climbed to the far side of the railing, balancing on the bridgeโs edge. โGrab my legs,โ he told me, but before I could figure out where to grab them or what he was planning to do, he changed his mind. โNo. Iโm too big. Youโll drop me.โ He was back over the railing in a flash. โIโll have to hold you.โ
There were a lot of firsts Iโd never gotten around to after my motherโs death. First dates. First kisses. First times. But this particular firstโbeing dangled off a bridge by a boy whoโdย justย confessed to watching his last girlfriend dieโwasnโt exactly on the to-do list.
If she was with you, why did you say thatย Graysonย happened to her?
โDonโt drop your phone,โ Jameson told me. โAnd I wonโt drop you.โ
His hands were braced against my hips. I was facedown, my legs between the balusters, my torso hanging off the bridgeโs edge. If he let go, I was in trouble.
The Dangling Game, I could almost hear my mom declaring.
Jameson adjusted his weight, serving as an anchor for mine.ย His knee is touching mine. His hands are on me.ย I felt more aware of my own body, my own skin, than I could ever remember feeling.
Donโt feel. Just look.ย I flashed my light at the underside of the bridge.
Jameson didnโt let go.
โDo you see anything?โ
โShadows,โ I replied. โSome algae.โ I twisted, arching my back slightly. The blood was rushing to my head. โThe boards on the bottom arenโt the same boards we can see up top,โ I noted. โThereโs at least two layers of wood.โ I counted the boards.ย Twenty-one.ย I took another few seconds to examine the way the boards met up with the shore, and then I called back, โThereโs nothing here, Jameson. Pull me up.โ
There were twenty-one boards beneath the bridge and, based on the count Iโd just completed, twenty-one on the surface. Everything added up. Nothing was amiss. Jameson paced, but I thought better standing still.
Or I would have thought better standing still if I hadnโt been watching him pace. He had a way of movingโunspeakable energy, uncanny grace. โItโs getting late,โ I said, averting my gaze.
โIt was always late,โ Jameson told me. โIf you were going to turn into a pumpkin, it would have happened by now, Cinderella.โ
Another day, another nickname. I didnโt want to read into thatโI wasnโt even sureย whatย to read into that. โWe have school tomorrow,โ I reminded him.
โMaybe we do.โ Jameson hit the end of the bridge, turned, and walked back. โMaybe we donโt. You can play by the rulesโor you can make them. I know which I prefer, Heiress.โ
Which Emily preferred.ย I couldnโt keep myself from going there. I tried
to focus on the moment, the puzzle at hand. The bridge creaked. Jameson kept pacing. I cleared my mind. And the bridge creaked again.
โWait.โ I cocked my head to the side. โStop.โ Shockingly, Jameson did as Iโd commanded. โBack up. Slowly.โ I waited, and I listenedโand then I heard the creak again.
โItโs the same board.โ Jameson arrived at that conclusion at the same time I did. โEvery time.โ He squatted down to get a better look at it. I knelt, too. The board didnโt look different from any of the others. I ran my fingers over it, feeling for somethingโI wasnโt sure what.
Beside me, Jameson was doing the same. He brushed against me. I tried not to feel anything and expected him to pull back, but instead, his fingers slid between mine, weaving our hands together, flat on the board.
He pressed down. I did the same.
The board creaked. I leaned into it, and Jameson began rotating our hands, slowly, from one side of the board to the other.
โIt moves.โ My eyes darted up toward him. โJust a little.โ
โA little isnโt enough.โ He pulled his fingers slowly back from mine, feather-light and warm. โWeโre looking for a latchโsomething keeping the board from rotating all the way around.โ
Eventually, we found it, small knots in the wood where the board met up with the balusters. Jameson took the one on the left. I took the one on the right. Moving in synchrony, we pressed. There was a popping sound. When we met back in the middle and tested the board once more, it moved more freely. Together, we rotated it until the bottom of the board faced upward.
I shined my flashlight on the wood. Jameson did the same with his.
Carved into the surface of the wood was a symbol.
โInfinity,โ Jameson said, tracing his thumb over the carving.
I tilted my head to the side and took a more pragmatic view. โOr eight.