The noise had come from the center of her room. It was the middle of the night, and something heavy had just thumped against her floor.
She was up in an instant, the long dagger she kept between her bed frame and mattress fisted in her hand.
Squinting through the darkness, she found someone slumped over in front of her bed, their blood staining the stone.
โHearteater,โ he said.
She threw her dagger down and rushed to his side. โGrim?โ It had been days since the ball.
He grinned. โI believe youโll be pleased,โ he said, his words labored.
โWill I?โ she said, eyes searching his body for where he was bleeding the most, for signs of what could have possibly happened.
โSomething got very close to killing me.โ
The sinking feeling in her stomach was like a boulder dropping into a river. This information did not please her at all, and she knew he could feel it. โOh? That is wonderful news,โ she whispered.
He nodded. โIt is with great regret that I share it did not succeed.โ She shrugged a shoulder. โNot yet, at least.โ
He barked out a laugh, then groaned.
Her arms circled his body, and she pressed him against the floor with all the strength she could muster. Shaking handsโfrom worry, of course from worryโbegan unbuttoning his shirt.
He made half-sensical comments about her undressing him, but she shushed him, eyes studying the constellation of wounds across his torso. They werenโt like anything she had ever seen before. His skin had turned ashen; the marks were dark. Black veins like roots from a decaying tree wove across him.
โWhat is this?โ she asked. He glanced down at her hands pressed against his chest, and she slowly removed them.
Grim ignored her question. โThe elixir, Hearteater. The Wildling flower,โ he said.
Then his head fell into her lap and he ceased speaking.
Isla tried to undress Grim properly, but he was too heavy to move all that gently. Instead, she took her knives and cut the clothes off him. She could only imagine what he would say about that.
She nearly gagged at the sight of him. The wounds were eating through his skin and bone, ruinous and sinuous. It was as if the darkness was still feasting, even now.
โWhat is this?โ she said to herself. And why wasnโt Grim healing quickly, the way he did with typical injuries?
Isla hoped the elixir would help. If it didnโt, would the shadows spread until Grim was nothing more than ash? Was the entire fate of the Nightshade realm in her hands right now?
With determination, Isla applied the elixir to every wound. On his neck. His chest. His stomach. His arms. His thighs. When she was done, her vial contained only a few more drops.
She sat next to him as he slept and was there when he gained a sliver of consciousness. โIsla,โ he said.
She nearly jumped, looking to see what he needed. But his eyes were closed.
It was only a little while later, knees to her chest as she watched him, that she realized what he had called her. Isla. He had sworn never to call her by her first name . . .
Yet there it was again, falling so effortlessly from his lips.
. . .
Isla portaled them both to his room, where he soon dozed off again. Luckily, she was able to transport them to his bed in his groggy state, or he would have woken up on the floor. His ruined clothes were a tattered pile nearby. Isla toyed with the idea of dressing him again as he rested but settled on simply covering most of his body with one of his dark sheets.
Slowly, like clouds clearing after a storm, the elixir had eaten through the wounds. His skin had grown back. He still wasnโt in perfect condition, but he would live, and for that, Isla found, she was grateful.
Strange. Months ago, sheโd wished him dead. Now, the thought of him dyingโ
She was sitting at the edge of the bed, legs crossed in front of her, when his eyes snapped open. This time, they were more alert and found her immediately. โYou healed me.โ
Then he studied himself. Lifted the sheet. Raised an eyebrow.
โIt isnโt the first time,โ she said. โAnd . . . you have healed me too.โ โThank you,โ he said then. He leaned forward before she could stop
him, wincing from the effort . . . and did something so unexpected, she
didnโt move a muscle. He kissed her on the forehead, then leaned back against the pillow.
Watching him shift uncomfortably, her expression turned serious. โWhat happened?โ she asked. Then, her eyes narrowed. โAre youโare
you looking for the sword without me?โ Were those somehow wounds from
the dragon? Had he awakened it?
โIโm not,โ he said. She must not have looked convinced, because he added, โI am the ruler of Nightshade. Do you truly believe working with you is the only opportunity I have to be wounded?โ
โYes,โ she said. โBecause only in the cave can you not use your powers. With them, you just do . . .โ She waved her hands in front of her face dramatically.
Grim raised an eyebrow at her. โI do what?โ
โYou know what I mean,โ she said, shaking her head. โShadows. Death.
Stuff. You know.โ
He sighed. โWell, the creatures I face often are mostly immune to
shadows. Death. Stuff.โ
Creatures? โGrim. What is going on in Nightshade? What could possibly be strong enough to wound you like this? Why do you need the sword?โ
There were too many questions spilling out of her mouth, but she couldnโt push them down any longer. Things between them had changed. Before, sheโd agreed to work with him only because of his promise to help her during the Centennial.
Now . . . she wanted to help.
He studied her. It was a minute later when he looked down at his hands, still partially covered in marks from the attack. โIt is treason if I tell you. It
is one of the greatest secrets of our realm.โ
Isla just looked at him. โEverything about this is treasonous.โ
He frowned. โI suppose youโre right.โ He shifted his position and winced. โCenturies ago, after the curses were spun, a scar opened up across Nightshade. Winged beasts began escaping from it. They look like dragons, but smaller, and their scales are nearly invincible. Theyโre called dreks, and they have already killed thousands.โ
They sounded terrifying. โDo people live near the scar?โ
He nodded. โNear the parts that are inactive. The attacks have been concentrated to one area in the last century.โ
Grim rubbed a hand across his forehead. He looked exhausted.
โDreks used to be people, millennia ago. My ancestor Cronan cursed his warriors to become unbeatable beasts. He had the blacksmith make him a sword, imbued with his power, so his later generations could control the drek army. Also . . . so they could make new ones. After his death, one of his descendants predicted the dreks would lead to the end of the world, so she cursed the sword to be unusable by a Nightshade ruler.โ How was he going to get past that curse? Was he hoping she would use it for him? โDreks had ravaged both Lightlark and Nightshade. After Cronanโs death, they were all banished below. Now . . . theyโve started rising up again.โ
โSo . . . the sword controls the dreks. Thatโs why you want it? To stop them?โ
Grim nodded.
โMy father was obsessed with finding the sword,โ he said, seeming to surprise himself, because he frowned.
โWhy?โ
โHe wanted to use it to invade Lightlark. It would have been easy, with the dreks.โ
Grimโs father sounded awful. Good thing it seemed like Grim was nothing like him.
She wondered . . .
โWhat was your mother like?โ
He seemed shocked by her question. She was shocked she had asked it.
Eventually, he said, โI wouldnโt know.โ
Her brows came together. โSheโdied? In childbirth?โ
Grim frowned. โNo. On Nightshade, rulers donโt take wives,โ he said. โThey donโt ever even bed the same woman twice. Or, at least, theyโre not supposed to.โ
โWhat? Why?โ
โA precaution,โ he said simply. โLove makes our power vulnerable. It is a weakness.โ
She just stared at him. โYou donโt actually believe that, do you?โ
โI do. If I love someone, they have access to my ability. Itโs a liability.
My ancestors never cared to take the risk.โ
Pieces came together. โThatโs why you had the line of women,โ she said. โThe volunteers. To make sure . . . to make sure you never sleep with the same person twice.โ
He nodded. โNot that I would remember them, but the palace has records. Itโs a precaution. Itโs been that way for generations.โ
Isla realized something. โYouโre trying for an heir, arenโt you?โ She remembered the women talking about being involved with the ruling line
. . .
Grim did not deny it.
She swallowed. โIโm guessing . . . it hasnโt worked?โ
He shook his head. โBearing children as a ruler can take time.โ He looked at her. โNo, I havenโt continued since we made our agreement.โ
Good. If he created an heir, he couldnโt attend the Centennial. Still, there was only one reason why he would want to have a child that she could think of. โYou think the dreks will eventually kill you,โ she said. โYou want to ensure your realm survives.โ
If he was dead, he couldnโt help her at the Centennial. It was in her best interest to not only help him find the sword . . . but also help him use it.
Grim nodded, just the slightest bit. โItโs my duty.โ
โAnd if you did eventually have a child, after the Centennial, you wouldnโt want to know the mother? You wouldnโt . . . allow her to help raise the child?โ
โNo,โ he said.
A precaution. Love makes our power vulnerable. It is a weakness.
โThat sounds . . .โ she said, โvery lonely.โ
Grim made a face. โIโve never felt lonely in my life,โ he claimed.
The way he said it made her feel like he really believed it. Stillโ everyone got lonely. โMaybe you just donโt know what itโs like to miss someone, then,โ she said quietly. โBecause you donโt open yourself up long enough to let them in.โ
He shrugged a shoulder. โIt doesnโt matter,โ he said. โLove is for fools, anyway. It makes people do foolish things.โ He looked at her and said, โI do not intend to become a fool.โ
She was the fool, she knew. Because something about him saying that made her heart break.