Walking through the front door of Vantage felt different this time. It feltย right. Jameson moved slowly to the bottom of the grand staircase. He looked up.ย Mine.ย Heโd grown up being handed every opportunity, every luxury, in a mansion easily larger than this place, but Jamesonโs entire life, nothing had ever been just his.
โIt suits you,โ Zella called from somewhere behind him. Jameson didnโt turn. He barely heard her.
โYou would think so.โ That was Rohan, also behind him. Katharine had made her exit.
Branford strode past the others, making his way to Jameson and fixing him with a stare so pointed that it drew to mind a threat:ย If Iโd had any hand in raising you, I would be doing a hell of a lot more than yelling.
โWe need to talk.โ Branford didnโt wait for Jameson to reply before nodding sharply toward the stairs. As Jameson took the first step, the viscount turned to shoot a warning look at anyone who might be tempted to follow. โI need a moment with my nephew.ย Alone.โ
At the top of the grand staircase, Jameson found a window, one that faced out over the stone garden, the view stretching all the way past the cliffs to the ocean and the hint of a storm brewing on the horizon.
โDo you have a death wish, nephew?โ Branfordโs tone walked the line between an accusation, an order, and a threat. โAnswer me.โ
Jameson recalled telling his uncle to yell at himย laterโwhich was, apparently,ย now.
โNo.โ Jameson tore his gaze away from the window and looked back toward the red-haired, sharp-featured, scowling viscount. โI donโt have a death wish.โ
โBut it doesnโt bother you,โ Branford countered. โThe idea of dying.โ The viscountโs tone was almost too controlled now, a danger sign Jameson recognized all too well.
โI didnโt say that.โ Jameson thought back to the moment before heโd leapt onto the bell. Heโd hesitated, one thingโone personโon his mind.ย Avery.ย Jameson was fast cars and tantalizing risks, laughing in the face of danger and stepping right up to the edge of magnificent drops.
But he was alsoย hers.
โI definitely wouldnโt say that Iโm unbothered by the idea of dying,โ Jameson continued. โItโs not true.โย Anymore.ย He didnโt go out of his way to risk his lifeย anymore.
Branfordโs brows pulled together, his expression severe. โThen I can only conclude that you are completely without sense? That there was perhaps some sort of traumatic head injury when you were a child? Perhaps several? Because I can think of no other explanation for the reckless, ill-considered, impulsive display I witnessed back there.โ
It was an odd feeling, being scolded like a child. Like he wasย someoneโsย child. Jameson took half a step forward, hands dangling loose by his side. โI donโt need a father,โ he told the viscount.
Branford took his own step forwardโno half measures. โYou donโt have one.โ His uncle didnโt pull that punch. โI bear some responsibility for your lack, for the kind of man that Ian is. This family has let him get away with far too much for far too long.โ Branfordโs mouth settled into a grim line. โThat ends. Now.โ The full weight of his focus settled on Jamesonโs eyes. โWith you.โ
Jameson thought about the deal heโd struck with his father and the way Ian had tossed it away, tossed him away. โI donโt want anything from your brother,โ he said, and he meant it.
He never needed to see or talk to or hear about Ian Johnstone-Jameson again.
โMy brother,โ Branford replied, โwill want plenty from you.โ
His meaning sank in like a rock in quicksand. If Ian expected Jameson to hand over Vantage after what heโd pulled, the youngest son of the Earl of Wycliffe was going to be sorely disappointed. But Branford?
Jameson couldnโt help looking at his uncle, studying him, thinking about the way the man had torn into him about unacceptable risks. There was care thereโgenuine care. โThe offer I made you,โ Jameson said abruptly. โBack before the game was done. Vantageโโ
โโis yours.โ Branford glared at Jameson. โIโll brook no argument on that. Not from you, not from my brothers. You won it. Honestly. Fairly.โ
Jameson cocked a brow. โWerenโt you just British-yelling at me about
howย I won it?โ
โWe all felt invincible once.โ Branfordโs voice grew quieter. โWe all had something to prove.โ
โI donโt have anything to prove,โ Jameson said. โIย won.โ
โYou,โ Branford countered, โgave up the game.โ Those words hung in the air. โI could hear everything that you said, Jameson, everything that Zella said. When she was barely holding on, when you had to choose between winning and saving herโyou didnโt call her bluff.โ
Jameson could feel himself, right back in that moment. โI wasnโt sure that she was bluffing.โ
โIan would have taken that risk.โ Branfordโs tone was measured, no frills, no illusions. โHe would have let her fall. Bowen, too, though he would have had a plan for deflecting blame. But you?โ The viscount took another step forward, until he and Jameson were practically eye to eye. โYou thought you were handing over the game, Jameson, and you chose to put the life of another person over winning. You can call that whatever you like. I call it honor.โ
Jameson swallowed, unsure why he suddenly needed to. โI won anyway.โ
โAnd Iโll see to it,โ Branford replied, โthat no one takes that away from you, takesย thisย away from you.โ The next thing Jameson knew, his uncleโs hands were on his shoulders, turning him back toward the window, toward that view. โVantage is yours now. Thereโs a trust to see to its upkeep, which I administered for Ian and will continue to administer for you.โ The viscountโs voice softened. โCome and go as you will. Sheโs yours now.โ
Sheย as in this place, this slice of history, a family legacy that Jameson
had been willing to fight for when he wasnโt even considered family.
โWhy would you do that for me?โ The question caught in Jamesonโs throat. โWhy would you do anything for me?โ
โHad I known about you when you were born,โ came the response, quiet and deep, like a river gone suddenly still, โI would have done something then.โ
Jameson thought about Xander and Isaiah, about what it must have been like the moment his brother had realized that he had a father whoย wantedย him.
My uncle would have come for me.ย Jameson swallowed again. โMy grandfather wouldnโt have let you.โ What had happened with Xanderโs father was a testament to that.
โBold of you,โ his uncle replied, โto think I would have left him the choice.โ
Jameson snorted. โYou donโt know what my grandfather was like.โ โAnd Tobias Hawthorne,โ the viscount said, โdid not know me.โ
For a second, Jameson could almost believe that Branford could have faced the old man down. But believing that heย wouldย have? Jameson shook his head. โYou donโt owe me anything,โ he said.
โAnd if youโd chosen to let the duchess fall, perhaps I could believe that. But like recognizes like, Jameson. You are not your father. I fear youโre far more like me.โ
That statement should have sounded ridiculous. It should haveย felt
ridiculous. It shouldnโt have meant anythingโbut it did.
โIโm not your responsibility,โ Jameson tried again, his heart clenching in his chest.
โEverything is my responsibility.โ Branford raised a brow at him. โAs for your secretโฆโ
Itโs ashes now, Jameson thought.ย And safe. The proof will be returned to me. The Proprietor will say nothing.
โYou will tell me what I need to know to protect you,โ Branford ordered. Luckily, thanks to Grayson, Jameson had plenty of practice at ignoring orders. โAs long as the Proprietor keeps to his word, my secret will remain a secret, and I should be fine.โ He paused. โUnless the duchess is a
problem.โ
โShe wonโt be.โ Branford sounded far too certain of that. โBut youโre
still going to need to tell meโโ
โAbsolutely nothing?โ Jameson suggested, offering the viscount a charming smile.
โI do not trust that smile,โ his uncle said.
Jameson shrugged. โThatโs only because you definitely shouldnโt.โ He paused. โAnd aboutย yourย secretโฆโ
A change came over Branford. โIt needs to stay a secret.โ There was a single momentโs silence. โHeย does.โ
Jameson was hit with the sense that Branford had rarely, if ever, referred to his own son. A million questions burned in his mind. โIโm supposed to believe that if youโd known about me, you would have been a part of my life, but Iโm only your nephew. If you have a sonโโ
โHe has a father.โ The tightness in Branfordโs tone when he said those words was palpable. โA good one. And a title.โ
โA good one?โ Jameson suggested.
Branfordโs voice grew quiet as he looked out at the view, out at the ocean and the storm on the horizon. โIf his true paternity became known, lives would be ruined, his and his motherโs among them. I cannot allow that to happen.โ He turned from the window and brought the full force of his gaze back to Jameson. โDo you understand?โ
โI do. Some secrets are best forgotten.โ Jameson thought about the words heโd written on his scroll, about the way that night in Prague had gnawed at him for weeks, the way heโd fought and fought with himself, resisting the urge to tellโnot because he didnโt trust Avery, but because he didnโt trust himself.
Jameson Hawthorne had been raised to solve puzzles and take unfathomable risks, to push boundaries and cross lines if that was what it took to win. But for once, the voice that Jameson heard in the back of his head wasnโt the old manโs.
It was Branfordโs.ย I call it honor.
โI believe Vantage is in good hands,โ Branford said beside him. โMy motherโฆ she would approve.โ
โIโm not looking for anyoneโs approval,โ Jameson said, and somehow, for the first time ever, that felt true.