Scarlettโs instincts told her to run, but her body refused to move. Bold colors swirled inside her.
She heard the man say his nameโCount Nicolas dโArcyโas she felt Julianโs arm tighten around her shoulder.
โI think youโre mistaken,โ Julian said confidently. โYou must have my fiancรฉe confused with another. Sheโs been getting that all week. Havenโt you, love?โ Julian squeezed her shoulder in a way that felt very much like a warning.
But Scarlett remained in too much shock to move. The buttons had never been clues. The black box, containing the dress covered in buttons, had not been from Legend or her sister.ย D stood for dโArcy.
Like Legend, it seemed her fiancรฉ was also fond of playing games. Though the longer Julian kept his arm wrapped around Scarlett, the less amused Count Nicolas dโArcy looked.
Scarlett could scarcely believe this was the same man whoโd written her so many lovely letters. He didnโt appear to be mean or anywhere close to unattractive, yet he also didnโt feel anything like his letters. The count sheโd corresponded with had seemed as if he couldnโt wait until they met so thereโd be no more need for secrecy. Now she wondered if he hadnโt just written down all the things he imagined she wanted to hear, for this young man seemed far from transparent. He looked like the type who enjoyed keeping secrets.
โI hope youโre not disappointed.โ The count adjusted his cravat as a back door opened behind him and the tailor returned, along with another man.
Lavender. Anise. Rotted plums.
โLove, I think we need to leave now.โ Julian wrenched open the front door at the same moment Scarlettโs father came into view.
Every shade of purple flashed in front of her eyes.
But Julian didnโt hesitate. The instant the count reached for Scarlett, Julian shoved over a pedestal of glass eyes and used the distraction to pull her under the arch of the door into a curtain of silver rain. Scarlett gripped his hand as her fatherโs angry words chased from behind.
โDo whatever it takes to stop her!โ he called.
โScarlett, you donโt need to run!โ The countโs voice was not as harsh, but he ran fast, especially for a finely dressed gentleman.
Scarlett tugged Julian toward a covered bridge that she hoped was the same tricky bridge from two nights before. But it wasnโt. Her father and the count continued to pursue them, through winding streets and brightly lit shops, past people who clapped as if it were part of the show.
โThis wayโhold on.โ Julian tore Scarlett from the slippery main road, toward the canals, ripping through a crowd of people all trying to reach shelter. โHop in.โ
โBut thereโs lightning!โ Scarlett said. โWe canโt get in a boat.โ
โYou have any better ideas?โ Julian grabbed two oars as he leaped inside a crescent vessel.
โScarlett!โ her father shouted through the rain. โDonโt do thisโโ His words were cut off by a strike of lightning and a clap of thunder. In the silver- streaked night, Scarlett witnessed something sheโd not seen before.
Her father looked afraid. Raindrops ran down his cheeks like tears. She was sure it was just a trick of the light, but for a moment she imagined her father actually loved her, that maybe deep down he really cared. Beside him, the countโs expression was concealed by the dark, but while theyโd run, Scarlett would have sworn heโd appeared excited by the challenge sheโd presented.
Scarlett looked away and clasped her wet knees to her chest as Julianโs oars cut through the water. Even if her father was still capable of kindness,
and even if the count had actually seemed like the type of man sheโd thought he would be, Scarlett still couldnโt have brought herself to go back to either of them.
Sheโd already made her choice, and sheโd made it before sheโd run out of the haberdashery with Julian. She didnโt know the exact instant when it happened, but an arranged marriage to a man she knew only through letters was no longer something Scarlett wanted. Finally she understood what Tella meant when sheโd said there was more to life than being safe.
She watched Julian take another heavy pull with the oars while more lightning spiderwebbed across the sky. Before meeting him, sheโd believed she could be content as long as she married someone who could take care of her, but Julian had brought out a desire for something more.
She remembered thinking falling for him would be like falling in love with darkness, but now she imagined he was more like a starry night: the constellations were always there, constant, magnificent guides against the ever-present black.
โCrimson, did you hear what I said?โ
Scarlett dropped her gaze from the sky to the soaking-wet boy in front of her. โWhat?โ
โWe need to get out of the boat!โ Julian shouted through the rain as they bumped against a darkened dock.
โWhere are we?โ โCastillo Maldito.โ
โNoโโ Threads of violet panic returned. Nigel already told her Tella wasnโt in the Castillo. โWe need to keep searching for my sister. I was wrong about the buttons, but there has to beโโ
โWe canโt stay on the water,โ Julian cut in. โThe lightning will kill us.โ As he spoke more bolts of silver-white slashed the sky.
โBut if my father finds her firstโโ
โDo you even know where to look right now?โ
When Scarlett didnโt answer, Julian grabbed her hand and hauled her onto the dimly lit, shaking dock. The only light came from the Castilloโs massive
hourglasses and the churning red beads inside them. Aiko must have been telling the truth about the rain washing all the magic away, for the Castillo no longer glowed. It had turned from golden to tarnished. In the courtyard, abandoned tents flapped in the wind, their tuneless beat replacing the vibrant music of the birds from nights before.
โWe need to find somewhere to dry off,โ Julian said.
โIโd rather keep the boat in sight.โ Scarlett huddled under a nearby arch, where she could see the docks and anyone else who might arrive. โOnce the rain stops we need to start searching again.โ
Julian didnโt answer right away. โI think the game, or at least your part in it, should be over. I should never have brought you here. I can take you to a safe place, off the isleโโ
โNo!โ Scarlett cut him off. โIโm not leaving here without my sister. After what Iโve just done, my father will be even more furious when he finds Tella, and he will take it out on her.โ
โAnd what about you? Youโll just keep sacrificing yourself? Marry Nicolas dโArcy?โ
Scarlett wished she could just ignore his question. If she stayed in the game and her father caught her, he wouldnโt kill her, heโd make her marry the count, in a way that almost felt like death. But if she didnโt marry him, how else could she protect her sister? โI donโt know what Iโm going to do.โ
Julian made a sound like a growl. โSo youโre still planning on going through with your engagement?โ
โI donโtย knowย if I am or not! But what other choices do I have?โ Sheets of silver rain fell harder.
Scarlett waited for Julian to say something. To reassure her in some sort of way. To tell herย heย could be her other option. But even as she thought it, she realized how ridiculous it was. Did she really think he was going to say he wanted to sweep her away into another life, or marry her?
When more lightning tore through the night, Scarlett had her answer. Julian stayed close by her side, but his expression was closed off. She recalled the way heโd dusted lint off his shoulder that first night. He might not have
wanted her to be the countโs bride, but that didnโt mean he planned on being with her instead.
โIโm so stupid.โ Her voice danced a line between breaking and shouting. โNone of this means anything to you. You saw my fiancรฉ, got jealous, acted rashly, and now you regret it.โ
โIs that what you think?โ Julianโs words came out deep and rough. โYou believe Iโd risk crossing your father, put you in danger like that, because Iโmย jealous?โ He laughed, as if the jealousy were a ridiculous assumption.
โYouโre such a liar,โ Scarlett snapped.
Julian flattened his lips into a harsh line. โIโve already told you that.โ โNo,โ Scarlett said, โyou lie to yourself. You pull me to you whenever it
seems youโre afraid of losing me, but whenever I get too close, you push me away.โ
โIโve only pushed you away once.โ Julianโs voice hardened as he took a step closer. โI was definitely jealous, but thatโs not the only reason I wanted you out of there.โ
โThen tell me what your other reasons were,โ Scarlett said.
He edged forward, until there was almost no space between them. She could feel the wet of his clothes, clinging to hers. Slowly, he wrapped an arm around her waist, as if giving her the chance to pull away. But sheโd already made her decision. Her heart beat faster as his other arm encased her, tightening around her upper back, pulling her closer to the hard planes of his chest until their lips were feeling the same cold air.
โIs this close enough for you?โ Julianโs mouth hovered over hers. A whisper shy of kissing her. โYouโre sure you want this?โ
Scarlett nodded, afraid saying the wrong thing might push him away. With Julian it wasnโt about protectionโshe just wanted to be with him. The boy whoโd saved her from drowning in more ways than one.
His hand slid down to the small of her back, gentle and firm, slowly pulling her closer once more, while his other hand slipped under her hair and around her neck, rubbing the tender skin there, before it forged a new path.
โI donโt want you to regret any of your choices.โ Julianโs tone almost
sounded pained, as if he wanted her to pull away, but everything about the way he continued to touch her made her feel the opposite. His fingers were now at her mouth, tracing the line of her bottom lip. They tasted like wood and rain, damp from running through her wet hair. โThere are still things you donโt know about me, Crimson.โ
โThen tell me what they are,โ Scarlett said. Heโd shared about his sister and Legend, but there were obviously more shadows in his life.
Julianโs fingers were still at her mouth. Slowly she kissed them, one by one. Just a gentle press of her lips, but she could feel how it affected him by the way his other hand gently dug into her lower back. She had to concentrate to keep her voice from turning breathless as she looked up at his face half eclipsed by darkness and said, โIโm not afraid of your secrets.โ
โI wish I could say you shouldnโt be.โ Julian stroked her lip a final time, then covered her mouth with his own. Saltier than his fingers and more intense than the hand now moving down her spine or the one tightening around her waist. He held her as if she might slip through his grip, and she clung to him, loving the feel of the muscles that lined his back.
He mumbled words against her lips, too low for her to hear, but she imagined she got a strong impression of what he wanted to say, as he coaxed her lips apart, letting Scarlett taste the coolness of his tongue and the tips of his teeth as he grazed her lower lip. Every touch created colors she had never seen. Colors as soft as velvet and as sharp as sparks that turned into stars.