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Chapter no 23

An Offer From a Gentleman (Bridgertons, #3)

Lady Penwood appears to have left town. So does Lady Bridgerton. Interesting . . .

LADY WHISTLEDOWNโ€™S SOCIETY PAPERS, 18 JUNE 1817

Benedict decided he had never loved his mother more than he did at that very minute. He was trying not to grin, but it was exceedingly difficult with Lady Penwood gasping like a fish on land.

The magistrateโ€™s eyes bugged out. โ€œYouโ€™re not suggesting I arrest the

countess?โ€

โ€œNo, of course not,โ€ Violet demurred. โ€œSheโ€™d likely go free. The aristocracy rarely pays for its crimes. But,โ€ she added, tilting her head slightly to the side as she gave Lady Penwood a very pointed glance, โ€œif youย wereย to arrest her, it would be terribly embarrassing while she defended the charges.โ€

โ€œWhat are you trying to say?โ€ Lady Penwood asked through decidedly clenched teeth.

Violet turned to the magistrate. โ€œMight I have a few moments alone with Lady Penwood?โ€

โ€œOf course, my lady.โ€ He gave her a gruff nod, then barked, โ€œEveryone!

Out!โ€

โ€œNo, no,โ€ Violet said with a sweet smile as she pressed something that looked suspiciously like a pound note into his palm. โ€œMy family may stay.โ€

The magistrate blushed slightly, then grabbed the wardenโ€™s arm and yanked him out of the room.

โ€œThere now,โ€ Violet murmured. โ€œWhere were we?โ€

Benedict beamed with pride as he watched his mother march right up to Lady Penwood and stare her down. He stole a glance at Sophie. Her mouth was hanging open.

โ€œMy son is going to marry Sophie,โ€ Violet said, โ€œand you are going to tell anyone who will listen that she was the ward of your late husband.โ€

โ€œI will never lie for her,โ€ Lady Penwood shot back.

Violet shrugged. โ€œFine. Then you can expect my solicitors to begin looking for Sophieโ€™s dowry immediately. After all, Benedict will be entitled to it once he marries her.โ€

Benedict slipped his arm around Sophieโ€™s waist and gave her a light squeeze.

โ€œIf someone asks me,โ€ Lady Penwood ground out, โ€œI will confirm whatever story you bandy about. But do not expect me to go out of my way to help her.โ€

Violet pretended to mull that over, then said, โ€œExcellent. I do believe that will do nicely.โ€ She turned to her son. โ€œBenedict?โ€

He gave her a sharp nod.

His mother turned back to Lady Penwood. โ€œSophieโ€™s father was named Charles Beckett and he was a distant cousin of the earlโ€™s, no?โ€

Lady Penwood looked as if sheโ€™d swallowed a bad clam, but she nodded nonetheless.

Violet pointedly turned her back on the countess, and said, โ€œIโ€™m sure some members of theย tonย will consider her a bit shabby, since obviously nobody will be familiar with her family, but at least she will be respectable. After allโ€โ€”she turned back around and flashed a wide smile at Araminta

โ€”โ€œthere is that connection with the Penwoods.โ€

Araminta let out a strange, growling sound. It was all Benedict could do not to laugh.

โ€œOh, magistrate!โ€ Violet called out, and when he bustled back into the room, she smiled gamely at him and said, โ€œI believe my work here is done.โ€

He let out a sigh of relief, saying, โ€œThen I donโ€™t have to arrest anyone?โ€ โ€œIt seems not.โ€

He practically sagged against the wall.

โ€œWell, I am leaving!โ€ Lady Penwood announced, as if anyone might possibly miss her. She turned to her daughter with furious eyes. โ€œCome along, Posy.โ€

Benedict watched as the blood quite literally drained from Posyโ€™s face. But before he could intervene, Sophie jumped forward, blurting out, โ€œLady Bridgerton!โ€ just as Araminta roared,ย โ€œNow!โ€

โ€œYes, dear?โ€

Sophie grabbed Violetโ€™s arm and pulled her close enough to whisper something in her ear.

โ€œQuite right,โ€ Violet said. She turned to Posy. โ€œMiss Gunningworth?โ€ โ€œActually, itโ€™s Miss Reiling,โ€ Posy corrected. โ€œThe earl never adopted

me.โ€

โ€œOf course. Miss Reiling. How old are you?โ€ โ€œOne-and-twenty, my lady.โ€

โ€œWell, thatโ€™s certainly old enough to make your own decisions. Would you like to come to my home for a visit?โ€

โ€œOh,ย yes!โ€

โ€œPosy, you mayย notย go live with the Bridgertons!โ€ Araminta ordered. Violet ignored her completely as she said to Posy, โ€œI believe I will quit

London early this season. Would you care to join us for an extended stay in Kent?โ€

Posy nodded quickly. โ€œI would be much obliged.โ€ โ€œThat settles it, then.โ€

โ€œThat does not settle it,โ€ Araminta snapped. โ€œShe is my daughter, and

โ€”โ€

โ€œBenedict,โ€ Lady Bridgerton said in a rather bored voice, โ€œwhat was the

name of my solicitor?โ€

โ€œGo!โ€ Araminta spat at Posy. โ€œAnd donโ€™t ever darken my door again.โ€

For the first time that afternoon, Posy began to look a little scared. It didnโ€™t help when her mother stalked right up to her and hissed straight in her face, โ€œIf you go with them now, you are dead to me. Do you understand?ย Dead!โ€

Posy threw a panicked look at Violet, who immediately stepped forward and linked their arms together.

โ€œItโ€™s all right, Posy,โ€ Violet said softly. โ€œYou may stay with us as long as you wish.โ€

Sophie stepped forward and slid her arm through Posyโ€™s free one. โ€œNow we will be sisters truly,โ€ she said, leaning forward and giving her a kiss on the cheek.

โ€œOh, Sophie,โ€ Posy cried out, a well of tears bursting forth. โ€œIโ€™m so sorry! I never stood up for you. I should have said something. I should have done something, butโ€”โ€

Sophie shook her head. โ€œYou were young. I was young. And I know better than anyone how difficult it is to defyย her.โ€ She threw a scathing glare at Araminta.

โ€œDonโ€™t you speak to me that way,โ€ Araminta seethed, raising her hand as if to strike.

โ€œAh ah ah!โ€ Violet cut in. โ€œThe solicitors, Lady Penwood. Donโ€™t forget the solicitors.โ€

Araminta dropped her hand, but she looked as if she might spontaneously burst into flame at any moment.

โ€œBenedict?โ€ Violet called out. โ€œHow quickly could we be at the solicitorsโ€™ office?โ€

Grinning inside, he gave his chin a thoughtful stroke. โ€œTheyโ€™re not too terribly far away. Twenty minutes? Thirty if the roads are full.โ€

Araminta shook with rage as she directed her words at Violet. โ€œTake her then. Sheโ€™s never been anything to me but a disappointment. And you can expect to be stuck with her until your dying day, as no one is likely to offer for her. I have to bribe men just to ask her to dance.โ€

And then the strangest thing occurred. Sophie began to shake. Her skin turned red, her teeth clenched, and the most amazing roar burst forth from her mouth. And before anyone could even think to intervene, she had planted her fist squarely into Aramintaโ€™s left eye and sent the older woman sprawling.

Benedict had thought that nothing could have surprised him more than his motherโ€™s heretofore undetected Machiavellian streak.

He was wrong.

โ€œThat,โ€ Sophie hissed, โ€œisย notย for stealing my dowry. Itโ€™s not for all the times you tried to boot me out of my house before my father died. And itโ€™s not even for turning me into your personal slave.โ€

โ€œEr, Sophie,โ€ Benedict said mildly, โ€œwhat, then, is it for?โ€

Sophieโ€™s eyes never wavered off of Aramintaโ€™s face as she said, โ€œThatย was for not loving your daughters equally.โ€

Posy began to bawl.

โ€œThereโ€™s a special place in hell for mothers like you,โ€ Sophie said, her voice dangerously low.

โ€œYou know,โ€ the magistrate squeaked, โ€œwe really do need to clear this cell out for the next occupant.โ€

โ€œHeโ€™s right,โ€ Violet said quickly, stepping in front of Sophie before she decided to start kicking Araminta. She turned to Posy. โ€œHave you any belongings you wish to retrieve?โ€

Posy shook her head.

Violetโ€™s eyes turned sad as she gave Posyโ€™s hand a little squeeze. โ€œWe shall make new memories for you, my dear.โ€

Araminta rose to her feet, gave Posy one last horrific glare, then stalked away.

โ€œWell,โ€ Violet declared, planting her hands on her hips. โ€œI thought she would never leave.โ€

Benedict disengaged his arm from Sophieโ€™s waist with a murmur of, โ€œDonโ€™t move a muscle,โ€ then walked quickly to his motherโ€™s side.

โ€œHave I told you lately,โ€ he whispered in her ear, โ€œhow much I love you?โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ she said with a jaunty smile, โ€œbut I know, anyway.โ€ โ€œHave I mentioned that youโ€™re the best of mothers?โ€ โ€œNo, but I know that, too.โ€

โ€œGood.โ€ He leaned down and dropped a kiss on her cheek. โ€œThank you.

Itโ€™s a privilege to be your son.โ€

His mother, who had held her own throughout the day, and indeed proven herself the most hardheaded and quick-witted of them all, burst into tears.

โ€œWhat did you say to her?โ€ Sophie demanded.

โ€œItโ€™s all right,โ€ Violet said, sniffling mightily. โ€œItโ€™s . . .โ€ She threw her arms around Benedict. โ€œI love you, too!โ€

Posy turned to Sophie and said, โ€œThis is a nice family.โ€ Sophie turned to Posy and said, โ€œI know.โ€

One hour later Sophie was in Benedictโ€™s sitting room, perched on the very same sofa on which she had lost her innocence just a few weeks earlier. Lady Bridgerton had questioned the wisdom (and propriety) of Sophieโ€™s going to Benedictโ€™s home by herself, but he had given her such a look that she had quickly backed down, saying only, โ€œJust have her home by seven.โ€

Which gave them one hour together.

โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ Sophie blurted out, the instant her bottom touched the sofa. For some reason they hadnโ€™t said anything during the carriage ride home. Theyโ€™d held hands, and Benedict had brought her fingers to his lips, but they hadnโ€™t said anything.

Sophie had been relieved. She hadnโ€™t been ready for words. It had been easy at the jail, with all the commotion and so many people, but now that they were alone . . .

She didnโ€™t know what to say. Except, she supposed, โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€

โ€œNo, Iโ€™m sorry,โ€ Benedict replied, sitting beside her and taking her hands in his.

โ€œNo, Iโ€™mโ€”โ€ She suddenly smiled. โ€œThis is very silly.โ€ โ€œI love you,โ€ he said.

Her lips parted.

โ€œI want to marry you,โ€ he said. She stopped breathing.

โ€œAnd I donโ€™t care about your parents or my motherโ€™s bargain with Lady Penwood to make you respectable.โ€ He stared down at her, his dark eyes meltingly in love. โ€œI would have married you no matter what.โ€

Sophie blinked. The tears in her eyes were growing fat and hot, and she had a sneaking suspicion that she was about to make a fool of herself by blubbering all over him. She managed to say his name, then found herself completely lost from there.

Benedict squeezed her hands. โ€œWe couldnโ€™t have lived in London, I know, but we donโ€™t need to live in London. When I thought about what it was in life I really neededโ€”not what I wanted, but what I neededโ€”the only thing that kept coming up was you.โ€

โ€œIโ€”โ€

โ€œNo, let me finish,โ€ he said, his voice suspiciously hoarse. โ€œI shouldnโ€™t have asked you to be my mistress. It wasnโ€™t right of me.โ€

โ€œBenedict,โ€ she said softly, โ€œwhat else would you have done? You thought me a servant. In a perfect world we could have married, but this isnโ€™t a perfect world. Men like you donโ€™t marryโ€”โ€

โ€œFine. I wasnโ€™t wrong to ask, then.โ€ He tried to smile. It came out lopsided. โ€œI would have been a fool not to ask. I wanted you so badly, and I think I already loved you, andโ€”โ€

โ€œBenedict, you donโ€™t have toโ€”โ€

โ€œExplain? Yes, I do. I should never have pressed the issue once you refused my offer. It was unfair of me to ask, especially when we both knew that I would eventually be expected to marry. I would die before sharing you. How could I ask you to do the same?โ€

She reached out and brushed something off of his cheek. Jesus, was he crying? He couldnโ€™t remember the last time heโ€™d cried. When his father had died, perhaps? Even then, his tears had fallen in private.

โ€œThere are so many reasons I love you,โ€ he said, each word emerging with careful precision. He knew that he had won her. She wasnโ€™t going to run away; sheย wouldย be his wife. But he still wanted this to be perfect. A man only got one shot at declaring himself to his true love; he didnโ€™t want to muck it up completely.

โ€œBut one of the things I love best,โ€ he continued, โ€œis the fact that you know yourself. You know who you are, and what you value. You have principles, Sophie, and you stick by them.โ€ He took her hand and brought it to his lips. โ€œThat is so rare.โ€

Her eyes were filling with tears, and all he wanted to do was hold her, but he knew he had to finish. So many words had been welling up inside of him, and they all had to be said.

โ€œAnd,โ€ he said, his voice dropping in volume, โ€œyou took the time to seeย me. To know me. Benedict. Not Mr. Bridgerton, not โ€˜Number Two.โ€™ Benedict.โ€

She touched his cheek. โ€œYouโ€™re the finest person I know. I adore your family, but I loveย you.โ€

He crushed her to him. He couldnโ€™t help it. He had to feel her in his arms, to reassure himself that she was there and that she would always be there. With him, by his side, until death did they part. It was strange, but he was driven by the oddest compulsion to hold her . . . just hold her.

He wanted her, of course. He always wanted her. But more than that, he wanted to hold her. To smell her, to feel her.

He was, he realized, comforted by her presence. They didnโ€™t need to talk. They didnโ€™t even need to touch (although he wasnโ€™t about to let go just then). Simply put, he was a happier manโ€”and quite possibly a better man

โ€”when she was near.

He buried his face in her hair, inhaling her scent, smelling . . .

Smelling . . .

He drew back. โ€œWould you care for a bath?โ€

Her face turned an instant scarlet. โ€œOh, no,โ€ she moaned, the words muffled into the hand sheโ€™d clapped over her mouth. โ€œIt was so filthy in jail, and I was forced to sleep on the ground, andโ€”โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t tell me any more,โ€ he said. โ€œButโ€”โ€

โ€œPlease.โ€ย If he heard more he might have to kill someone. As long as there had been no permanent damage, he didnโ€™t want to know the details.

โ€œI think,โ€ he said, the first hint of a smile tugging at the left corner of his mouth, โ€œthat you should take a bath.โ€

โ€œRight.โ€ She nodded as she rose to her feet. โ€œIโ€™ll go straight to your motherโ€™sโ€”โ€

โ€œHere.โ€

โ€œHere?โ€

The smile spread to the right corner of his mouth. โ€œHere.โ€ โ€œBut we told your motherโ€”โ€

โ€œThat youโ€™d be home by nine.โ€ โ€œI think she said seven.โ€

โ€œDid she? Funny, I heard nine.โ€ โ€œBenedict . . .โ€

He took her hand and pulled her toward the door. โ€œSeven sounds an

awfulย lot like nine.โ€ โ€œBenedict . . .โ€

โ€œActually, it sounds even more like eleven.โ€ โ€œBenedict!โ€

He deposited her right by the door. โ€œStay here.โ€ โ€œI beg your pardon?โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t move a muscle,โ€ he said, touching his fingertip to her nose.

Sophie watched helplessly as he slipped out into the hall, only to return two minutes later. โ€œWhere did you go?โ€ she asked.

โ€œTo order a bath.โ€ โ€œButโ€”โ€

His eyes grew very, very wicked. โ€œFor two.โ€ She gulped.

He leaned forward. โ€œThey happened to have water heating already.โ€

โ€œThey did?โ€

He nodded. โ€œItโ€™ll only take a few minutes to fill the tub.โ€ She glanced toward the front door. โ€œItโ€™s nearly seven.โ€ โ€œBut Iโ€™m allowed to keep you until twelve.โ€

โ€œBenedict!โ€

He pulled her close. โ€œYou want to stay.โ€ โ€œI never said that.โ€

โ€œYou donโ€™t have to. If you really disagreed with me, youโ€™d have something more to say than, โ€˜Benedictโ€™!โ€

She had to smile; he didย thatย good an imitation of her voice. His mouth curved into a devilish grin. โ€œAm I wrong?โ€

She looked away, but she knew her lips were twitching.

โ€œI thought not,โ€ he murmured. He motioned with his head toward the stairs. โ€œCome with me.โ€

She went.

To Sophieโ€™s great surprise, Benedict vacated the room while she undressed for her bath. She held her breath as she pulled her dress over her head. He was right; she did smell rank.

The maid who had drawn the bath had scented it with oil and a sudsy soap that left bubbles floating on the surface. Once Sophie had shed all of her clothing, she dipped her toe into the steaming water. The rest of her soon followed.

Heaven. It was hard to believe it had only been two days since sheโ€™d had a bath. One night in jail made it feel more like a year.

Sophie tried to clear her mind and enjoy the hedonism of the moment, but it was difficult to enjoy with the anticipation growing within her veins. She knew when sheโ€™d decided to stay that Benedict planned on joining her. She could have refused; for all his wheedling and cajoling, he would have taken her back home to his motherโ€™s.

But she had decided to stay. Somewhere between the sitting-room doorway and the base of the stairs sheโ€™d realized sheย wantedย to stay. It had been such a long road to this moment, and she wasnโ€™t quite ready to relinquish him, even if it would only be until the following morning, when he was sure to come by his motherโ€™s for breakfast.

He would be here soon. And when he was . . .

She shivered. Even in the steaming hot tub, she shivered. And then, as she was sinking deeper into the water, allowing it to rise above her shoulders and neck, even right up to her nose, she heard the click of the door opening.

Benedict. He was wearing a dark green dressing gown, tied with a sash at his waist. His feet were bare, as were his legs from the knees down.

โ€œI hope you donโ€™t mind if I have this destroyed,โ€ he said, glancing down at her dress.

She smiled at him and shook her head. It wasnโ€™t what sheโ€™d been expecting him to say, and she knew that heโ€™d done it to set her at ease.

โ€œIโ€™ll send someone to fetch you another,โ€ he said.

โ€œThank you.โ€ She shifted slightly in the water to make room for him, but he surprised her by walking to her end of the tub.

โ€œLean forward,โ€ he murmured.

She did, and sighed with pleasure as he began to wash her back. โ€œIโ€™ve dreamed of doing this for years.โ€

โ€œYears?โ€ she asked, amused.

โ€œMmm-hmm. I hadย manyย dreams about you after the masquerade.โ€

Sophie was glad she was leaning forward, her forehead resting on her bent knees, because she blushed.

โ€œDunk your head so I can wash your hair,โ€ he ordered. She slid under the water, then quickly came back up.

Benedict rubbed the bar of soap in his hands and then began to work the lather through her hair. โ€œIt was longer before,โ€ he commented.

โ€œI had to cut it,โ€ she said. โ€œI sold it to a wigmaker.โ€

She wasnโ€™t sure, but she thought she might have heard him growl. โ€œIt used to be much shorter,โ€ she added.

โ€œReady to rinse.โ€

She dunked back in the tub, swishing her head this way and that under the water before coming back up for air.

Benedict cupped his hands and filled them with water. โ€œYouโ€™ve still got some in the back,โ€ he said, letting the water pour over her hair.

Sophie let him repeat that process a few times, then finally asked, โ€œArenโ€™t you coming in?โ€ It was dreadfully brazen of her, and she knew she must be blushing like a raspberry, but she simply had to know.

He shook his head. โ€œIโ€™d planned to, but this is too much fun.โ€ โ€œWashing me?โ€ she asked doubtfully.

One corner of his mouth quirked into the faintest of half smiles. โ€œIโ€™m rather looking forward to drying you off as well.โ€ He reached down and picked up a large white towel. โ€œUp you go.โ€

Sophie chewed on her lower lip in indecision. She had, of course, already been as close to him as two people could be, but she wasnโ€™t so sophisticated that she could rise naked from the tub without a large degree of embarrassment.

Benedict smiled faintly as he stood and unfolded the towel. Holding it wide, he averted his gaze and said, โ€œIโ€™ll have you all wrapped up before I can see a thing.โ€

Sophie took a deep breath and stood, somehow feeling that that one action might mark the beginning of the rest of her life.

Benedict gently wrapped the towel around her, his hands bringing the corners to her face when he was done. He dabbed at her cheeks, where light droplets of water were still clinging to her skin, then leaned down and kissed her nose. โ€œIโ€™m glad youโ€™re here,โ€ he murmured.

โ€œIโ€™m glad, too.โ€

He touched her chin. His eyes never left hers, and she almost felt as if heโ€™d touched those as well. And then, with the softest, most tender caress imaginable, he kissed her. Sophie didnโ€™t just feel loved; she felt revered.

โ€œI should wait until Monday,โ€ he said, โ€œbut I donโ€™t want to.โ€ โ€œI donโ€™t want you to wait,โ€ she whispered.

He kissed her again, this time with a bit more urgency. โ€œYouโ€™re so beautiful,โ€ he murmured. โ€œEverything I ever dreamed of.โ€

His lips found her cheek, her chin, her neck, and every kiss, every nibble robbed her of balance and breath. She was sure her legs would give out, sure her strength would fail her under his tender onslaught, and just when she was convinced sheโ€™d crumple to the floor, he scooped her into his arms and carried her to the bed.

โ€œIn my heart,โ€ he vowed, settling her against the quilts and pillows, โ€œyou are my wife.โ€

Sophieโ€™s breath caught.

โ€œAfter our wedding it will be legal,โ€ he said, stretching out alongside her, โ€œblessed by God and country, but right nowโ€”โ€ His voice grew hoarse

as he propped himself up on one elbow so that he could gaze into her eyes. โ€œRight now it isย true.โ€

Sophie reached up and touched his face. โ€œI love you,โ€ she whispered. โ€œI have always loved you. I think I loved you before I even knew you.โ€

He leaned down to kiss her anew, but she stopped him with a breathy, โ€œNo, wait.โ€

He paused, mere inches from her lips.

โ€œAt the masquerade,โ€ she said, her voice uncharacteristically shaky, โ€œeven before I saw you, Iย feltย you. Anticipation. Magic. There was something in the air. And when I turned, and you were there, it was as if youโ€™d been waiting for me, and I knew that you were the reason Iโ€™d stolen into the ball.โ€

Something wet hit her cheek. A single tear, fallen from his eye.

โ€œYou are the reason I exist,โ€ she said softly, โ€œthe very reason I was born.โ€

He opened his mouth, and for a moment she was certain he would say something, but the only sound that emerged was a rough, halting noise, and she realized that he was overcome, that he could not speak.

She was undone.

Benedict kissed her again, trying to show in deeds what he could not say in words. He hadnโ€™t thought he could love her any more than he did just five seconds earlier, but when sheโ€™d said . . . when sheโ€™d told him . . .

His heart had grown, and heโ€™d thought it might burst.

He loved her. Suddenly the world was a very simple place. He loved her, and that was all that mattered.

His robe and her towel melted away, and when they were skin to skin he worshipped her with his hands and lips. He wanted her to realize the extent of his need for her, and he wanted her to know the same desire.

โ€œOh, Sophie,โ€ he groaned, her name the only word he could manage to say. โ€œSophie, Sophie, Sophie.โ€

She smiled up at him, and he was struck by the most remarkable desire to laugh. He was happy, he realized. So damned happy.

And it felt good.

He positioned himself over her, ready to enter her, ready to make her his. This was different from the last time, when theyโ€™d both been swept

away by emotion. This time they had been deliberate. They had chosen more than passion; they had chosen each other.

โ€œYouโ€™re mine,โ€ he said, his eyes never leaving hers as he slid inside. โ€œYouโ€™re mine.โ€

And much later, when they were exhausted and spent, lying in each otherโ€™s arms, he brought his lips to her ear and whispered, โ€œAnd Iโ€™m yours.โ€

Several hours later, Sophie yawned and blinked herself awake, wondering why she felt so lovely and warm, andโ€”

โ€œBenedict!โ€ she gasped. โ€œWhat time is it?โ€

He didnโ€™t respond, so she clutched at his shoulder and shook hard. โ€œBenedict! Benedict!โ€

He grunted as he rolled over. โ€œIโ€™m sleeping.โ€ โ€œWhat time is it?โ€

He buried his face in the pillow. โ€œHavenโ€™t the foggiest.โ€ โ€œIโ€™m supposed to be at your motherโ€™s by seven.โ€ โ€œEleven,โ€ he mumbled.

โ€œSeven!โ€

He opened one eye. It looked like it took a great deal of effort. โ€œYou knew you werenโ€™t going to make it back by seven when you decided to take a bath.โ€

โ€œI know, but I didnโ€™t think Iโ€™d be much past nine.โ€

Benedict blinked a few times as he looked around the room. โ€œI donโ€™t think youโ€™re going to make itโ€”โ€

But sheโ€™d already caught sight of the mantel clock and was presently choking frantically.

โ€œAre you all right?โ€ he inquired. โ€œItโ€™s three in the morning!โ€

He smiled. โ€œYou might as well spend the night, then.โ€ โ€œBenedict!โ€

โ€œYou wouldnโ€™t want to put out any of the servants, would you? Theyโ€™re all quite asleep, Iโ€™m sure.โ€

โ€œBut Iโ€”โ€

โ€œHave mercy, woman,โ€ he finally declared. โ€œIโ€™m marrying you next week.โ€

That got her attention. โ€œNext week?โ€ she squeaked.

He tried to assume a serious mien. โ€œItโ€™s best to take care of these things quickly.โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€ he echoed. โ€œYes, why?โ€

โ€œEr, ah, stemming gossip and all that.โ€

Her lips parted and her eyes grew round. โ€œDo you think Lady Whistledown will write about me?โ€

โ€œGod, I hope not,โ€ he muttered. Her face fell.

โ€œWell, I suppose sheย might. Why on earth would you want her to?โ€ โ€œIโ€™ve been reading her column for years. I always dreamed of seeing my

name there.โ€

He shook his head. โ€œYou have very strange dreams.โ€ โ€œBenedict!โ€

โ€œVery well, yes, I imagine Lady Whistledown will report our marriage, if not before the ceremony, then certainly very quickly after the fact. Sheโ€™s diabolical that way.โ€

โ€œI wish I knew who she was.โ€ โ€œYou and half of London.โ€

โ€œMe andย allย of London, I should think.โ€ She sighed, then said, not very convincingly, โ€œI really should go. Your mother is surely worried about me.โ€

He shrugged. โ€œShe knows where you are.โ€ โ€œBut sheโ€™ll think less of me.โ€

โ€œI doubt it. Sheโ€™ll give you a bit of latitude, Iโ€™m sure, considering weโ€™re to be married in three days.โ€

โ€œThree days?โ€ she yelped. โ€œI thought you said next week.โ€ โ€œThree daysย isย next week.โ€

Sophie frowned. โ€œOh. Youโ€™re right. Monday, then?โ€ He nodded, looking very satisfied.

โ€œImagine that,โ€ she said. โ€œIโ€™ll be inย Whistledown.โ€

He propped himself up on one elbow, eyeing her suspiciously. โ€œAre you looking forward to marrying me,โ€ he asked in an amused voice, โ€œor is it merely theย Whistledownย mention that has you so excited?โ€

She gave him a playful swat on the shoulder.

โ€œActually,โ€ he said thoughtfully, โ€œyouโ€™ve already been inย Whistledown.โ€ โ€œI have? When?โ€

โ€œAfter the masquerade. Lady Whistledown remarked that Iโ€™d been rather taken with a mystery woman in silver. Try as she might, she couldnโ€™t deduce your identity.โ€ He grinned. โ€œIt very well may be the only secret in London sheย hasnโ€™tย uncovered.โ€

Sophieโ€™s face went instantly serious and she scooted a foot or so away from him on the bed. โ€œOh, Benedict. I have to . . . I want to . . . That is to say . . .โ€ She stopped, looking away for a few seconds before turning back. โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€

He considered yanking her back into his arms, but she looked so damned earnest he had no choice but to take her seriously. โ€œWhat for?โ€

โ€œFor not telling you who I was. It was wrong of me.โ€ She bit her lip. โ€œWell, notย wrongย precisely.โ€

He drew back slightly. โ€œIf it wasnโ€™t wrong, then what was it?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t know. I canโ€™t explain exactly why I did what I did, but it just . .

.โ€ She chewed on her lips some more. He started to think that she might do herself permanent harm.

She sighed. โ€œI didnโ€™t tell you right away because it didnโ€™t seem to make any sense to do so. I was so sure weโ€™d part ways just as soon as we left the Cavenders. But then you grew ill, and I had to care for you, and you didnโ€™t recognize me, and . . .โ€

He lifted a finger to her lips. โ€œIt doesnโ€™t matter.โ€

Her brows rose. โ€œIt seemed to matter a great deal the other night.โ€

He didnโ€™t know why, but he just didnโ€™t want to get into a serious discussion at that moment. โ€œA lot has changed since then.โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t you want to know why I didnโ€™t tell you who I was?โ€ He touched her cheeks. โ€œI know who you are.โ€

She chewed on her lip.

โ€œAnd do you want to hear the funniest part?โ€ he continued. โ€œDo you know one of the reasons I was so hesitant to give my heart completely to you? Iโ€™d been saving a piece of it for the lady from the masquerade, always hoping that one day Iโ€™d find her.โ€

โ€œOh, Benedict,โ€ she sighed, thrilled by his words, and at the same time miserable that she had hurt him so.

โ€œDeciding to marry you meant I had to abandon my dream of marrying

her,โ€ he said quietly. โ€œIronic, isnโ€™t it?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sorry I hurt you by not revealing my identity,โ€ she said, not quite looking at his face, โ€œbut Iโ€™m not sure that Iโ€™m sorry I did it. Does that make any sense?โ€

He didnโ€™t say anything.

โ€œI think I would do the same thing again.โ€

He still didnโ€™t say anything. Sophie started to feel very uneasy inside. โ€œIt just seemed like the right thing to do at the time,โ€ she persisted.

โ€œTelling you that Iโ€™d been at the masquerade would have served no purpose.โ€

โ€œI would have known the truth,โ€ he said softly.

โ€œYes, and what would you have done with that truth?โ€ She sat up, pulling the covers until they were tucked under her arms. โ€œYou would have wanted your mystery woman to be your mistress, just as you wanted the housemaid to be your mistress.โ€

He said nothing, just stared at her face.

โ€œI guess what Iโ€™m saying,โ€ Sophie said quickly, โ€œis that if Iโ€™d known at the beginning what I know now, I would have said something. But I didnโ€™t know, and I thought Iโ€™d just be positioning myself for heartbreak, andโ€”โ€ She choked on her final words, frantically searching his face for some kind of clue to his feelings. โ€œPleaseย say something.โ€

โ€œI love you,โ€ he said. It was all she needed.

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