โNย ina was tired, Kaz could see it. They all were. Even heโd had no choice but to rest after the fight. His body had stopped listening to him. Heโd passed an invisible limit and simply shut down. He didnโt remember falling asleep. He didnโt dream. One moment he was resting in the suiteโs smallest bedroom, on his back, running through the particulars of the plan, and the next he was waking in the dark, panicked, unsure of where he was or how heโd gotten there.โ
When he reached to turn up the lamp, he felt a sharp twinge of pain. It had been excruciating to endure Genyaโs faint touches when sheโd seen to his injuries, but maybe he should have let the Tailor heal him just a little bit more. He still had a long night ahead of him, and the auction scheme was unlike anything heโd attempted.
In his time with the Dregs, Kaz had seen and heard plenty, but his conversation with Sturmhond in the solarium had topped it all.
They had talked through the details of the auction, what they would need from Genya, how Kaz predicted the betting would go and in what increments. Kaz wanted Sturmhond to enter the fray at fifty million and suspected the Shu would counter by raising ten million or more. Kaz needed to know the Ravkans were committed. Once the auction was announced, it would have to proceed. There could be no backward step.
The privateer was wary, pressing for knowledge on how theyโd been hired on for the Ice Court job, as well as how theyโd managed to find and liberate Kuwei. Kaz gave him enough information to convince the privateer that Kuwei was in fact Bo Yul-Bayurโs son. But he had no
interest in divulging the mechanics of their schemes or the true talents of his crew. For all Kaz knew, Sturmhond might have something he wanted to steal one day.
At last, Sturmhond straightened the lapels of his teal frock coat and said, โWell, Brekker, itโs obvious you only deal in half-truths and outright lies, so youโre clearly the man for the job.โ
โThereโs just one thing,โ said Kaz, studying the privateerโs broken nose and ruddy hair. โBefore we join hands and jump off a cliff together, I want to know exactly who Iโm running with.โ
Sturmhond lifted a brow. โWe havenโt been on a road trip or exchanged clothes, but I think our introductions were civilized enough.โ
โWho are you really, privateer?โ โIs this an existential question?โ
โNo proper thief talks the way you do.โ โHow narrow-minded of you.โ
โI know the look of a rich manโs son, and I donโt believe a king would send an ordinary privateer to handle business this sensitive.โ
โOrdinary,โ scoffed Sturmhond. โAre you so schooled in politics?โ
โI know my way around a deal. Who are you? We get the truth or my crew walks.โ
โAre you so sure that would be possible, Brekker? I know your plans now. Iโm accompanied by two of the worldโs most legendary Grisha, and Iโm not too bad in a fight either.โ
โAnd Iโm the canal rat who brought Kuwei Yul-Bo out of the Ice Court alive. Let me know how you like your chances.โ His crew didnโt have clothes or titles to rival the Ravkans, but Kaz knew where heโd put his money if he had any left.
Sturmhond clasped his hands behind his back, and Kaz saw the barest shift in his demeanor. His eyes lost their bemused gleam and took on a surprising weight. No ordinary privateer at all.
โLet us say,โ said Sturmhond, gaze trained on the Ketterdam street below, โhypothetically, of course, that the Ravkan king has intelligence networks that reach deep within Kerch, Fjerda, and the Shu Han, and that he knows exactly how important Kuwei Yul-Bo could be to the future of his country. Let us say that king would trust no one to negotiate such matters but himself, but that he also knows just how dangerous it is to travel under his own name when his country is in turmoil, when he has no heir and the Lantsov succession is in no way secured.โ
โSo hypothetically,โ Kaz said, โyou might be addressed as Your Highness.โ
โAnd a variety of more colorful names. Hypothetically.โ The privateer cast him an assessing glance. โJust how did you know I wasnโt who I claimed to be, Mister Brekker?โ
Kaz shrugged. โYou speak Kerch like a nativeโa rich native. You donโt talk like someone who came up with sailors and street thugs.โ
The privateer turned slightly, giving Kaz his full attention. His ease was gone, and now he looked like a man who might command armies. โMister Brekker,โ he said. โKaz, if I may? I am in a vulnerable position. I am a king ruling a country with an empty treasury, facing enemies on all sides. There are also forces within my country that might seize any absence as an opportunity to make their own bid for power.โ
โSo youโre saying youโd make an excellent hostage.โ
โI suspect that the ransom for me would be considerably less than the price Kuwei has on his head. Really, itโs a bit of a blow to my self- esteem.โ
โYou donโt seem to be suffering,โ said Kaz.
โSturmhond was a creation of my youth, and his reputation still serves me well. I cannot bid on Kuwei Yul-Bo as the king of Ravka. I hope your plan will play out the way you think it will. But if it doesnโt, the loss of such a prize would be seen as a humiliating blunder diplomatically and strategically. I enter that auction as Sturmhond or as no one at all. If that is a problemโโ
Kaz settled his hands on his cane. โAs long as you donโt try to con me, you can enter as the Fairy Queen of Istamere.โ
โItโs certainly nice to have my options open.โ He looked back out at the city. โCan this possibly work, Mister Brekker? Or am I risking the fate of Ravka and the worldโs Grisha on the honor and abilities of a fast- talking urchin?โ
โMore than a bit of both,โ said Kaz. โYouโre risking a country. Weโre risking our lives. Seems a fair trade.โ
The king of Ravka offered his hand. โThe deal is the deal?โ โThe deal is the deal.โ They shook.
โIf only treaties could be signed so quickly,โ he said, his easy privateerโs mien sliding back in place like a mask purchased on West Stave. โIโm going to have a drink and a bath. One can take only so much mud and squalor. As the rebel said to the prince, itโs bad for the
constitution.โ He flicked an invisible speck of dust from his lapel and sauntered out of the solarium.
Now Kaz smoothed his hair and pulled on his jacket. It was hard to believe a lowly canal rat had struck a deal with a king. He thought of that broken nose that gave the privateer the look of someone who had been through a fair share of fistfights. For all Kaz knew, he had, but he must have been tailored to disguise his features. Hard to lie low when your face was on the money. In the end, royalty or not, Sturmhond was really just a very grand con man, and all that mattered was that he and his people did their part.
Kaz checked his watchโpast midnight, later than he would have liked
โand went to find Nina. He was surprised to see Jesper waiting in the hall.
โWhat is it?โ Kaz said, his mind instantly trying to calculate all the things that might have gone wrong as he slept.
โNothing,โ Jesper said. โOr no more than usual.โ โThen what do you want?โ
Jesper swallowed and said, โMatthias gave you the remainingย paremย , didnโt he?โ
โSo?โ
โIf anything happens โฆ the Shu will be at the auction, maybe the Kherguud. Thereโs too much riding on this job. I canโt let my father down again. I need theย paremย , as a security measure.โ
Kaz studied him for a long moment. โNo.โ โWhy the hell not?โ
A reasonable question. Giving Jesper theย paremย would have been the smart move, the practical move.
โYour father cares more about you than some plot of land.โ โButโโ
โIโm not going to let you make yourself a martyr, Jes. If one of us goes down, we all go down.โ
โThis is my choice to make.โ
โAnd yet I seem to be the one making it.โ Kaz headed toward the sitting room. He didnโt intend to argue with Jesper, especially when he wasnโt entirely sure why he was saying no in the first place.
โWhoโs Jordie?โ
Kaz paused. Heโd known the question would come, and yet it was still hard to hear his brotherโs name spoken. โSomeone I trusted.โ He looked
over his shoulder and met Jesperโs gray eyes. โSomeone I didnโt want to lose.โ
Kaz found Nina and Matthias asleep on the couch in the purple sitting room. Why the two biggest people in their crew had chosen the smallest space to sleep on, he had no idea. He gave Nina a nudge with his cane. Without opening her eyes, she tried to bat it away.
โRise and shine.โ
โGo โway,โ she said, burying her head in Matthiasโ chest. โLetโs go, Zenik. The dead will wait, but I wonโt.โ
At last she roused herself and pulled on her boots. She had discarded her redย keftaย in favor of the coat and trousers sheโd worn during the disastrous botch that had been the Sweet Reef job. Matthias watched her every move, but he did not ask to accompany them. He knew his presence would only increase their risk of exposure.
Inej appeared in the doorway, and they headed for the lift in silence. Curfew was in effect on the streets of Ketterdam, but there was no avoiding this. They would have to rely on luck and Inejโs ability to scout the path ahead of them for patrollingย stadwatchย .
They left the back of the hotel and headed toward the manufacturing district. Their progress was slow, a circuitous route around the blockades, full of stops and starts as Inej vanished and reappeared, signaling them to wait or rerouting them with a flick of her hand before she was gone once more.
At last they reached the morgue, an unmarked, gray stone structure on the border of the warehouse district, fronted by a garden no one had tended to in some time. Only the bodies of the wealthy were brought here to be prepared for transportation and burial outside the city. It wasnโt the miserable human heap of the Reaperโs Barge, but Kaz still felt like he was descending into a nightmare. He thought of Inejโs voice echoing off the white tiles.ย Go on.
The morgue was deserted, its heavy iron door sealed tight. He picked the lock and looked once over his shoulder at the shifting shadows of the weedy garden. He couldnโt see Inej, but he knew she was there. She would keep watch over the entrance as they got this grim business done.
It was chilly inside, lit only by a lantern with the blue-tinted warning flame of corpselight. There was a processing room and beyond it a large, icy stone chamber lined with drawers big enough to hold bodies. The whole place smelled of death.
He thought of the pulse beating beneath Inejโs jaw, the warmth of her skin on his lips. He tried to shake the thought free. He did not want that memory tangling with this room full of rot.
Kaz had never been able to dodge the horror of that night in the Ketterdam harbor, the memory of his brotherโs corpse clutched tight in his arms as he told himself to kick a little harder, to take one more breath, stay afloat, stay alive. Heโd found his way to shore, devoted himself to the vengeance he and his brother were owed. But the nightmare refused to fade. Kaz had been sure it would get easier. He would stop having to think twice before he shook a hand or was forced into close quarters. Instead, things got so bad he could barely brush up against someone on the street without finding himself once more in the harbor. He was on the Reaperโs Barge and death was all around him. He was kicking through the water, clinging to the slippery bloat of Jordieโs flesh, too frightened of drowning to let go.
The situation had gotten dangerous. When Gorka once got too drunk to stand at the Blue Paradise, Kaz and Teapot had to carry him home. Six blocks they hauled him, Gorkaโs weight shifting back and forth, slumping against Kaz in a sickening press of skin and stink, then flopping onto Teapot, freeing Kaz brieflyโthough he could still feel the rub of the manโs hairy arm against the back of his neck.
Later, Teapot had found Kaz huddled in a lavatory, shaking and covered in sweat. Heโd pleaded food poisoning, teeth chattering as he jammed his foot against the door to keep Teapot out. He could not be touched again or he would lose his mind completely.
The next day heโd bought his first pair of glovesโcheap black things that bled dye whenever they got wet. Weakness was lethal in the Barrel. People could smell it on you like blood, and if Kaz was going to bring Pekka Rollins to his knees, he couldnโt afford any more nights trembling on a bathroom floor.
Kaz never answered questions about the gloves, never responded to taunts. He just wore them, day in and day out, peeling them off only when he was alone. He told himself it was a temporary measure. But that didnโt stop him from remastering every bit of sleight of hand wearing them, learning to shuffle and work a deck even more deftly than he could barehanded. The gloves held back the waters, kept him from drowning when memories of that night threatened to drag him under. When he pulled them on, it felt like he was arming himself, and they were better
than a knife or a gun. Until he met Imogen.
Heโd been fourteen, not yet Per Haskellโs lieutenant but making a name for himself with every fight and swindle. Imogen was new to the Barrel, a year older than he was. Sheโd run with a crew in Zierfoort, small-time rackets that she claimed had left her bored. Since sheโd arrived in Ketterdam, sheโd been hanging around the Staves, picking up small jobs, trying to find her way into one of the Barrel gangs. When Kaz had first seen her, sheโd been breaking a bottle over the head of a Razorgull whoโd gotten too handsy. Then sheโd cropped up again when Per Haskell had him running book on the spring prize fights. She had freckles and a gap between her front teeth, and she could hold her own in a brawl.
One night, when they were standing by the empty ring counting up the dayโs haul, sheโd touched her hand to the sleeve of his coat, and when he looked up, sheโd smiled slowly, close-lipped, so he couldnโt see the gap in her teeth.
Later, lying on his lumpy mattress in the room he shared at the Slat, Kaz had stared up at the leaky ceiling and thought of the way Imogen had smiled at him, the way her trousers sat low on her hips. She had a sidle when she walked, as if she approached everything from a little bit of an angle. He liked it. He liked her.
There was no mystery to bodies in the Barrel. Space was tight and people took their pleasures where they found them. The other boys in the Dregs talked constantly about their conquests. Kaz said nothing. Fortunately, he said nothing about almost everything, so he had consistency working in his favor. But he knew what he was expected to say, the things he was supposed to want. He did want those things, in moments, in flashesโa girl crossing the street in a cobalt dress that slid from her shoulder, a dancer moving like flames in a show on East Stave, Imogen laughing like heโd told the funniest joke in the world when he hadnโt said much at all.
Heโd flexed his hands in his gloves, listening to his roommates snore.ย I can best thisย , he told himself. He was stronger than this sickness, stronger than the pull of the water. When heโd needed to learn the workings of a gambling hall, heโd done it. When heโd decided to educate himself on finance, heโd mastered that too. Kaz thought of Imogenโs slow, closed-mouth smile and made a decision. He would conquer this weakness the way heโd conquered everything in his path.
Heโd started small, with gestures no one would notice. A game of Three Man Bramble dealt with gloves off. A night spent with them tucked under his pillow. Then, when Per Haskell sent him and Teapot to lay a little hurt on a two-bit brawler named Beni who owed him cash, Kaz had waited until theyโd had him in the alley, and when Teapot told Kaz to hold Beniโs arms, heโd slipped off his gloves, just as a test, something easy.
As soon as he made contact with Beniโs wrists, a rush of revulsion overtook him. But he was prepared and endured it, ignoring the icy sweat that broke over him as he hooked Beniโs elbows behind his back. Kaz forced himself to brace Beniโs body against his while Teapot reeled off the terms of his loan with Per Haskell, punctuating each sentence with a punch to Beniโs face or gut.
Iโm all rightย , Kaz told himself.ย Iโm handling this.ย Then the waters rose.
This time the wave was as tall as the spires on the Church of Barter; it seized him and dragged him down, a weight that he could not escape. He had Jordie in his arms, his brotherโs rotting fish-belly body clutched against him. Kaz shoved him away, gasping for breath.
The next thing he knew, he was leaning against a brick wall. Teapot was yelling at him as Beni fled. The sky was gray above him, and the stink of the alley filled his nostrils, the ash and vegetable smell of garbage, the ripe tang of old urine.
โWhat the hell was that, Brekker?โ screamed Teapot, face mottled with fury, nose whistling in a way that should have been funny. โYou just let him go! What if heโd had a knife on him?โ
Kaz registered it only dimly. Beni had hardly touched him, but somehow, without the gloves, it was all so much worse. The press of skin, the pliability of another human body so close to his.
โAre you even listening to me, you sorry, skinny little skiv?โ Teapot grabbed him by his shirt, his knuckles brushing Kazโs neck, sending another wave of sickness crashing through him. He shook Kaz until his teeth rattled.
Teapot gave Kaz the beat-down heโd had planned for Beni and left him bleeding in the alley. You didnโt get to go soft or give in to distraction, not on a job, not when one of your crew was counting on you. Kaz curled his hands into his sleeves, but never threw a punch.
It had taken him nearly an hour to drag himself from that alley, and
weeks to rebuild the damage to his reputation. Any slip in the Barrel could lead to a bad fall. He found Beni and made him wish Teapot had been the one to deliver the beating. He put his gloves back on and didnโt take them off. He became twice as ruthless, fought twice as hard. He stopped worrying about seeming normal, let people see a glimmer of the madness within him and let them guess at the rest. Someone got too close, he threw a punch. Someone dared to put hands on him, he broke a wrist, two wrists, a jaw.ย Dirtyhandsย , they called him. Haskellโs rabid dog. The rage inside him burned on and he learned to despise people who complained, who begged, who claimed theyโd suffered.ย Let me teach you what pain looks likeย , he would say, and then heโd paint a picture with his fists.
At the ring, the next time Imogen laid her fingers on his sleeve, Kaz held her gaze until that closed-mouth smile slipped. She dropped her hand. She looked away. Kaz went back to counting the money.
Now Kaz rapped his cane against the morgue floor.
โLetโs get this over with,โ he said to Nina, hearing his voice echo too loudly off the cold stone. He wanted out of this place as fast as possible.
They started on opposite sides, scanning the dates on the drawers, searching for a cadaver that would be in the appropriate state of decomposition. Even the thought ratcheted the tension in his chest tighter. It felt like a scream building. But his mind had conceived of this plan, knowing it would bring him to this place.
โHere,โ Nina said.
Kaz crossed the room to her. They stood before the drawer, neither of them moving to open it. Kaz knew theyโd both seen plenty of dead bodies. You couldnโt make a life on the streets of the Barrel or as a soldier in the Second Army without encountering death. But this was different. This was decay.
At last, Kaz hooked the crowโs head of his cane under the handle and pulled. The drawer was heavier than heโd anticipated, but it slid open smoothly. He stood back.
โWeโre sure this is a good idea?โ said Nina. โIโm open to better ones,โ said Kaz.
She blew out a long breath and then pulled the sheet away from the corpse. Kaz thought of a snake molting.
The man was middle-aged, his lips already blackening with decay.
As a little boy, Kaz had held his breath whenever heโd passed a
graveyard, certain that if he opened his mouth, something terrible would crawl in. The room tilted. Kaz tried to breathe shallowly, forcing himself back to the present. He spread his fingers inside his gloves, felt the leather tug, grasped the weight of his cane in his palm.
โI wonder how he died,โ Nina murmured as she peered at the gray folds of the dead manโs face.
โAlone,โ Kaz said, looking at the manโs fingertips. Something had been gnawing at them. The rats had gotten to him before his body was found. Or one of his pets. Kaz pulled the sealed glass container heโd lifted from Genyaโs kit out of his pocket. โTake what you need.โ
Standing in the clock tower above Colmโs suite, Kaz surveyed his crew. The city was still cloaked in darkness, but dawn would come soon and they would go their separate ways: Wylan and Colm to an empty bakery to wait out the start of the auction. Nina to the Barrel with her assignments in hand. Inej to the Church of Barter to take up her position on the roof.
Kaz would descend to the square in front of the Exchange with Matthias and Kuwei and meet the armedย stadwatchย troop that would escort them into the church. Kaz wondered how Van Eck felt about his own officers protecting the bastard of the Barrel.
He felt more himself than he had in days. The ambush at Van Eckโs house had shaken him. He hadnโt been ready for Pekka Rollins to reenter the field on those terms. He hadnโt been prepared for the shame of it, for the memories of Jordie that had returned with such force.
You failed me.ย His brotherโs voice, louder than ever in his head.ย You let him dupe you all over again.
Kaz had called Jesper by his brotherโs name. A bad slip. But maybe heโd wanted to punish them both. Kaz was older now than Jordie had been when heโd succumbed to the Queenโs Lady Plague. Now he could look back and see his brotherโs pride, his hunger for fast success.ย You failedย me, Jordie. You were older. You were supposed to be the smart one.
He thought of Inej asking,ย Was there no one to protect you?ย He remembered Jordie seated beside him on a bridge, smiling and alive, the reflection of their feet in the water beneath them, the warmth of a cup of hot chocolate cradled in his mittened hands.ย We were supposed to look out for each other.
Theyโd been two farm boys, missing their father, lost in this city. That was how Pekka got them. It wasnโt just the enticement of money. Heโd given them a new home. A fake wife who made themย hutspotย , a fake daughter for Kaz to play with. Pekka Rollins had lured them with a warm fire and the promise of the life theyโd lost.
And that was what destroyed you in the end: the longing for something you could never have.
He scanned the faces of the people he had fought beside, bled with. Heโd lied to them and been lied to. Heโd brought them into hell and dragged them out again.
Kaz settled his hands over his cane, his back to the city. โWe all want different things from this day. Freedom, redemptionโโ
โCold hard cash?โ suggested Jesper.
โPlenty of that. There are lots of people looking to stand in our way. Van Eck. The Merchant Council. Pekka Rollins and his goons, a few different countries, and most of this Saintsforsaken town.โ
โIs this supposed to be encouraging?โ asked Nina.
โThey donโt know who we are. Not really. They donโt know what weโve done, what weโve managed together.โ Kaz rapped his cane on the ground. โSo letโs go show them they picked the wrong damn fight.โ