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Chapter no 17

The Blue Castle

When Valancy had lived for a week at Roaring Abelโ€™s she felt as if years had separated her from her old life and all the people she had known in it. They were beginning to seem remoteโ€”dream-likeโ€”far-awayโ€”and as the days went on they seemed still more so, until they ceased to matter altogether.

She was happy. Nobody ever bothered her with conundrums or insisted on giving her Purple Pills. Nobody called her Doss or worried her about catching cold. There were no quilts to piece, no abominable rubber-plant to water, no ice-cold maternal tantrums to endure. She could be alone whenever she liked, go to bed when she liked, sneeze when she liked. In the long, wondrous, northern twilights, when Cissy was asleep and Roaring Abel away, she could sit for hours on the shaky back verandah steps, looking out over the barrens to the hills beyond, covered with their fine, purple bloom, listening to the friendly wind singing wild, sweet melodies in the little spruces, and drinking in the aroma of the sunned grasses, until darkness flowed over the landscape like a cool, welcome wave.

Sometimes of an afternoon, when Cissy was strong enough, the two girls went into the barrens and looked at the wood-flowers. But they did not pick any. Valancy had read to Cissy the gospel thereof according to John Foster: โ€œIt is a pity to gather wood-flowers. They lose half their witchery away from the green and the flicker. The way to enjoy wood-flowers is to track them down to their remote hauntsโ€”gloat over themโ€”and then leave them with backward glances, taking with us only the beguiling memory of their grace and fragrance.โ€

Valancy was in the midst of realities after a lifetime of unrealities. And busyโ€”very busy. The house had to be cleaned. Not for nothing had Valancy been brought up in the Stirling habits of neatness and cleanliness. If she found satisfaction in cleaning dirty rooms she got her fill of it there. Roaring Abel thought she was foolish to bother doing so much more than she was asked to do, but he did not interfere with her. He was very well satisfied with his bargain. Valancy was a good cook. Abel said she got a flavour into things. The only fault he found with her was that she did not sing at her work.

โ€œFolks should always sing at their work,โ€ he insisted. โ€œSounds cheerful-like.โ€

โ€œNot always,โ€ retorted Valancy. โ€œFancy a butcher singing at his work. Or an undertaker.โ€

Abel burst into his great broad laugh.

โ€œThereโ€™s no getting the better of you. Youโ€™ve got an answer every time. I should think the Stirlings would be glad to be rid of you.ย Theyย donโ€™t like being sassed back.โ€

During the day Abel was generally away from homeโ€”if not working, then shooting or fishing with Barney Snaith. He generally came home at nightsโ€”always very late and often very drunk. The first night they heard him come howling into the yard, Cissy had told Valancy not to be afraid.

โ€œFather never does anythingโ€”he just makes a noise.โ€

Valancy, lying on the sofa in Cissyโ€™s room, where she had elected to sleep, lest Cissy should need attention in the nightโ€”Cissy would never have called herโ€”was not at all afraid, and said so. By the time Abel had got his horses put away, the roaring stage had passed and he was in his room at the end of the hall crying and praying. Valancy could still hear his dismal moans when she went calmly to sleep. For the most part, Abel was a good-natured creature, but occasionally he had a temper. Once Valancy asked him coolly:

โ€œWhat is the use of getting in a rage?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s such a dโ€”โ€”d relief,โ€ said Abel.

They both burst out laughing together.

โ€œYouโ€™re a great little sport,โ€ said Abel admiringly. โ€œDonโ€™t mind my bad French. I donโ€™t mean a thing by it. Jest habit. Say, I like a woman that ainโ€™t afraid to speak up to me. Sis there was always too meekโ€”too meek. Thatโ€™s why she got adrift. I like you.โ€

โ€œAll the same,โ€ said Valancy determinedly, โ€œthere is no use in sending things to hell as youโ€™re always doing. And Iโ€™mย notย going to have you tracking mud all over a floor Iโ€™ve just scrubbed. Youย mustย use the scraper whether you consign it to perdition or not.โ€

Cissy loved the cleanness and neatness. She had kept it so, too, until her strength failed. She was very pitifully happy because she had Valancy with her. It had been so terribleโ€”the long, lonely days and nights with no companionship save those dreadful old women who came to work. Cissy had hated and feared them. She clung to Valancy like a child.

There was no doubt that Cissy was dying. Yet at no time did she seem alarmingly ill. She did not even cough a great deal. Most days she was able to get up and dressโ€”sometimes even to work about in the garden or the barrens for an hour or two. For a few weeks after Valancyโ€™s coming she seemed so much better that Valancy began to hope she might get well. But Cissy shook her head.

โ€œNo, I canโ€™t get well. My lungs are almost gone. And Iโ€”donโ€™t want to. Iโ€™m so tired, Valancy. Only dying can rest me. But itโ€™s lovely to have you hereโ€”youโ€™ll never know how much it means to me. But Valancyโ€”you work too hard. You donโ€™t need toโ€”Father only wants his meals cooked. I donโ€™t think you are strong yourself. You turn so pale sometimes. And those drops you take.ย Areย you well, dear?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m all right,โ€ said Valancy lightly. She would not have Cissy worried. โ€œAnd Iโ€™m not working hard. Iโ€™m glad to have some work to doโ€”something that really wants to be done.โ€

โ€œThenโ€โ€”Cissy slipped her hand wistfully into Valancyโ€™sโ€”โ€œdonโ€™t letโ€™s talk any more about my being sick. Letโ€™s just forget it. Letโ€™s pretend Iโ€™m a little girl againโ€”and you have come here to play with me. I used to wish that long agoโ€”wish that you could come. I knew you couldnโ€™t, of course. But how I did wish it! You always seemed so different from the other girlsโ€”so kind and sweetโ€”and as if you had something in yourself nobody knew aboutโ€”some dear, pretty secret.ย Hadย you, Valancy?โ€

โ€œI had my Blue Castle,โ€ said Valancy, laughing a little. She was pleased that Cissy had thought of her like this. She had never suspected that anybody liked or admired or wondered about her. She told Cissy all about her Blue Castle. She had never told any one about it before.

โ€œEvery one has a Blue Castle, I think,โ€ said Cissy softly. โ€œOnly every one has a different name for it.ย Iย had mineโ€”once.โ€

She put her two thin little hands over her face. She did not tell Valancyโ€”thenโ€”who had destroyed her Blue Castle. But Valancy knew that, whoever it was, it was not Barney Snaith.

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