โGet your fucking microphone and meet me outside.โ
โOh, hello, Lucy, how nice to hear from you,โ Ben says on the other line.
I shift the phone to my other ear as I pull my bedroom door shut behind me. โJust get it. Iโll be there in ten minutes.โ
โOkay. Why?โ
โWeโre going to the damn wedding venue.โ
Ben meets me outside his hotel, and we drive to the Byrd Estate. I take us slowly through the winding dirt road that leads up to the event center. Huge, old trees provide shade, and the historic house looms up ahead, a large white tent set up behind it. I canโt imagine what kind of masochists are having an outdoor wedding in August.
A woman in an alarmingly bright white suit scurries out of the house as I park and we get out of the car.
โWell, hi, yโall!โ she says. โAre you my five thirty?โ โNo,โ I say.
Her smile falters, but then she spots Ben. โBen! How nice to see you again!โ
โHi, Trudy.โ He swings his bag over his shoulder, holding his portable mic in one hand. The light is on; heโs recording. โSorry to just show up unannounced.โ
โOh, itโs fine. What can I help you with?โ
โDo you mind if Lucy and I take a walk around? We want to see if anything jogs her memory.โ
She recoils at my name. โOh. Well โฆ sure, if you think it will help.โ
โI fainted last time we did this, but Iโll do my best to stay upright this time.โ I try to sound flippant, but my voice actually trembles a little.
I donโt think Trudy notices, because she just frowns at me. โYou may tour the Byrd Estate at your own risk.โ
โThanks, Trudy,โ Ben says. She turns and walks back into the building, casting a disapproving glance over her shoulder.
โYou want to tell me why you wanted to come here today?โ he asks me once sheโs gone.
โBecause maybe youโre right. Iโm very sad to contribute to your already wildly overinflated ego, but, yeah. Youโre right that I havenโt really tried to remember. So here we are.โ
โI think my ego is average-sized.โ
โBen, focus. And we both know that it is not.โ
He rolls his eyes. โAll right. What should we doโโ He stops as a truck rumbles up the road and comes to a stop on the other side of the parking lot. Matt jumps out.
โI invited Matt, by the way.โ I wave to him.
โWhat the hell, Lucy?โ he calls as he strides over to us. โYou didnโt tell me the podcaster douche was coming.โ
โPodcaster douche is recording, by the way,โ Ben says, holding up the microphone.
โOf course you are.โ Matt stops beside me, his fingers brushing against my arm. I move away.
โIf it makes you feel better, she didnโt tell me you were coming either,โ Ben says.
It doesnโt appear to make Matt feel better.
โI need someone who was there to tell me what we did that night,โ I say. โOtherwise, weโre just going to be wandering aimlessly.โ
โLucy, are you sureโฆโ Matt begins softly, but he trails off, glancing at the mic. He sighs, running a hand through his hair. โFine, whatever. Iโll walk you through it.โ
โThank you,โ I say sincerely.
โThank you,โ Ben says, flipping him off with his free hand.
Matt returns the gesture and then turns around, pointing at his truck. โI parked over there. Like Colin said, we got here before him and Savvy, and we talked to a couple in the parking lot, but not him and Savvy. The Nelsons.โ
โWhat did you talk about?โ Ben asks. โDo you remember?โ
โOnly because I told the police at the time. It was just small talkโthe weather, how hot it was already for May. Just a quick conversation, and then we all went that way.โ He points. โIt was an indoor reception.โ He walks around the house, and we follow him to the side doors and inside the room.
Itโs empty, chairs stacked in a corner. Thereโs a bar at the back of the room, and my sandals click against the wood floor as I walk across it.
โDoes it look familiar?โ Ben asks.
โOnly because Iโd been to other weddings here, before that night.โ I turn to Matt. โDo you remember how it was set up?โ
โLike a wedding? I donโt know.โ He points across the room, opposite the bar. โDJ was over there. Iโm pretty sure the tables were set up along the sides? Round ones? We were sittingโฆโ He turns in a circle, then points in the direction of the bar. โOh! We were near the bar. I remember, because Colin said something about it. Something like, โCool, easy access.โโ
โNice! Right next to the bar. Best seat in the house.โ
I freeze. I can see Colin standing in front of me in his rumpled suit, grinning as he points to the bar. Savvy, already holding a glass of wine, stands on her toes and kisses his cheek.
She looks so beautiful in that pink dress. The thin straps show off all her tattoos, and it swishes around her knees as she walks. Iโd forgotten what that dress looks like when it isnโt covered in blood and dirt.
The crime scene photos flash through my mind. Pink dress twisted around her legs, caked in grime. And then itโs not the crime scene, itโs right in front of me. Iโm staring down at her.
But, no, that canโt be right, because itโs daylight. I never saw Savvy dead in the daylight.
I donโt think.
โLucy.โ Thereโs a hand on my back, and I look up to see Matt, his brow furrowed in concern. Ben, standing across from me, looks ready to catch me swooning again.
I blink, stepping away from both of them. โWhat else? Did we mostly stay in here?โ
โIโm sorry, but most of the actual reception is a blur,โ Matt says apologetically. โAnd you and I werenโt really getting along that day, so we didnโt actually stay together most of the evening. Savvy didnโt like me, and she didnโt pretend otherwise. I canโt really blame her, I guess.โ
I look at him in surprise, but his gaze is across the room.
โYou and Savvy stuck together that night, for the most part. Not the whole time, though. At one point I looked around and Savvy was at the table without you, and then I looked again like half an hour later and I still couldnโt find you.โ
โI remember you telling the police that.โ I glance at Ben. โYou never found any guests to confirm where I was?โ
โNo. No one remembers seeing you anywhere out of the ordinary.โ He points across the room. โThe restrooms are that way, right? Letโs take a walk down there.โ
My heart thumps frantically as I follow him across the room. I take a slow breath. Thereโs no reason to be nervous. Iโm walking through an empty wedding venue.
Savvyโs in the hallway, wearing her pink dress, holding a bloody knife.
She grins and holds it up to Mattโs face as he walks by her.
โYouโre always just using whateverโs around,โ she says. โBe prepared, like a Boy Scout! Bring your own murder weapon!โ
I shake my head, willing the image away. We turn a corner. I stop. I look to my left.
Thereโs a door to the outside, sunlight shining through the small square window like itโs beckoning us over to it.
โI think I went that way,โ I say.
โOutside?โ Ben asks. โWhy? You hate outside.โ
I almost laugh as I walk to it. โI know. But I think I did.โ
I push the door open, squinting in the bright sunlight. There isnโt much on this side of the building. Just a dumpster, way down at the other end of the building, and what looks like the remains of a broken canopy resting against the brick.
โAre you sure?โ Matt stands with Ben in the doorway. โThe outdoor area where people were smoking is on the other side.โ
I take another step. Thereโs a little alcove, currently filled with several nearly empty cans of paint.
I can feel the brick against my back suddenly. I can smell fresh paint as lips press into mine. One of the straps of my dress has slipped down, and thereโs a hand on my breast. I kiss him again. Itโs a man. I can still feel the way he smashed his lips into mine.
โLucy,โ Ben says.
โLucy,โ Savvy said sharply.
I jolt. I remember the air on my breast as heโd moved his hand. Iโd pulled my strap back up while she stared at me with an expressionโanger? Was she mad?
I try to see the guy. I canโt. I can feel his breath against my lips. His hips grinding into mine. But thereโs just empty white space when I try to see his face.
โLetโs go,โ Savvy barked, and turned on her heel.
And then thereโs nothing. I donโt know whether I said goodbye to whoever the guy was. I donโt know whether I followed her right away. Maybe I stayed and had sex with the mystery man. The way he was grinding his hips into mine, we may have been headed that way.
I look at Matt.
โWhat?โ he says. โYou remember why you were out here?โ One thingโs for sure. The guy wasnโt Matt.
And whoever it was, he hasnโt bothered telling anyone. โNo,โ I say. โI donโt remember.โ
Matt cocks an eyebrow. He knows Iโm lying.





