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Chapter 8

Great Big Beautiful Life

8

โ€œWELL, THATโ€™Sโ€ฆDEFINITELY the beginning,โ€ I blurt into the silence.

I figured sheโ€™d start with the year her grandfather imported snow to their Southern California home for Christmas, or talk about the caviar- eating Shetland pony she got for her third birthday. Or maybe skip all that and get right to the first time she heard Cosmo Sinclairโ€™s sexy drawling voice, and whether little cartoon hearts bloomed from her eyes in that moment.

Basically, I thought Margaretโ€™s โ€œbeginningโ€ wouldโ€™ve been about a hundred and fifty years later and, you know, involved her on some level.

But thatโ€™s fine! This was interesting too! And sheโ€™s leading the conversation, which was the goal.

I clear my throat while I try to figure out where to go from here. โ€œSo did your family talk about Lawrence a lot? Howโ€™d you learn all of this?โ€

That makes her laugh. โ€œNever. From what I hear, my great-grandfather was a miserable man, who no one mourned. But heโ€™d journaled obsessively.

And when he died, his sonโ€”my grandfather Geraldโ€”found his diaries in the family safe. Gerald never shared them with anyone else while he was alive. But he willed them to my sister, Laura. They were very close,โ€ she says. โ€œHe wanted her to burn them after she read them. But she couldnโ€™t bring herself to, for whatever reason. She was always more sentimental than me.โ€

Holy shit. Speaking of mother lodes. Journals. From the 1800s, from the founding father of Ives Media. โ€œDoes she still have them?โ€ As far as I

knew, no one had seen or heard from Laura since well before Margaret disappeared, but because sheโ€™d never been a mainstay of the tabloids, no one was really looking for her either.

โ€œNo,โ€ Margaret answers. โ€œIโ€™m afraid she doesnโ€™t.โ€

Her expression goes distant, almost watery, as if sheโ€™s lost in a memory.

Itโ€™s the same way she looked while telling Lawrenceโ€™s storyโ€”as if she were actually there. As if she herself had lived it, and it still made her ache.

I glance at my notes, looking for a segue, ideally toward something that doesnโ€™t make her freeze up: โ€œThat first hotel Lawrence boughtโ€”do you happen to know what it was called?โ€

She blinks at me for several seconds, like sheโ€™s lost her place in space

and time.

โ€œMargaret?โ€ I prompt.

โ€œThe Ebner.โ€ The word seems to stick in her throat.

Curiosity prickles at the nape of my neck. โ€œHave you ever been? Back to visit where the family fortune began?โ€

โ€œOnly once,โ€ she says. โ€œOn a family trip. Just before my parents divorced, they took my sister and me to the mountains for a long weekend.โ€

Her faint smile quickly strains and she looks away. โ€œFamily finally sold it off in the seventies.โ€

The message is clear. She doesnโ€™t want to talk more about it. Not yet.

I scribble The Ebner into my notebook, along with last family trip with Mโ€™s parents, so I wonโ€™t forget to revisit it once sheโ€™s ready.

โ€œCan I ask,โ€ I begin cautiously, โ€œwhat made you want to tell that particular story?โ€

This time when her eyes come to mine, thereโ€™s real force behind them, all that distance gone and instead a keen sharpness, like she could see right through me if she wanted, or else like sheโ€™s trying to project something directly into my mind, willing me to understand.

โ€œYou wanted to know what it was like to be born into my family,โ€ she says after a beat. โ€œBefore you can understand that, you have to understand where this all began. My story, every bit of it, is tangled up with what Lawrence did.โ€

โ€œDo youโ€ฆdo you mean to Thomas?โ€ I ask.

โ€œMy great-grandfather was a cold, cruel man with no qualms about taking what wasnโ€™t his,โ€ she says, that surprisingly powerful, potent gaze of hers still fixed on me, the kind of charisma that can hold a person captive.

I let the silence linger like an invitation. But uncertainty flashes across her face. Any second, sheโ€™s going to retreat again, that maddening push-pull of any great interview. I make a snap decision and lean forward, stopping both recordings.

Her silvery brows lift in surprise. โ€œIs that allowed?โ€

โ€œWe havenโ€™t agreed to anything yet, other than a conversation,โ€ I say.

โ€œA monthlong conversation, sure, but just a conversation. If you end up wanting to do the book, we can record things later. But if this is making you nervous, letโ€™s forget it for now.โ€

You can trust me, I think at her, between every line.

She holds my gaze. Decades ago, when she was at the peak of her fame, she was so open with the press. Always smiling and waving and blowing kisses to the paparazzi, giving glib little quotes to reporters on her way down red carpets or into clubs. Sheโ€™s so different than those old pictures and articles made her seem, so tightly bottled into herself, with only little glimmers of wry charm and sudden blasts of emotion slipping out.

Youโ€™re safe, I think at her.

Her mouth opens and closes twice before any sound comes out, and when she does speak, her voice is quieter, confessional almost.

โ€œBy the end of his life,โ€ she says, โ€œall my great-grandfather did was ramble about three things.โ€

Her lips knit tightly together as she carefully charts her own path forward.

โ€œHe apologized to his brother Dicky, like he was right there in the room with him. Wept about losing him like it had just happened,โ€ she says. โ€œAnd he argued with Thomas Dougherty. Raged at him, really. Lawrenceโ€™s son, my grandfather, wouldnโ€™t let anyone else into the roomโ€”he was so afraid of what Lawrence might say, that it might leak to the press. My familyโ€™s

rivalry with the Pulitzers was well underway by thenโ€”an Ives couldnโ€™t sneeze without making it in the papers.โ€

I scribble three bullet points. Beside the first, I write apologizing to Dicky, and next to the second, arguing with Thomas. When I see Margaret watching me, I double-check: โ€œWould you rather I didnโ€™t write this down?โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s my preference, yes,โ€ she admits.

I scribble out the note and set my pen aside.

She nods something like a thank-you and then goes on: โ€œAfter word reached Thomas about the silver ore my great-grandfather had cheated him out of, Thomas came back into town, furious. Heโ€™d thought of Lawrence like a brother, after all that time together, and he wanted to know why heโ€™d been betrayed.

โ€œBut Lawrence refused to even meet with him. Day after day, night after night, Thomas stood outside that tiny hotel, screaming for Lawrence to come face him. But my great-grandfather had enough money and enough men in his employ then that he could make himself inaccessible. So eventually, Thomas left. He went to the biggest newspaper he could find back in California, to tell the story of my great-grandfatherโ€™s treachery.

Eventually the reporter came to talk to Lawrence, and Lawrence responded by buying the paper.โ€

My jaw drops. โ€œThe San Francisco Daily Dispatch?โ€ The start of everything for Ives Media? โ€œHe bought it to protect his reputation?โ€

She snorts. โ€œOh, he didnโ€™t give a ratโ€™s ass about reputation. When he talked to the reporter, he asked how much Thomas had made off selling the story, because those were the terms Lawrence Ives thought in. When he heard the dollar amount, he knew right away that the news was one more place he could bury his money and watch it fruit.

โ€œHe started mining less, investing more. Bought a beautiful home in San Francisco and sent for his younger sisterโ€”it had always been his plan to bring her to live with him once heโ€™d built a comfortable life. But in the years since heโ€™d been gone, sheโ€™d grown up. Sheโ€™d all but forgotten him.

And worse, sheโ€™d married a Dougherty, another poor farmer. Because of

what Lawrence had done to Thomas, she wanted nothing to do with her brother.โ€

After a moment, she goes on, โ€œAt the end of his life, when he wasnโ€™t apologizing to the ghost of Dicky, Lawrence was arguing with a phantom Thomas. Blaming him for everything that happened. Telling him he deserved what he got, to die, drunk and penniless, for being stupid enough to believe that Lawrence was responsible for him. He thought anyone who relied on anyone else would pay for it, eventually. Though Iโ€™ve always thought the lesson was that anyone who relies on an Ives will only be hurt for their trouble.โ€

I sit for a moment, absorbing that. Margaretโ€™s gaze has gone slightly cloudy, as if this thought is swirling around behind her eyes.

I clear my throat and gently nudge us back on track: โ€œSo what was the

other thing?โ€

โ€œExcuse me?โ€ she says.

โ€œYou said your great-grandfather used to rant about three things,โ€ I remind her. โ€œWhat was the last thing?โ€

A smile tugs at her lips, wispy and unconvincing. โ€œI think we should save that for another day,โ€ she says, pushing herself up from her chair. โ€œIโ€™m in dire need of a nap.โ€

โ€œOf course,โ€ I say, as cheerfully as I can muster. โ€œButโ€”โ€

โ€œJodi will see you out,โ€ she says, cutting me short with a winning smile.

I jam my mouth shut and nod acceptance: Iโ€™ve been excused.

Margaret turns and sweeps from the room.

โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข LATER, I LIE on the sofa at the little overgrown bungalow Iโ€™m renting, ignoring my still-unpacked bags in favor of doing research. If this was an interview for a Scratch piece, I couldโ€™ve simply sent a list of questions to one of the fact-checkers to follow up on. In fact, if I get this job, it might be worth hiring someone freelance to do my legwork so I can focus on the writing and interviews themselves, but until I have someone, itโ€™s up to me.

I look back on my list of things to check out, and start with Dillon Springs, Pennsylvania.

All of this was so long ago that birth and death records werenโ€™t even being filed yet. Thereโ€™s no way to confirm most of what Margaret told me, since itโ€™s anecdotal, but as we move forward in history, Iโ€™m going to need to be able to verify everything.

I text a couple of freelance fact-checkers to get their availability in the coming months, then go back to reading about Dillon Springs, a tiny town that does, in fact, consider itself โ€œthe birthplace of modern American journalism,โ€ a fairly lofty claim, especially considering that Lawrence Ives never once went back to Dillon Springs and it was his San Franciscoโ€“born son who became the true media magnate of the family.

Lawrence had owned three newspapers by the time he died, but he had no involvement in how they were run day to day. His son, Gerald, Margaretโ€™s grandfather, was the one to push into the business of news.

As far as I can tell, there are no prominent Iveses still in Dillon Springs, though Iโ€™m guessing if Margaret did a DNA test, weโ€™d be able to find a slew of cousins, given how large a family her great-grandfather was born into.

Next I search for Thomas Dougherty, but if any more of his story is out there, the first five pages of search results donโ€™t yield it. I try his name along with Dillon Springs, but still have no luck.

From there, I move on to reading about the first big mine lode, and the forty-two tons of silver, a number confirmed by multiple sources, codified into history by now, becauseโ€”while, honestly, Ives made his fortune across multiple industriesโ€”this particular mine and its treasure offered the punchiest, most impressive headline.

Headline. It jump-starts something in my brain.

I open a new browser and run a search for Ivesโ€™s first newspaper acquisition, rather than scouring my preinterview notes. There it is: the San Francisco Daily Dispatch. If Lawrence bought it out, then Iโ€™m guessing the story about Thomas Doughertyโ€™s betrayal at Lawrenceโ€™s hands never ran, but I send an email to their archives department to see if they have any

copies of issues from that far back that havenโ€™t crumbled into dust, just in case.

Then I start looking for information about the inn Lawrence bought, and something strange happens.

The Ebner Hotel comes up right away, exactly where Iโ€™m expecting it, in the Nevada town where the Ives fortune began.

The issue is, while the hotel is a historic landmark built during the gold rush, it wasnโ€™t called the Ebner until after the family sold it, in the 1970s.

When Lawrence acquired it, it had been called the Arledge, and then in 1917, it had been renamed the Nicollet, for the duration of the Ivesesโ€™ ownership of it.

So why didnโ€™t Margaret call it that? It wouldnโ€™t have been called the Ebner untilโ€ฆfortyish years after her one visit. Why would her first reaction be to call it by its current name?

Itโ€™s a small, probably meaningless discrepancy, but the way her voice stuck when she said the name keeps wriggling in the back of my mind.

Maybe she has been back there since her family sold it off. But why wouldnโ€™t she want me to know that?

Or am I just overthinking a meaningless mistake?

I fire off a text to the group chat, and when I donโ€™t get a quick reply, I message Theo too: Can I run something by you?

Luckily, he replies quickly. What kind of thing?

Work thing, I say.

My phone starts ringing immediately.

If thereโ€™s one thing Theo Bouras canโ€™t resist, itโ€™s a good mystery.

Probably why heโ€™s never been quite ready to make things official with me.

Mystery is not my strong suit.

โ€œHi,โ€ I say brightly, answering the call.

โ€œAlicccce,โ€ he says, drawing my name out in a teasing way that makes

me shiver.

โ€œTheo,โ€ I say.

โ€œWhat have you got for me this time?โ€ he asks.

โ€œAre you sure youโ€™re not too busy?โ€

โ€œNah,โ€ he says. โ€œIโ€™ve got you on speaker while Iโ€™m developing.โ€

For work, his photos are all digital, but his real passion is film, so on his off days, heโ€™s usually in his home darkroom, or out shooting.

โ€œIโ€™m trying to figure out why a source might lie about something trivial,โ€ I say.

โ€œAnd by source, do you mean Margaret Ives?โ€ he teases.

โ€œI just mean generally,โ€ I say.

โ€œHow trivial are we talking?โ€ he asks, clearly intrigued.

โ€œLike saying theyโ€™ve only been somewhere once, but maybe theyโ€™ve been there more than that,โ€ I say. โ€œMaybe more recently than they said.โ€

He hums. โ€œLikeโ€ฆsomewhere a crime has been committed, perhaps?โ€

I tuck my phone between my shoulder and ear and sit back down in front of my computer, searching for news stories about the Ebner and garnering nothing much of interest. โ€œMaybe,โ€ I say. โ€œBut probably not.โ€

He thinks again. โ€œMaybe it was, like, a rendezvous spot. Maybe she was having an affair. Cheating on the Boy Wonder of Rock โ€™nโ€™ Roll before he

died.โ€

I roll my eyes. โ€œI never said she.โ€

โ€œFine,โ€ he relents. โ€œMaybe this person was cheating on their husband, Cosmo Sinclair.โ€

I take a sip of my now-cold afternoon coffee and swish it around in my mouth, like I might be able to taste the answer. Cosmo was already gone before the Nicollet Inn became the Ebner.

If Margaretโ€™s hiding a visitโ€”or multiple visitsโ€”itโ€™s not because of an affair.

Besides, an affair might be a shocking revelation, but this is a woman who also wore her wedding dress to her husbandโ€™s funeral, knowing full well thereโ€™d be miles of paparazzi in every direction. Iโ€™m not sure Iโ€™d buy her cheating on him, and Iโ€™m even less convinced sheโ€™d feel the need to hide it so long after the fact.

โ€œOr I donโ€™t know,โ€ Theo says, breaking into my thoughts. โ€œMaybe she just forgot. The woman is, like, eighty-something.โ€

โ€œNever said Iโ€™m talking about a woman,โ€ I remind him. โ€œOr about an eighty-something-year-old, for that matter.โ€

โ€œWhy not just ask her?โ€ he says.

โ€œNext time I talk to them,โ€ I reply, โ€œI will. But thatโ€™s not until Tuesday.โ€

โ€œSo sheโ€™s giving you a couple of days off,โ€ he says. โ€œInteresting.โ€

Thereโ€™s a distinctively flirty edge to his voice. It makes my stomach flip-flop in a not entirely pleasant way. I know what heโ€™s getting at: that I could come home and we could hook up. And that sounds pretty nice.

But a few weeks ago, when Iโ€™d sent a screenshot of one of his late-night text messages to my friends, Bianca had pointed out something that had been bothering me ever since.

Have you noticed, she wrote, that this man NEVER just asks you to hang out? He literally only ever sets you up to ask HIM to hang out.

Cillian wrote back, Iโ€™ve noticed. He is my enemy.

Priya chimed in, As long as youโ€™re getting what you want out of this arrangement, ignore the haters, Alice.

The thing is, Iโ€™m technically not. I wouldโ€™ve gladly agreed to be Theoโ€™s girlfriend months ago if it was on the table. But it wasnโ€™t, and there wasnโ€™t anyone else I was interested in, so I didnโ€™t really see the point of giving him an ultimatum. So weโ€™d continued on like this, and it was mostly fineโ€”I really liked being with him, whenever we actually were together.

But Iโ€™d been paying attention since Biancaโ€™s observation. And she and Cillian were right.

Every text was what are you up to tonight, or a picture of a bottle of nice bourbon heโ€™d gotten, or a shirtless photo he thought might be enticing but was mostly just embarrassing, no matter how good he looked in it.

The man would not just say, Hey, Alice, want to come over tonight?

And because I hadnโ€™t taken any of his bait since that fateful day in the group chat, I hadnโ€™t seen him for my last two weeks in LA before shipping out this way.

โ€œAlice?โ€ he says now, in my ear. โ€œYou still there?โ€

โ€œYeah, but Iโ€™ve actually got to go,โ€ I say. โ€œThanks for the help.โ€

โ€œAnytime,โ€ he says.

He thinks he means it, but he doesnโ€™t.

โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข AFTER PERUSING ONLINE for a solid hour, I find a place to pass a Saturday night.

Rum Room sits tucked behind a row of scraggly trees, on the opposite side of the road from Little Croissant, though a half mile down the road.

I never wouldโ€™ve seen it from the street, and itโ€™s not close enough to the beach to be a proper tourist spot, which is better for my purposes.

Itโ€™s also only a ten-minute walk from my rental, so I leave my car behind and head over.

It looks like a small ranch home, with a wooden deck wrapped around its front half, green-and-white-striped awnings hanging over its rectangular windows. Several massive live oaks lean over the patio, multicolored Christmas lights strung haphazardly between them to illuminate the wooden tables below, all of which are full.

I walk up the ramp to the front door, past both a neon hot dog sign and a fake shark head, mounted directly to the white clapboard exterior.

The inside of the restaurant is an exercise in chintzy maximalism, every inch clad in either tropical wallpaper, tacky hot dogโ€“related signs, or jewel- toned tile. A host dressed in black greets me with a smile and an efficient nod. โ€œDo you have a reservation with us tonight?โ€

โ€œNo, sorry,โ€ I say.

โ€œHow many?โ€ he asks.

โ€œJust one,โ€ I say, peeking over his shoulder toward the bar. One open stool, wedged between two groups. โ€œCan I order food if I sit there?โ€

โ€œDefinitely,โ€ he says. โ€œOtherwise, weโ€™re probably running at about a thirty-minute wait.โ€

โ€œThe bar works great for me,โ€ I tell him, and he gestures me past. I squeeze between the two parties and plop my bag on the counter. โ€œSorry,โ€ I

tell the woman next to me when I accidentally elbow her while trying to get my jacket off.

โ€œNo prob,โ€ she says, then turns back to keep talking to her friend.

Something in my chest wilts. Maybe I shouldโ€™ve just bitten the bullet and invited Theo to come visit me. This could be a long, lonely month.

Especially if, moving forward, interviews are as short as this morningโ€™s. I do a quick scan of the room. Two more doorways jut off from this one, to a larger dining room, but this one is mostly filled with two-topsโ€”people having a drink while they wait for a proper table.

My heart lifts a little when my gaze reaches the back corner. The one closest to the bathrooms.

Haydenโ€™s dark head is bent over a laptop, a half-eaten salad forgotten at his left elbow, and a glass of water to the right of his computer.

I leave my stuff behind and dismount my stool to go say hi.

Just like at Fish Bowl, he doesnโ€™t look up even when Iโ€™m standing right beside him, his focus singular and intense on his screen.

โ€œAre you stalking me?โ€ I ask.

He jumps in surprise, like he had no idea I was there. Then his gaze locks on me, and a horrified expression crosses his face. โ€œOf course not,โ€ he says. And then, as if he needs proof: โ€œI was here first.โ€

โ€œHayden,โ€ I say. โ€œIโ€™m kidding. Itโ€™s a tiny island. Weโ€™re bound to keep running into each other. Relax.โ€

He does. Visibly. But only for a second. Then, seeming to remember something, he stiffens and shuts his computer.

โ€œIโ€™m not here to spy on you,โ€ I promise. โ€œI just saw you from the bar and thought it would be weird not to say hi. So, hi.โ€

His eyes wander from me to the bar and back again. โ€œYou make friends fast.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not with them, actually,โ€ I say. โ€œBut who knows what two rum cocktails might do?โ€

He opens his mouth, closes it again, and nods.

The silence starts to curdle into something awkward. โ€œHave a good

night!โ€ I say, and begin to turn.

โ€œAlice?โ€

I pause, swivel back to him.

โ€œDo you want to sit?โ€ he asks.

I study him, trying to read his serious expression. โ€œI canโ€™t tell if youโ€™re just being polite or if thatโ€™s a real invitation.โ€

The face he makes, I am nearly certain, is an actual smile, no matter how faint. โ€œYou can basically always assume that Iโ€™m not just being polite,โ€ he says.

This makes me laugh. That probably shouldโ€™ve occurred to me sooner.

Itโ€™s not like heโ€™s been a paragon of manners in the last few days since we

first met.

โ€œI wouldnโ€™t want to interruptโ€ฆโ€ I say.

โ€œYouโ€™re not,โ€ he insists. โ€œI need to be done working. I needโ€ฆa

distraction.โ€

I smile. โ€œA distraction?โ€

He winces. โ€œI didnโ€™t mean that to soundโ€”โ€

โ€œA distraction sounds nice,โ€ I say.

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