It was the sound of water rushing over stones. A sucking, gurgling noise like a tide rushing out. It came again. And again. It ebbed and rose with the stab in my chest and then I realized it was not stones and water I heard. It was my own breaths, liquid, wet, the sounds of me trying to breathe.
There were other sounds, distant, garbled voices, but those didn’t matter. Only the stones, the water, the next breath.
krite it down, before you forget.
And each day we do.
But we can only write about Now.
Before is already gone, except for the nightmares. Every night we must comfort the younger ones.
All they know of Before is the After.
They are afraid it will happen again, that our new family will be torn apart.
That is the reason we hide in here, Nisa cries.
She is right.
I am afraid too.
My grandfather believed in me.
I try to believe like he did, but some nights, after Nisa is asleep, I cry too.
—Greyson Ballenger, 14
