I went straight to room 301 on the third floor. Now I was glad Iโd gone on that little tour, because I knew exactly where to go and didnโt have to look up once. I noticed that some kids were definitely staring at me now. I did my thing of pretending not to notice.
I went inside the classroom, and the teacher was writing on the chalkboard while all the kids started sitting at different desks. The desks were in a half circle facing the chalkboard, so I chose the desk in the middle toward the back, which I thought would make it harder for anyone to stare at me. I still kept my head way down, just looking up enough from under my bangs to see everyoneโs feet. As the desks started to fill up, I did notice that no one sat down next to me. A couple of times someone was about to sit next to me, then changed his or her mind at the last minute and sat somewhere else.
โHey, August.โ It was Charlotte, giving me her little wave as she sat down at a desk in the front of the class. Why anyone would ever choose to sit way up front in a class, I donโt know.
โHey,โ I said, nodding hello. Then I noticed Julian was sitting a few seats away from her, talking to some other kids. I know he saw me, but he didnโt say hello.
Suddenly someone was sitting down next to me. It was Jack Will.
Jack.
โWhatโs up,โ he said, nodding at me.
โHey, Jack,โ I answered, waving my hand, which I immediately wished I hadnโt done because it felt kind of uncool.
โOkay, kids, okay, everybody! Settle down,โ said the teacher, now facing us. She had written her name, Ms. Petosa, on the chalkboard. โEverybody find a seat, please. Come in,โ she said to a couple of kids who had just walked in the room. โThereโs a seat there, and right there.โ
She hadnโt noticed me yet.
โNow, the first thing I want everyone to do is stop talking and โฆโ She noticed me.
โโฆ put your backpacks down and quiet down.โ
She had only hesitated for a millionth of a second, but I could tell the moment she saw me. Like I said: Iโm used to it by now.
โIโm going to take attendance and do the seating chart,โ she continued, sitting on the edge of her desk. Next to her were three neat rows of accordion folders. โWhen I call your name, come up and Iโll hand you a folder with your name on it. It contains your class schedule and your combination lock, which you shouldย notย try to open until I tell you to. Your locker number is written on the class schedule. Be forewarned that some lockers are not right outside this class but down the hall, and before anyone even thinks of asking: no, you cannot switch lockers and you canโt switch locks. Then if thereโs time at the end of this period, weโre all going to get to know each other a little better, okay? Okay.โ
She picked up the clipboard on her desk and started reading the names out loud.
โOkay, so, Julian Albans?โ she said, looking up.
Julian raised his hand and said โHereโ at the same time.
โHi, Julian,โ she said, making a note on her seating chart. She picked up the very first folder and held it out toward him. โCome pick it up,โ she said, kind of no-nonsense. He got up and took it from her. โXimena Chin?โ
She handed a folder to each kid as she read off the names. As she went down the list, I noticed that the seat next to me was the only one still empty, even though there were two kids sitting at one desk just a few seats away. When she called the name of one of them, a big kid named Henry Joplin who already looked like a teenager, she said: โHenry, thereโs an empty desk right over there. Why donโt you take that seat, okay?โ
She handed him his folder and pointed to the desk next to mine. Although I didnโt look at him directly, I could tell Henry did not want to move next to me, just by the way he dragged his backpack on the floor as he came over, like he was moving in slow motion. Then he plopped his backpack up really high on the right side of the desk so it was kind of like a wall between his desk and mine.
โMaya Markowitz?โ Ms. Petosa was saying. โHere,โ said a girl about four desks down from me. โMiles Noury?โ
โHere,โ said the kid that had been sitting with Henry Joplin. As he walked back to his desk, I saw him shoot Henry a โpoor youโ look.
โAugust Pullman?โ said Ms. Petosa.
โHere,โ I said quietly, raising my hand a bit.
โHi, August,โ she said, smiling at me very nicely when I went up to get my folder. I kind of felt everyoneโs eyes burning into my back for the few seconds I stood in the front of the class, and everybody looked down when I walked back to my desk. I resisted spinning the combination when I sat down, even though everyone else was doing it, because she had specifically told us not to. I was already pretty good at opening locks, anyway, because Iโve used them on my bike. Henry kept trying to open his lock but couldnโt do it. He was getting frustrated and kind of cursing under his breath.
Ms. Petosa called out the next few names. The last name was Jack Will.
After she handed Jack his folder, she said: โOkay, so, everybody write your combinations down somewhere safe that you wonโt forget, okay? But if you do forget, which happens at least three point two times per semester, Mrs. Garcia has a list of all the combination numbers. Now go ahead, take your locks out of your folders and spend a couple of minutes practicing how to open them, though I know some of you went ahead and did that anyway.โ She was looking at Henry when she said that. โAnd in the meanwhile, Iโll tell you guys a little something about myself. And then you guys can tell me a little about yourselves and weโll, um, get to know each other. Sound good? Good.โ
She smiled at everyone, though I felt like she was smiling at me the most. It wasnโt a shiny smile, like Mrs. Garciaโs smile, but a normal smile, like she meant it. She looked very different from what I thought teachers were going to look like. I guess I thought sheโd look like Miss Fowl fromย Jimmy Neutron:ย an old lady with a big bun on top of her head. But, in fact, she looked exactly like Mon Mothma fromย Star Wars Episode IV:ย haircut kind of like a boyโs, and a big white shirt kind of like a tunic.
She turned around and started writing on the chalkboard.
Henry still couldnโt get his lock to open, and he was getting more and more frustrated every time someone else popped one open. He got really annoyed when I was able to open mine on the first try. The funny thing is, if he hadnโt put the backpack between us, I most definitely would have offered to help him.