Aryaโs stitches were crooked again.
She frowned down at them with dismay and glanced over to where her sister Sansa sat among the other girls. Sansaโs needlework was exquisite. Everyone said so. โSansaโs work is as pretty as she is,โ Septa Mordane told their lady mother once. โShe has such fine, delicate hands.โ When Lady Catelyn had asked about Arya, the septa had sniffed. โArya has the hands of a blacksmith.โ
Arya glanced furtively across the room, worried that Septa Mordane might have read her thoughts, but the septa was paying her no attention today. She was sitting with the Princess Myrcella, all smiles and admiration. It was not often that the septa was privileged to instruct a royal princess in the womanly arts, as she had said when the queen brought Myrcella to join them. Arya thought that Myrcellaโs stitches looked a little crooked too, but you would never know it from the way Septa Mordane was cooing.
She studied her own work again, looking for some way to salvage it, then sighed and put down the needle. She looked glumly at her sister. Sansa was chatting away happily as she worked. Beth Cassel, Ser Rodrikโs little girl, was sitting by her feet, listening to every word she said, and Jeyne Poole was leaning over to whisper something in her ear.
โWhat are you talking about?โ Arya asked suddenly.
Jeyne gave her a startled look, then giggled. Sansa looked abashed. Beth blushed. No one answered.
โTell me,โ Arya said.
Jeyne glanced over to make certain that Septa Mordane was not listening. Myrcella said something then, and the septa laughed along with the rest of the ladies.
โWe were talking about the prince,โ Sansa said, her voice soft as a kiss.
Arya knew which prince she meant: Jofftey, of course. The tall, handsome one. Sansa got to sit with him at the feast. Arya had to sit with the little fat one. Naturally.
โJoffrey likes your sister,โ Jeyne whispered, proud as if she had something to do with it. She was the daughter of Winterfellโs steward and Sansaโs dearest friend. โHe told her she was very beautiful.โ
โHeโs going to marry her,โ little Beth said dreamily, hugging herself. โThen Sansa will be queen of all the realm.โ
Sansa had the grace to blush. She blushed prettily. She did everything prettily, Arya thought with dull resentment. โBeth, you shouldnโt make up stories,โ Sansa corrected the younger girl, gently stroking her hair to take the harshness out of her words. She looked at Arya. โWhat did you think of Prince Joff, sister? Heโs very gallant, donโt you think?โ
โJon says he looks like a girl,โ Arya said.
Sansa sighed as she stitched. โPoor Jon,โ she said. โHe gets jealous because heโs a bastard.โ
โHeโs our brother,โ Arya said, much too loudly. Her voice cut through the afternoon quiet of the tower room.
Septa Mordane raised her eyes. She had a bony face, sharp eyes, and a thin lipless mouth made for frowning. It was frowning now. โWhat are you talking about, children?โ
โOur half brother,โ Sansa corrected, soft and precise. She smiled for the septa. โArya and I were remarking on how pleased we were to have the princess with us today,โ she said.
Septa Mordane nodded. โIndeed. A great honor for us all.โ Princess Myrcella smiled uncertainly at the compliment. โArya, why arenโt you at work?โ the septa asked. She rose to her feet, starched skirts rustling as she started across the room. โLet me see your stitches.โ
Arya wanted to scream. It was just like Sansa to go and attract the septaโs attention. โHere,โ she said, surrendering up her work.
The septa examined the fabric. โArya, Arya, Arya,โ she said. โThis will not do. This will not do at all.โ
Everyone was looking at her. It was too much. Sansa was too well bred to smile at her sisterโs disgrace, but Jeyne was smirking on her behalf. Even Princess Myrcella looked sorry for her. Arya felt tears filling her eyes. She pushed herself out of her chair and bolted for the door.
Septa Mordane called after her. โArya, come back here! Donโt you take another step! Your lady mother will hear of this. In front of our royal princess too! Youโll shame us all!โ
Arya stopped at the door and turned back, biting her lip. The tears were running down her cheeks now. She managed a stiff little bow to Myrcella. โBy your leave, my lady.โ
Myrcella blinked at her and looked to her ladies for guidance. But if she was uncertain, Septa Mordane was not. โJust where do you think you are going, Arya?โ the septa demanded.
Arya glared at her. โI have to go shoe a horse,โ she said sweetly, taking a brief satisfaction in the shock on the septaโs face. Then she whirled and made her exit, running down the steps as fast as her feet would take her.
It wasnโt fair. Sansa had everything. Sansa was two years older; maybe by the time Arya had been born, there had been nothing left. Often it felt that way. Sansa could sew and dance and sing. She wrote poetry. She knew how to dress. She played the high harpย andย the bells. Worse, she was beautiful. Sansa had gotten their motherโs fine high cheekbones and the thick auburn hair of the Tullys. Arya took after their lord father. Her hair was a lusterless brown, and her face was long and solemn. Jeyne used to call her Arya Horseface, and neigh whenever she came near. It hurt that the one thing Arya could do better than her sister was ride a horse. Well, that and manage a household.
Sansa had never had much of a head for figures. If she did marry Prince Joff, Arya hoped for his sake that he had a good steward.
Nymeria was waiting for her in the guardroom at the base of the stairs. She bounded to her feet as soon as she caught sight of Arya. Arya grinned. The wolf pup loved her, even if no one else did. They went everywhere together, and Nymeria slept in her room, at the foot of her bed. If Mother had not forbidden it, Arya would gladly have taken the wolf with her to needlework. Let Septa Mordane complain about her stitchesย then.
Nymeria nipped eagerly at her hand as Arya untied her. She had yellow eyes. When they caught the sunlight, they gleamed like two golden coins. Arya had named her after the warrior queen of the Rhoyne, who had led her people across the narrow sea. That had been a great scandal too. Sansa, of course, had named her pup โLady.โ Arya made a face and hugged the wolfling tight. Nymeria licked her ear, and she giggled.
By now Septa Mordane would certainly have sent word to her lady mother. If she went to her room, they would find her. Arya did not care to be found. She had a better notion.
The boys were at practice in the yard. She wanted to see Robb put gallant Prince Joffrey flat on his back. โCome,โ she whispered to Nymeria. She got up and ran, the wolf coming
hard at her heels.
There was a window in the covered bridge between the armory and the Great Keep where you had a view of the whole yard. That was where they headed.
They arrived, breathless and flushed, to find Jon perched on the windowsill, one leg casually pulled up to his chest. He was so engrossed in watching the scene below that he didnโt notice her approachโuntil his white wolf stirred. Ghost, already bigger than the rest of the litter, sniffed at Nymeria as she crept forward, then gave her ear a playful nip before settling back down.
Jon glanced at her with curiosity. “Shouldn’t you be practicing your stitches, little sister?” Arya scrunched up her face. “I wanted to watch them fight.”
He chuckled. “Come on, then.”
Arya climbed up onto the sill and sat next to him, listening to the dull thuds and grunts coming from the yard below.
To her dismay, it was just the younger boys training. Bran, so padded he looked like he was wearing a featherbed, was clumsily sparring with Prince Tommen, whose round shape made him seem even bulkier in the armor. The two puffed and flailed with padded wooden swords, under the watchful gaze of Ser Rodrik Cassel, the grizzled master-at-arms, his white whiskers framing his face like a lionโs mane. A crowd of onlookers cheered them on, with Robbโs voice rising above the rest. She spotted Theon Greyjoy nearby, his black doublet embroidered with the golden kraken of his House, a smirk of disdain playing on his lips.
The boys looked exhausted, and Arya guessed theyโd been at it for some time. โA bit more tiring than needlework,โ Jon remarked.
โA bit more fun than needlework,โ Arya shot back. Jon grinned and tousled her hair. Arya blushed. They had always been close. She and Jon shared their fatherโs face, unlike Robb, Sansa, Bran, and even little Rickon, who all took after the Tullys, with their bright smiles and fiery hair. When she was younger, Arya had worried it meant she was a bastard too. It was Jon who had soothed her fears, the one she had always trusted.
โWhy arenโt you down in the yard?โ Arya asked him.
He gave her a half smile. โBastards are not allowed to damage young princes,โ he said.
โAny bruises they take in the practice yard must come from trueborn swords.โ
โOh.โ Arya felt abashed. She should have realized. For the second time today, Arya reflected that life was not fair.
She watched her little brother whack at Tommen. โI could do just as good as Bran,โ she said. โHeโs only seven. Iโm nine.โ
Jon looked her over with all his fourteen-year-old wisdom. โYouโre too skinny,โ he said. He took her arm to feel her muscle. Then he sighed and shook his head. โI doubt you could even lift a longsword, little sister, never mind swing one.โ
Arya snatched back her arm and glared at him. Jon messed up her hair again. They watched Bran and Tommen circle each other.
โYou see Prince Joffrey?โ Jon asked.
She hadnโt, not at first glance, but when she looked again she found him to the back, under the shade of the high stone wall. He was surrounded by men she did not recognize, young squires in the livery of Lannister and Baratheon, strangers all. There were a few older men among them; knights, she surmised.
โLook at the arms on his surcoat,โ Jon suggested.
Arya looked. An ornate shield had been embroidered on the princeโs padded surcoat. No doubt the needlework was exquisite. The arms were divided down the middle; on one side was the crowned stag of the royal House, on the other the lion of Lannister.
โThe Lannisters are proud,โ Jon observed. โYouโd think the royal sigil would be sufficient, but no. He makes his motherโs House equal in honor to the kingโs.โ
โThe woman is important too!โ Arya protested.
Jon chuckled. โPerhaps you should do the same thing, little sister. Wed Tully to Stark in your arms.โ
โA wolf with a fish in its mouth?โ It made her laugh. โThat would look silly. Besides, if a girl canโt fight, why should she have a coat of arms?โ
Jon shrugged. โGirls get the arms but not the swords. Bastards get the swords but not the arms. I did not make the rules, little sister.โ
There was a shout from the courtyard below. Prince Tommen was rolling in the dust, trying to get up and failing. All the padding made him look like a turtle on its back. Bran was standing over him with upraised wooden sword, ready to whack him again once he regained his feet. The men began to laugh.
โEnough!โ Ser Rodrik called out. He gave the prince a hand and yanked him back to his feet. โWell fought. Lew, Donnis, help them out of their armor.โ He looked around. โPrince Joffrey, Robb, will you go another round?โ
Robb, already sweaty from a previous bout, moved forward eagerly. โGladly.โ
Joffrey moved into the sunlight in response to Rodrikโs summons. His hair shone like spun gold. He looked bored. โThis is a game for children, Ser Rodrik.โ
Theon Greyjoy gave a sudden bark of laughter. โYou are children,โ he said derisively.
โRobb may be a child,โ Joffrey said. โI am a prince. And I grow tired of swatting at Starks with a play sword.โ
โYou got more swats than you gave, Joff,โ Robb said. โAre you afraid?โ
Prince Joffrey looked at him. โOh, terrified,โ he said. โYouโre so much older.โ Some of the Lannister men laughed.
Jon looked down on the scene with a frown. โJoffrey is truly a little shit,โ he told Arya.
Ser Rodrik tugged thoughtfully at his white whiskers. โWhat are you suggesting?โ he asked the prince.
โLive steel.โ
โDone,โ Robb shot back. โYouโll be sorry!โ
The master-at-arms put a hand on Robbโs shoulder to quiet him. โLive steel is too dangerous. I will permit you tourney swords, with blunted edges.โ
Joffrey said nothing, but a man strange to Arya, a tall knight with black hair and burn scars on his face, pushed forward in front of the prince. โThis is your prince. Who are you to tell him he may not have an edge on his sword, ser?โ
โMaster-at-arms of Winterfell, Clegane, and you would do well not to forget it.โ
โAre you training women here?โ the burned man wanted to know. He was muscled like a bull.
โI am trainingย knights,โ Ser Rodrik said pointedly. โThey will have steel when they are ready. When they are of an age.โ
The burned man looked at Robb. โHow old are you, boy?โ โFourteen,โ Robb said.
โI killed a man at twelve. You can be sure it was not with a blunt sword.โ
Arya could see Robb bristle. His pride was wounded. He turned on Ser Rodrik. โLet me do it. I can beat him.โ
โBeat him with a tourney blade, then,โ Ser Rodrik said.
Joffrey shrugged. โCome and see me when youโre older, Stark. If youโre notย tooย old.โ There was laughter from the Lannister men.
Robbโs curses rang through the yard. Arya covered her mouth in shock. Theon Greyjoy seized Robbโs arm to keep him away from the prince. Ser Rodrik tugged at his whiskers in dismay.
Joffrey feigned a yawn and turned to his younger brother. โCome, Tommen,โ he said. โThe hour of play is done. Leave the children to their frolics.โ
That brought more laughter from the Lannisters, more curses from Robb. Ser Rodrikโs face was beet-red with fury under the white of his whiskers. Theon kept Robb locked in an iron grip until the princes and their party were safely away.
Jon watched them leave, and Arya watched Jon. His face had grown as still as the pool at the heart of the godswood. Finally he climbed down off the window. โThe show is done,โ he said. He bent to scratch Ghost behind the ears. The white wolf rose and rubbed against him. โYou had best run back to your room, little sister. Septa Mordane will surely be lurking. The longer you hide, the sterner the penance. Youโll be sewing all through winter. When the spring thaw comes, they will find your body with a needle still locked tight between your frozen fingers.โ
Arya didnโt think it was funny. โI hate needlework!โ she said with passion. โItโs not fair!โ
โNothing is fair,โ Jon said. He messed up her hair again and walked away from her, Ghost moving silently beside him. Nymeria started to follow too, then stopped and came back when she saw that Arya was not coming.
Reluctantly she turned in the other direction.
It was worse than Jon had thought. It wasnโt Septa Mordane waiting in her room. It was Septa Mordaneย andย her mother.