Kenji leads me to a door Iโve never seen before. A door belonging to a room Iโve never been in before.
I hear voices inside.
Kenji knocks twice before turning the handle and all at once the cacophony overwhelms me. Weโre walking into a room bursting with people, faces Iโve only ever seen from far away, people sharing smiles and laughter Iโve never been welcome to. There are individual desks with individual chairs set up in the vast space so that it resembles a classroom. Thereโs a whiteboard built into the wall next to a monitor blinking with information. I spot Castle. Standing in the corner, looking over a clipboard with such focus that he doesnโt even notice our entry until Kenji shouts a greeting.
Castleโs entire face lights up.
Iโd noticed it before, the connection between them, but itโs now becoming increasingly apparent to me that Castle harbors a special kind of affection for Kenji. A sweet, proud sort of affection thatโs usually reserved for parents. It makes me wonder about the nature of their relationship. Where it began, how it began, what mustโve happened to bring them together. It makes me wonder at how little I know about the people of Omega Point.
I look around at their eager faces, men and women, youthful and middle- aged, all different ethnicities, shapes, and sizes. Theyโre interacting with one another like theyโre part of a family and I feel a strange sort of pain stabbing at my side, poking holes in me until I deflate.
Itโs like my face is pressed up against the glass, watching a scene from far, far away, wishing and wanting to be a part of something I know Iโll never really be a part of. I forget, sometimes, that there are people out there who still manage to smile every day, despite everything.
They havenโt lost hope yet.
Suddenly I feel sheepish, ashamed, even. Daylight makes my thoughts look dark and sad and I want to pretend Iโm still optimistic, I want to believe that Iโll find a way to live. That maybe, somehow, thereโs still a chance for me somewhere.
Someone whistles.
โAll right, everyone,โ Kenji calls out, hands cupped around his mouth. โEveryone take a seat, okay? Weโre doing another orientation for those of you whoโve never done this before, and I need all of you to get settled for a bit.โ
He scans the crowd. โRight. Yeah. Everyone just take a seat. Wherever is fine. Lilyโyou donโt have toโokay, fine, thatโs fine. Just settle down. Weโre going to get started in five minutes, okay?โ He holds up an open palm, fingers splayed. โFive minutes.โ
I slip into the closest empty seat without looking around. I keep my head down, my eyes focused on the individual grains of wood on the desk as everyone collapses into chairs around me. Finally, I dare to glance to my right. Bright white hair and snow-white skin and clear blue eyes blink back at me.
Brendan. The electricity boy.
He smiles. Offers me a 2-finger wave. I duck my head.
โOhโhey,โ I hear someone say. โWhat are you doing here?โ
I jerk toward my left to find sandy-blond hair and black plastic glasses sitting on a crooked nose. An ironic smile twisted onto a pale face.ย Winston. I remember him. He interviewed me when I first arrived at Omega Point. Said he was some kind of psychologist. But he also happens to be the one who designed the suit Iโm wearing. The gloves I destroyed.
I think heโs some kind of genius. Iโm not sure.
Right now, heโs chewing on the cap of his pen, staring at me. He uses an index finger to push his glasses up the bridge of his nose. I remember heโs asked me a question and I make an effort to answer.
โIโm not actually sure,โ I tell him. โKenji brought me here but didnโt tell me why.โ
Winston doesnโt seem surprised. He rolls his eyes. โHim with the freaking mysteries all the time. I donโt know why he thinks itโs such a good idea to keep people in suspense. Itโs like the guy thinks his life is a movie or something. Always so dramatic about everything. Itโs irritating as hell.โ
I have no idea what Iโm supposed to say to that.ย I canโt help thinking thatย Adam would agree with him and then I canโt help thinking about Adam andย then I
โAh, donโt listen to him.โ An English accent steps into the conversation. I turn around to see Brendan still smiling at me. โWinstonโs always a bit beastly this early in the morning.โ
โJesus. How earlyย isย it?โ Winston asks. โI would kick a soldier in the crotch for a cup of coffee right now.โ
โItโs your own fault you never sleep, mate,โ Brendan counters. โYou think you can survive on three hours a night? Youโre mad.โ
Winston drops his chewed-up pen on the desk. Runs a tired hand through his hair. Tugs his glasses off and rubs at his face. โItโs the freaking patrols. Every goddamn night. Something is going on and itโs getting intense out there. So many soldiers just walking around? What the hell are they doing? I have to actually beย awakeย the whole timeโโ
โWhat are you talking about?โ I ask before I can stop myself. My ears are perked and my interest is piqued. News from the outside is something Iโve never had the opportunity to hear before. Castle was so intent on me focusing all my energy on training that I never heard much more than his constant reminders thatย weโre running out of timeย and that Iย need to learn before itโs too late.ย Iโm beginning to wonder if things are worse than I thought.
โThe patrols?โ Brendan asks. He waves a knowing hand. โOh, itโs just, we work in shifts, right? In pairsโtake turns keeping watch at night,โ he explains. โMost of the time itโs no problem, just routine, nothing too serious.โ
โBut itโs been weird lately,โ Winston cuts in. โItโs like theyโreย reallyย searching for us now. Like itโs not just some crazy theory anymore. They know weโre a real threat and itโs like they actually have a clue where we are.โ He shakes his head. โBut thatโs impossible.โ
โApparently not, mate.โ
โWell, whatever it is, itโs starting to freak me out,โ Winston says. โThere are soldiers all over the place, way too close to where we are. We see them on camera,โ he says to me, noticing my confusion. โAnd the weirdest part,โ he adds, leaning in, lowering his voice, โis that Warner is always with them.
Every single night. Walking around, issuing orders I canโt hear. And his arm is still injured. He walks around with it in a sling.โ
โWarner?โ My eyes go wide. โHeโs with them? Is thatโ is that . . . unusual?โ
โItโs quite odd,โ Brendan says. โHeโs CCRโchief commander and regent
โof Sector 45. In normal circumstances he would delegate this task to a colonel, a lieutenant, even. His priorities should be on base, overseeing his soldiers.โ Brendan shakes his head. โHeโs a bit daft, I think, taking a risk like that. Spending time away from his own camp. Seems strange that heโd be able to get away so many nights.โ
โRight,โ Winston says, nodding his head. โExactly.โ He points at the 2 of us, stabbing at the air. โAnd it makes you wonder who heโs leaving in charge. The guy doesnโt trust anyoneโheโs not known for his delegation skills to begin withโso for him to leave the base behind every night?โ A pause. โIt doesnโt add up. Something is going on.โ
โDo you think,โ I ask, feeling scared and feeling brave, โthat maybe heโs looking forย someoneย something?โ
โYup.โ Winston exhales. Scratches the side of his nose. โThatโs exactly what I think. And Iโd love to know what the hell heโs looking for.โ
โUs, obviously,โ Brendan says. โHeโs looking for us.โ
Winston seems unconvinced. โI donโt know,โ he says. โThis is different.
Theyโve been searching for us for years, but theyโve never done anything like this. Never spent so much manpower on this kind of a mission. And theyโve never gotten this close.โ
โWow,โ I whisper, not trusting myself to posit any of my own theories. Not wanting to think too hard about whoย what it is, exactly, Warner is searching for. And all the time wondering why these 2 guys are speaking to me so freely, as if Iโm trustworthy, as if Iโm one of their own.
I donโt dare mention it.
โYeah,โ Winston says, picking up his chewed-up pen again. โCrazy.
Anyway, if we donโt get a fresh batch of coffee today, I am seriously going to lose my shit.โ
I look around the room. I donโt see coffee anywhere. No food, either. I wonder what that means for Winston. โAre we going to have breakfast before we start?โ
โNah,โ he says. โToday we get to eat on a different schedule. Besides, weโll have plenty to choose from when we get back. We get first picks. Itโs the only perk.โ
โGet back from where?โ
โOutside,โ Brendan says, leaning back in his chair. He points up at the ceiling. โWeโre going up and out.โ
โWhat?โ I gasp, feeling true excitement for the first time. โReally?โ
โYup.โ Winston puts his glasses back on. โAnd it looks like youโre about to get your first introduction to what it is we do here.โ He nods at the front of the room, and I see Kenji hauling a huge trunk onto a table.
โWhat do you mean?โ I ask. โWhat are we doing?โ
โOh, you know.โ Winston shrugs. Clasps his hands behind his head. โGrand larceny. Armed robbery. That sort of thing.โ
I begin to laugh when Brendan stops me. He actually puts his hand on my shoulder and for a moment Iโm mildly terrified. Wondering if heโs lost his mind.
โHeโs not joking,โ Brendan says to me. โAnd I hope you know how to use a gun.โ