Iโm not sure Iโm hearing him correctly.
โYou have something I want.โ Warner is still staring at me. โI donโt understand,โ I tell him.
He takes a deep breath and stands up to pace the length of the room.
Adam has not yet been dismissed. โYou are kind of a pet project of mine.โ Warner smiles to himself. โIโve studied your records for a very long time.โ
I canโt handle his pompous, self-satisfied strut. I want to break the grin off his face.
Warner stops walking. โI want you on my team.โ โWhat?โ A broken whisper of surprise.
โWeโre in the middle of a war,โ he says a little impatiently. โMaybe you can put the pieces together.โ
โI donโtโโ
โI know your secret, Juliette. I know why youโre in here. Your entire life is documented in hospital records, complaints to authorities, messy lawsuits, public demands to have you locked up.โ His pause gives me enough time to choke on the horror caught in my throat. โIโd been considering it for a long time, but I wanted to make sure you werenโt actually psychotic. Isolation wasnโt exactly a good indicator, though you did fend for yourself quite well.โ He offers me a smile that says I should be grateful for his praise. โI sent Adam to stay with you as a final precaution. I wanted to make sure you werenโt volatile, that you were capable of basic human interaction and communication. I must say Iโm quite pleased with the results.โ
Someone is ripping my skin off.
โAdam, it seems, played his part a little too excellently. He is a fine soldier. One of the best, in fact.โ Warner spares him a glance before smiling at me. โBut donโt worry, he doesnโt know what youโre capable of. Not yet, anyway.โ
I claw at the panic, I swallow the agony, I beg myself not to look in his direction but I fail I fail I fail. Adam meets my eyes in the same split
second I meet his but he looks away so quickly Iโm not sure if I imagined it.
I am a monster.
โIโm not as cruel as you think,โ Warner continues, a musical lilt in his voice. โIf youโre so fond of his company I can make thisโโhe gestures between myself and Adamโ โa permanent assignment.โ
โNo,โ I breathe.
Warner curves his lips into a careless grin. โOh yes. But be careful, pretty girl. If you do something . . . bad . . . heโll have to shoot you.โ
There are wire cutters carving holes in my heart. Adam doesnโt react to anything Warner says.
He is doing a job.
I am a number, a mission, an easily replaceable object; I am not even a memory in his mind.
I am nothing.
I didnโt expect his betrayal to bury me so deep.
โIf you accept my offer,โ Warner interrupts my thoughts, โyou will live like I do. You will be one of us, and not one of them. Your life will change forever.โ
โAnd if I do not accept?โ I ask, catching my voice before it cracks in fear.
Warner looks genuinely disappointed. His hands are clasped together in dismay. โYou donโt really have a choice. If you stand by my side you will be rewarded.โ He presses his lips together. โBut if you choose to disobey? Well . . . I think you look rather lovely with all your body parts intact, donโt you?โ
Iโm breathing so hard my frame is shaking. โYou want me to torture people for you?โ
His face breaks into a brilliant smile. โThat would be wonderful.โ The world is bleeding.
I donโt have time to form a response before he turns to Adam. โShow her what sheโs missing, would you?โ
Adam answers a beat too late. โSir?โ
โThat is an order, soldier.โ Warnerโs eyes are trained on me, his lips twitching with suppressed amusement. โIโd like to break this one. Sheโs a little too feisty for her own good.โ
โYou canโt touch me,โ I spit through clenched teeth.
โWrong,โ he singsongs. He tosses Adam a pair of black gloves. โYouโre going to need these,โ he says with a conspiratorial whisper.
โYouโre a monster.โ My voice is too even, my body filled with a sudden rage. โWhy donโt you just kill me?โ
โThat, my dear, would be a waste.โ He steps forward and I realize his hands are carefully sheathed in white leather gloves. He tips my chin up with one finger. โBesides, itโd be a shame to lose such a pretty face.โ
I try to snap my neck away from him but the same steel-toed boot slams into my spine and Warner catches my face in his grip. I suppress a scream. โDonโt struggle, love. Youโll only make things more difficult for yourself.โ
โI hope you rot in hell.โ
Warner flexes his jaw. He holds up a hand to stop someone from shooting me, kicking me in the spleen, cracking my skull open, I have no idea. โYouโre a fighter for the wrong team.โ He stands up straight. โBut we can change that. Adam,โ he calls. โDonโt let her out of your sight. Sheโs your charge now.โ
โYes, sir.โ