But Balaamโs ass had suddenly spoken. The subject was a strange one. Grigory had gone in the morning to make purchases, and had heard from the shopkeeper Lukyanov the story of a Russian soldier which had appeared in the newspaper of that day. This soldier had been taken prisoner in some remote part of Asia, and was threatened with an immediate agonizing death if he did not renounce Christianity and follow Islam. He refused to deny his faith, and was tortured, flayed alive, and died, praising and glorifying Christ. Grigory had related the story at table. Fyodor Pavlovitch always liked, over the dessert after dinner, to laugh and talk, if only with Grigory. This afternoon he was in a particularly goodโhumored and expansive mood. Sipping his brandy and listening to the story, he observed that they ought to make a saint of a soldier like that, and to take his skin to some monastery. โThat would make the people flock, and bring the money in.โ
Grigory frowned, seeing that Fyodor Pavlovitch was by no means touched, but, as usual, was beginning to scoff. At that moment Smerdyakov, who was standing by the door, smiled. Smerdyakov often waited at table towards the end of dinner, and since Ivanโs arrival in our town he had done so every day.
โWhat are you grinning at?โ asked Fyodor Pavlovitch, catching the smile instantly, and knowing that it referred to Grigory.
โWell, my opinion is,โ Smerdyakov began suddenly and unexpectedly in a loud voice, โthat if that laudable soldierโs exploit was so very great there would have been, to my thinking, no sin in it if he had on such an emergency renounced, so to speak, the name of Christ and his own christening, to save by that same his life, for good deeds, by which, in the course of years to expiate his cowardice.โ
โHow could it not be a sin? Youโre talking nonsense. For that youโll go straight to hell and be roasted there like mutton,โ put in Fyodor Pavlovitch.
It was at this point that Alyosha came in, and Fyodor Pavlovitch, as we have seen, was highly delighted at his appearance.
โWeโre on your subject, your subject,โ he chuckled gleefully, making Alyosha sit down to listen.
โAs for mutton, thatโs not so, and thereโll be nothing there for this, and there shouldnโt be either, if itโs according to justice,โ Smerdyakov maintained stoutly.
โHow do you mean โaccording to justiceโ?โ Fyodor Pavlovitch cried still more gayly, nudging Alyosha with his knee.
โHeโs a rascal, thatโs what he is!โ burst from Grigory. He looked Smerdyakov wrathfully in the face.
โAs for being a rascal, wait a little, Grigory Vassilyevitch,โ answered Smerdyakov with perfect composure. โYouโd better consider yourself that, once I am taken prisoner by the enemies of the Christian race, and they demand from me to curse the name of God and to renounce my holy christening, I am fully entitled to act by my own reason, since there would be no sin in it.โ
โBut youโve said that before. Donโt waste words. Prove it,โ cried Fyodor Pavlovitch.
โSoupโmaker!โ muttered Grigory contemptuously.
โAs for being a soupโmaker, wait a bit, too, and consider for yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch, without abusing me. For as soon as I say to those enemies, โNo, Iโm not a Christian, and I curse my true God,โ then at once, by Godโs high judgment, I become immediately and specially anathema accursed, and am cut off from the Holy Church, exactly as though I were a heathen, so that at that very instant, not only when I say it aloud, but when I think of saying it, before a quarter of a second has passed, I am cut off. Is that so or not, Grigory Vassilyevitch?โ
He addressed Grigory with obvious satisfaction, though he was really answering Fyodor Pavlovitchโs questions, and was well aware of it, and intentionally pretending that Grigory had asked the questions.
โIvan,โ cried Fyodor Pavlovitch suddenly, โstoop down for me to whisper. Heโs got this all up for your benefit. He wants you to praise him. Praise him.โ
Ivan listened with perfect seriousness to his fatherโs excited whisper.
โStay, Smerdyakov, be quiet a minute,โ cried Fyodor Pavlovitch once more. โIvan, your ear again.โ
Ivan bent down again with a perfectly grave face.
โI love you as I do Alyosha. Donโt think I donโt love you. Some brandy?โ
โYes.โBut youโre rather drunk yourself,โ thought Ivan, looking steadily at his father.
He was watching Smerdyakov with great curiosity.
โYouโre anathema accursed, as it is,โ Grigory suddenly burst out, โand how dare you argue, you rascal, after that, ifโโ
โDonโt scold him, Grigory, donโt scold him,โ Fyodor Pavlovitch cut him short.
โYou should wait, Grigory Vassilyevitch, if only a short time, and listen, for I havenโt finished all I had to say. For at the very moment I become accursed, at that same highest moment, I become exactly like a heathen, and my christening is taken off me and becomes of no avail. Isnโt that so?โ
โMake haste and finish, my boy,โ Fyodor Pavlovitch urged him, sipping from his wineโglass with relish.
โAnd if Iโve ceased to be a Christian, then I told no lie to the enemy when they asked whether I was a Christian or not a Christian, seeing I had already been relieved by God Himself of my Christianity by reason of the thought alone, before I had time to utter a word to the enemy. And if I have already been discharged, in what manner and with what sort of justice can I be held responsible as a Christian in the other world for having denied Christ, when, through the very thought alone, before denying Him I had been relieved from my christening? If Iโm no longer a Christian, then I canโt renounce Christ, for Iโve nothing then to renounce. Who will hold an unclean Tatar responsible, Grigory Vassilyevitch, even in heaven, for not having been born a Christian? And who would punish him for that, considering that you canโt take two skins off one ox? For God Almighty Himself, even if He did make the Tatar responsible, when he dies would give him the smallest possible punishment, I imagine (since he must be punished), judging that he is not to blame if he has come into the world an unclean heathen, from heathen parents. The Lord God canโt surely take a Tatar and say he was a Christian? That would mean that the Almighty would tell a real untruth. And can the Lord of Heaven and earth tell a lie, even in one word?โ
Grigory was thunderstruck and looked at the orator, his eyes nearly starting out of his head. Though he did not clearly understand what was said, he had caught something in this rigmarole, and stood, looking like a man who has just hit his head against a wall. Fyodor Pavlovitch emptied his glass and went off into his shrill laugh.
โAlyosha! Alyosha! What do you say to that! Ah, you casuist! He must have been with the Jesuits, somewhere, Ivan. Oh, you stinking Jesuit, who taught you? But youโre talking nonsense, you casuist, nonsense, nonsense, nonsense. Donโt cry, Grigory, weโll reduce him to smoke and ashes in a moment. Tell me this, O ass; you may be right before your enemies, but you have renounced your faith all the same in your own heart, and you say yourself that in that very hour you became anathema accursed. And if once youโre anathema they wonโt pat you on the head for it in hell. What do you say to that, my fine Jesuit?โ
โThere is no doubt that I have renounced it in my own heart, but there was no special sin in that. Or if there was sin, it was the most ordinary.โ
โHowโs that the most ordinary?โ
โYou lie, accursed one!โ hissed Grigory.
โConsider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch,โ Smerdyakov went on, staid and unruffled, conscious of his triumph, but, as it were, generous to the vanquished foe. โConsider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch; it is said in the Scripture that if you have faith, even as a mustard seed, and bid a mountain move into the sea, it will move without the least delay at your bidding. Well, Grigory Vassilyevitch, if Iโm without faith and you have so great a faith that you are continually swearing at me, you try yourself telling this mountain, not to move into the sea for thatโs a long way off, but even to our stinking little river which runs at the bottom of the garden. Youโll see for yourself that it wonโt budge, but will remain just where it is however much you shout at it, and that shows, Grigory Vassilyevitch, that you havenโt faith in the proper manner, and only abuse others about it. Again, taking into consideration that no one in our day, not only you, but actually no one, from the highest person to the lowest peasant, can shove mountains into the seaโexcept perhaps some one man in the world, or, at most, two, and they most likely are saving their souls in secret somewhere in the Egyptian desert, so you wouldnโt find themโif so it be, if all the rest have no faith, will God curse all the rest? that is, the population of the whole earth, except about two hermits in the desert, and in His wellโknown mercy will He not forgive one of them? And so Iโm persuaded that though I may once have doubted I shall be forgiven if I shed tears of repentance.โ
โStay!โ cried Fyodor Pavlovitch, in a transport of delight. โSo you do suppose there are two who can move mountains? Ivan, make a note of it, write it down. There you have the Russian all over!โ
โYouโre quite right in saying itโs characteristic of the peopleโs faith,โ Ivan assented, with an approving smile.
โYou agree. Then it must be so, if you agree. Itโs true, isnโt it, Alyosha? Thatโs the Russian faith all over, isnโt it?โ
โNo, Smerdyakov has not the Russian faith at all,โ said Alyosha firmly and gravely.
โIโm not talking about his faith. I mean those two in the desert, only that idea. Surely thatโs Russian, isnโt it?โ
โYes, thatโs purely Russian,โ said Alyosha smiling.
โYour words are worth a gold piece, O ass, and Iโll give it to you toโday. But as to the rest you talk nonsense, nonsense, nonsense. Let me tell you, stupid, that we here are all of little faith, only from carelessness, because we havenโt time; things are too much for us, and, in the second place, the Lord God has given us so little time, only twentyโfour hours in the day, so that one hasnโt even time to get sleep enough, much less to repent of oneโs sins. While you have denied your faith to your enemies when youโd nothing else to think about but to show your faith! So I consider, brother, that it constitutes a sin.โ
โConstitute a sin it may, but consider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch, that it only extenuates it, if it does constitute. If I had believed then in very truth, as I ought to have believed, then it really would have been sinful if I had not faced tortures for my faith, and had gone over to the pagan Mohammedan faith. But, of course, it wouldnโt have come to torture then, because I should only have had to say at that instant to the mountain, โMove and crush the tormentor,โ and it would have moved and at the very instant have crushed him like a blackโbeetle, and I should have walked away as though nothing had happened, praising and glorifying God. But, suppose at that very moment I had tried all that, and cried to that mountain, โCrush these tormentors,โ and it hadnโt crushed them, how could I have helped doubting, pray, at such a time, and at such a dread hour of mortal terror? And apart from that, I should know already that I could not attain to the fullness of the Kingdom of Heaven (for since the mountain had not moved at my word, they could not think very much of my faith up aloft, and there could be no very great reward awaiting me in the world to come). So why should I let them flay the skin off me as well, and to no good purpose? For, even though they had flayed my skin half off my back, even then the mountain would not have moved at my word or at my cry. And at such a moment not only doubt might come over one but one might lose oneโs reason from fear, so that one would not be able to think at all. And, therefore, how should I be particularly to blame if not seeing my advantage or reward there or here, I should, at least, save my skin. And so trusting fully in the grace of the Lord I should cherish the hope that I might be altogether forgiven.โ