Rough day?โ Libby asked. My sister was seven years older than me and way too empathetic for her own goodโor mine.
โIโm fine,โ I replied. Recounting my trip to Altmanโs office would only have worried her, and until Mr. Yates graded my second test there was nothing anyone could do. I changed the subject. โTips were good tonight.โ
โHow good?โ Libbyโs sense of style resided somewhere between punk and goth, but personality-wise, she was the kind of eternal optimist who believed a hundred-dollar-tip was always just around the corner at a hole- in-the-wall diner where most entrees cost $6.99.
I pressed a wad of crumpled singles into her hand. โGood enough to help make rent.โ
Libby tried to hand the money back, but I moved out of reach before she could. โI will throw this cash at you,โ she warned sternly.
I shrugged. โIโd dodge.โ
โYouโre impossible.โ Libby grudgingly put the money away, produced a muffin tin out of nowhere, and fixed me with a look. โYouย willย accept this muffin to make it up to me.โ
โYes, maโam.โ I went to take it from her outstretched hand, but then I looked past her to the counter and realized sheโd baked more than muffins. There were also cupcakes. I felt my stomach plummet. โOh no, Lib.โ
โItโs not what you think,โ Libby promised. She was an apology cupcake baker. A guilty cupcake baker. A please-donโt-be-mad-at-me cupcake baker.
โNot what I think?โ I repeated softly. โSo heโs not moving back in?โ โItโs going to be different this time,โ Libby promised. โAnd the
cupcakes are chocolate!โ My favorite.
โItโs never going to be different,โ I said, but if Iโd been capable of making her believe that, sheโd have believed it already.
Right on cue, Libbyโs on-again, off-again boyfriendโwho had a fondness for punching walls and extolling his own virtues for not punching Libbyโstrolled in. He snagged a cupcake off the counter and let his gaze rake over me. โHey, jailbait.โ
โDrake,โ Libby said.
โIโm kidding.โ Drake smiled. โYou know Iโm kidding, Libby-mine. You and your sister just need to learn how to take a joke.โ
One minute in, and he was already making us the problem. โThis is not healthy,โ I told Libby. He hadnโt wanted her to take me inโand heโd never stopped punishing her for it.
โThis is not your apartment,โ Drake shot back. โAveryโs my sister,โ Libby insisted.
โHalf sister,โ Drake corrected, and then he smiled again. โJoking.โ
He wasnโt, but he also wasnโt wrong. Libby and I shared an absent father, but had different moms. Weโd only seen each other once or twice a year growing up. No one had expected her to take custody of me two years earlier. She was young. She was barely scraping by. But she wasย Libby. Loving people was what she did.
โIf Drakeโs staying here,โ I told her quietly, โthen Iโm not.โ
Libby picked up a cupcake and cradled it in her hands. โIโm doing the best I can, Avery.โ
She was a people pleaser. Drake liked putting her in the middle. He used me to hurt her.
I couldnโt just wait around for the day he stopped punchingย walls. โIf you need me,โ I told Libby, โIโll be living in my car.โ