That evening, after a bowl of thin gruel and cup of beef tea, Una pleaded with Nurse Cuddy to allow her a short stroll on the lawn, insisting a little fresh air would be good for her lungs. At last, Nurse Cuddy conceded. She wrapped a heavy blanket around Unaโs shoulders and helped her downstairs. Spring had returned in full force after the weekโs earlier snow. The lawn was green and fragrant with new blooms.
โIโll be back to fetch you in half an hour,โ Nurse Cuddy said, after seating Una on a bench. โMind that you donโt overtire yourself.โ
Una nodded, but as soon as Nurse Cuddy had vanished within the hospital, she quit the bench and snuck into the nearby Sturges Pavilion.
Druโs bed remained apart from the others at the far end of the ward. But instead of lying down, tossing and moaning in a feverish sleep, Dru sat propped against a stack of pillows, sipping a bowl of broth. She looked thin and frail, but her cheeks had regained their rosy glow.
Una hesitated before making her way across the ward. Would Dru forgive her for being such a rotten friend? Maybe she wouldnโt remember Mr. Knauff and all that had happened the day she fell ill. Maybe they could go on as if it never happened.
She stopped at the table in the middle of the ward, leaning against it as she caught her breath. Her throat still burned with each shallow draw of air. She watched Dru take another sip of broth and screwed her resolve. To pretend nothing had happened was tantamount to a lie. And Una was done lying.
Dru spotted Una as she neared the bed. Her eyes widened and lips wobbled before settling into a frown. โGood heavens, Una! What happened to you?โ
Una had forgotten how dreadful she lookedโthroat bruised and eyes bloodshot. She pulled the blanket snuggly around herself and sat down on the edge of Druโs bed. โYou should see the other fellow.โ
Dru didnโt laugh but continued to stare at her in confusion. โBut youโre all right, arenโt you?โ
โNever mind about me. Iโm fine. Youโre the one whoโs been sick. Really, I ought to let you rest and come back another time. Iโm just glad youโre on the mend. Iโve been so worried. Truly, and I only wanted to sayโโ Una stopped. She was rambling like a fool.
Dru reached out and grabbed her hand. โGo on.โ
โItโs just . . . Iโm terribly sorry, Dru. For everything. Involving you in the search for Deidreโs murderer. Ratting you out to Miss Perkins when Mr. Knauffโs death wasnโt even your fault. Caring only for myself when here you were falling ill to typhus.โ
Una waited for Dru to let go of her hand and shrink away. To turn up her chin and insist that Una leave. But she didnโt.
โThereโs more. I havenโt been straight with you from the start . . .โ
Una told her everything. Her voice grew more hoarse and her throat sore. But she continued, staring down at the floor as she spoke, afraid of what she might see in Druโs expression.
Silence greeted her when she finished, and, for once, Una wished Dru would say something. Anything. She dared a glance up. Instead of revulsion, she found kindness in Druโs eyes.
โOh, Una,โ she said at last. โNo wonder youโre so brave.โ
Brave? Thatโs how Dru saw her? After everything sheโd told her? Not selfish or scheming but brave?
Dru squeezed her hand and rested her head back against the pillows. Her eyelids fluttered shut and were slow to open. Una knew she ought to leave Dru to rest. Miss Cuddy would be coming for her soon, anyway. Best she get back to the lawn. She squeezed Druโs hand in return and stood.
โIโm sure Mrs. Buchanan could find you another roommate,โ she said. โThat is, if you want.โ
โDonโt be a goose, Una. But you best be ready. Weโre weeks behind in our study. We never finished reading about the alimentary system or the respiratory system . . .โ She prattled on like her old self for a full minute longer before falling asleep. Una pulled Druโs blanket up to her chin, then hurried best she couldโher gait was still a bit unsteadyโback to the lawn.
She sat down on the bench and stared out at the river. The waning sunlight played on the water, bathing the sails of the passing schooners in an orange glow.
โMind if I join you?โ a voice said from behind her.
Una turned and saw Edwin. She thought of their last bitter parting, and that stabbing pain in her chest revived. He sat down on the edge of the bench before she could reply. His eyes lingered on her neck.
โGood God, Una, you look worse now than you did last night.โ โYou were here when they brought me in?โ
He cocked his head. โYou donโt remember? I was the one who found you.โ
She thought back to the night before, the tourniquet biting into her neck, Conorโs weight heavy atop her, the banging noise that reverberated through the floorboards. She shivered. โYou were there? At the lodging house?โ
โI was about to head home last night when I saw Mr. McCready leave with the ambulance. There hadnโt been any gong or call for the surgeon, but I didnโt think much of it until I remembered what youโd said. I flagged down a cab and followed him.โ
Una remembered the hansom cab sheโd seen trailing them. โI thought you didnโt believe me.โ
โI didnโt. At least I thought I didnโt. But I wanted to be sure. When I got to where the ambulance was parked, I didnโt notice anything suspicious and assumed Conor had gone into the saloon for a drink. I was about to leave when I saw you in the third-floor window. Then Conor came around a moment later and closed the curtain. I knew something was wrong. I would have gotten to you sooner, but that damned lodge keeper wouldnโt tell me what room you were in. I tried every one until I found you.โ He swiveled around on the bench to face her. โThank God youโd managed to sedate him. Any tighter and that tourniquet would have killed you.โ He reached out as if to touch her, then let his hand fall back to his side. โNone of this would have happened if Iโd believed you from the start.โ
Sheโd given him good reason not to with all her lies. But that didnโt mean she was ready to forgive him.
They sat a moment in silence, then Una turned her gaze back to the lawn. The shadow cast by the hospital had lengthened, stretching to the dock. A large, dark bird with a spray of white tail feathers swooped down over the water.
โIs that an eagle?โ she asked, watching it skim the glassy surface before coming away with a writhing fish.
โLooks like it. Itโs about the time of year they start rebuilding their nests.โ He sat forward, resting his forearms on his legs, and turned his head sheepishly to look at her. โWe could meet at Central Park Sunday and find out.โ
โEdwin, donโt. We canโt pretend like the past didnโt happen. Iโm not the woman you thought you fell in love with.โ
โMaybe not. But Iโd like to get to know the woman you really are.โ โThatโs not how you felt in the operating theater. You could hardly bear
to look at me, let alone help me.โ Her gaze drifted upward from the river to the darkening sky. โI havenโt changed.โ
โBut I have. I was angry that you lied to me, yes. Embarrassed that Iโd been played the fool.โ
โI never meantโโ
โI know. And once I got past my bruised ego, I realized that Iโd lied to you too. I told you to trust me, begged you to trust me, and when you finally did, I betrayed that trust.โ He sat up and ran a hand through his hair. โIf you give me another chance, letโs start fresh. I promise I wonโt betray you again.โ
Una glanced at him from the corner of her eye, still unsure. But he wasnโt asking for promises or declarations. He was asking for a second chance. โYou havenโt forgotten that Iโm a thief?โ
โFormer thief.โ
โAnd that I donโt come from a privileged background.โ
โI havenโt forgotten, and I donโt care.โ
โYour family will.โ
โI donโt care if they care. An old friend advised me to be my own man. I think Iโll take her advice.โ
โMiss Perkins mentioned I might be able to rejoin the training school. Socializing with gentlemen, youโll remember, is strictly forbidden.โ
He flashed her a mischievous smile. โI wonโt tell a soul. Besides, I know a few storerooms and a rather jolting elevator where we can be alone.โ
Una shook her head and laughed, wincing at the still-raw pain in her throat. โDonโt joke. It hurts to laugh.โ
Edwin reached out again and boldly took her hand. Her skin tingled at his touch.
โIโm entirely serious.โ His thumb caressed the top of her hand. โA new beginning, then?โ
Unaโs gaze swept along the northeast wing of the hospital, taking in the river and the twinkling stars overhead. She never would have imagined herself working at a place like Bellevue, helping people instead of fleecing them, letting them into her heart instead of going it alone. It defied all her rules. But maybe it was time to make new ones.
She nodded at Edwin and intertwined her fingers with his. โYes, a new beginning.โ