Handful
Sarah was up in her room with her heart broke so bad, Binah said you could
hear it jangle when she walked. Her brother, Thomas, hadnโt even got his
hat on to leave before the whole house knew what happened. Mr. Williams
had himself two more fiancรฉes. Now who has to remove himself hastily?
Come teatime that day, missus said to Tomfry, โSarah will not be
receiving visitors for the next three weeks. Explain to any callers that she is
indisposed. Indisposed, Tomfry. Thatโs the word I would like you to use.โ
โYessum.โ
Missus saw me hovering. โQuit dawdling, Hetty, and take a tray to
Sarahโs room.โ
I fixed it, but I knew she wouldnโt touch a bite. I got the hyssop tea she
liked, thinking of us when we were little, how we drank it on the roof, her
telling me about the silver button and the big plan she had. Iโd worn that
button in my neck pouch almost every day since sheโd tossed it away.
I slipped into the warming kitchen, slid off the pouch, and dug the
button out. It was full of tarnish. Looked like a big shriveled grape. I
studied it a minute, then I got out the polish and rubbed it till it gleamed.
Sarah was sitting at her desk, writing in a notebook. Her eyes were so
raw from crying I didnโt know how she could see to write. I set the tray in
front of her. I said, โLook whatโs on the tea saucer.โ
She hadnโt laid eyes on the button in all these years, but she knew right
off what it was. โHow did . . . Why, Handful, you saved it?โ
She didnโt touch it. Only stared.
I said, โAwright then, there it is,โ and went to the door.





