Black had always been my favorite color.
Silent. Deadly. Impenetrable.
I felt at home in it, like shadows merging with the inky wells of night.
Yet in the span of a second, sheโd upended that as she had every other thing in my life.
Heat poured through my blood as Stella walked in front of me and slowly turned, taking in the lavish decor. The museumโs long-running elephant display served as a thirteen-foot-tall centerpiece while projections of marine life danced on the walls, giving the illusion that we were underwater. Black-clad servers circulated with champagne and hors dโoeuvres, and a stage sat at the far side of the room, waiting for the host to climb on and congratulate everyone on how much money theyโd raised at the end of the night.
The seats for this event were eight thousand dollars a pop.
Iโd spent more than that on her dress, and itโd been worth every cent.
โThis is beautiful,โ Stella breathed, her attention resting on something behind me.
Green eyes. Green dress. Symbolic of life and nature.
Green.
Apparently, it was my new favorite fucking color.
โYes, it is.โ I didnโt turn to see what she was so enraptured by, nor did I pay attention to the curious stares people sent our way.
I hadnโt been spotted with a woman on my arm in over a year. By tomorrow morning, the city would be abuzz about the date Iโd brought, but I couldnโt care less.
From the moment Stella had stepped into her living room wearing that damn dress, every other thought had crumbled into dust.
A soft flame of resentment burned in my chest. I hated the hold she had on me, but still, I couldnโt stop looking at her.
A turn of my head in the car ride over.
A last-minute flight to a far-flung country to keep myself away.
Scattered weeks and months when Iโd thrown myself into work to forget her.
No matter what I did, something always drew me backโ the gentle lilt of her voice, the scent of fresh florals and greenery. A turquoise ring that burned a hole in my pocket long after Iโd vowed to toss it in the trash.
It wasnโt love. But it was maddening.
Stellaโs gaze slid over to meet mine. A soft exhale parted her lips at whatever she saw on my face, and the urge to push her against the wall, fist her hair, and coax her mouth open until I claimed it completely ignited in my chest.
Tension twisted between us like an invisible rope, so tangible I felt its abrasive scrape as it snaked around my chest.
The moment stretched a second into eternity before Stella averted her gaze.
Her knuckles turned white around her clutch, but her voice was calm and even when she spoke again.
โYou never told me what the event is for.โ She avoided my eyes as she looked around the room again. โOcean
conservation?โ
The stranglehold around my chest had loosened, but the release left me oddly dissatisfied.
โClose. Baby turtles.โ
My mouth tipped up when her head whipped around.
My answer eroded some of the earlier tension, and Stellaโs grip on her purse visibly loosened.
โI didnโt figure you for a turtle lover, Mr. Harper. Whatโs next? Feeding ducks? Adopting puppies?โ
Her playful questions coaxed a wider smile from me. โDonโt hold your breath. I watched a lot ofย Franklinย growing up.โ
Her face glowed with laughter. โAh, that explains it. I was anย Arthurย girl myself.โ
I filed that away for future reference. There were no unimportant details when it came to Stella.
โAardvarks are underappreciated, but sadly, theyโre not a pet cause for Richard Wyattโs wife. No pun intended,โ I added.
A knowing gleam entered her eyes. โI assume Richard Wyatt is important to your business. Potential client?โ
I hid another smile at how quickly she pieced it together. โYes. Big private equity guy, big money, looking for a new security team. His wife is his weakness.โ
Iโd lasered in on the Wyatts the minute we entered. They held court in the northeast corner of the room, surrounded by fawning admirers, including the human equivalent of a lump of coal.
Mike Kurtz, the CEO of Sentinel Security. My good mood faded at the sight of him.
The bastard went after every account I did. There wasnโt a single original thought rattling beneath that overly gelled hair.
Kurtz looked up, and an oily smile spread across his face before he broke off from the group and strode toward me.
We were both in our early thirties, but I already spotted the touches of cosmetic surgery propping up his fading looksโa chin augmentation here, some Botox there.
Beside me, Stella eyed the new arrival with curiosity, which deepened my foul mood. Kurtz didnโt deserve an ounce of her attention.
โChristian! How nice to see you again.โ He smoothed a hand over his tie, oozing as much sincerity as a commission-starved car salesman. โIโm so glad youโre not licking your wounds over the Deacon and Beatrix accounts. I hope youโre notย tooย upset with me about poaching your clients.โ His chuckle scraped against my skin like nails against chalkboard. โItโs nothing personal. Just business.โ
Irritation flared. Iโd lost two accounts to Sentinel in one week. Deacon and Beatrix were trivial compared to the VIPs topping my companyโs client list, but the losses pissed me off nonetheless.
I didnโt like losing.
โOf course not,โ I said easily. Iโd be damned if I showed even a smidge of weakness in Kurtzโs presence. โI donโt blame them for testing other services, but quality always wins in the end. Speaking of which, howโs the system rebuild going? Itโs awful what can happen when your systems are subpar.โ
Kurtzโs face tightened. He was a bottom feeder, but he was smart enough to recognize Iโd had a hand in causing the system failure that wiped millions off Sentinelโs market value last year.
He just couldnโt prove it.
โItโs going great,โ he finally said. โBut the strength of a company is measured by client retention, not by freak failures. Iโm sure Richard Wyatt would agree.โ
โIโm sure he would.โ He smiled.
I smiled.
A bullet hole in his forehead would be the perfect complement to his vanity. He would die young and unravaged by old age.
Forever thirty-three.
Itโd be an act of mercy, delivered with the swiftness of one silenced gunshot.
40320 Eastshore Drive. Security code 708. So easy.
One bullet in the middle of the night, one rival snuffed out forever.
Temptation licked at the edges of my consciousness before I doused it.
Sentinel and Harper Security were well-known competitors. If foul play befell Kurtz, I would be one of the first suspects, and I didnโt have time for the fucking paperworkย thatย would bring.
โSpeaking of qualityโฆโ Kurtz turned to Stella, whoโd been watching our exchange with a bemused expression. โWho is yourย stunningย date?โ
She answered after several beats of hesitation. โIโm Stella.โ She graced him with a tentative smile.
Something dark and volatile burned in the pit of my stomach.
โIโm Mike.โ He oozed sleazy charm as he held out his hand.
She didnโt get a chance to shake it before I cut in between them to whisk two glasses of champagne off a passing serverโs tray.
โI almost forgot to give my condolences,โ I drawled. I handed one glass to Stella and twined my free hand with hers. โI heard about theโฆunfortunate incident with one of your clients. Itโs a shame there arenโt more reliable bodyguards these days, but at least the client has most of his fingers left.โ
Stella slid a glance in my direction.
She was the type of person who had a smile and kind words for everyone, who paid for her old nannyโs care at her own expense and would give someone the shirt off her back.
The vicious undercurrent of my conversation with Kurtz was probably as foreign to her as selfless charity was to me.
I could only imagine how sheโd react if she discovered some of the things Iโd done.
Not that she ever would.
There were some things she could never know.
The warmth from her palm radiated up my arm and eased some of the black, restless energy churning in my chest.
It felt wrong to touch her when I was this on edge, like my darkness would seep through my touch and devour her light.
I forced myself to dial back the hostility, if only for her sake. I didnโt want to taint our first โdateโ.
Still, I couldnโt resist a final dig at Kurtz.
โYou might want to brush up on your employee training, though.โ I took a languorous sip of my drink. โSometimes, the greatest threat to a company isnโt external competition. Itโs internal incompetence.โ
Kurtzโs face flushed a satisfying shade of crimson. โA pleasure as always, Harper.โ Sarcasm dripped from his reply. He nodded at Stella. โStella, it was lovely meeting you. I hope to see you again soon, and with a more agreeable date.โ
My hand flexed around my champagne glass.
Over my dead fucking body.
โFriend of yours?โ Stella asked wryly asked after Mike stormed off.
โMy least favorite one. Mike Kurtz, the CEO of Sentinel Securityโฆโ
โHarper Securityโs biggest competitor,โ she finished.
A pleasant warmth chipped away at my earlier irritation. โBeen Googling me, Ms. Alonso?โ
She lifted her chin, her cheeks turning an adorable brick-red. โI donโt enter pretend relationships without doing my research.โ
โHmm.โ I fought a laugh at her dignified tone. โThen youโll know I attended MIT. Mike was a classmate. We competed for everythingโgrades, girls, internships. I was always a step ahead, and he hated it. Heโs made it his lifeโs mission to one-up everything I do.โ A wry note entered my voice. โHeโs yet to succeed.โ
Unless he counted the Deacon and Beatrix accounts, which were nothing in the grand scheme of things.
I was competition to him. He was an annoyance to me.
Stellaโs brow furrowed. โThat sounds like an exhausting way to live.โ
โPerhaps.โ
People like Mike were too small-minded to devise their own goals, so they looked to those who were more successful than them for a roadmap instead.
No originality. No true purpose or drive. Just a mindless need to stroke their egos for an audience of one.
It wouldโve been sad had I given two shits about their lives.
โWell, Iโm sure youโll get the account.โ Mischief lit Stellaโs eyes. โI, personally, wouldnโt entrust my wellbeing to someone who wears a light blue suit to a black-tie event.โ
This time, I didnโt hide my laugh.
Stella and I circulated the room for the next hour before we finally came face to face with Richard Wyatt.
After the obligatory small talk, I steered the conversation toward his security needs, but he seemed more interested in my relationship with Stella.
โChristian Harper with a girlfriend. I never thought Iโd see the day.โ Richard chuckled. โHow did you meet?โ
โWe met at Queen Bridgetโs wedding,โ I said smoothly. โI saw her across the room and asked her to dance. The rest is history.โ
In truth, weโd exchanged only a quick greeting at Bridgetโs wedding, but the story Stella and I had concocted for our meet cute served several purposes: it was simple, easy to remember, more interesting than admitting we met during an apartment tour, and close enough to the truth we wouldnโt trip ourselves up if someone dug deeper.
Plus, name-dropping Bridget always impressed clients, though Richardโs face remained unreadable.
โSpeaking of history, I understand youโve had bad experiences with protection services in the past.โ I steered the conversation back to the topic at hand. โBut given your public profile, a bodyguard is a necessity, not a luxury.โ
Richard gave me a wry look. โItโs always business with you, Harper.โ
Yeah, I didnโt attend this fundraiser for my fucking health.ย Baby turtles? Cute, but not cute enough for me to spend a Saturday night saving them or whatever the hell the party was supposed to do.
I didnโtย needย Richard as a client. Most of my money came from behind-the-scenes software and hardware development, not protection services.
But his pickiness when it came to hiring was legendary, and I thrived on a challenge.
โYou should spend more time with family,โ he said. โRelax a little. I took my wife and kids skiing last month, and it was the bestโฆโ
I tuned him out as he yammered on about his sonโs natural talent at snow sports. I gave negative fucks about his family vacation, and his kids sounded annoying as shit.
Stella, on the other hand, appeared genuinely interested. She asked questions about his kidsโ hobbies and offered to connect him with an eco-friendly fashion brand
that might be a good partner for his wifeโs annual charity fashion show.
It was all so cordial I wanted to shoot someone just to liven things up.
โWhere was your last family vacation?โ Richard drew my attention back to him.
โI donโt go on family vacations.โ Even if my family were alive, I would rather cut off my arm than go on some group cruise through the Caribbean.
Richardโs bushy brows collapsed into a frown while Stella squeezed my hand in what felt like an admonishment.
โChristian can be a workaholic, but he isnโtย allย business all the time,โ she said quickly. โFun fact: we danced at the wedding, but I didnโt agree to date Christian until later. When I ran into him while volunteering at a senior living facility.โ
My smile froze.ย What the fuck?
That wasย notย the story weโd agreed on.
โChristian volunteering?โ Skepticism colored Richardโs words.
I didnโt blame him. My charity went as far as writing a big check.
โYes.โ Stellaโs smile didnโt budge. She ignored my warning glance to stay on script and continued, โHe was a bit uncomfortable at first, but itโs grown on him. Heโs a natural. The residents just adore him, especially during bingo night.โ
She lowered her voice. โHe doesnโt admit it, but he lets them win on purpose. I saw him hiding a winning card once.โ
Bingo night?ย Letting them win?ย For fuckโs sake.
โHuh.โ Richard eyed me with newfound interest. โDidnโt know you had it in you, Harper.โ
โTrust me.โ My tone matched the Sahara in dryness. โNeither did I.โ
We chatted for a few minutes longer before Richardโs wife came up to us. She and Stella instantly struck up a rapport and drifted off on their own conversation, leaving me and Richard to discuss business.
He listened to me make the case for why he needed a professional protection team, but he interrupted me before I could make an official pitch.
โI know why you came, Harper, and itโs not for the baby turtles. Not that I would tell my wife that. She was thrilled when you RSVPed yes.โ Richard cast an affectionate glance at his wife, who was talking to the ambassador from Eldorra.
My shoulders stiffened.ย Where the hell is Stella?
Sheโd been talking to Richardโs wife just ten minutes ago.
My eyes scanned the room, but I didnโt find her before Richard spoke again. โMy phone has been ringing off the hook with security offers since I let go of my old team. And yes, I know Harper Security is the best.โ He held up a hand when I opened my mouth to respond. โBut I like to get on well with the people I work with. I need to trust them. Youโve always been a cold bastard, butโฆโ He rubbed a hand over his jaw. โPerhaps I was wrong.โ
The puzzle pieces for why Stella had gone off script clicked into place.
She mustโve picked up on Richardโs ba๏ฌing need for
personal connection.
None of my business partners and current clients gave a shit about personal connection. They only cared about getting the job done.
There was a first for everything, I suppose.
I hid a tiny smile before I closed the deal Stella had opened for me.
Iโd underestimated her.
Once I had the opening, it took me less than ten minutes to extract a verbal agreement from Richard. Heโd have the
contract in his inbox by the end of the night.
Kurtz was out of the game before he even got in the ring.
When Richard left to greet another guest, I scanned the room again for Stella.
Richardโs wife and the ambassador were still talking by the elephant display. Kurtz was hitting on some unlucky blonde at the bar.
No Stella in sight.
Even if sheโd gone to the bathroom, she should be back by now.
Itโd been too long.
Somethingโs wrong.
My heartbeat slowed until it was a distant drum in my ears.
I pushed through the crowd, ignoring the protests and dirty looks as I searched for any glimpse of dark curls and green silk.
Nothing.
A fleeting image of her lying on a floor somewhere, hurt and bleeding, flashed through my mind. Panic swelled, so foreign my body fought its encroachment until the hot, frantic rush finally overpowered my resistance and flooded my veins.
Most peopleโs reactions wouldnโt have veered immediately intoย sheโs in dangerย territory, but I worked in personal security. That was my fucking job.
Plus, Iโd accumulated a long list of enemies over the years. Many wouldnโt hesitate to get to me through someone I cared about, and Stella and I had debuted as a couple tonight.
Dammit.ย I shouldโve been more careful, but Iโd vetted
the guest list. Other than Kurtz, who was as competent as a toddler operating heavy machinery, I hadnโt seen anyone who was cause for concern.
Of course, someone couldโve easily slipped in with the servers, ushers, or dozens of other people working the party.
My jaw ticked as I entered a dimly lit hall off to the side of the main room.
If anyone touched a goddamn hair on her headโฆ
A door swung open at the end of the hall and, like Iโd conjured her through sheer force of will, Stella stepped out, looking calm and unharmed.
Surprise crossed her face when she saw me.
โHey! Did you close theโโ Her sentence cut off with a soft gasp when I closed the distance between us and backed her against the wall.
โWhere were you?โ My pulse beat a furious rhythm as I scanned her from head to toe, searching for injuries or signs of distress while she stared at me like I was an alien thatโd crash-landed on earth.
โI was in the bathroom.โ She spoke slowly the way she would to a child. It was only then I noticed the bathroom signs marking the doors.
A frown creased her brow. โIs everything okay? Youโre acting weird.โ
No, theyโre not. Things havenโt been okay since the day I first saw you.
โI thought something happened to you.โ The roughness of my voice startled me almost as much as the intensity of my relief.
I shouldnโt care this much. Nothing good ever came from allowing other people control over my emotions.
But goddammit, I did, no matter how much I hated myself for it.
โNext time, let me know before you run off.โ The roughness deepened into a command.
I had no desire to experience the terror that had gripped me in the past ten minutes again.
It was ugly, foreign, and completely unacceptable.
โI didnโt run off. I went to theย bathroom.โ A hint of fire flickered beneath Stellaโs words. โI donโt need to tell you every time I leave your side. That wasnโt in our agreement. Besides, you were busy.โ
โYou were in the bathroom for half an hour?โ
โSomeone spilled champagne on my dress. I was trying to fix it.โ
My eyes dropped to the small, dark stain on her skirt.
โIt didnโt work.โ Her bottom lip disappeared between her teeth. โIโm so sorry. I know how expensive it mustโve been. Iโll find a way to payโโ
โFuck the dress.โ Itโd cost nearly ten thousand dollars, but I couldnโt summon two shits about what happened to it.
If I had my way, I would tear it off her myself.
A hot, heady awareness replaced my panic. No one else was in the hallway, and Stellaโs scentโfresh, subtle, but damn intoxicatingโclouded my head.
The memory of her in the car, staring at me with those big green eyes and parted lips, her hard nipples all but begging me to take them in my mouth and taste how sweet they were, flashed through my mind.
Not unlike the way she was staring at me now, only this time, defiance sharpened the edges of her softness.
And fuck, that was a turn-on.
Heat rushed to my groin until my cock ached with a painful throb.
โWhat I wantโฆโ I pressed a thumb against the pulse at the base of her neck. Its wild flutter told me she wasnโt as indifferent to the pull between us as she pretended to be. โIs for you to be safe. There are bad people in this world, Butterfly, and some of them are in the room right outside. So next time, I donโt care if Iโm in the middle of a conversation with the Queen of fucking England. Interrupt me. Understand?โ
Stellaโs eyes narrowed. โButterfly?โ
Beautiful. Elusive. Hard to catch.
When I didnโt answer, she released an exhale that caressed my chest and tightened my groin to the point of pain. โIs that all you want?โ
โNot even close.โ
A tiny shiver rippled through her. โBecause you donโt want to go through the trouble of finding another regular companion for events.โ
โBecause I donโt want to be jailed for murder if anyone touches a hair on your head.โ
A grim smile touched my lips when her eyes widened.
She had no clue who I was or what I was capable of.
Meanwhile, I knew more about her than I cared to admit.
Frustration and loathing burned beneath my skin. I pushed myself off the wall and stepped back.
Adjusted my cu๏ฌinks.
Tried to ease the relentless, pounding need in my chest. โItโs time to return to the party.โ Ice cooled my voice.
โShall we?โ
We returned to the party in silence.
I didnโt take my eyes off her the rest of the night and told myself it was because I didnโt want a repeat of my earlier scare.
After all, Iโd always been good at lying to myself.