I donโt even know where to begin.
Adamโs pain is like a handful of straw shoved down my throat. He has no parents but a father who beat him, abused him, abandoned him only to ruin the rest of the world and left him a brand-new brother who is exactly his opposite in every possible way.
Warner whose first name is no longer a mystery, Adam whose last name isnโt actually Kent.
Kent is his middle name, Adam said to me. He said he didnโt want to have anything to do with his father and never told people his real last name. He has that much, at least, in common with his brother.
That, and the fact that both of them have some kind of immunity to my touch.
Adam and Aaron Anderson.
Brothers.
Iโm sitting in my room, sitting in the dark, struggling to reconcile Adam with his new sibling who is really nothing more than a boy, a child who hates his father and as a result, a child who made a series of very unfortunate decisions in life. 2 brothers. 2 very different sets of choices.
2 very different lives.
Castle came to me this morningโnow that all the injured have been set up in the medical wing and the insanity has subsidedโhe came to me and he said, โMs. Ferrars, you were very brave yesterday. I wanted to extend my gratitude to you, and thank you for what you didโfor showing your support. I donโt know that we wouldโve made it out of there without you.โ
I smiled, struggled to swallow the compliment and assumed he was finished but then he said, โIn fact, Iโm so impressed that Iโd like to offer you your first official assignment at Omega Point.โ
My first official assignment. โAre you interested?โ he asked.
I said yes yes yes of course I was interested, I was definitely interested, I was so very, very interested to finally have something to doโsomething to accomplishโand he smiled and he said, โIโm so happy to hear it. Because I canโt think of anyone better suited to this particular position than you.โ
I beamed.
The sun and the moon and the stars called and said, โTurn down the beaming, please, because youโre making it hard for us to see,โ and I didnโt listen, I just kept on beaming. And then I asked Castle for the details of my official assignment. The one perfectly suited to me.
And he said
โIโd like you to be in charge of maintaining and interrogating our new visitor.โ
And I stopped beaming. I stared at Castle.
โI will, of course, be overseeing the entire process,โ Castle continued, โso feel free to come to me with questions and concerns. But weโll need to take advantage of his presence here, and that means trying to get him to speak.โ Castle was quiet a moment. โHe . . . seems to have an odd sort of attachment to you, Ms. Ferrars, andโforgive meโ but I think it would behoove us to exploit it. I donโt think we can afford the luxury of ignoring any possible advantages available to us. Anything he can tell us about his fatherโs plans, or where our hostages might be, will be invaluable to our efforts. And we donโt have much time,โ he said. โIโm afraid Iโll need you to get started right away.โ
And I asked the world to open up, I said, world, please open up, because Iโd love to fall into a river of magma and die, just a little bit, but the world couldnโt hear me because Castle was still talking and he said, โPerhaps you can talk some sense into him? Tell him weโre not interested in hurting him? Convince him to help us get our remaining hostages back?โ
I said, โOh,โ I said surely, โheโs in some kind of holding cell? Behind bars or something?โ
But Castle laughed, amused by my sudden, unexpected hilarity and said donโt be silly, Ms. Ferrars, โWe donโt have anything like that here. I never thought weโd need to keep anyone captive at Omega Point. But yes, heโs in his own room, and yes, the door is locked.โ
โSo you want me to go inside of his room?โ I asked. โWith him? Alone?โ
Calm! Of course I was calm. I was definitely absolutely everything that is the opposite of calm.
But then Castleโs forehead tightened, concerned. โIs that a problem?โ he asked me. โI thoughtโbecause he canโt touch youโI actually thought you might not feel as threatened by him as the others do. Heโs aware of your abilities, is he not? I imagine he would be wise to stay away from you for his own benefit.โ
And it was funny, because there it was: a vat of ice, all over my head, dripping leaking seeping into my bones, and actually no, it wasnโt funny at
all, because I had to say, โYes. Right. Yes, of course. I almost forgot. Of course he wouldnโt be able to touch me,โ youโre quite right, Mr. Castle, sir, what on earth was I thinking.
Castle was relieved, so relieved, as if heโd taken a dip in a warm pool he was sure would be frozen.
And now Iโm here, sitting in exactly the same position I was in 2 hours ago and Iโm beginning to wonder
how much longer
I can keep this secret to myself.