As soon as I see Danielโs car pull out of the driveway, I run back to my computer and grab my phone, starting a new text to Aaron.
Bert Rhodes lives here. In Baton Rouge.
I donโt know what to do with this information. Itโs a lead, definitely. It has to be more than coincidence. But still, itโs not enough to approach the police with. For all I know, they havenโt made the connection with the missing jewelry on their own, and I still donโt want to be the one to bring that up. Seconds later, my phone vibrates with Aaronโs response.
Looking into it. Give me ten minutes.
I put the phone down and glance back at my computer, at Bertโs image still glowing on my screen, his own face proof of the trauma he has experienced. When people get hurt physically, you can see it in the bruises and the scars, but when theyโre hurt emotionally, mentally, it runs deeper than that. You can see every sleepless night in the reflection of their eyes; you can see every tear stained into their cheeks, every bout of anger etched into the creases in their foreheads. The thirst for blood cracking the skin on their lips. I hesitate for a minute as my eyes drink in the face of this broken person. I start to empathize, and I start to wonderโhow could a man who lost his daughter in such a tragic way turn around and take a life in the exact same manner? How could he subject another innocent family to the exact same pain? But then I remember my clients, the other tortured souls I see day in and day out. I remember myself. I remember that statistic I learned in school, the one that made my blood run coldโforty percent of people who are abused as children will go on to become abusers themselves. It doesnโt happen to everyone, but it happens. Itโs cyclical. Itโs about power, controlโ or rather, the lack of control. Itโs about taking it back and claiming it as your own.
I, of all people, should understand that.
My phone starts to vibrate and I see Aaronโs name on the screen. I pick it up after the first ring.
โWhat did you find?โ I ask, my eyes still glued to my computer.
โAssault resulting in a bodily injury, public drunkenness, DUI,โ he says. โHeโs been in and out of jail over the last fifteen years, and it looks like his wife filed for divorce a while ago after a domestic violence dispute. Thereโs a restraining order.โ
โWhat did he do?โ
Aaron is silent for a second, and I canโt tell if heโs reading his notes or if he just doesnโt want to answer the question.
โAaron?โ
โHe strangled her.โ
I let the words settle over my body, and instantly the room feels twenty degrees colder.
He strangled her.
โIt could be a coincidence,โ Aaron says. โOr it couldnโt.โ
โThereโs a big difference between an angry drunk and a serial killer.โ
โHe could be escalating,โ I say. โFifteen years of violent misdemeanors seems to be a pretty good indication that heโs capable of something more. He attacked his wife in the same way his daughter was attacked, Aaron. In the same way Aubrey and Lacey were murderedโโ
โOkay,โ Aaron says. โOkay. Weโll keep an eye on him. But if this is really concerning you, I think you should go to the police. Tell them the theory, you know. About the copycat.โ
โNo.โ I shake my head. โNo, not yet. We need more.โ
โWhy?โ Aaron asks, sounding agitated. โChloe, you said that last time. Thisย isย more. Why are you so afraid of the police?โ
His question stuns me. I think about the way Iโve been lying to Detective Thomas and Officer Doyle, hiding evidence from the investigation. Iโve never thought of myself as beingย afraidย of the police, but then I think back to college, to the last time I got involved in something like this, and how badly it had ended. How wrong I had been.
โIโm not afraid of the police,โ I say. Aaron is silent, and I feel like I should continue, explain more. I feel like I should sayย Iโm afraid of myself.ย But instead, I sigh.
โI donโt want to talk to them for the same reason I didnโt want to talk to you,โ I say, my tone harsher than I intend it to be. โI didnโt ask to be involved in this. In any of it.โ
โWell, you are,โ Aaron snaps back. He sounds hurt, and in this moment, even more than the moment on the dock as he listened to me recount that memory with Lena, our relationship starts to feel like something more than journalist and subject. It starts to feel personal. โWhether you like it or not, youโre involved.โ
I glance toward the window just in time to see the outline of a car through the blinds, pulling into my driveway. Iโm not expecting anyone, so I glance at the clockโDaniel has been gone for about thirty minutes. I look around the house, wondering if he forgot something and had to turn around and drive back.
โLook, Aaron, Iโm sorry,โ I say, pinching my nose between my fingers. โI didnโt mean it like that. I know youโre trying to help. Youโre right, Iโm involved in this, whether or not I want to be. My dad made sure of that.โ
Heโs silent, but I can feel the tension evaporating on the other side of the line.
โAll Iโm saying is Iโm not ready for the police to start digging around in my life just yet,โ I continue. โIf I bring this to them, if I tell them who I am, I canโt turn back from that. Iโll be picked apart and scrutinized all over again. This is my home, Aaron. My life. Iโm normal here โฆ or as normal as I can get, anyway. I like it like that.โ
โOkay,โ he says at last. โOkay, I understand. Iโm sorry for pushing it.โ โItโs fine. If we find any more proof, Iโll tell them everything. I
swear.โ
I hear the slam of a car door outside and turn to see the silhouette of a man walking up my driveway, approaching my home.
โBut hey, I need to go. I think Danielโs home. Iโll call you later.โ
I hang up and toss my phone on the couch before walking toward the front door. I can hear the sound of footsteps on the stairs, and before Daniel can come inside, I swing open the door and place a hand on my hip.
โYou just couldnโt stay away, could you?โ
My eyes register the man before me, and my smile fades, my playful expression replaced with one of horror. This man isnโt Daniel. My hand drops to my side as I look him up and down, his husky frame and dirty clothes, his wrinkled skin and dark, dead eyes. Theyโre even darker than they were in his picture, still pulled up on my laptop screen. My heart starts to accelerate, and for one terrifying second, I grasp the doorframe to stop myself from passing out.
Bert Rhodes is standing on my doorstep.