Back at the Grayson house, Gigi went in search of her mother while Savannah kept an eye on Grayson in the foyer.
โMomโs in the library,โ Gigi reported when she came back, her tone morose.
Savannah reached out and squeezed her twinโs shoulder. โMomโs fine, Gigi.ย Weโreย fine.โ
Weย as in the three of them. Their family.
Gigi turned toward Grayson, her brow furrowed. โWe donโt interrupt Mom when sheโs reading. Itโs been a rule for pretty much forever.โ
โYouโre welcome to wait out back,โ Savannah told him icily.
Not an offer. An order.ย Grayson watched as Savannah stalked out of the room.
โMom has her library,โ Gigi said quietly. โSavannah has her court.โ
In his mindโs eyes, Grayson could see Savannah standing on the free-throw line, shooting baskets the way he swam. โAnd what about you?โ he asked Gigi.
Getting close to them was a mistake. Feeling this way was a mistake. Gigi shrugged. โI like eating candy on the roof.โ
โBut not chocolate.โ The inference escaped Graysonโs mouth before he could stop it.
โNot chocolate,โ Gigi confirmed, and then she grinned. โI told you Iโm growing on you! Nowโฆโ Her expression grew serious again. โWhat do you think my dad kept in that box? It canโt be good, right? I mean, as a general rule, people donโt commit identity fraud to rent safe-deposit boxes under
fake names for funsies.โ
โI donโt know.โ Grayson lied to her, and it felt like lying to his brothers. โWhy donโt you go eat some candy on the roof,โ he suggested gently. โIโll wait here for your mom.โ
Grayson didnโt wait in the foyer for Acacia Grayson. He went looking for the library instead. The girlsโ key wouldnโt open the safe-deposit box, but if Sheffield Graysonโs wife was an authorized user, there was a chance she could have another one issued.
Grayson had not been raised to leave anything to chance.
โIt shouldnโt be this hard to cancel a membership.โ Acaciaโs voice was audible through the cracked-open door. Grayson came to a standstill just outside, listening. โI know there are fees!โ She paused, and Grayson could practically see the woman gathering herself. When she spoke again, it was with every ounce of poise a woman who had grown up with Engstrom wealth could summon. โThe club needs an event planner. Itโs been more than a month since Carrie left, and I think youโll agree, based on my charity workโnot to mention the events my family has hosted in your ballroomโ that I am more than qualified.โ
This was Acacia Grayson asking for a job. Grayson pictured the expression on her face when sheโd told him that she wasnโt weak.
Whatever response the person on the other end of the line gave her, Acacia wasnโt impressed with it. โWell, I imagine theyโll say Iโm bored and lost without my husband. Let them.โ There was another silence, longer this time, and then: โI understand.โ
Grayson waited until he was sure sheโd hung up before gently pushing in the door. โProblems?โ
Acacia looked up from the chaise longue on which she was sitting, her legs curled beneath her body, and gave Grayson a firm look. โNone that you need to concern yourself with.โ
Grayson strode to take a seat several feet away from her. โYour husband had a safe-deposit box under a fake name.โ The subject change was intentional. Heโd circle back to her financial problems when she was less
prepared to circumvent his questions. โThe girls are going to ask you to open it. Youโre an authorized user.โ
Acacia pressed her lips together. Her blonde hair was pulled back in an elegant twist, not a hair out of place. โI donโt know why I would be authorized to do anything,โ she said quietly. โHe never talked to me about financial mattersโor business ones.โ She looked away from Grayson, then back again, like she couldnโt let herself have a reprieve from this conversation or everything he represented. โI have a degree in finance, you know. Thatโs where Sheff and I met. I was quiet and awkward, and he wasโฆโ Her voice broke slightly. โWell, it doesnโt matter now, does it?โ
He married you for your money. Thatโs what youโre thinking. What youโre trying not to think.
โDo you ever play what-if, Grayson?โ Acacia asked softly. โWhat if you changed one decision, one moment in your life?โ
Grayson wasnโt in the habit of daydreaming, but heโd relived his biggest mistakes often enough to know what those moments were, to know exactly what he would undo if he could.
โOr what if one thing had been different from the start?โ There was something wistful in Acaciaโs expression. โI used to play all the time when I was a kid. What if Iโd had an older brother? What if Iโd been born with a different last name? What if Iโd looked just a little less like my mother?โ
What if youโd left your husband when you found out about me?
Acacia let out a long, slow breath. โBut what-if is different once you have kids, because all of a sudden, everything leading up to their births, those choices, those realities are set in stone. Because if things had been even a little bit different, they might not exist, and that is the one possibility you cannot bear.โ
Acacia looked down at her hands, and Grayson noted that she still wore her wedding band.
โI remember about a week after Savannah and Gigi came home from the hospital, I had a dream that I was still pregnant and that my babiesโthe ones Iโd held and fed and lovedโthey were just a dream. And I panicked, because I didnโt want any other babies. I wantedย myย girls. And when I woke up, I stood over their cribs, and I just cried, because they wereย real.โ She looked back up at Grayson. โSo there is no what if Iโd chosen a different life or fallen in love with someone truly capable of loving me back. There is
no what if I knew then what I know now. No regret. There canโt be. Because as much as I want a different life right now, I want to be their mom more.โ
Breathing shouldnโt be so difficult, Grayson thought, but it was, because he had never in his life been that for anyone, least of all Skye. And suddenly, he wanted to play what-if himself, because having thatโit would have changed everything.
It would have meant everything.
Regrets are a waste of your time and mine, the old man whispered from somewhere in his memory.ย Do I strike you as a person who has time to waste?
Grayson focused, because that was what he didโwho heย was. โI know about the FBI and IRS investigations, Acacia.โ He softened that conversational pivot as much as he could. โI know that he was stealing from your parents. I know he drained your accounts.โ
Acacia Grayson breathed through the pain.
โBut Savannah and Gigi donโt need to know any of that,โ Grayson said softly.
Acacia swallowed. โYou think I should just turn the safe-deposit box over to the feds?โ
There was no time for Grayson to second-guess his approach here. โNo,โ he said evenly. โI donโt.โ
Acacia stared at him for the longest time. โI hadnโt pegged you for wanting to protect my husband.โ
โItโs not him,โ Grayson said, his voice low, โthat I am trying to protect.โ
That was the truth, and really, it wasnโt just Avery he was trying to protect now, either. The bombing of Averyโs jet had killed two of Orenโs men. Sheffield Grayson was a murdererโand none of the members of this family needed to have to live with that. Not Acacia. Not Savannah. Not Gigi.
โGive me a day.โ Grayson did not phrase that as a request. โYou wonโt ever have to know whatโs in that box, and you wonโt be the one who kept the contents from the feds.โ Grayson could have stopped there. Maybe he should have. But heโd been taught from a very young age how to get a yes. โYour name is on the box, too, Acacia. He used fake identification for himself but your real nameโand likely forged your signature. Beyond that,
heโs not the only one that the IRS could charge with tax evasion.โ
Acacia closed her eyes. When she opened them again, they were watery, but not a single tear fell. She gave Grayson an almost compassionate look. โYouโre just a kid.โ
Graysonโs heart twisted in his chest. The only person whoโd ever said that to him before was Nash. โMy mother likes to say that Hawthornes are never really children.โ Grayson hadnโt meant to bring up Skyeโnot to this woman. Not after all that talk of what-if. He course-corrected. โDid the country club take you up on your offer?โ
โNo.โ Acacia shook her head. โI donโt understand why they wouldnโt, butโโ She cut herself off. โLike the contents of that safe-deposit box, my financial situation is not your problem.โ
Grayson had the Hawthorne ability to flat-out ignore assertions that werenโt to his liking. โMy grandfather had his faults,โ he told Acacia quietly, โand then some. But he taught me to put family first. I am not without meansโฆโ
โNo,โ Acacia said firmly. โAbsolutely not.โ
โYou grew up with Kent Trowbridge.โ Grayson pivoted again. โHis son doesnโt deserve Savannah.โ
If heโd gone straight for discussingย herย relationship with the lawyer, Acacia might have refused to discuss it, so Grayson went for another tactic. โDuncan and Savannah have known each other forever,โ Acacia said.
โIโve never pushed the relationship on her.โ She paused. โBut my mother might have.โ
โThe way she pushed you and Kent?โ That was a leap, but a strategic one. โI saw him touch you the other night.โ
โIt was nothing,โ Acacia said, looking away. โHeโs a friend of the family. Heโs trying to help.โ
Grayson leaned forward. โIs he?โ No response, so Grayson made another leap. โHeโs the one who told you about me. Isnโt he?โ
โI had a right to know.โ
The day of your motherโs funeral?ย Grayson thought.
โHave you told the girls anything?โ Acacia asked, her voice going hoarse. โAbout the money?โ Before Grayson could reply, she began issuing assurances. โThe house is safe. Their school fees, cars, wardrobes, cost of livingโall taken care of by their trusts. Theyโll be fine.โ She stood and
walked toward the library door. โThe rest of it, Iโll just have to figure out for myself, starting with that safe-deposit box.โ
The door opened before Acacia reached it.ย Savannah.ย โHe told you.โ Sheโd obviously overheard her motherโs last statement. Grayson could see Acacia wondering if sheโd overheard any of the rest.
โI need you to let me handle this, Savannah,โ Acacia said firmly.
Savannahโs eyes flashed. โYou donโt handle anything, Mom. You just sit back and take it.โ
Acacia looked down. Graysonโs eyes narrowed. โI didnโt mean that.โ Savannah looked down.
Acacia walked and put an arm around her.
โSoโฆโ Gigi popped up behind them. โWhoโs in an opening-a-safe-deposit-box kind of mood?โ
Grayson in no way expected that to work. But after a long moment, Acacia nodded. โWeโll do this together.โ She looked from the twins to Grayson. โAll of us.โ