Chapter Four
July 2010โToronto Shane had signed a lucrative endorsement deal with CCM, one of the biggest hockey equipment companies. He hadnโt played a single game in the NHL yet, so he was pretty stoked about it.
Then he found out that CCM had also signed Rozanov.
And then he found out that they wanted to launch an ad campaign with both of them. Together.
So Shane found himself in a dark, mostly empty rink in the suburbs of Toronto on a Wednesday in July. He would be reporting to training camp in just over a month. He hadnโt seen Rozanov since the World Juniors back at the beginning of January.
Spotlights had been set up around the ice, creating some very dramatic lighting. There were going to be two parts to the day: first, they would do a photo shoot, both separately and together, and then they would skate around and do some fancy stickhandling for the television ads.
Shane was getting used to photo shoots, and to having cameras on him in general. This seemed like a bigger production than he was used to. This
felt like he was starring in a movie.
Costarring.
He took a couple of laps around the ice while he waited for the crew to finish setting up. He was wearing head-to-toe CCM gear, of course, including a custom black jersey with a big CCM logo on the chest where a team logo would normally go. His name and number, 24, were on the back.
Shane was wearing makeup, and it felt weird. He wasnโt supposed to sweat at all before they did the photo shoot. He decided heโd better stop skating and sit on the bench while he was waiting. He watched the crew fiddle with the lighting.
After a few minutes, he felt the unmistakable presence of Rozanov at the end of the bench. He turned and saw him standing there, huge and handsome, and also wearing makeup.
โVery pretty,โ Rozanov teased him. โLike a doll.โ
โYouโre painted up too.โ
Rozanov leaned on the top of the boards and grinned. โYes, but Iโm not pretty.โ
Shane rolled his eyes. He had been called โpretty boyโ a few times before, usually during games, and he hated it. He wished he hated it this time.
In his makeup, with his carefully styled hair, and in this dramatic lighting, Rozanov did not look pretty. He looked stunning. Once again, Shane was astounded and irritated by how manly Rozanov was. The sharp edge of his jaw framed cheeks that didnโt have any of the baby fat that lingered on Shaneโs own. And his eyes were like sparkling…somethings.
Shane couldnโt think of a gem that had that many shades of gold and green.
The photo shoot took a lot longer than Shane had been expecting. It was mostly just standing on the ice, holding CCM hockey sticks in various positions. They did a few photos standing together, but most of them were separate. They finished with a posed photo of the two of them hunched over in the face-off position. They held the pose for what felt like an eternity, with their faces inches apart, staring into each otherโs eyes.
โTry not to laugh, fellas,โ the director said. โI know itโll be challenging.โ
Laughing was not what Shane was worried about. He needed to relax his eyes so Rozanovโs features blurred, just to keep himself from staring at the manโs lips.
โA little more intensity in your eyes, if you could, Shane.โ
Shane blinked and tried his best to stare Rozanov down, like it was a real game. But a real game would only require him to hold this position for a few seconds. This was awkward.
He saw Rozanovโs lip twitch, and then the big Russian snorted and started laughing. Shane cracked too, and started giggling.
โJust a few more seconds, guys. Please.โ
โSorry,โ Shane said, trying to school his features back into a fierce glare. It was no use. As soon as he looked at Rozanov, both men started laughing again.
โAll right, weโve probably got enough anyway. Letโs take a break and then weโll do the film footage.โ
โThat was your fault,โ Shane said as they skated over to the bench.
Rozanov shook his head. โYour faceโs fault. Made me laugh.โ
Shane bumped him with his shoulder.
The filming was much easier. They both donned CCM helmets and visors and skated around showing off for an hour or soโprobably a bit more competitively than necessary. Shane was looking forward to seeing the final commercial. With some music and some voiceover, it would probably look pretty badass.
The director thanked them both, and the two hockey players were left to get showered and changed in the dingy dressing room.
Shane undressed quickly and went into the shower, which was, like most rinks, communal style with a row of showerheads facing each other on both sides of a corridor. If he hurried, maybe he could be out of the shower
before Rozanov came in.
No such luck.
Shane had just gotten his hair wet when Rozanov entered the showers and stood under one almost directly across from him. Shaneโs eyes landed on the large bear tattoo on Rozanovโs left pec. It was absolutely ridiculous.
He also noticed the gold crucifix that he guessed the guy never took off.
The chain caressed the base of Rozanovโs long neck, the cross resting comfortably on his muscular chest.
Shane quickly turned his eyes to the floor. He had showered with hundreds of guys in his life, in rooms just like this one. It was just part of the game. He had never looked at any of his fellow players before. It was just…unthinkable.
He glanced up again, and saw that Rozanov had turned his back to him.
Shane was left to stare helplessly at the display of naked, rippling muscle.
His eyes trailed over Rozanovโs broad shoulders and down the muscles of his back down to his tapered waist and his…
Shane blushed hard. He couldnโt…why would he want to check out another guyโs ass? That was just weird.
But it was a really impressive ass. Not that he was comparing it to others. It was just…perfect. And as Rozanov scrubbed water over his face, the muscles in his ass flexed and Shane was transfixed.
And aroused. Visibly aroused. In a shower. With Rozanov.
He only had time to look down at his thickening cock with horror before he noticed that Rozanov had turned back around.
Rozanov glanced down at Shaneโs crotch and raised an eyebrow.
โFuck off,โ Shane grumbled. โItโs nothing.โ
โLike what you see, Hollander?โ
โNo. Itโs not… I was thinking about something else.โ Shane wanted to die. He knew he didnโt sound at all convincing.
โSomething else?โ
Shane should have just left the showers then. He was clean enough. This was torture.
But Rozanov was grinning at him in a way that was not helping Shaneโs…situation. And Shane didnโt seem to have the ability to move.
Rozanov was teasing him, but he wasnโt punching him in the face.
And he wasnโt leaving either.
Shane wished he could at least make himself look away from Rozanov, but he was spellbound. Rozanov just seemed to be considering him curiously, and maybe enjoying the effect he knew he was having on him.
Just another goddamn thing for you to hold over me, Shane thought.
He was so busy being mortified that he didnโt immediately notice that Rozanovโs own dick was starting to swell.
The grin had faded from Rozanovโs face. His eyes were full of an intensity that was much more heated than what Shane had been facing during their photo shoot.
Shane needed to get out of here. This was too bizarre. He absolutely could not do…whatever this was.
But Rozanov let a hand trail down his stomach and wrapped it around his own dick to give it a slow, firm stroke.
Shane gasped. Loud enough that the running water couldnโt mask it.
โWhat were you thinking about?โ Rozanov asked, his voice low.
Shane swallowed. His throat was bone dry.
โYou,โ he said quietly.
Rozanov heard him, and smirked. He gave himself another stroke. โYou want to touch me, Hollander?โ
Shane actually just wanted to watch Rozanov jerk himself off. But…
โNot here,โ Shane stammered. โSomeone could come in.โ
Rozanov nodded and released himself. He turned and shut off the water.
Shane waited, heart racing, until Rozanov had left the showers before he turned off his own water. What the hell was happening? Rozanov couldnโt possibly be suggesting that he and Shane…that they…
Holy shit. Shane had to get out of here. He wondered if he could possibly smash through the tile wall of the shower room and escape that
way. Anything would be preferable to facing Rozanov again.
He took a few deep breaths to settle himself. He could do this. He could talk reasonably to Rozanov and end this thing. Determined, he wrapped his towel tightly around his waist before returning to the dressing room.
Rozanov was already half dressed and sitting, shirtless, on one of the benches.
โLook,โ Shane said to the floor, โthat was…we can just pretend that
never happened, okay?โ
โIs that what you want?โ
Shaneโs answer should have been a lot faster. โYeah. I mean…yeah. Of course.โ
Rozanov stood and crossed the floor until he stood right in front of
Shane. โYou are a bad liar.โ
Shane scowled at him.
โWhat is your room number?โ Rozanov asked.
โFourteen ten,โ Shane said, far too quickly.
Rozanovโs mouth twitched up. โIf I knock on door of room 1410 tonight…maybe around nine?โ
Shane fought to keep his voice even. โI might open the door.โ
Rozanov smiled. โI might knock.โ
Shane spent the evening freaking the fuck out in his hotel room.
He considered his options. He could leave. Just go out for a few hours so he wouldnโt be there when Rozanov knocked. That would be the sensible thing to do.
He could stay and just ignore Rozanovโs knock. There could be something satisfying in that. Give him a little bit of power over him.
He could open the door when he knocked, invite him in, and they could talk about this whole ridiculous…misunderstanding. Then they could go their separate ways forever.
Or…he could open the door and he could spend the evening exploring Rozanovโs body with his mouth.
Shane blushed just thinking about it. He couldnโt really want that, could he?
He had more or less decided on the second option: he would talk to Rozanov. They would put this behind them as quickly as possible so things wouldnโt be weird when the season started. He tidied up the room, even though it was already perfectly tidy. He changed his shirt to a nicer one for no reason at all. He brushed his teeth, flossed, and rinsed with mouthwash.
Because if he was going to be talking to Rozanov, it would be rude to have bad breath.
He fixed his hair a bit. He switched his phone to silent mode.
He decided to turn on the television, just so it wouldnโt look like heโd just been sitting there staring at the door.
He flipped to a baseball game and turned the sound down low. He shut off the overhead light and turned on all of the lamps. He checked himself in the mirror. Again.
The knock came at seven minutes after nine oโclock. Shane checked the peephole just to make sure Rozanov wasnโt pranking him or anything.
It was just Rozanov. Alone.
Shane turned off the television, because having it on suddenly seemed dumb. He opened the door and let Rozanov in.
Rozanov looked like he may have put a little effort into his appearance too. He was wearing a black button-up shirt, his gold chain winking at Shane from the wide-open collar. His hair, which was usually a mess of curls, had been tamed a bit, though one lock had already escaped and was tumbling adorably onto Rozanovโs forehead.
โThought you might have chickened out,โ Rozanov said in his infuriatingly blunt manner.
โNo,โ Shane said. โI mean, I just want to talk. About…you know.โ
โI do know. Yes.โ
โUh, do you want to…sit? Maybe?โ
Rozanov took a step toward him. โNot really.โ
He was so close that Shane could feel the heat of his body. Or maybe he was imagining it.
โI donโt think this is a good idea,โ Shane said weakly.
โWhat?โ Rozanov said, tucking a knuckle under Shaneโs chin and tilting it up. โThis?โ
He brought his mouth down on Shaneโs, and Shane flooded with panic.
He was stiff against Rozanov, lips pressed together, eyes open. But Rozanov persisted. Shane felt the tip of Rozanovโs tongue trace the outline
of his lips, seeking entry. Long fingers threaded into his hair, and Shane surrendered. He parted his lips and closed his eyes, and Rozanov deepened the kiss, pushing between his lips and pressing his tongue to Shaneโs.
Shane had never kissed a man, and somewhere in the back of his splintering brain he wondered if Rozanov ever had either. He certainly seemed to know what he was doing.
Shane felt like he was made of alarm bells. Like his panic was going to somehow wake up the entire hotel. If it was just that he was kissing a man, he might be able to get a grip. But kissing this man in particular was so absurd and wrong wrong wrong…
But his dick didnโt seem to think so, especially not when Rozanov wedged a knee between his legs and rubbed a thigh against Shaneโs arousal. Shane whimpered and Rozanov tipped his head back farther, using his height and coming down hard on Shaneโs open mouth.
Shane wasnโt sure what to do. He hesitantly slid his palms up Rozanovโs chest. He heard Rozanov give a soft moan when Shaneโs fingers moved over his nipples, and that one little sound made Shane lose any remaining self-control.
He kissed Rozanov back, hard and frantic and wanting more but not knowing exactly what to ask for. Rozanov crowded him back against a wall and started unbuttoning Shaneโs shirt. When he got the last button open, he grabbed Shaneโs hand and pressed it against his crotch. And, oh, Shane had his hand on Ilya Rozanovโs dick. Shane could feel the solid length straining against Rozanovโs jeans, and he felt his own cock grow harder even as he struggled against freaking out.
He gripped Rozanov through the denim, and one clear idea of what he wanted popped into his head. He wanted the denim barrier to be gone. He wanted to see Rozanovโs cock and hold it and feel it pressed against him, which was weird. He shouldnโt want that. He shouldnโt want any of this.
And yet…
With a goal in mind, Shane unfastened Rozanovโs fly and worked his hand inside. When Shane had his hand wrapped around the thick, smooth length, Rozanov inhaled sharply and stopped kissing him. Both men looked down to watch Shaneโs hand move under the cotton of Rozanovโs briefs. Shane could see the tip of Rozanovโs cock poking out of the waistband, and he had the sudden, wild urge to kiss it. To press his tongue
to the slit and taste him.
Fuck. This was really gay.
Rozanov didnโt seem troubled, though. Instead, he was pulling his own shirt off and reaching to cradle Shaneโs face with his hand. Shane turned his eyes up and Rozanov was looking down at him with dark eyes, his mouth slack and lips swollen. His face was pure desire.
Shane stood, frozen, as Rozanov dragged his thumb over Shaneโs lips and then gently pushed it inside. Shane closed his eyes and sucked it into his mouth, letting his tongue wrap around it. He was shocked at how naturally he did this; by how much he loved the sensation. He felt Rozanov shudder, and Shane felt light-headed. He wasnโt sure how much longer he could stay standing. He wondered if Rozanov would let him…if he wanted him to…
Shane released Rozanovโs thumb and slowly sank to his knees.
โFuck,โ he heard Rozanov breathe. Shane knew there would be no going back from this, but theyโd probably already crossed that line anyway; may as well take what he wanted. With shaking hands, he pulled Rozanovโs jeans and briefs down and lined up his mouth with his thick, rigid cock. He took a breath and, very carefully, pressed his tongue to the head.
โYes, Hollander…โ Rozanov hissed.
It tasted like…skin. Shane slowly moved his tongue around the head, completely unsure of what to do. He liked to be excellent at everything.
His only experience with this sort of thing had been at the receiving end, so he tried to mimic what some of those girls had done. He took Rozanov deeper into his mouth, and it felt so weird. He just sort of stayed like that for a moment, his tongue flattened by the weight of Rozanovโs cock. He knew he must look ridiculous.
Rozanovโs expression didnโt suggest that he was watching something ridiculous. He held Shaneโs face with one big hand and gazed down at him with hooded eyes. He murmured something in Russian and then said, โLook at you.โ
Shaneโs face flushed. An image flashed through his mind of their roles being reversed. What would Rozanov look like on his knees, taking Shane in his mouth? Would Shane ever find out?
Shane moaned involuntarily, which made Rozanov shudder. His thumb brushed Shaneโs cheekbone, and Shane closed his eyes and began to move his mouth. He sucked and licked, letting himself get used to the sensation of having a dick in his mouth. His mind was racing, worrying about
technique and about what exactly this all meant. But then Rozanovโs fingers were tangled in Shaneโs hair, and Shane was reminded that this was fucking hot. That heโd fantasized about exactly this, alone in his bedroom, even if he had been embarrassed afterward.
He sighed around Rozanovโs cock and bobbed his head slightly, losing himself in the slide of rigid flesh against his tongue. He was sure he was doing a terrible job, and his fears were confirmed when Rozanov suddenly yelped, โStop! Stop. Stop.โ
Shane pulled off quickly and stared up at Rozanov, who was grimacing with his eyes squeezed shut.
โSorry,โ Shane said. โIโm not… Iโve never…โ
Rozanov laughed. โIs okay. Was…โ He waved a hand around, as if trying to physically grab the English word he was looking for. โIt was…too much.โ
โOh.โ Really? Shane felt that he had barely done anything.
โJust…ah…very, um…โ
Overwhelming? Intense? Wrong? Shane could think of a few words, but he didnโt want to guess at what Rozanov was feeling.
โA lot,โ Rozanov finished. Then he made a frustrated sound. โNo. I cannot think of word.โ
Shane rose off his knees because he felt foolish staying on them if he wasnโt going to be doing anything down there. When he was standing, he looked curiously at Rozanov. โHave you been…thinking about this?โ
Rozanov gave a crooked grin and shrugged. โI like trouble.โ
Shane laughed. โWell, I think weโve found it.โ
โYou have not done this,โ Rozanov said plainly. โWith a man.โ
โNo. Have you?โ
Rozanov looked at him, and Shane knew he was deciding whether or not he could trust him, and then must have realized it was too late anyway if he didnโt. He nodded. โIn Russia. My coachโs son.โ
Shane sputtered. โHoly fuck. You do like trouble! Was he on the team?โ
โNo. Not a hockey player.โ
โDid anyone…find out?โ
Rozanov shook his head. โHe would never tell. I would never tell. It was safe.โ
โSafe,โ Shane repeated. It didnโt sound at all safe.
โJust fooling around. Not serious. Was…what is it?โ
โCurious?โ
Rozanov smiled. โYes. Curious. And you make me curious.โ
โOh.โ
He leaned in and breathed against Shaneโs ear in his heavily accented English, โDo I make you curious?โ
Rozanov made Shane a lot of things: confused, infuriated, terrified, aroused, and, yes, curious.
โObviously,โ Shane said, a little irritably.
โDid you like sucking my dick?โ
โOh, those English words you know?โ
Rozanov licked under Shaneโs ear, and Shane gasped.
โDid you like it?โ Rozanov asked again.
Shane swallowed his saliva and his pride. โYes.โ
โWould you like me to lie on the bed and let you do it some more?โ
โLet me?โ
Rozanov chuckled against Shaneโs neck. โIโm a nice guy.โ
Shane shoved him and Rozanov stumbled back, pants around his knees.
He laughed as he tumbled backward onto the bed.
Now that there was some distance between them, Shane could take in the full splendor of Rozanovโs mostly naked body. Rozanov seemed to enjoy the attention, and stretched his muscular arms up over his head, grinning and arching his long torso. He had dark brown hair on his chest and trailing down from his belly button to his bobbing erection, which was still slick with Shaneโs spit.
Rozanov sat up and pulled his pants all the way off, along with his shoes and socks. Shaneโs eyes fell on the way his stomach muscles flexed as he curled forward, and on his thick, muscular thighs.
Once again, Shane felt very young. Very boyish. He realized that he was still mostly dressed, and he wasnโt sure if he should change that or not.
Rozanov made the decision for him. โThis is a bit…not fair.โ He moved a hand through the air, back and forth between them.
โYou want me to…โ
โDa. Yes. Let me see you.โ
โYouโve already seen me. In the shower.โ
โI want a better look.โ
Shane removed his clothes quickly. Being naked in the presence of other guys was not foreign to him, but there was nothing familiar about this
scenario. He stood in his underwear for a moment, then tried not to blush
as he removed them.
Shane stood with his arms out. Well?
Rozanov grinned and waved a hand over his own chest. โSo smooth.โ
โLook…โ
โLike a swimmer.โ
โI donโt…itโs natural, all right?โ
โYes. Come here.โ Rozanov patted the bed next to him.
Shane blew out a breath and moved onto the bed. He lay flat on his back next to Rozanov, unsure of what to do next.
โWhat do you want?โ Rozanov asked.
โI donโt know.โ
โNo?โ Rozanov asked, and he leaned over him and kissed him.
โNothing?โ
โI…โ
โWhat about…โ Rozanov pressed a palm against Shaneโs erection and curled gentle fingers around it. โOkay?โ
Shane nodded. It was shockingly okay for Ilya Rozanovโa guy, a hockey player, his rivalโto have his hand wrapped around Shaneโs dick.
โRelax,โ Rozanov said, and kissed him again. His hand stroked Shane carefully, without lube, and Shane was spellbound. Rozanovโs soft, accented words and his gentle hands and his confident kisses were all working together to ensnare him.
Dizzy with sensation and lust, Shane lightly pushed on Rozanovโs shoulder until he was flat on his back. Then, before he could talk himself out of it, Shane slid down his body and took his cock into his mouth again.
He wasnโt any surer of his abilities, but he knew what he wanted. He wanted to get Rozanov off. He wanted to take him apart.
He let his jaw slacken and took Rozanov as deep as he could. He was nervous about biting him by accident, so he kept his mouth open wider than was probably necessary and used a lot of tongue. It was sloppy and very wet, but he could hear the encouraging sounds Rozanov was making.
When Shane turned his eyes up, he could see Rozanov had propped himself up on his elbows and was watching him give his first blow job with great interest.
Shane wrapped a hand around the base of Rozanovโs cock and stroked up to meet his mouth. When Rozanov arched and moaned, Shane repeated
it, stroking him hard and fast.
โHollander…fuck.โ Rozanov switched to Russian, and Shane didnโt know what he was saying, but he figured he should probably get out of the way because he wasnโt sure he was ready to take a load in his mouth.
He pulled off just in time. Rozanov put his own hand on his dick to replace Shaneโs mouth and stroked himself roughly until his release fell all over his own stomach.
Shane stared, dumbfounded. It was the hottest thing he had ever seen.
Rozanov flopped back on the bed, breathing hard. โNot bad, Hollander,โ he said.
Shane was still staring at the mess on Rozanovโs stomach. His own cock was like iron. He thought about stroking himself until he came on Rozanov. He thought about Rozanov putting his mouth on him…
โOkay. Well. Goodnight,โ Rozanov said, and moved to get up.
Shaneโs mouth dropped open, and he was about to be furious when he
noticed the playful, crooked grin.
โFuck you,โ Shane said.
โDid you need something?โ Rozanov asked innocently.
Shane glared at him. Rozanov chuckled and grabbed some tissues from the nightstand so he could wipe his stomach off a bit.
โLie down,โ Rozanov instructed.
Shane did. Rozanov crawled on top of him and kissed him.
โYou think Iโm an asshole,โ Rozanov said.
โYou are an asshole.โ
โI would not leave you like that.โ
โNo?โ
He kissed him again. โNo.โ
As they kissed, Rozanov reached a hand down and gripped Shaneโs cock.
Shane gasped into his mouth.
โLet me show you,โ Rozanov murmured, โhow to do this.โ
He kissed his way down Shaneโs body, which felt so good that Shane forgot to be insulted. When he reached Shaneโs cock, Rozanov greeted it with a long, slow lick with the entire surface of his tongue, like it was a
fucking ice-cream cone or something.
โJesus.โ Shane shuddered.
Rozanov licked and sucked the head, tonguing the slit and pushing Shane dangerously close to the edge already. He gripped the hotel bed
comforter and tried to hold on. Rozanov was shockingly good at this. How many fucking times had he met up with his coachโs son? Shane felt like he should be paying attentionโmaybe taking notesโbut his brain had left the room.
Shane reached down to run his fingers through the golden-brown curls of Rozanovโs hair. He dragged his fingers down over the stubble on his cheek, the sharp line of his jaw. Shane had enjoyed watching some truly hot girls sucking him off in the past, but this was beyond anything he had ever experienced before. Watching this big, beautiful man, who knew exactly what to do with his tongue and lips andโgod, his teethโwork him like there would be a medal awarded for performance…
โAh, god. Rozanov! Iโm gonna…โ
He expected Rozanov to get the hell out of the way, but instead he sucked him harder and Shane emptied himself into his mouth.
A stream of nonsense fell out of Shaneโs mouth. โHoly shit. Iโm sorry.
Oh my god. Iโm so sorry. Fuck. Wow. God.โ
Rozanov pulled off, not at all hurried, and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. He laughed at Shaneโs babbling. โSorry? Why sorry?โ
Shane choked out a hysterical laugh. โI donโt know! I just… I wasnโt expecting you to…โ
Rozanov shrugged as if Shane was thanking him for bringing in the mail. โI donโt mind it.โ
Shane felt stupid that he hadnโt even tried to…properly finish the job on Rozanov. This guy was determined to one-up him at every turn.
Rozanov sat on the edge of the bed with his back to Shane. He rolled his neck and idly rubbed his jaw. Shane sat up and swung his legs over the opposite side of the bed. He gripped the mattress with both hands and looked at the floor. He felt panic surge up in him again.
He heard Rozanov blow out a breath, which made Shane laugh for some reason. The absurdity of the situation was hitting him.
โYouโre laughing.โ
โYeah, well…this whole thing is a little nuts.โ
โI want a cigarette,โ Rozanov said.
โYouโre not allowed to smoke in the hotel.โ
โI know. Stupid country.โ Rozanov sighed. โDoesnโt matter. Bears told me to quit. I am trying not to smoke.โ
โOh. Thatโs good. Smoking is bad for you.โ
โIs it?โ Shane could hear Rozanovโs eyes rolling.
โSo, um…โ Shane said, still keeping his back to Rozanov. โThis wonโt
leave this room, okay?โ
โYou think I will tell people?โ
Shane sincerely doubted it. โNo.โ
โNo.โ
He felt the bed shift as Rozanov stood up.
Shane had the stupid urge to ask him to stay. He imagined falling asleep in his arms and what the fuck? This thing theyโd just done was, above all things, a huge mistake. As far as hookups went, Shane really could not have chosen a less appropriate person. And even forgetting that, there was no reason to pretend this was anything more than a quick, no-strings fuck.
And why would Shane even want to pretend that?
He didnโt. He wanted Rozanov out of his hotel room. He wanted to forget that this ever happened. He did not want to reach for him. To pull him back on the bed. To do everything they just did two or three more times.
When Rozanov was fully dressed, he gave Shane one of his playful, crooked smiles. Shane had managed to put his underwear back on, but other than that, was still naked.
โMy flight is early tomorrow,โ Rozanov said. There was maybe a note of apology in it. Or maybe Shane was imagining things.
โAll right.โ
Rozanov nodded. โIโll see you around.โ
โYeah,โ Shane said awkwardly. โIโll see you on the ice, I guess.โ
โYes.โ
Shane wanted to kiss him one more time, because he was sure he would never get the chance again. But Rozanov was already opening the door.
โGoodbye, Hollander.โ
โBye,โ Shane said to the closed door.





