After dinner out at the local pizza place with some pledges, we pull up at our house, the one I grew up in, a rambling cottage-style bungalow built in the 50s. In the light of the streetlamp, I eye the late summer azaleas in the flowerbed, the ones Mom and I planted before she passed away.
A heavy feeling settles on my chest.ย God, I miss her.ย Sometimes I forget sheโs gone and half expect her to be inside, waiting on me so we can have one of our long chats. Sheโd know exactly what to do about Dad and Margo and Ryker.
โWhatโs that next to the door?โ Charisma asks me as we step onto the stone porch. Sheโs ahead of me and bends down to pick it up. Turning to face me, she holds up a bag of suckers with a note stuck to it. โOooo, it has your name on it,โ she says, waving it at me.
I take the note from her and read the sloping masculine scrawl.
I came by at 8:00. I guess you stood me up. Makes sense. I hope weโre even now. Anyway, I thought of you when I saw these.
Later, Ryker.
The R is prominent and dominates his signature, big and cocky just like he is.
โWhy is he leaving you your favorite candy?โ Charisma ponders, an inquisitive look on her face. โHave yโall talked and you didnโt tell me?โ
โNo.โ My brow wrinkles, a memory tugging at me, and then it dawns on me and I groan. โOh my God, he texted me earlier, but I didnโt know who it wasโฆโ I whip out my phone and reread the messages while she takes them in from beside my shoulder. I recall the phone number he tossed down on my serving tray at Sugarโs, but it got dumped out along with everything else. Then I remember giving him my number. โThese must be from him.โ I rub my forehead.
She chuckles. โWTF? You told him you wantedย him.โ
Mortification flies over me. โShit, shit, shit. I didnโt know it was him. I thought he was some lonely guy pining after some girl.โ My face reddens. โI thought I was helping someone out with his relationship woes.โ
โThat would be a BFNโbig fat no.โ She holds the bag of suckers up to the porch light. โLook, he drew something on the side of the bag.โ
I take the candy from her and study the sketch. Itโs a creature with a long neck, small ears, and an oblong body with fuzzy stick legs drawn in black
marker.
โI canโt figure out what that is supposed to be.โ She looks at me. โIs he deranged? Should we call the cops?โ
โNo.โ A small laugh comes from me. โItโs a llama.โ โOh?โ
I shrug. โInside joke.โ
Lying in bed later, Iโm reading a romance book about a pirate, but my gaze keeps going to the note and the bag of candy on my nightstand. With a sigh, I put down the book and pick up the noteโfor the third timeโtracing my finger over the confident strokes of his penmanship. The candy was a nice touch, but it hardly excuses what he did.
I nibble on my lip, thinking back to the sorority meeting and how Margo vowed sheโd get Ryker to attend. He did say he wanted to make up for what happened, so what ifย Iย invited Ryker to the party? I mean, I can also ask Connor, but if I wrangled Ryker then everyone would know the bet fiasco is over and didnโt bother me at all. I wouldnโt have to be embarrassed, and everyone would think weโreโฆfriends.
But thatโs just silly, my inner voice says.ย You hate him.
Do I?
YES, YOU DO.
But my fingers arenโt listening as I grab my phone and type out a message to him.
Got your note. Weโre not even close to being even, Baby Llama. And before when I was texting you, I didnโt know who you were. I was just messing around.
I donโt get a response for several minutes and am about to put my phone back down when I see the three little dots that tell me heโs responding.
I still want to make it up to you.
Visions of him ravishing me on my bed come to mind. I squash those thoughts down.
How?ย I ask.
Iโll explain tomorrow. Itโs midnight and I need to be at practice by six. That means breakfast is at five fifteen.
Oh! I didnโt realize he was soโฆconscientious. I guess I pictured him with two girls on either side, being rubbed down with oil as he drifts off to sleep.
Sorry I woke you, I text.
You didnโt. I was lying here thinking about you.
A sizzle of heat ripples through me. Damn that sizzle.
Oh, so youโre alone?
Uh-huh. You? Or is Connor there?
My teeth grit. I hate that he knows I have a crush on him.
Just me.ย I throw a glance over at Vampire Bill. At night, I put his cage in here. He doesnโt like to sleep alone. Neither do I.ย And you need to forget about Connor, I add.
Donโt worry, your secret is safe with me. Good night, Penelope. Iโll find you tomorrow.
Find me tomorrowโฆ?
I stare at my name typed by his fingersโฆand it feels surreal that Iโve just had a decent conversation with him.
Still, Iโm not sure Iโll talk to him when I see him.
With a sigh, I pick back up my pirate romance, and before long Iโm asleep, dreaming of my own blond, curly-hair-chested pirate.