Amongst the sprawling field of corpses and wounded, there was one body I wanted to bury.
Only Nesta, Elain, and I returned to that clearing, once Azriel had given the all-clear that the battle was well and truly over.
Letting Rhys out of my sight to wrangle our scattered armies, sort through the living and dead, and figure out some semblance of order was an effort in self-control.
I nearly begged Rhys to come with us, so I didnโt have to let go of his hand, which I had not stopped clutching since those moments Iโd heard his beautiful, solid heartbeat echoing into his body once more.
But this task, this farewell โฆ I knew, deep down, that it was only for my sisters and me.
So I released Rhysโs hand, kissing him once, twice, and left him in the war-camp to help Mor haul a barely standing Cassian to the nearest healer.
Nesta was watching them when I reached her and Elain at the tree-lined outskirts. Had she done some healing, somehow, in those moments after sheโd severed the kingโs head? Or had it been Cassianโs immortal blood and Azrielโs battlefield patching that had already healed him enough to manage to stand, even with the wing and leg? I didnโt ask my sister, and she supplied no answer as she took the water bucket dangling from Elainโs still-bloody hands, and I followed them both through the trees.
The King of Hybernโs corpse lay in the clearing, crows already picking at
it.
Nesta spat on it before we approached our father. The crows barely
scattered in time.
The screams and moaning of the wounded was a distant wall of soundโ
another world away from the sun-dappled clearing. From the blood still fresh on the moss and grass. I blocked out the coppery tang of itโCassianโs blood, the kingโs blood, Nestaโs blood.
Only our father had not bled. He hadnโt been given the chance to. And through whatever small mercy of the Mother, the crows hadnโt started on him.
Elain quietly washed his face. Combed out his hair and beard. Straightened his clothes.
She found flowersโsomewhere. She laid them at his head, on his chest. We stared down at him in silence.
โI love you,โ Elain whispered, voice breaking.
Nesta said nothing, face unreadable. There were such shadows in her eyes.
I had not told her what Iโd seenโhad let them tell me what they wanted.
Elain breathed, โShould weโsay a prayer?โ
We did not have such things in the human world, I remembered. My sisters had no prayers to offer him. But in Prythian โฆ
โMother hold you,โ I whispered, reciting words I had not heard since that day Under the Mountain. โMay you pass through the gates; may you smell that immortal land of milk and honey.โ Flame ignited at my fingertips. All I could muster. All that was left. โFear no evil. Feel no pain.โ My mouth trembled as I breathed, โMay you enter eternity.โ
Tears slid down Elainโs pallid cheeks as she adjusted an errant flower on our fatherโs chest, white-petaled and delicate, and then backed away to my side with a nod.
Nestaโs face did not shift as I sent that fire to ignite our fatherโs body. He was ash on the wind in a matter of moments.
We stared at the burned slab of earth for long minutes, the sun shifting overhead.
Steps crunched on the grass behind us. Nesta whirled, butโ
Lucien. It was Lucien.
Lucien, haggard and bloody, panting for breath. As if heโd run from the shore.
His gaze settled on Elain, and he sagged a little. But Elain only wrapped her arms around herself and remained at my side.
โAre you hurt?โ he asked, coming toward us. Spying the blood speckling Elainโs hands.
He halted short as he noticed the King of Hybernโs decapitated head on the
other side of the clearing. Nesta was still showered with his blood.
โIโm fine,โ Elain said quietly. And then asked, noticing the gore on him, the torn clothes and still-bloody weapons, โAre youโโ
โWell, I never want to fight in another battle as long as I live, but โฆ yes, Iโm in one piece.โ
A faint smile bloomed on Elainโs lips. But Lucien noticed that scorched patch of grass behind us and said, โI heardโwhat happened. Iโm sorry for your loss. All of you.โ
I just strode to him and threw my arms around his neck, even if it wasnโt the embrace he was hoping for. โThank youโfor coming. With the battle, I mean.โ
โIโve got one hell of a story to tell you,โ he said, squeezing me tightly. โAnd donโt be surprised if Vassa corners you as soon as the ships are sorted. And the sun sets.โ
โIs she reallyโโ
โYes. But your father, ever the negotiator โฆโ A sad, small smile toward that burnt grass. โHe managed to cut a deal with Vassaโsย keeperย to come here. Temporarily, but โฆ better than nothing. But yesโqueen by night, firebird by day.โ He blew out a breath. โNasty curse.โ
โThe human queens are still out there,โ I said. Maybe Iโd hunt them down. โNot for longโnot if Vassa has anything to do with it.โ
โYou sound like an acolyte.โ
Lucien blushed, glancing at Elain. โSheโs got a foul temper and a fouler mouth.โ He cut me a wry look. โYouโll get along just fine.โ
I nudged him in the ribs.
But Lucien again looked at that singed grass, and his blood-splattered face turned solemn. โHe was a good man,โ he said. โHe loved you all very much.โ I nodded, unable to form the words. The thoughts. Nesta didnโt so much as blink to indicate sheโd heard. Elain just wrapped her arms tighter around
herself, a few more tears streaking free.
I spared Lucien the torment of debating whether to touch her, and linked my arm through his as I began to walk away, letting my sisters decide to follow or remainโif they wanted a moment alone with that burnt grass.
Elain came. Nesta stayed.
Elain fell into step beside me, peering at Lucien. He noticed it. โI heard you made the killing blow,โ he said.
Elain studied the trees ahead. โNesta did. I just stabbed him.โ
Lucien seemed to fumble for a response, but I said to him, โSo where now? Off with Vassa?โ I wondered if heโd heard of Tamlinโs roleโthe help heโd given us. A look at my friend showed me he had. Someone, perhaps my mate, had informed him.
Lucien shrugged. โFirstโhere. To help. Then โฆโ Another glance at Elain. โWho knows?โ
I nudged Elain, who blinked at me, then blurted, โYou could come to Velaris.โ
He saw all of it, but nodded graciously. โIt would be my pleasure.โ
As we strode back to the camp, Lucien told us of his time awayโhow heโd hunted for Vassa, how heโd found her already with my father, an army marching westward. How Miryam and Drakon had found them on their own journey to help us.
I was still mulling over all he said when I slipped into my tent to finally change out of my leathers, leaving him and Elain to go find a place to wash up. And talkโperhaps.
But as I strode through the flaps, sound greeted me withinโtalking. Many voices, one of them belonging to my mate.
I got one step inside and knew I wouldnโt be changing my clothes anytime soon.
For seated in a chair before the brazier was Prince Drakon, Rhys sprawled and still bloody on the cushions across from him. And on the pillows beside Rhys sat a lovely female, her dark hair tumbling down her back in luscious curls, already smiling at me.
Miryam.