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โ€ŒChapter no 10

Siege and Storm (The Shadow and Bone Trilogy, #2) by Leigh Bardugo

Me didnโ€™t leaveย for Os Alta right away, but spent the next three days transporting shipments of goods across the Fold. We operated out of what was left of the military encampment at Kribirsk. Most of the troops had been pulled back when the Fold started expanding. A new watchtower had been erected to monitor the black shores of the Unsea, and only a skeleton crew stayed on to operate the drydocks.

Not a single Grisha remained at the encampment. After the Darklingโ€™s attempted coup and the destruction of Novokribirsk, a wave of anti-Grisha sentiment had swept through Ravka and the ranks of the First Army. I wasnโ€™t surprised. An entire town was gone, its people food for monsters. Ravka wouldnโ€™t soon forget. Neither could I.

Some Grisha had fled to Os Alta to seek the protection of the King. Others had gone into hiding. Nikolai suspected that most of them had sought out the Darkling and defected to his side. But with the help of Nikolaiโ€™s rogue Squallers, we managed two trips across the Fold on the first day, three on the second, and four on the last. Sandskiffs journeyed to West Ravka empty and returned with huge cargos of Zemeni rifles, crates full of ammunition, parts for repeating guns similar to those Nikolai had used aboard theย Hummingbird, and a few tons of sugar andย jurdaโ€”all courtesy of Sturmhondโ€™s smuggling.

โ€œBribes,โ€ Mal said as we watched giddy soldiers tear into a shipment being unloaded on the dock, hooting and marveling over the glittering array of weaponry.

โ€œGifts,โ€ Nikolai corrected. โ€œYouโ€™ll find the bullets work, regardless of my motives.โ€ He turned to me. โ€œI think we can fit in one more trip today. Game?โ€

I wasnโ€™t, but I nodded.

He smiled and clapped me on the back. โ€œIโ€™ll give the orders.โ€

I could feel Mal watching me as I turned to look into the shifting darkness of the Fold. There hadnโ€™t been a recurrence of the incident aboard theย Hummingbird. Whatever Iโ€™d seen that dayโ€”vision, hallucination, I couldnโ€™t name itโ€”it hadnโ€™t happened again. Still, I spent each moment on the Unsea alert and wary, trying to hide just how frightened I really was.

Nikolai wanted to use the crossings to hunt volcra, but I refused. I told him that I still felt weak and that I wasnโ€™t sure enough about my power to guarantee our safety. My fear was real, but the rest was a lie. My power was stronger than ever. It flowed from me in pure and vibrant waves, radiant with the strength of the stag and the scales. But I couldnโ€™t bear the thought of hearing those screams again. I kept the light in a wide, glowing dome around the skiffs, and though the volcra shrieked and beat their wings, they kept their distance.

Mal accompanied us on all the crossings, staying close by my side, rifle at the ready. I knew he sensed my anxiousness, but he didnโ€™t press me for an explanation. In fact, he hadnโ€™t said much at all since our argument in the tent. I was afraid that when he did start talking, I wouldnโ€™t like what he had to say. I hadnโ€™t changed my mind about returning to Os Alta, but I was worried that he might.

The morning we decamped for the capital, I searched the crowd for him, terrified that he might just decide not to show up. I said a little prayer of thanks when I glimpsed him, straight-backed and silent in his saddle, waiting to join the column of riders.

We set out before dawn, a twisting procession of horses and wagons that wended its way out of camp on the broad road known as the Vy. Nikolai had obtained a plain blueย keftaย for me, but it was tucked away in the luggage. Until he had more of his own men in place to guard me, I was just another soldier in the princeโ€™s retinue.

As the sun crested the horizon, I felt a small flutter of hope. The idea of trying to take the Darklingโ€™s place, of attempting to reassemble the Grisha and command the Second Army, still felt impossibly daunting. But at least I was doing something instead of just fleeing from the Darkling or waiting for him to snatch me up. I had two of Morozovaโ€™s amplifiers, and I was headed to a place where I might find answers that would lead me to the third. Mal was unhappy, but watching the morning light break over the treetops, I felt sure I could bring him around.

My mood didnโ€™t survive the journey through Kribirsk. Weโ€™d passed through the ramshackle port town after the crash on the lake, but Iโ€™d been

too shaken and distracted to really take note of the way the place had changed. This time, it was unavoidable.

Though Kribirsk had never had much beauty to recommend it, its sidewalks had teemed with travelers and merchants, Kingโ€™s men and dockworkers. Its bustling streets had been lined with busy stores ready to outfit expeditions into the Fold, along with bars and brothels that catered to the soldiers at the encampment. But these streets were quiet and nearly empty. Most of the inns and shops had been boarded up.

The real revelation came when we reached the church. I remembered it as a tidy building capped by bright blue domes. Now the whitewashed walls were covered in writing, row after row of names written in red paint that had dried to the color of blood. The steps were littered with heaps of withered flowers, small painted icons, the melted stubs of prayer candles. I saw bottles ofย kvas, piles of candy, the abandoned body of a childโ€™s doll. Gifts for the dead.

I scanned the names:

Stepan Ruschkin, 57

Anya Sirenka, 13

Mikah Lasky, 45

Rebeka Lasky, 44

Petyr Ozerov, 22

Marina Koska, 19

Valentin Yomki, 72 Sasha Penkin, 8 months

They went on and on. My fingers tightened on the reins as a cold fist closed over my heart. Memories came back to me unbidden: a mother running with a child in her arms, a man stumbling as the darkness caught him, his mouth open in a scream, an old woman, confused and frightened, swallowed by the panicked crowd. Iโ€™d seen it all. Iโ€™d made it possible.

These were the people of Novokribirsk, the city that had once stood directly across from Kribirsk on the other side of the Fold. A sister city full of relatives, friends, business partners. People who had worked the docks and manned the skiffs, some who must have survived multiple crossings. Theyโ€™d lived on the edge of a horror, thinking they were safe in their own homes, walking the streets of their little port town. And now they were all gone because Iโ€™d failed to stop the Darkling.

Mal brought his horse up beside mine.

โ€œAlina,โ€ he said softly. โ€œCome away.โ€

I shook my head. I wanted to remember.ย Tasha Stol, Andrei Bazin, Shura Rychenko.ย As many as I could. Theyโ€™d been murdered by the Darkling. Did they haunt his sleep the way they haunted mine?

โ€œWe have to stop him, Mal,โ€ I said hoarsely. โ€œWe have to find a way.โ€

I donโ€™t know what I hoped he would say, but he remained silent. I wasnโ€™t sure Mal wanted to make me any more promises.

Eventually, he rode on, but I forced myself to read every single name, and only then did I turn to go, guiding my horse back into the deserted street.

A bit of life seemed to return to Kribirsk as we moved farther away from the Fold. A few shops were open, and there were still merchants hawking their wares on the stretch of the Vy known as Peddlersโ€™ Way. Rickety tables lined the road, their surfaces covered in brightly colored cloth and spread with a jumble of merchandise: boots and prayer shawls, wooden toys, shoddy knives in hand-tooled sheaths. Many of the tables were littered with what looked like bits of rock and chicken bones.

โ€œProvinโ€™ye osti!โ€ the peddlers shouted. โ€œAutchenโ€™ye osti!โ€ Real bone.

Genuine bone.

As I leaned over my horseโ€™s head to get a better look, an old man called out, โ€œAlina!โ€

I looked up in surprise. Did he know me?

Nikolai was suddenly beside me. He nudged his horse close to mine and snatched my reins, giving them a hard yank to draw me away from the table.

โ€œNet, spasibo,โ€ he said to the old man.

โ€œAlina!โ€ the peddler cried. โ€œAutchenโ€™yeย Alina!โ€

โ€œWait,โ€ I said, twisting in my saddle, trying to get a better look at the old manโ€™s face. He was tidying the display on his table. Without the possibility of a sale, he seemed to have lost all interest in us.

โ€œWait,โ€ I insisted. โ€œHe knew me.โ€ โ€œNo he didnโ€™t.โ€

โ€œHe knew my name,โ€ I said, angrily grabbing the reins back from him.

โ€œHe was trying to sell you relics. Finger bones. Genuine Sankta Alina.โ€

I froze, a deep chill stealing over me. My oblivious horse kept steadily on.

โ€œGenuine Alina,โ€ I repeated numbly.

Nikolai shifted uneasily. โ€œThere are rumors that you died on the Fold. People have been selling off parts of you all over Ravka and West Ravka for months. Youโ€™re quite the good luck charm.โ€

โ€œThose are supposed to beย my fingers?โ€ โ€œKnuckles, toes, fragments of rib.โ€

I felt sick. I looked around, hoping to spot Mal, needing to see something familiar.

โ€œOf course,โ€ Nikolai continued, โ€œif half of those were really your toes, youโ€™d have about a hundred feet. But superstition is a powerful thing.โ€

โ€œSo is faith,โ€ said a voice behind me, and when I turned, I was surprised to see Tolya there, mounted on a huge black warhorse, his broad face solemn.

It was all too much. The optimism Iโ€™d felt only an hour ago had vanished. It suddenly seemed as if the sky were pressing down on me, closing in like a trap. I kicked my horse into a canter. Iโ€™d always been a clumsy rider, but I held on tight and did not stop until Kribirsk was far behind me and I no longer heard the rattling of bones.

* * *

THAT NIGHT MEย stayed at an inn in the little village of Vernost, where we met up with a heavily armed group of soldiers from the First Army. I soon learned that many of them were from the Twenty-Second, the regiment Nikolai had served with and eventually helped lead in the northern campaign. Apparently, the prince wanted to be surrounded by friends when he entered Os Alta. I couldnโ€™t blame him.

He seemed to relax in their presence and, once again, I noticed his demeanor change. Heโ€™d transitioned effortlessly from the role of glib adventurer to arrogant prince, and now he became a beloved commander, a soldier who laughed easily with his companions and knew each commonerโ€™s name.

The soldiers had a lavish coach in tow. It was lacquered in pale Ravkan blue and emblazoned with the Kingโ€™s double eagle on one side. Nikolai had ordered a golden sunburst added to the other, and it was drawn by a matched team of six white horses. As the glittering contraption rumbled into the innโ€™s courtyard, I had to roll my eyes, remembering the excesses of the Grand Palace. Maybe bad taste was inherited.

I had hoped to eat dinner alone with Mal in my room, but Nikolai had insisted that we all dine together in the innโ€™s common room. So instead

of relaxing by the fire in peace, we were jammed elbow to elbow at a noisy table packed with officers. Mal hadnโ€™t said a word throughout the entire meal, but Nikolai talked enough for all three of us.

As he dug into a dish of braised oxtail, he ran through a seemingly endless list of places he intended to stop on the way to Os Alta. Just listening to him wore me out.

โ€œI didnโ€™t realize โ€˜winning the peopleโ€™ meant meeting every single one of them,โ€ I grumbled. โ€œArenโ€™t we in a hurry?โ€

โ€œRavka needs to know its Sun Summoner has returned.โ€ โ€œAnd its wayward prince?โ€

โ€œHim too. Gossip will do more than royal pronouncements. And that reminds me,โ€ he said, lowering his voice. โ€œFrom here on out, you need to behave as if someone is watching every minute.โ€ He gestured between me and Mal with his fork. โ€œWhat you do in private is your own affair. Just be discreet.โ€

I nearly choked on my wine. โ€œWhat?โ€ I sputtered.

โ€œItโ€™s one thing for you to be linked with a royal prince, quite another for people to think youโ€™re tumbling a peasant.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m notโ€”itโ€™s nobodyโ€™s business!โ€ I whispered furiously. I darted a glance at Mal. His teeth were clenched, and he was gripping his knife a little too tightly.

โ€œPower is alliance,โ€ said Nikolai. โ€œItโ€™s everyoneโ€™s business.โ€ He took another sip of wine as I glared at him in disbelief. โ€œAnd you should be wearing your own colors.โ€

I shook my head, thrown by the change of subject. โ€œNow youโ€™re choosing my clothes?โ€ I was wearing the blueย kefta, but clearly Nikolai wasnโ€™t satisfied.

โ€œIf you intend to lead the Second Army and take the Darklingโ€™s place, then you need to look the part.โ€

โ€œSummoners wear blue,โ€ I said irritably.

โ€œDonโ€™t underestimate the power of the grand gesture, Alina. The people like spectacle. The Darkling understood that.โ€

โ€œIโ€™ll think about it.โ€

โ€œMight I suggest gold?โ€ Nikolai went on. โ€œVery regal, very appropriateโ€”โ€

โ€œVery tacky?โ€

โ€œGold and black would be best. Perfect symbolism andโ€”โ€

โ€œNo black,โ€ Mal said. He pushed back from the table and, without another word, disappeared into the crowded room.

I set down my fork. โ€œI canโ€™t tell if youโ€™re deliberately making trouble or if youโ€™re just an ass.โ€

The prince took another bite of his dinner. โ€œHe doesnโ€™t like black?โ€ โ€œItโ€™s the color of the man who tried to kill him and regularly takes me

hostage. My sworn enemy?โ€

โ€œAll the more reason to claim that color as your own.โ€

I craned my neck to see where Mal had gone. Through the doorway, I watched him take a seat by himself at the bar.

โ€œNo,โ€ I said. โ€œNo black.โ€

โ€œAs you like,โ€ Nikolai replied. โ€œBut choose something for yourself and your guards.โ€

I sighed. โ€œDo I really need guards?โ€

Nikolai leaned back in his chair and studied me, his face suddenly serious. โ€œDo you know how I got the name Sturmhond?โ€ he asked.

โ€œI thought it was some kind of joke, a play on Sobachka.โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ he said. โ€œItโ€™s a name I earned. The first enemy ship I ever boarded was a Fjerdan trader out of Djerholm. When I told the captain to lay down his sword, he laughed in my face and told me to run home to my mother. He said Fjerdan men make bread from the bones of skinny Ravkan boys.โ€

โ€œSo you killed him?โ€

โ€œNo. I told him foolish old captains werenโ€™t fit meat for Ravkan men.

Then I cut off his fingers and fed them to my dog while he watched.โ€ โ€œYou โ€ฆ what?โ€

The room was packed with rowdy soldiers singing, shouting, telling stories, but it all fell away as I stared at Nikolai in stunned silence. It was as if I was watching him transform again, as if the charming mask had shifted to reveal a very dangerous man.

โ€œYou heard me. My enemies understood brutality. And so did my crew. After it was over, I drank with my men and divvied up the spoils. Then I went back to my cabin, vomited up the very fine dinner my steward had prepared, and cried myself to sleep. But that was the day I became a real privateer, and that was the day Sturmhond was born.โ€

โ€œSo much for โ€˜puppy,โ€™โ€ I said, feeling a bit nauseated myself.

โ€œI was a boy trying to lead an undisciplined crew of thieves and rogues against enemies who were older, wiser, and tougher. I needed them to fear me. All of them. And if they hadnโ€™t, more people would have died.โ€

I pushed my plate away. โ€œJust whose fingers are you telling me to cut off?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m telling you that if you want to be a leader, itโ€™s time you started thinking and acting like one.โ€

โ€œIโ€™ve heard this before, you know, from the Darkling and his supporters. Be brutal. Be cruel. More lives will be saved in the long run.โ€

โ€œDo you think Iโ€™m like the Darkling?โ€

I studied himโ€”the golden hair, the sharp uniform, those too-clever hazel eyes.

โ€œNo,โ€ I said slowly. โ€œI donโ€™t think you are.โ€ I rose to go join Mal. โ€œBut Iโ€™ve been wrong before.โ€

* * *

THE JOURNEY TO OS ALTAย was less a march than a slow, excruciating parade. We stopped at every town along the Vy, at farms, schools, churches, and dairies. We greeted local dignitaries and walked the wards of hospitals. We dined with war veterans and applauded girlsโ€™ choirs.

It was hard not to notice that the villages were mostly populated by the very young and the very old. Every able body had been drafted to serve in the Kingโ€™s Army and fight in Ravkaโ€™s endless wars. The cemeteries were as big as the towns.

Nikolai handed out gold coins and sacks of sugar. He accepted handshakes from merchants and kisses on the cheek from wrinkled matrons who called him Sobachka, and charmed anyone who came within two feet of him. He never seemed to tire, never seemed to flag. No matter how many miles weโ€™d ridden or people weโ€™d met, he was ready to meet another.

He always seemed to know what people wanted from him, when to be the laughing boy, the golden prince, the weary soldier. I supposed it was the training that came with being born a royal and raised at court, but it was still unnerving to watch.

He hadnโ€™t been kidding about spectacle. He always tried to time our arrivals at dawn or dusk, or heโ€™d stop our procession in the deep shadows of a church or town squareโ€”all the better to show off the Sun Summoner.

When he caught me rolling my eyes, he just winked and said, โ€œEveryone thinks youโ€™re dead, lovely. Itโ€™s important to make a good showing.โ€

So I held up my end of the bargain and acted my part. I smiled graciously and called the light to shine over rooftops and steeples and bathe every awestruck face in warmth. People wept. Mothers brought me

their babies to kiss, and old men bowed over my hand, their cheeks damp with tears. I felt like a complete fraud, and I said as much to Nikolai.

โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€ he asked, genuinely puzzled. โ€œThe people love you.โ€

โ€œYou mean they love your prize goat,โ€ I grumbled as we rode out of one town.

โ€œHave you actually won any prizes?โ€

โ€œThis isnโ€™t funny,โ€ I whispered angrily. โ€œYouโ€™ve seen what the Darkling can do. These people will be sending their sons and daughters off to fightย nichevoโ€™ya, and I wonโ€™t be able to save them. Youโ€™re feeding them a lie.โ€

โ€œWeโ€™re giving them hope. Thatโ€™s better than nothing.โ€

โ€œSpoken like a man whoโ€™s never had nothing,โ€ I said, and wheeled my horse away.

* * *

RAVKA IN SUMMERย was at its most lovely, its fields thick with gold and green, the air balmy and sweet with the scent of warm hay. Despite Nikolaiโ€™s protests, I insisted on forgoing the comforts of the coach. My bottom was sore, and my thighs complained loudly when I eased from the saddle every night, but sitting my own horse meant fresh air and the chance to seek out Mal on each dayโ€™s ride. He didnโ€™t talk much, but he seemed to be thawing a bit.

Nikolai had circulated the story of how the Darkling had tried to execute Mal on the Fold. It had earned Mal instant trust among the soldiers, even a small measure of celebrity. Occasionally, he scouted with the trackers in the unit, and he was trying to teach Tolya how to hunt, though the big Grisha wasnโ€™t much for stalking silently through the woods.

On the road out of Sala, we were passing through a stand of white elms when Mal cleared his throat and said, โ€œI was thinking.โ€ฆโ€

I sat up straight and gave him my full attention. It was the first time heโ€™d initiated a conversation since weโ€™d left Kribirsk.

He shifted in his saddle, not meeting my eye. โ€œI was thinking of who we could get to round out the guard.โ€

I frowned. โ€œThe guard?โ€

He cleared his throat. โ€œFor you. A few of Nikolaiโ€™s men seem all right, and I think Tolya and Tamar should be considered. Theyโ€™re Shu, but theyโ€™re Grisha, so it shouldnโ€™t be a problem. And thereโ€™s โ€ฆ well, me.โ€

I didnโ€™t think Iโ€™d ever actually seen Mal blush.

I grinned. โ€œAre you saying you want to be the captain of my personal guard?โ€

Mal glanced at me, his lips quirking in a smile. โ€œDo I get to wear a fancy hat?โ€

โ€œThe fanciest,โ€ I said. โ€œAnd possibly a cape.โ€ โ€œWill there be plumes?โ€

โ€œOh, yes. Several.โ€ โ€œThen Iโ€™m in.โ€

I wanted to leave it at that, but I couldnโ€™t seem to help myself. โ€œI thought โ€ฆ I thought you might want to go back to your unit, to be a tracker again.โ€

Mal studied the knot in his reins. โ€œI canโ€™t go back. Hopefully, Nikolai can keep me from being hangedโ€”โ€

โ€œHopefully?โ€ I squeaked.

โ€œI deserted my post, Alina. Not even the King can make me a tracker again.โ€

Malโ€™s voice was steady, untroubled.

He adapts, I thought. But I knew some part of him would always grieve for the life heโ€™d been meant to have, the life he would have had without me.

He nodded up ahead to where Nikolaiโ€™s back was barely visible in the column of riders. โ€œAnd thereโ€™s no way Iโ€™m leaving you alone with Prince Perfect.โ€

โ€œSo you donโ€™t trust me to resist his charms?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t even trust myself. Iโ€™ve never seen anyone work a crowd the way he does. Iโ€™m pretty sure the rocks and trees are getting ready to swear fealty to him.โ€

I laughed and leaned back, felt the sun warming my skin through the dappled shade of the tree boughs overhead. I touched my fingers to the sea whipโ€™s fetter, safely hidden by my sleeve. For now, I wanted to keep the second amplifier a secret. Nikolaiโ€™s Grisha had been sworn to silence, and I could only hope theyโ€™d hold their tongues.

My thoughts strayed to the firebird. Some part of me still couldnโ€™t quite believe it was real. Would it look the way it had in the pages of the red book, its feathers wrought in white and gold? Or would its wings be tipped with fire? And what kind of monster would nock an arrow and bring it down?

I had refused to take the stagโ€™s life, and countless people had died because of itโ€”the citizens of Novokribirsk, the Grisha and soldiers Iโ€™d

abandoned on the Darklingโ€™s skiff. I thought of those high church walls covered in the names of the dead.

Morozovaโ€™s stag. Rusalye. The firebird. Legends come to life before my eyes, just to die in front of me. I remembered the sea whipโ€™s heaving sides, the thready whistle of its last breaths. It had been on the brink of death, and still Iโ€™d hesitated.

I donโ€™t want to be a killer.ย But mercy might not be a gift the Sun Summoner could afford. I gave myself a shake. First we had to find the firebird. Until then, all our hopes rested on the shoulders of one untrustworthy prince.

* * *

THE NEXT DAY,ย the first pilgrims appeared. They looked like any other townspeople, waiting by the road to see the royal procession roll past, but they wore armbands and carried banners emblazoned with a rising sun. Dirty from long days of travel, they hefted satchels and sacks stuffed with their few belongings, and when they caught sight of me in my blueย kefta, the stagโ€™s collar around my neck, they swarmed toward my horse, murmuringย Sankta, Sankta, and trying to grab my sleeve or my hem. Sometimes they fell to their knees, and I had to be careful or risk my horse trampling one of them.

I thought Iโ€™d grown used to all the attention, even being pawed at by strangers, but this felt different. I didnโ€™t like being called โ€œSaint,โ€ and there was something hungry in their faces that set my nerves on edge.

As we pushed deeper into Ravkaโ€™s interior, the crowds grew. They came from every direction, from cities, towns, and ports. They clustered in village squares and by the side of the Vy, men and women, old and young, some on foot, some astride donkeys or crowded into haycarts. Wherever we went, they cried out to me.

Sometimes I was Sankta Alina, sometimes Alina the Just or the Bright or the Merciful. Daughter of Keramzin, they shouted, Daughter of Ravka. Daughter of the Fold. Rebe Dva Stolba, they called me, Daughter of Two Mills, after the valley that was home to the nameless settlement of my birth. I had the vaguest memory of the ruins the valley was named after, two rocky spindles by the side of a dusty road. The Apparat had been busy breaking open my past, sifting through the rubble to build the story of a Saint.

The pilgrimsโ€™ expectations terrified me. As far as they were concerned, Iโ€™d come to liberate Ravka from its enemies, from the Shadow Fold, from the Darkling, from poverty, from hunger, from sore

feet and mosquitos and anything else that might trouble them. They begged for me to bless them, to cure them, but I could only summon light, wave, let them touch my hand. It was all part of Nikolaiโ€™s show.

The pilgrims had come not just to see me but to follow me. They attached themselves to the royal processional, and their ragged band swelled with every passing day. They trailed us from town to town, camping in fallow fields, holding dawn vigils to pray for my safety and the salvation of Ravka. They were close to outnumbering Nikolaiโ€™s soldiers.

โ€œThis is the Apparatโ€™s doing,โ€ I complained to Tamar one night at dinner.

We were lodged at a roadhouse for the evening. Through the windows I could see the lights of the pilgrimsโ€™ cookfires, hear them singing peasant songs.

โ€œThese people should be home, working their fields and caring for their children, not following some false Saint.โ€

Tamar pushed a piece of overcooked potato around on her plate and said, โ€œMy mother told me that Grisha power is a divine gift.โ€

โ€œAnd you believed her?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t have a better explanation.โ€

I set my fork down. โ€œTamar, we donโ€™t have a divine gift. Grisha power is just something youโ€™re born with, like having big feet or a good singing voice.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s what the Shu believe. That itโ€™s something physical, buried in your heart or your spleen, something that can be isolated and dissected.โ€ She glanced out the window to the pilgrimsโ€™ camp. โ€œI donโ€™t think those people would agree.โ€

โ€œPlease donโ€™t tell me you think Iโ€™m a Saint.โ€

โ€œIt doesnโ€™t matter what you are. It matters what you can do.โ€ โ€œTamarโ€”โ€

โ€œThose people think you can save Ravka,โ€ she said. โ€œObviously you do, too, or you wouldnโ€™t be going to Os Alta.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m going to Os Alta to rebuild the Second Army.โ€ โ€œAnd find the third amplifier?โ€

I nearly dropped my fork. โ€œKeep your voice down,โ€ I sputtered. โ€œWe saw theย Istorii Sanktโ€™ya.โ€

So Sturmhond hadnโ€™t kept the book a secret. โ€œWho else knows?โ€ I asked, trying to regain my composure.

โ€œWeโ€™re not going to tell anyone, Alina. We know whatโ€™s at risk.โ€ Tamarโ€™s glass had left a damp circle on the table. She traced it with her

finger and said, โ€œYou know, some people believe that all the first Saints were Grisha.โ€

I frowned. โ€œWhich people?โ€

Tamar shrugged. โ€œEnough that their leaders were excommunicated.

Some were even burned at the stake.โ€ โ€œIโ€™ve never heard that.โ€

โ€œIt was a long time ago. I donโ€™t understand why that idea makes people so angry. Even if the Saints were Grisha, that doesnโ€™t make what they did any less miraculous.โ€

I squirmed in my chair. โ€œI donโ€™t want to be a Saint, Tamar. Iโ€™m not trying to save the world. I just want to find a way to defeat the Darkling.โ€

โ€œRebuild the Second Army. Defeat the Darkling. Destroy the Fold. Free Ravka. Call it what you like, but that all sounds suspiciously like saving the world.โ€

Well, when she put it that way, it did seem a little ambitious. I took a sip of wine. It was sour stuff compared with the vintages aboard theย Volkvolny.

โ€œMal is going to ask you and Tolya to be members of my personal guard.โ€

Tamarโ€™s face broke into a beautiful grin. โ€œReally?โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re practically doing the job now, anyway. But if youโ€™re going to be guarding me morning and night, you need to promise me something.โ€

โ€œAnything,โ€ she said, beaming. โ€œNo more talk of Saints.โ€

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