Chapter no 50

The Nurse's Secret

That evening, after a bowl of thin gruel and cup of beef tea, Una pleaded with Nurse Cuddy to allow her a short stroll on the lawn, insisting a little fresh air would be good for her lungs. At last, Nurse Cuddy conceded. She wrapped a heavy blanket around Unaโ€™s shoulders and helped her downstairs. Spring had returned in full force after the weekโ€™s earlier snow. The lawn was green and fragrant with new blooms.

โ€œIโ€™ll be back to fetch you in half an hour,โ€ Nurse Cuddy said, after seating Una on a bench. โ€œMind that you donโ€™t overtire yourself.โ€

Una nodded, but as soon as Nurse Cuddy had vanished within the hospital, she quit the bench and snuck into the nearby Sturges Pavilion.

Druโ€™s bed remained apart from the others at the far end of the ward. But instead of lying down, tossing and moaning in a feverish sleep, Dru sat propped against a stack of pillows, sipping a bowl of broth. She looked thin and frail, but her cheeks had regained their rosy glow.

Una hesitated before making her way across the ward. Would Dru forgive her for being such a rotten friend? Maybe she wouldnโ€™t remember Mr. Knauff and all that had happened the day she fell ill. Maybe they could go on as if it never happened.

She stopped at the table in the middle of the ward, leaning against it as she caught her breath. Her throat still burned with each shallow draw of air. She watched Dru take another sip of broth and screwed her resolve. To pretend nothing had happened was tantamount to a lie. And Una was done lying.

Dru spotted Una as she neared the bed. Her eyes widened and lips wobbled before settling into a frown. โ€œGood heavens, Una! What happened to you?โ€

Una had forgotten how dreadful she lookedโ€”throat bruised and eyes bloodshot. She pulled the blanket snuggly around herself and sat down on the edge of Druโ€™s bed. โ€œYou should see the other fellow.โ€

Dru didnโ€™t laugh but continued to stare at her in confusion. โ€œBut youโ€™re all right, arenโ€™t you?โ€

โ€œNever mind about me. Iโ€™m fine. Youโ€™re the one whoโ€™s been sick. Really, I ought to let you rest and come back another time. Iโ€™m just glad youโ€™re on the mend. Iโ€™ve been so worried. Truly, and I only wanted to sayโ€”โ€ Una stopped. She was rambling like a fool.

Dru reached out and grabbed her hand. โ€œGo on.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s just . . . Iโ€™m terribly sorry, Dru. For everything. Involving you in the search for Deidreโ€™s murderer. Ratting you out to Miss Perkins when Mr. Knauffโ€™s death wasnโ€™t even your fault. Caring only for myself when here you were falling ill to typhus.โ€

Una waited for Dru to let go of her hand and shrink away. To turn up her chin and insist that Una leave. But she didnโ€™t.

โ€œThereโ€™s more. I havenโ€™t been straight with you from the start . . .โ€

Una told her everything. Her voice grew more hoarse and her throat sore. But she continued, staring down at the floor as she spoke, afraid of what she might see in Druโ€™s expression.

Silence greeted her when she finished, and, for once, Una wished Dru would say something. Anything. She dared a glance up. Instead of revulsion, she found kindness in Druโ€™s eyes.

โ€œOh, Una,โ€ she said at last. โ€œNo wonder youโ€™re so brave.โ€

Brave? Thatโ€™s how Dru saw her? After everything sheโ€™d told her? Not selfish or scheming but brave?

Dru squeezed her hand and rested her head back against the pillows. Her eyelids fluttered shut and were slow to open. Una knew she ought to leave Dru to rest. Miss Cuddy would be coming for her soon, anyway. Best she get back to the lawn. She squeezed Druโ€™s hand in return and stood.

โ€œIโ€™m sure Mrs. Buchanan could find you another roommate,โ€ she said. โ€œThat is, if you want.โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t be a goose, Una. But you best be ready. Weโ€™re weeks behind in our study. We never finished reading about the alimentary system or the respiratory system . . .โ€ She prattled on like her old self for a full minute longer before falling asleep. Una pulled Druโ€™s blanket up to her chin, then hurried best she couldโ€”her gait was still a bit unsteadyโ€”back to the lawn.

She sat down on the bench and stared out at the river. The waning sunlight played on the water, bathing the sails of the passing schooners in an orange glow.

โ€œMind if I join you?โ€ a voice said from behind her.

Una turned and saw Edwin. She thought of their last bitter parting, and that stabbing pain in her chest revived. He sat down on the edge of the bench before she could reply. His eyes lingered on her neck.

โ€œGood God, Una, you look worse now than you did last night.โ€ โ€œYou were here when they brought me in?โ€

He cocked his head. โ€œYou donโ€™t remember? I was the one who found you.โ€

She thought back to the night before, the tourniquet biting into her neck, Conorโ€™s weight heavy atop her, the banging noise that reverberated through the floorboards. She shivered. โ€œYou were there? At the lodging house?โ€

โ€œI was about to head home last night when I saw Mr. McCready leave with the ambulance. There hadnโ€™t been any gong or call for the surgeon, but I didnโ€™t think much of it until I remembered what youโ€™d said. I flagged down a cab and followed him.โ€

Una remembered the hansom cab sheโ€™d seen trailing them. โ€œI thought you didnโ€™t believe me.โ€

โ€œI didnโ€™t. At least I thought I didnโ€™t. But I wanted to be sure. When I got to where the ambulance was parked, I didnโ€™t notice anything suspicious and assumed Conor had gone into the saloon for a drink. I was about to leave when I saw you in the third-floor window. Then Conor came around a moment later and closed the curtain. I knew something was wrong. I would have gotten to you sooner, but that damned lodge keeper wouldnโ€™t tell me what room you were in. I tried every one until I found you.โ€ He swiveled around on the bench to face her. โ€œThank God youโ€™d managed to sedate him. Any tighter and that tourniquet would have killed you.โ€ He reached out as if to touch her, then let his hand fall back to his side. โ€œNone of this would have happened if Iโ€™d believed you from the start.โ€

Sheโ€™d given him good reason not to with all her lies. But that didnโ€™t mean she was ready to forgive him.

They sat a moment in silence, then Una turned her gaze back to the lawn. The shadow cast by the hospital had lengthened, stretching to the dock. A large, dark bird with a spray of white tail feathers swooped down over the water.

โ€œIs that an eagle?โ€ she asked, watching it skim the glassy surface before coming away with a writhing fish.

โ€œLooks like it. Itโ€™s about the time of year they start rebuilding their nests.โ€ He sat forward, resting his forearms on his legs, and turned his head sheepishly to look at her. โ€œWe could meet at Central Park Sunday and find out.โ€

โ€œEdwin, donโ€™t. We canโ€™t pretend like the past didnโ€™t happen. Iโ€™m not the woman you thought you fell in love with.โ€

โ€œMaybe not. But Iโ€™d like to get to know the woman you really are.โ€ โ€œThatโ€™s not how you felt in the operating theater. You could hardly bear

to look at me, let alone help me.โ€ Her gaze drifted upward from the river to the darkening sky. โ€œI havenโ€™t changed.โ€

โ€œBut I have. I was angry that you lied to me, yes. Embarrassed that Iโ€™d been played the fool.โ€

โ€œI never meantโ€”โ€

โ€œI know. And once I got past my bruised ego, I realized that Iโ€™d lied to you too. I told you to trust me, begged you to trust me, and when you finally did, I betrayed that trust.โ€ He sat up and ran a hand through his hair. โ€œIf you give me another chance, letโ€™s start fresh. I promise I wonโ€™t betray you again.โ€

Una glanced at him from the corner of her eye, still unsure. But he wasnโ€™t asking for promises or declarations. He was asking for a second chance. โ€œYou havenโ€™t forgotten that Iโ€™m a thief?โ€

โ€œFormer thief.โ€

โ€œAnd that I donโ€™t come from a privileged background.โ€

โ€œI havenโ€™t forgotten, and I donโ€™t care.โ€

โ€œYour family will.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t care if they care. An old friend advised me to be my own man. I think Iโ€™ll take her advice.โ€

โ€œMiss Perkins mentioned I might be able to rejoin the training school. Socializing with gentlemen, youโ€™ll remember, is strictly forbidden.โ€

He flashed her a mischievous smile. โ€œI wonโ€™t tell a soul. Besides, I know a few storerooms and a rather jolting elevator where we can be alone.โ€

Una shook her head and laughed, wincing at the still-raw pain in her throat. โ€œDonโ€™t joke. It hurts to laugh.โ€

Edwin reached out again and boldly took her hand. Her skin tingled at his touch.

โ€œIโ€™m entirely serious.โ€ His thumb caressed the top of her hand. โ€œA new beginning, then?โ€

Unaโ€™s gaze swept along the northeast wing of the hospital, taking in the river and the twinkling stars overhead. She never would have imagined herself working at a place like Bellevue, helping people instead of fleecing them, letting them into her heart instead of going it alone. It defied all her rules. But maybe it was time to make new ones.

She nodded at Edwin and intertwined her fingers with his. โ€œYes, a new beginning.โ€

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