Me didnโt leaveย for Os Alta right away, but spent the next three days transporting shipments of goods across the Fold. We operated out of what was left of the military encampment at Kribirsk. Most of the troops had been pulled back when the Fold started expanding. A new watchtower had been erected to monitor the black shores of the Unsea, and only a skeleton crew stayed on to operate the drydocks.
Not a single Grisha remained at the encampment. After the Darklingโs attempted coup and the destruction of Novokribirsk, a wave of anti-Grisha sentiment had swept through Ravka and the ranks of the First Army. I wasnโt surprised. An entire town was gone, its people food for monsters. Ravka wouldnโt soon forget. Neither could I.
Some Grisha had fled to Os Alta to seek the protection of the King. Others had gone into hiding. Nikolai suspected that most of them had sought out the Darkling and defected to his side. But with the help of Nikolaiโs rogue Squallers, we managed two trips across the Fold on the first day, three on the second, and four on the last. Sandskiffs journeyed to West Ravka empty and returned with huge cargos of Zemeni rifles, crates full of ammunition, parts for repeating guns similar to those Nikolai had used aboard theย Hummingbird, and a few tons of sugar andย jurdaโall courtesy of Sturmhondโs smuggling.
โBribes,โ Mal said as we watched giddy soldiers tear into a shipment being unloaded on the dock, hooting and marveling over the glittering array of weaponry.
โGifts,โ Nikolai corrected. โYouโll find the bullets work, regardless of my motives.โ He turned to me. โI think we can fit in one more trip today. Game?โ
I wasnโt, but I nodded.
He smiled and clapped me on the back. โIโll give the orders.โ
I could feel Mal watching me as I turned to look into the shifting darkness of the Fold. There hadnโt been a recurrence of the incident aboard theย Hummingbird. Whatever Iโd seen that dayโvision, hallucination, I couldnโt name itโit hadnโt happened again. Still, I spent each moment on the Unsea alert and wary, trying to hide just how frightened I really was.
Nikolai wanted to use the crossings to hunt volcra, but I refused. I told him that I still felt weak and that I wasnโt sure enough about my power to guarantee our safety. My fear was real, but the rest was a lie. My power was stronger than ever. It flowed from me in pure and vibrant waves, radiant with the strength of the stag and the scales. But I couldnโt bear the thought of hearing those screams again. I kept the light in a wide, glowing dome around the skiffs, and though the volcra shrieked and beat their wings, they kept their distance.
Mal accompanied us on all the crossings, staying close by my side, rifle at the ready. I knew he sensed my anxiousness, but he didnโt press me for an explanation. In fact, he hadnโt said much at all since our argument in the tent. I was afraid that when he did start talking, I wouldnโt like what he had to say. I hadnโt changed my mind about returning to Os Alta, but I was worried that he might.
The morning we decamped for the capital, I searched the crowd for him, terrified that he might just decide not to show up. I said a little prayer of thanks when I glimpsed him, straight-backed and silent in his saddle, waiting to join the column of riders.
We set out before dawn, a twisting procession of horses and wagons that wended its way out of camp on the broad road known as the Vy. Nikolai had obtained a plain blueย keftaย for me, but it was tucked away in the luggage. Until he had more of his own men in place to guard me, I was just another soldier in the princeโs retinue.
As the sun crested the horizon, I felt a small flutter of hope. The idea of trying to take the Darklingโs place, of attempting to reassemble the Grisha and command the Second Army, still felt impossibly daunting. But at least I was doing something instead of just fleeing from the Darkling or waiting for him to snatch me up. I had two of Morozovaโs amplifiers, and I was headed to a place where I might find answers that would lead me to the third. Mal was unhappy, but watching the morning light break over the treetops, I felt sure I could bring him around.
My mood didnโt survive the journey through Kribirsk. Weโd passed through the ramshackle port town after the crash on the lake, but Iโd been
too shaken and distracted to really take note of the way the place had changed. This time, it was unavoidable.
Though Kribirsk had never had much beauty to recommend it, its sidewalks had teemed with travelers and merchants, Kingโs men and dockworkers. Its bustling streets had been lined with busy stores ready to outfit expeditions into the Fold, along with bars and brothels that catered to the soldiers at the encampment. But these streets were quiet and nearly empty. Most of the inns and shops had been boarded up.
The real revelation came when we reached the church. I remembered it as a tidy building capped by bright blue domes. Now the whitewashed walls were covered in writing, row after row of names written in red paint that had dried to the color of blood. The steps were littered with heaps of withered flowers, small painted icons, the melted stubs of prayer candles. I saw bottles ofย kvas, piles of candy, the abandoned body of a childโs doll. Gifts for the dead.
I scanned the names:
Stepan Ruschkin, 57
Anya Sirenka, 13
Mikah Lasky, 45
Rebeka Lasky, 44
Petyr Ozerov, 22
Marina Koska, 19
Valentin Yomki, 72 Sasha Penkin, 8 months
They went on and on. My fingers tightened on the reins as a cold fist closed over my heart. Memories came back to me unbidden: a mother running with a child in her arms, a man stumbling as the darkness caught him, his mouth open in a scream, an old woman, confused and frightened, swallowed by the panicked crowd. Iโd seen it all. Iโd made it possible.
These were the people of Novokribirsk, the city that had once stood directly across from Kribirsk on the other side of the Fold. A sister city full of relatives, friends, business partners. People who had worked the docks and manned the skiffs, some who must have survived multiple crossings. Theyโd lived on the edge of a horror, thinking they were safe in their own homes, walking the streets of their little port town. And now they were all gone because Iโd failed to stop the Darkling.
Mal brought his horse up beside mine.
โAlina,โ he said softly. โCome away.โ
I shook my head. I wanted to remember.ย Tasha Stol, Andrei Bazin, Shura Rychenko.ย As many as I could. Theyโd been murdered by the Darkling. Did they haunt his sleep the way they haunted mine?
โWe have to stop him, Mal,โ I said hoarsely. โWe have to find a way.โ
I donโt know what I hoped he would say, but he remained silent. I wasnโt sure Mal wanted to make me any more promises.
Eventually, he rode on, but I forced myself to read every single name, and only then did I turn to go, guiding my horse back into the deserted street.
A bit of life seemed to return to Kribirsk as we moved farther away from the Fold. A few shops were open, and there were still merchants hawking their wares on the stretch of the Vy known as Peddlersโ Way. Rickety tables lined the road, their surfaces covered in brightly colored cloth and spread with a jumble of merchandise: boots and prayer shawls, wooden toys, shoddy knives in hand-tooled sheaths. Many of the tables were littered with what looked like bits of rock and chicken bones.
โProvinโye osti!โ the peddlers shouted. โAutchenโye osti!โ Real bone.
Genuine bone.
As I leaned over my horseโs head to get a better look, an old man called out, โAlina!โ
I looked up in surprise. Did he know me?
Nikolai was suddenly beside me. He nudged his horse close to mine and snatched my reins, giving them a hard yank to draw me away from the table.
โNet, spasibo,โ he said to the old man.
โAlina!โ the peddler cried. โAutchenโyeย Alina!โ
โWait,โ I said, twisting in my saddle, trying to get a better look at the old manโs face. He was tidying the display on his table. Without the possibility of a sale, he seemed to have lost all interest in us.
โWait,โ I insisted. โHe knew me.โ โNo he didnโt.โ
โHe knew my name,โ I said, angrily grabbing the reins back from him.
โHe was trying to sell you relics. Finger bones. Genuine Sankta Alina.โ
I froze, a deep chill stealing over me. My oblivious horse kept steadily on.
โGenuine Alina,โ I repeated numbly.
Nikolai shifted uneasily. โThere are rumors that you died on the Fold. People have been selling off parts of you all over Ravka and West Ravka for months. Youโre quite the good luck charm.โ
โThose are supposed to beย my fingers?โ โKnuckles, toes, fragments of rib.โ
I felt sick. I looked around, hoping to spot Mal, needing to see something familiar.
โOf course,โ Nikolai continued, โif half of those were really your toes, youโd have about a hundred feet. But superstition is a powerful thing.โ
โSo is faith,โ said a voice behind me, and when I turned, I was surprised to see Tolya there, mounted on a huge black warhorse, his broad face solemn.
It was all too much. The optimism Iโd felt only an hour ago had vanished. It suddenly seemed as if the sky were pressing down on me, closing in like a trap. I kicked my horse into a canter. Iโd always been a clumsy rider, but I held on tight and did not stop until Kribirsk was far behind me and I no longer heard the rattling of bones.
* * *
THAT NIGHT MEย stayed at an inn in the little village of Vernost, where we met up with a heavily armed group of soldiers from the First Army. I soon learned that many of them were from the Twenty-Second, the regiment Nikolai had served with and eventually helped lead in the northern campaign. Apparently, the prince wanted to be surrounded by friends when he entered Os Alta. I couldnโt blame him.
He seemed to relax in their presence and, once again, I noticed his demeanor change. Heโd transitioned effortlessly from the role of glib adventurer to arrogant prince, and now he became a beloved commander, a soldier who laughed easily with his companions and knew each commonerโs name.
The soldiers had a lavish coach in tow. It was lacquered in pale Ravkan blue and emblazoned with the Kingโs double eagle on one side. Nikolai had ordered a golden sunburst added to the other, and it was drawn by a matched team of six white horses. As the glittering contraption rumbled into the innโs courtyard, I had to roll my eyes, remembering the excesses of the Grand Palace. Maybe bad taste was inherited.
I had hoped to eat dinner alone with Mal in my room, but Nikolai had insisted that we all dine together in the innโs common room. So instead
of relaxing by the fire in peace, we were jammed elbow to elbow at a noisy table packed with officers. Mal hadnโt said a word throughout the entire meal, but Nikolai talked enough for all three of us.
As he dug into a dish of braised oxtail, he ran through a seemingly endless list of places he intended to stop on the way to Os Alta. Just listening to him wore me out.
โI didnโt realize โwinning the peopleโ meant meeting every single one of them,โ I grumbled. โArenโt we in a hurry?โ
โRavka needs to know its Sun Summoner has returned.โ โAnd its wayward prince?โ
โHim too. Gossip will do more than royal pronouncements. And that reminds me,โ he said, lowering his voice. โFrom here on out, you need to behave as if someone is watching every minute.โ He gestured between me and Mal with his fork. โWhat you do in private is your own affair. Just be discreet.โ
I nearly choked on my wine. โWhat?โ I sputtered.
โItโs one thing for you to be linked with a royal prince, quite another for people to think youโre tumbling a peasant.โ
โIโm notโitโs nobodyโs business!โ I whispered furiously. I darted a glance at Mal. His teeth were clenched, and he was gripping his knife a little too tightly.
โPower is alliance,โ said Nikolai. โItโs everyoneโs business.โ He took another sip of wine as I glared at him in disbelief. โAnd you should be wearing your own colors.โ
I shook my head, thrown by the change of subject. โNow youโre choosing my clothes?โ I was wearing the blueย kefta, but clearly Nikolai wasnโt satisfied.
โIf you intend to lead the Second Army and take the Darklingโs place, then you need to look the part.โ
โSummoners wear blue,โ I said irritably.
โDonโt underestimate the power of the grand gesture, Alina. The people like spectacle. The Darkling understood that.โ
โIโll think about it.โ
โMight I suggest gold?โ Nikolai went on. โVery regal, very appropriateโโ
โVery tacky?โ
โGold and black would be best. Perfect symbolism andโโ
โNo black,โ Mal said. He pushed back from the table and, without another word, disappeared into the crowded room.
I set down my fork. โI canโt tell if youโre deliberately making trouble or if youโre just an ass.โ
The prince took another bite of his dinner. โHe doesnโt like black?โ โItโs the color of the man who tried to kill him and regularly takes me
hostage. My sworn enemy?โ
โAll the more reason to claim that color as your own.โ
I craned my neck to see where Mal had gone. Through the doorway, I watched him take a seat by himself at the bar.
โNo,โ I said. โNo black.โ
โAs you like,โ Nikolai replied. โBut choose something for yourself and your guards.โ
I sighed. โDo I really need guards?โ
Nikolai leaned back in his chair and studied me, his face suddenly serious. โDo you know how I got the name Sturmhond?โ he asked.
โI thought it was some kind of joke, a play on Sobachka.โ
โNo,โ he said. โItโs a name I earned. The first enemy ship I ever boarded was a Fjerdan trader out of Djerholm. When I told the captain to lay down his sword, he laughed in my face and told me to run home to my mother. He said Fjerdan men make bread from the bones of skinny Ravkan boys.โ
โSo you killed him?โ
โNo. I told him foolish old captains werenโt fit meat for Ravkan men.
Then I cut off his fingers and fed them to my dog while he watched.โ โYou โฆ what?โ
The room was packed with rowdy soldiers singing, shouting, telling stories, but it all fell away as I stared at Nikolai in stunned silence. It was as if I was watching him transform again, as if the charming mask had shifted to reveal a very dangerous man.
โYou heard me. My enemies understood brutality. And so did my crew. After it was over, I drank with my men and divvied up the spoils. Then I went back to my cabin, vomited up the very fine dinner my steward had prepared, and cried myself to sleep. But that was the day I became a real privateer, and that was the day Sturmhond was born.โ
โSo much for โpuppy,โโ I said, feeling a bit nauseated myself.
โI was a boy trying to lead an undisciplined crew of thieves and rogues against enemies who were older, wiser, and tougher. I needed them to fear me. All of them. And if they hadnโt, more people would have died.โ
I pushed my plate away. โJust whose fingers are you telling me to cut off?โ
โIโm telling you that if you want to be a leader, itโs time you started thinking and acting like one.โ
โIโve heard this before, you know, from the Darkling and his supporters. Be brutal. Be cruel. More lives will be saved in the long run.โ
โDo you think Iโm like the Darkling?โ
I studied himโthe golden hair, the sharp uniform, those too-clever hazel eyes.
โNo,โ I said slowly. โI donโt think you are.โ I rose to go join Mal. โBut Iโve been wrong before.โ
* * *
THE JOURNEY TO OS ALTAย was less a march than a slow, excruciating parade. We stopped at every town along the Vy, at farms, schools, churches, and dairies. We greeted local dignitaries and walked the wards of hospitals. We dined with war veterans and applauded girlsโ choirs.
It was hard not to notice that the villages were mostly populated by the very young and the very old. Every able body had been drafted to serve in the Kingโs Army and fight in Ravkaโs endless wars. The cemeteries were as big as the towns.
Nikolai handed out gold coins and sacks of sugar. He accepted handshakes from merchants and kisses on the cheek from wrinkled matrons who called him Sobachka, and charmed anyone who came within two feet of him. He never seemed to tire, never seemed to flag. No matter how many miles weโd ridden or people weโd met, he was ready to meet another.
He always seemed to know what people wanted from him, when to be the laughing boy, the golden prince, the weary soldier. I supposed it was the training that came with being born a royal and raised at court, but it was still unnerving to watch.
He hadnโt been kidding about spectacle. He always tried to time our arrivals at dawn or dusk, or heโd stop our procession in the deep shadows of a church or town squareโall the better to show off the Sun Summoner.
When he caught me rolling my eyes, he just winked and said, โEveryone thinks youโre dead, lovely. Itโs important to make a good showing.โ
So I held up my end of the bargain and acted my part. I smiled graciously and called the light to shine over rooftops and steeples and bathe every awestruck face in warmth. People wept. Mothers brought me
their babies to kiss, and old men bowed over my hand, their cheeks damp with tears. I felt like a complete fraud, and I said as much to Nikolai.
โWhat do you mean?โ he asked, genuinely puzzled. โThe people love you.โ
โYou mean they love your prize goat,โ I grumbled as we rode out of one town.
โHave you actually won any prizes?โ
โThis isnโt funny,โ I whispered angrily. โYouโve seen what the Darkling can do. These people will be sending their sons and daughters off to fightย nichevoโya, and I wonโt be able to save them. Youโre feeding them a lie.โ
โWeโre giving them hope. Thatโs better than nothing.โ
โSpoken like a man whoโs never had nothing,โ I said, and wheeled my horse away.
* * *
RAVKA IN SUMMERย was at its most lovely, its fields thick with gold and green, the air balmy and sweet with the scent of warm hay. Despite Nikolaiโs protests, I insisted on forgoing the comforts of the coach. My bottom was sore, and my thighs complained loudly when I eased from the saddle every night, but sitting my own horse meant fresh air and the chance to seek out Mal on each dayโs ride. He didnโt talk much, but he seemed to be thawing a bit.
Nikolai had circulated the story of how the Darkling had tried to execute Mal on the Fold. It had earned Mal instant trust among the soldiers, even a small measure of celebrity. Occasionally, he scouted with the trackers in the unit, and he was trying to teach Tolya how to hunt, though the big Grisha wasnโt much for stalking silently through the woods.
On the road out of Sala, we were passing through a stand of white elms when Mal cleared his throat and said, โI was thinking.โฆโ
I sat up straight and gave him my full attention. It was the first time heโd initiated a conversation since weโd left Kribirsk.
He shifted in his saddle, not meeting my eye. โI was thinking of who we could get to round out the guard.โ
I frowned. โThe guard?โ
He cleared his throat. โFor you. A few of Nikolaiโs men seem all right, and I think Tolya and Tamar should be considered. Theyโre Shu, but theyโre Grisha, so it shouldnโt be a problem. And thereโs โฆ well, me.โ
I didnโt think Iโd ever actually seen Mal blush.
I grinned. โAre you saying you want to be the captain of my personal guard?โ
Mal glanced at me, his lips quirking in a smile. โDo I get to wear a fancy hat?โ
โThe fanciest,โ I said. โAnd possibly a cape.โ โWill there be plumes?โ
โOh, yes. Several.โ โThen Iโm in.โ
I wanted to leave it at that, but I couldnโt seem to help myself. โI thought โฆ I thought you might want to go back to your unit, to be a tracker again.โ
Mal studied the knot in his reins. โI canโt go back. Hopefully, Nikolai can keep me from being hangedโโ
โHopefully?โ I squeaked.
โI deserted my post, Alina. Not even the King can make me a tracker again.โ
Malโs voice was steady, untroubled.
He adapts, I thought. But I knew some part of him would always grieve for the life heโd been meant to have, the life he would have had without me.
He nodded up ahead to where Nikolaiโs back was barely visible in the column of riders. โAnd thereโs no way Iโm leaving you alone with Prince Perfect.โ
โSo you donโt trust me to resist his charms?โ
โI donโt even trust myself. Iโve never seen anyone work a crowd the way he does. Iโm pretty sure the rocks and trees are getting ready to swear fealty to him.โ
I laughed and leaned back, felt the sun warming my skin through the dappled shade of the tree boughs overhead. I touched my fingers to the sea whipโs fetter, safely hidden by my sleeve. For now, I wanted to keep the second amplifier a secret. Nikolaiโs Grisha had been sworn to silence, and I could only hope theyโd hold their tongues.
My thoughts strayed to the firebird. Some part of me still couldnโt quite believe it was real. Would it look the way it had in the pages of the red book, its feathers wrought in white and gold? Or would its wings be tipped with fire? And what kind of monster would nock an arrow and bring it down?
I had refused to take the stagโs life, and countless people had died because of itโthe citizens of Novokribirsk, the Grisha and soldiers Iโd
abandoned on the Darklingโs skiff. I thought of those high church walls covered in the names of the dead.
Morozovaโs stag. Rusalye. The firebird. Legends come to life before my eyes, just to die in front of me. I remembered the sea whipโs heaving sides, the thready whistle of its last breaths. It had been on the brink of death, and still Iโd hesitated.
I donโt want to be a killer.ย But mercy might not be a gift the Sun Summoner could afford. I gave myself a shake. First we had to find the firebird. Until then, all our hopes rested on the shoulders of one untrustworthy prince.
* * *
THE NEXT DAY,ย the first pilgrims appeared. They looked like any other townspeople, waiting by the road to see the royal procession roll past, but they wore armbands and carried banners emblazoned with a rising sun. Dirty from long days of travel, they hefted satchels and sacks stuffed with their few belongings, and when they caught sight of me in my blueย kefta, the stagโs collar around my neck, they swarmed toward my horse, murmuringย Sankta, Sankta, and trying to grab my sleeve or my hem. Sometimes they fell to their knees, and I had to be careful or risk my horse trampling one of them.
I thought Iโd grown used to all the attention, even being pawed at by strangers, but this felt different. I didnโt like being called โSaint,โ and there was something hungry in their faces that set my nerves on edge.
As we pushed deeper into Ravkaโs interior, the crowds grew. They came from every direction, from cities, towns, and ports. They clustered in village squares and by the side of the Vy, men and women, old and young, some on foot, some astride donkeys or crowded into haycarts. Wherever we went, they cried out to me.
Sometimes I was Sankta Alina, sometimes Alina the Just or the Bright or the Merciful. Daughter of Keramzin, they shouted, Daughter of Ravka. Daughter of the Fold. Rebe Dva Stolba, they called me, Daughter of Two Mills, after the valley that was home to the nameless settlement of my birth. I had the vaguest memory of the ruins the valley was named after, two rocky spindles by the side of a dusty road. The Apparat had been busy breaking open my past, sifting through the rubble to build the story of a Saint.
The pilgrimsโ expectations terrified me. As far as they were concerned, Iโd come to liberate Ravka from its enemies, from the Shadow Fold, from the Darkling, from poverty, from hunger, from sore
feet and mosquitos and anything else that might trouble them. They begged for me to bless them, to cure them, but I could only summon light, wave, let them touch my hand. It was all part of Nikolaiโs show.
The pilgrims had come not just to see me but to follow me. They attached themselves to the royal processional, and their ragged band swelled with every passing day. They trailed us from town to town, camping in fallow fields, holding dawn vigils to pray for my safety and the salvation of Ravka. They were close to outnumbering Nikolaiโs soldiers.
โThis is the Apparatโs doing,โ I complained to Tamar one night at dinner.
We were lodged at a roadhouse for the evening. Through the windows I could see the lights of the pilgrimsโ cookfires, hear them singing peasant songs.
โThese people should be home, working their fields and caring for their children, not following some false Saint.โ
Tamar pushed a piece of overcooked potato around on her plate and said, โMy mother told me that Grisha power is a divine gift.โ
โAnd you believed her?โ
โI donโt have a better explanation.โ
I set my fork down. โTamar, we donโt have a divine gift. Grisha power is just something youโre born with, like having big feet or a good singing voice.โ
โThatโs what the Shu believe. That itโs something physical, buried in your heart or your spleen, something that can be isolated and dissected.โ She glanced out the window to the pilgrimsโ camp. โI donโt think those people would agree.โ
โPlease donโt tell me you think Iโm a Saint.โ
โIt doesnโt matter what you are. It matters what you can do.โ โTamarโโ
โThose people think you can save Ravka,โ she said. โObviously you do, too, or you wouldnโt be going to Os Alta.โ
โIโm going to Os Alta to rebuild the Second Army.โ โAnd find the third amplifier?โ
I nearly dropped my fork. โKeep your voice down,โ I sputtered. โWe saw theย Istorii Sanktโya.โ
So Sturmhond hadnโt kept the book a secret. โWho else knows?โ I asked, trying to regain my composure.
โWeโre not going to tell anyone, Alina. We know whatโs at risk.โ Tamarโs glass had left a damp circle on the table. She traced it with her
finger and said, โYou know, some people believe that all the first Saints were Grisha.โ
I frowned. โWhich people?โ
Tamar shrugged. โEnough that their leaders were excommunicated.
Some were even burned at the stake.โ โIโve never heard that.โ
โIt was a long time ago. I donโt understand why that idea makes people so angry. Even if the Saints were Grisha, that doesnโt make what they did any less miraculous.โ
I squirmed in my chair. โI donโt want to be a Saint, Tamar. Iโm not trying to save the world. I just want to find a way to defeat the Darkling.โ
โRebuild the Second Army. Defeat the Darkling. Destroy the Fold. Free Ravka. Call it what you like, but that all sounds suspiciously like saving the world.โ
Well, when she put it that way, it did seem a little ambitious. I took a sip of wine. It was sour stuff compared with the vintages aboard theย Volkvolny.
โMal is going to ask you and Tolya to be members of my personal guard.โ
Tamarโs face broke into a beautiful grin. โReally?โ
โYouโre practically doing the job now, anyway. But if youโre going to be guarding me morning and night, you need to promise me something.โ
โAnything,โ she said, beaming. โNo more talk of Saints.โ