I woke up the next morning sore but smiling. I hadnโt
woken up in such a good mood in ages, and it took me a minute to remember why.
Bits and pieces from last night came back to me, slowly at first, then all at once, and I blushed when I remembered the filthy things Iโd said and done in this very room.
But I couldnโt stop smiling.
I need to make bucket lists more often.
I lingered in bed for a while, reluctant to break the dreamy haze enveloping me, but we were leaving today for New York and I needed to get up soon.
When I did, I found my travel clothes laid out for me on the dresser, and I realized the rest of the room was spotless. No wayward shoes littering the floor, no bikinis hanging over the chair or makeup scattered over the vanity.
Rhys mustโve finished packing for me. Iโd crashed so hard I hadnโt even heard him.
My suspicions were confirmed when I went down to the living room, where I found him waiting next to our luggage. Gone were the casual T-shirts and board shorts heโd worn the past few days; in their place was his usual all-black outfit.
I felt a small pang in my chest. I missed Vacation Rhys already.
โGood morning, Your Highness,โ he said without looking up from his phone. โBreakfast is ready in the kitchen. Our flight is at noon, so we should leave in the next forty-five minutes.โ
My smile faded.ย Your Highness.ย Not even aย princess.
Weโd agreed to keep what happened last night to last night, but I hadnโt expected such a one-eighty so soon. Rhys was almost colder now than when weโd first met.
โThank you.โ I was so caught off guard I couldnโt think of anything else to say. โFor packing and breakfast.โ
โYouโre welcome.โ
My good mood from earlier drained away, but I hid my disappointment as I ate breakfast alone while Rhys checked to make sure everything in the house looked okay before we left.
He saved the kitchen for last, maybe because I was in there.
โMr. Larsen.โ It didnโt seem right to call him Rhys, given the chill hanging between us.
โYes?โ He opened the now-empty fridge and gave it a cursory scan before closing the door.
โI have a proposition for you.โ
He tensed, and I couldnโt hold back a bitter smile.
โNot that kind of proposition,โ I said. โAnd before I say it, I want you to know, it has nothing to do withโฆrecent events.โ I hoped I wasnโt making a fool of myself, but if I was, so be it. If I wanted something, I needed to voice it. Otherwise, I had no one to blame except myself when I was wracked with regrets over what-ifs. โYouโre a good bodyguard, and Iโm already going through enough changes with Nikolaiโs abdication. I would like someone by my side who Iโm comfortable with during the transition.โ
Rhys was so still he resembled a statue.
โIf I put in the request, I think the palace would be amenable to extending your contract until Iโm more comfortable in my new role.โ I took a deep breath. โIt
would mean youโd have to move to Eldorra temporarily, and I understand if that would be too much. But I wanted to give you the option. In case you wanted to stay.โ
I hadnโt lied when Iโd said it had nothing to do with last night. The idea had been brewing for weeks, and Iโd kept putting it off. But we were getting down to the wire, and if I didnโt speak up now, it would never happen.
Rhys finally blinked. โWhen do you need an answer by?โ
I fought back another wave of disappointment. Of course he needed to think about it. It was a huge commitment. But still, Iโd thoughtโฆ
โWithin the next week, before your contract officially ends.โ
He nodded, his expression neutral. โIโll let you know my answer before the end of the week. Thank you for the opportunity.โ Rhys left the kitchen, and I stared at the spot where heโd been standing.
That was it.
No smile, no hint as to whether he was happy or surprised or uncomfortable. Justย Iโll let you know my answer before the end of the week,ย like we were nothing more than professional acquaintances.
I tried eating another bite of toast before I gave up and buried my face in my hands.
Bridget von Ascheberg, what have you done?
Rhys and I didnโt speak during our long car ride to the
airport or the flight itself. Things between us were so strained I almost wished last night hadnโt happened, but I couldnโt bring myself to regret it.
The aftermath wasnโt pretty, but the moment had been beautiful.
Bucket list number four.
Itโd been so much more than a bucket list item, but that would be my secret to keep.
โYou donโt have to, butโฆcan you join me tomorrow?โ I asked as Rhys set my suitcase down in my suite. Weโd landed in New York a few hours ago, and we were staying at The Plaza until I left for Eldorra in two days. Nikolai would announce his abdication tomorrow, and I had my press conference after that. The thought made me slightly sick to my stomach. โFor the speech.โ
For the first time that day, Rhysโs face softened. โOf course, princess.โ
It was funny how much Iโd hated the nickname at first, but now it made my heart flutter.
Later that night, I tried to sleep, but my mind raced with a million thoughts and worries. Costa Rica, Rhys, whether he would stay on as my bodyguard, the publicโs reaction to Nikolaiโs abdication and engagement to Sabrina, my grandfatherโs health, my debut as crown princess, my move back to Eldorraโฆ
I squeezed my eyes shut.ย Breathe. Just breathe.
Eventually, I fell into a restless sleep, plagued by nightmares of getting crushed beneath a giant crown in front of the palace while everyone pointed and laughed.
The next morning, I woke up earlier than planned to get ready for my press conference and cover the dark circles beneath my eyes with makeup. I skipped breakfast, not trusting myself to hold the food down, but when Rhys showed up at seven oโclock sharp as promised, he insisted on ordering eggs and a smoothie from room service. No coffee. He said it would help with my anxiety, and surprisingly, it did.
Nikolaiโs speech started at eight, and we watched in silence as my brotherโclad in his military dress uniform, his face taut but determinedโdelivered the words that would change Eldorran history forever.
โโฆI hereby announce that I am abdicating my title of Crown Prince of Eldorra and removing myself from the royal line of succession. This decision did not come easyโฆโ
The audienceโs gasps were audible even through the screen, but Nikolai forged on.
Most important decision of my lifeโฆ My love for the countryโฆ
Succeeded by my sister, Princess Bridgetโฆ
I sat stock-still the entire time. Iโd known the abdication was coming, but it was surreal to see and hear Nikolai announce it on-screen.
After he ended his speech, the camera switched to a visibly stunned news anchor, but Rhys turned off the TV before I heard what the anchor had to say.
โDo you need a moment?โ He radiated such natural confidence and authority it almost soothed frazzled nerves.
Almost.
I had my own press conference coming up soon, and I wanted to throw up.
Yes. Preferably a million moments.
โNo.โ I cleared my throat and repeated in a stronger voice, โNo. Letโs go.โ
I checked my hair and clothes one last time before we exited my suite. Everything a royal family member said and wore in public had hidden symbolism, and Iโd dressed for battle today in a sleek Chanel suit, heels, and a subtle ruby, gold, and diamond brooch that reflected Eldorraโs flag colors.
The message: in control and ready to take over. The reality: a complete mess.
As Rhys and I took the elevator down to the lobby, a certain numbness set in, making the world around me fuzzy.
Tenth floorโฆninth floorโฆeighth floorโฆ
My stomach sank further with each floor we passed.
When we reached the lobby, the elevator doors swished open, and I saw a thick crowd of reporters clustered around the hotel entrance, held back only by security. Their shouting reached a crescendo when they saw me, and everyone in the lobby turned to stare at the source of the commotion.
Me.
Iโd dealt with the press plenty of times in the past, but this was my first encounter with them as crown princess. It shouldnโt be any different, but it was.
Everything was different.
My breaths turned shallow. Pinpricks of darkness danced at the edge of vision, and my steps faltered.
โBreathe, princess,โ Rhys said quietly. Somehow, he always knew. โYou are the future queen. Donโt let them intimidate you.โ
Inhale. Exhale.
He was right. I couldnโt start my first day in my new role scared and timid. Even if all I wanted was to run to my suite and never come out again, I had responsibilities to fulfill.
I can do this.
I was the future Queen of Eldorra. It was time to act like
it.
I took a deep breath, straightened my shoulders, and
lifted my chin, ignoring the stares of the other hotel guests as I walked toward the exit and the beginning of my new life.