THE NEXT DAY FLEW BY, and suddenly Kriss and I were arriving at the other girlsโ reception in conservative gray dresses.
โWhatโs the plan?โ Kriss asked as we walked down the hall.
I considered for a moment. I disliked Celeste and wouldnโt mind seeing her fail, but I wasnโt sure I wanted her to do it on this grand a scale. โBe polite, but not helpful. Watch Silvia and the queen for cues. Absorb everything we can โฆ and work all night to make ours better.โ
โAll right.โ She sighed. โLetโs go.โ
We were on time, as was crucial to the culture, and the girls were already a mess. It was like Celeste was sabotaging herself. Where Elise and Natalie were in respectable deep blues, Celesteโs dress was practically white. Put a veil on her, and this was a wedding. Not to mention how revealing it was, especially when she stood next to any of the German women. Most of them were wearing sleeves to their wrists despite the warm weather.
Natalie had been put in charge of the flowers and missed the detail that lilies were traditionally used at funerals. All the flower arrangements had to be removed hastily.
Elise, though clearly more agitated than she usually was, appeared to be the image of calm. To our guests, she would look like the star.
It was intimidating, trying so hard to communicate with the women from the German Federationโwho spoke very broken Englishโ particularly when I had so much Italian in my brain. I tried to be hospitable; and despite their severe appearance, the ladies were actually quite friendly.
It became clear pretty quickly that the true threat of disaster was Silvia and her clipboard. While the queen graciously aided the girls in hosting the German guests, Silvia walked the perimeter of the room, her sharp eyes missing nothing. It seemed she had pages of notes before the event had ended. Kriss and I quickly realized that our only hope was to have Silvia fall in love with our reception.
The next morning, Kriss came to my room with her maids, and we got ready together. We wanted to make an effort to look similar enough so it was clear we were in charge but not so much alike we looked silly.
It was kind of fun having so many girls in my room. The maids all knew one another, and they talked animatedly behind us as they worked. It reminded me of how things had felt when May was here.
Hours before our guests were supposed to arrive, Kriss and I made our way to the parlor to double-check everything one last time. Unlike the other reception, we were forgoing place cards and letting our guests sit wherever they liked. The band came to practice in the space, and as a lucky bonus, it seemed our choice of fabrics to cover the bland walls made for great acoustics.
I straightened Krissโs necklace as we quizzed each other on the conversational phrases one last time. She sounded very natural speaking Italian.
โThank you,โ she said. โGrazie,โ I answered.
โNo, no,โ she replied, facing me. โI mean thank you. You did an amazing job on this, and โฆ I donโt know. I thought that after Marlee, you might give up. I was afraid that Iโd be doing this alone, but youโve worked so hard. Youโve done great.โ
โThanks. You have, too. I donโt know if I would have survived if I had to work with Celeste. You made it almost easy.โ Kriss smiled. I meant it, too. She was tireless. โAnd youโre right; itโs been hard without Marlee, but I wouldnโt quit. This is going to be great.โ
Kriss bit her lip and considered for a moment. Quickly, as if she might lose her nerve, she spoke. โSo youโre still competing then? You still want Maxon?โ
It wasnโt like I didnโt know what we were all doing here, but none of the other girls had spoken about it like that. I was caught off guard for a moment, wondering if I should answer her. And, if I did, what would I say?
โGirls!โ Silvia trilled, rushing in through the doorway. Iโd never been so grateful to see that woman. โItโs nearly time. Are you ready?โ
Behind her, the queen came in, a soothing calm to balance Silviaโs energy. She studied the room, admiring our work. It was a huge relief to see her smile.
โAlmost ready,โ Kriss said. โWe just have a few details to take care of. One we specifically need you and the queen for.โ
โOh?โ Silvia said curiously.
The queen approached us then, her dark eyes warm with pride. โItโs beautiful. And you both look stunning.โ
โThank you,โ we chorused. The pale-blue dresses with large gold accents had been my idea. Festive and lovely, but not too over the top.
โWell, you might notice our necklaces,โ Kriss said. โWe thought that if they were similar, it would help people identify us as hosts.โ
โExcellent idea,โ Silvia said, scribbling on her clipboard.
Kriss and I smiled at each other. โSince you are both hosts here, too, we thought you should have ones as well,โ I said as Kriss pulled the boxes off the table.
โYou didnโt!โ The queen gasped. โFor โฆ for me?โ Silvia asked.
โOf course,โ Kriss said sweetly, handing over the jewelry. โYouโve both been so helpful. This is your project, too,โ I added.
I could see how touched the queen was by our gesture, but Silvia was completely speechless. I suddenly wondered if anyone at the palace ever gave her any kind of attention. Yes, weโd thought up the idea yesterday as a way to get Silvia on our side, but I was glad weโd done it for more than just that now.
Silvia might be overwhelming, but she did try to do all this instruction for our benefit. I vowed to do a better job of thanking her.
A butler told us our guests were arriving, and Kriss and I stood on either side of the double doors to welcome people as they came. The band started playing softly in the background, maids began circulating with hors dโoeuvres, and we were ready.
Elise, Celeste, and Natalie were walking toward us, surprisingly on time. Once they caught sight of our setupโthe billowing fabric covering the drab walls, the sparkling centerpieces towering on our tables, the overflowing flowersโthere was a clear ache in the eyes of Elise and Celeste. Natalie, however, was too excited to be bothered.
โIt smells like the gardens,โ she said with a sigh, practically dancing into the room.
โA bit too much like it,โ Celeste added. โYouโre going to give people a headache.โ Leave it to her to find fault with something beautiful.
โTry to sit at different tables,โ Kriss suggested as they poured past. โThe Italians are here to make friends.โ
Celeste sucked her teeth, acting as if this was putting her out. I wanted to tell her to pull it together: We had been on our best behavior for her reception. But then I heard the warm buzzing conversation of the Italian women as they came down the hall and forgot all about her.
The best way to describe the Italian ladies was statuesque. They were tall, golden skinned, and absolutely beautiful. As if that wasnโt enough,
they were all so good-natured. It was like they carried the sun inside their souls and let it shine out on everything around them.
The Italian monarchy was even younger than Illรฉaโs. They had been closed off to our attempts at friendship for decades, according to the packet Iโd read, and this was the only time theyโd ever reached out to us. This meeting was the first step toward a closer relationship with a growing government. It had been frightening to think about until the moment they walked through the doorway, and their kindness melted my worries. They kissed Kriss and me on both cheeks and yelledย โSalve!โย I happily tried to match their level of enthusiasm.
I botched some of my Italian phrases, but our visitors were gracious, laughing off my mistakes and helping to correct me. Their English was impressive, and we doted on one anotherโs hairstyles and dresses. It seemed weโd made a good first impression appearance-wise, and that helped me relax.
I ended up settling in for most of the party next to Orabella and Noemi, two of the princessโs cousins.
โThis is delicious!โ Orabella cried, raising her glass of wine.
โWeโre glad you like it,โ I replied, worrying that I was coming across as too shy. They were so loud when they talked.
โYou must have some!โ she insisted. I hadnโt had anything to drink since Halloween, and I wasnโt very fond of alcohol in the first place. I didnโt want to be rude, though, so I took the glass she handed me and sipped.
It was incredible. Champagne was all bubbles; but the deep, red wine had several flavors overlapping, each coming to the forefront in its own time.
โMmmm.โ I sighed.
โNow, now,โ Noemi said, drawing my attention to her. โThis Maxon, he is handsome. How can I get into the Selection?โ
โA heap of paperwork,โ I joked. โThatโs all? Whereโs my pen?โ
Orabella cut in. โI will take some of this paper, too. I would love to take Maxon home with me.โ
I laughed. โTrust me, itโs a bit of a mess in here.โ โYou need more wine,โ Noemi insisted.
โAbsolutely!โ Orabella seconded, and they called over a butler to refill my glass.
โHave you ever been to Italy?โ Noemi asked.
I shook my head. โBefore the Selection, Iโd never even left my province.โ
โYou must come!โ Orabella insisted. โYou can stay with me anytime.โ
โYou always hog the company,โ Noemi complained. โShe stays with me.โ
I felt the wine warming me all over, and their excitement was making me almost too happy.
โSo, is he a good kisser?โ Noemi asked.
I choked a little on the sip I was taking, pulling the glass away to laugh. I was trying not to give too much away, but they knew.
โHow good?โ Orabella demanded. When I didnโt answer, she waved her hand. โHave some more wine!โ she exclaimed.
I pointed an accusing finger at them, realizing what they were doing. โYou two are nothing but trouble!โ
They threw back their heads laughing, and I couldnโt help but join them. Admittedly, girl talk was much more tempting when we werenโt all competing for the same boy, but I couldnโt get too drawn into this.
I stood to leave before I ended up passed out under the table. โHeโs very romantic. When he wants to be,โ I said. They clapped and laughed as I walked away, smiling at how playful they were.
After I got some water and food in me, I played some of the folk songs Iโd learned on my violin, and most of the room sang along. Out of the corner of my eye, I spotted Silvia taking notes and tapping her foot to the beat at the same time.
When Kriss got up and proposed a toast to the queen and Silvia for their help, the room applauded them. When I raised my glass to our guests, they shrieked with delight, downing their glasses and then throwing them against the walls. Kriss and I werenโt expecting that and shrugged before tossing ours as well.
The poor maids scuttled around to clean the shattered pieces as the band started up again and the whole room began to dance. Perhaps the highlight was Natalie on top of the table, doing some kind of dance that made her look like an octopus.
Queen Amberly sat in a corner, speaking jovially with the Italian queen. I felt a rush of accomplishment at the sight and was so engrossed, I nearly jumped when Elise addressed me.
โYours is better,โ she said reluctantly but genuinely. โYou two really pulled together an incredible reception.โ
โThanks. I was worried for a whileโwe got off to such a bad start.โ
โI know. That makes it even more impressive. It looks like you two have been working for weeks.โ She looked around the room, staring longingly at the bright decor.
I put a hand on her shoulder. โYou know, Elise, anyone could see yesterday that you worked the hardest on your team. Iโm sure Silvia will make sure Maxon knows that.โ
โYou think?โ
โOf course. And I promise, if this is some sort of a competition and you lose, Iโll tell Maxon myself what a good job you did.โ
She squinted her already thin eyes. โYou would do that?โ โSure. Why not?โ I said with a smile.
Elise shook her head. โI really admire you for how you are. Honest, I guess. But you need to realize weโre competing, America.โ My smile disappeared. โI wouldnโt lie and say anything bad about you, but I wouldnโt go out of my way to tell Maxon you did something good. I canโt.โ
โIt doesnโt have to be that way,โ I said quietly.
She shook her head. โYes, it does. This isnโt just some prize. This is a husband, a crown, a future. And you probably have the most to gain or lose by it.โ
I stood there, completely stunned. I thought we were friends. Except for Celeste, I really trusted these girls. Was I too blind to see how hard they were fighting?
โThat doesnโt mean I donโt like you,โ she went on. โI like you a lot.
But I canโt cheer for you to win.โ
I nodded, still taking in her words. It was obvious I wasnโt as mentally in this as she was. One more thing that made me doubt my ability to do this job.
Elise smiled over my shoulder, and I turned to see the Italian princess coming toward us.
โPardon me. Can I have the hostess, please?โ she asked in her lovely accent.
Elise gave her a curtsy before heading back to the dancing. I tried to shake off that conversation and focus on the person I was meant to impress.
โPrincess Nicoletta, Iโm sorry we havenโt gotten to speak much today,โ I said, giving her a curtsy myself.
โOh, no! Youโve been very busy. My cousins, they love you!โ I laughed. โTheyโre very funny.โ
Nicoletta pulled me into a corner of the room. โWeโve been hesitant to make bonds with Illรฉa. Our people are much โฆ freer than yours.โ
โI can see that.โ
โNo, no,โ she said seriously. โI mean, inย personalย freedoms. They enjoy more than you. You have the castes still, yes?โ
Suddenly understanding that this was more than a friendly conversation, I nodded.
โWe watch, of course. We see what happens here. The riots, the rebels. It seems people are not happy?โ
I wasnโt sure what to say. โYour Majesty, I donโt know if Iโm the best person to talk to about this. I donโt really control anything.โ
Nicoletta took my hands. โBut you could.โ
A shiver ran through me. Was she saying what I thought?
โWe saw what happened to the girl. The blonde?โ she whispered. โMarlee.โ I nodded. โShe was my best friend.โ
She smiled. โAnd we saw you. Thereโs not much footage, but we saw you run. We saw you fight.โ
The look in her eyes mirrored the way Queen Amberly had looked at me this morning. There was unmistakable pride there.
โWe are very much interested in forming a bond with a powerful nation, if that nation can change. Unofficially, if there is anything we can do to help you acquire the crown, let us know. You have our full support.โ
She crammed a piece of paper into my hand and walked away. As she turned her back, she shouted out something in Italian, and the room roared with delight. I didnโt have pockets, so I quickly shoved the note in my bra, praying that no one would notice.
Our reception went on much longer than the first, and I suspected it was because our guests were too happy to actually leave. Still, for as lengthy as it was, the whole thing passed in a blur.
Hours later, I headed back to my room completely worn out. I was much too full to even think about dinner, and though it was early in the evening, the idea of going straight to bed was very appealing.
Before I could even look at my bed, however, Anne walked up to me with a surprise. I gasped and took the letter from her hand immediately. I had to give the postal workers at the palace credit; they were very fast.
I tore open the envelope and went to the balcony, soaking up my fatherโs words and the last few rays of sunshine at the same time.
DEARย AMERICA,
YOUโLL NEED TO WRITE A LETTER TOย MAY SOON. WHEN SHE SAW THIS WAS INTENDED FOR MY EYES ONLY, SHE WAS VERY DISAPPOINTED. Iย HAVE TO SAY, Iย WAS A LITTLE CAUGHT OFF GUARD MYSELF. Iย DONโT KNOW WHATย Iย WAS EXPECTING, BUT CERTAINLY NOT WHAT YOU ASKED.
FIRST, ITโS TRUE. WHEN WE CAME TO VISIT, Iย SPOKE WITHย MAXON, AND HE WAS VERY CLEAR ABOUT HIS INTENTIONS TOWARD YOU. Iย DONโT THINK HE HAS IT IN HIM TO BE LESS THAN GENUINE, ANDย Iย BELIEVED (AND STILL DO) THAT HE CARES ABOUT YOU VERY MUCH. Iย THINK IF THE WHOLE PROCESS WAS SIMPLER, HEโD HAVE CHOSEN YOU ALREADY. PART OF ME THINKS THE SLOWNESS IS ON YOUR SIDE. AMย Iย WRONG?
THE SIMPLE ANSWER IS YES. Iย APPROVE OFย MAXON, AND IF YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM, Iย SUPPORT THAT. IF YOU DONโT, Iย SUPPORT THAT, TOO. Iย LOVE YOU, ANDย Iย WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY. MAYBE THAT MEANS YOU LIVE IN OUR SCRUBBY LITTLE HOUSE INSTEAD OF A PALACE. IโM FINE WITH THAT.
AS FOR YOUR OTHER QUESTION, Iย HAVE TO SAY YES TO THAT, TOO.
AMERICA, Iย KNOW YOU DONโT SEE MUCH IN YOURSELF, BUT YOU NEED TO START. WE
TOLD YOU FOR YEARS YOU WERE TALENTED, BUT YOU DIDNโT BELIEVE IT UNTIL YOUR BOOKINGS WENT UP. Iย REMEMBER THE DAY YOU SAW THE FULL WEEK AND KNEW IT WAS BECAUSE OF YOUR VOICE AND THE WAY YOU PLAY, AND YOU WERE SO PROUD. IT WAS LIKE YOU WERE SUDDENLY AWARE OF EVERYTHING YOU COULD DO. AND WEโVE SAID FOR AS LONG ASย Iย CAN REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, BUTย IโM NOT SURE YOU EVER TRULY SAW YOURSELF THAT WAY UNTIL YOU WERE PICKED FOR THEย SELECTION.
YOU HAVE IT IN YOU TO LEAD, AMERICA. YOU HAVE A GOOD HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDERS; YOU ARE WILLING TO LEARN; AND, PERHAPS MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU SHOW
COMPASSION. THAT IS SOMETHING PEOPLE IN THIS COUNTRY YEARN FOR MORE THAN YOU
KNOW.
IF YOU WANT THE CROWN, AMERICA, TAKE IT. TAKE IT. BECAUSE IT SHOULD BE YOURS.
AND YET โฆ IF YOU DONโT WANT THAT BURDEN, Iย COULD NEVER BLAME YOU. Iย WOULD WELCOME YOU HOME WITH OPEN ARMS. Iย LOVE YOU.
DAD
The tears spilled out quietly. He genuinely thought I could do it. He was the only one. Well, he and Nicoletta.
Nicoletta!
Iโd forgotten completely about the note. I fished inside my dress and pulled it out. It was a telephone number. She didnโt even put her name on it.
I couldnโt imagine how much she was risking to make that offer.
I held the tiny piece of paper and the letter from my dad in my hands. I thought of Aspenโs certainty that I couldnโt be a princess. I remembered
the last-place spot in the public poll. I thought of Maxonโs cryptic promise earlier this week โฆ.
I closed my eyes and tried to search within myself.
Could I really do this? Could I be the next princess of Illรฉa?