โโYour new boyfriend is kind of a dick,โ Mason tells me as I lead him out of the gymnasium.โ
โHeโs not really,โ I say, but I canโt blame Mason for thinking so. I couldnโt figure out what was going on, when Geoff danced me back to Tripp and he and Mason were just standing there awkwardly, not speaking or even looking at one another. Then Geoff spun Mason away, and Tripp told me what had happened. I ran after Mason, made some kind of excuse I donโt even remember to pull him away, and here we are.
My eyes scan the hallway. Where can I take Mason so that we wonโt be interrupted forโwhatever conversation it is that weโre about to have? We pass Mr. Larkinโs defaced poster, and I canโt bring myself to look at Mason to see whether or not he reacts. What isย happening? What did happen? My brain is spinning between thinking thereโs a simple, innocent, totally unrelated explanation, and trying to slot Mason into everything Iโve learned over the past couple of weeks.
โHere,โ I say, pulling open the auditorium door. Itโs cavernous, but empty, and at least itโs a closed space. I head for the front near the stairs that
lead onto the stage, where weโll be sure to see any of the doors if they open. โAre you going to tell me what this is about anytime soon?โ Mason
asks.
โYes.โ I sit on the steps, and Mason folds himself beside me. โHereโs the thing. You know how someoneโs been vandalizing posters of Mr. Larkin?โ
Mason doesnโt have a poker face. His eyes instantly go wide before he catches himself, and even then he blinks too fast. โUm, yeah. Of course.โ
Oh God. Heat rushes to my cheeks as I take a deep breath, trying to slow the sudden hammering of my heart. โWell, Ellie wanted to find out who,โ I say. โShe hung a poster of Mr. Larkin in the hallway, and left a marker coated with ultraviolet powder on the desk beside it. So that if someone picked up the marker to write on the poster, the powder would leave residue on their hands that would show up under black light.โ I take Masonโs hand and turn it so his palm, unmarked beneath the standard auditorium lighting, is facing upward. โLike yours did. Thatโs why Tripp freaked when you held out your hand.โ
Mason snatches his hand away. โTripp was seeing things,โ he says. โI saw it too,โ I say. โBefore we left the gym.โ
His jaw clenches. โI donโt know what you want me to say. I picked up a marker. So what?โ
So what?ย I really, really wish that was a valid question, but I know itโs not. The whole time weโve been talking, the enormity of what I missed has been making me almost dizzy. I pull my phone from the pocket of my dress and unlock it with shaking hands. โThe thing is, Iโve been looking into what happened to Mr. Larkin. On my own, kind of, now that Iโm not working forย Motiveย anymore. And I found out that Mr. Larkin changed his name, and that he had a stepmother, and a half brother our age, andโฆโ What did Ellie say?ย Book smart isnโt people smart.ย Iโm the most people-stupid girl in the universe. โMason, this is your mom, isnโt it?โ
I hand him theย Union Leaderย article about Lila and Michael Robbins, and watch his face collapse.
I should have seen it straightaway. I went to Masonโs house plenty of times between fourth and eighth grade. But by then his mother was much older than Lila Robbins is in theย Union Leaderย photograph, and dark-haired instead of bleached blond. Ms. Rafferty has glasses and never wears makeup, and itโs possible she had a nose job. But still. The similarities should have caught my eye, and maybe they would have, if I hadnโt been so focused on Shane Delgado. Plus, I didnโt know that Masonโs father isnโt his biological father untilย right this second.
โYeah, it is.โ Mason hands my phone back, eyes glassy. โIโฆI never told you about any of that because it was a long time ago, and becauseโฆโ
โBecause you didnโt want me to know that Mr. Larkin was your brother?โ I ask.
โHalf brother,โ he says bitterly.
โCan you tell me what happened?โ My phone is clenched tightly in my hands, and my mind is still churning. Iโm remembering more nowโand one of the things I remember is that Mason and his family were in Florida visiting his grandparents when Mr. Larkin died. They didnโt come back until after the funeral. Whatever desperation Mason or his mother might have felt four years ago, it couldnโt have led them in the darkest possible direction. And even though thereโs not a single part of me that believes Mason is capable of hurting anyone, Iโm shaken enough in my own perceptions to feel deeply relieved that he was nowhere near the crime scene.
โWhere would I even start?โ Mason says woodenly.
โDo you remember yourโfather?โ I stumble over the word.
โOf course I do.โ A spark of anger animates Masonโs voice. โIโve lived with him for almost fourteen years. Myย fatherย is my father.โ
โI know. I mean, do you rememberโฆDexter?โ
โNo,โ Mason says. His hands are knotted between his knees. โI donโt remember anything. All I know is what my mother told me. She was really young, and naรฏve, and he didnโt seem so bad at first. But he got worse, fast. I was sick all the time, I guess, and he wouldnโt do anything about it. He wouldnโt even let her leave the house without him.โ
โYou have asthma,โ I say. Itโs the least important detail, I realize, and yetโitโs another thing that I missed.
โIโve been asymptomatic for a while,โ Mason says. โThe chronic stuff in my lungs is still there, probably, but it doesnโt bother me like it used to.โ He shoots me a wry look. โBut yeah, I have an inhaler. I just donโt use it much.โ
I nod, absorbing that. โSo your mom left when you were three?โ
โYeah. Mom told me that we were literally locked in the house while he was gone,โ Mason says. โHe was making the whole place a fortress. Bars on the windows and padlocks on the doors. There was only one window he didnโt bother with, because he thought it was too small. But it wasnโt. Thatโs the one she used. She didnโt take anything except me.โ
He exhales a deep, shaky breath. โMom didnโt have any family. Her parents died when she was in high school. But Mr. Solomon used to be a good friend of her dadโs, so thatโs who she called when she got us out. He
โโ
โWait,โ I interrupt. โMr. Solomon, from Saint Ambrose?โ
Mason nods. โHe came and got us, brought us to Sturgis and helped Mom find a job and an apartment. Introduced her to my dad, even. She took Dadโs name when they got married, and changed mine. And everything was fine, for a while.โ
โUntil Mr. Larkin came here?โ
โI thought he was so great.โ Masonโs voice cracks. โThe cool teacher who was actually interested inย me.ย Always asking so many questions. But then one day, maybe a week before he died, he asked me to stop by his classroom after school to talk about my Shakespeare essay. I was excited, because I thought Iโd done really well, and that maybe Iโd get a prize or something.โ He shakes his head. โInstead he told me who he was.โ
โWhat did you say?โ I ask.
โNothing. I couldnโt speak the whole time I was there. I just sat at my desk, totally silent, while he talked. At first I thought it might be okay, because he apologized for how things were back when I was littleโ apologized that he didnโt do more to stop Dexter from being horrible. But
he also kept calling me โMikey,โ and trying to give me this medallion with that name written on the back. I wouldnโt take itโIย couldnโtย take it, because I was frozen in placeโand I think that made him mad. He shoved it into my backpack and said I was a Robbins, and my mom had no right to hide me away from his father.โ I donโt miss the way Masonโs hands clench as he saysย hisย father. โHe saidโฆhe said Dexterโs birthday was the next week, and he was going to tell him where to find me. Can you imagine? That was the last thing he said to me before he leftโโYouโll be the best birthday present Dad has ever had.โ โ
โOh, Mason.โ I slip my hand into one of his. โIโm so sorry. That must have been terrifying.โ
โIt was.โ Mason lowers his voice to a near-whisper. โI mustโve sat there for an hour afterward, totally in shock. I didnโt know what to do. I told my parents, and they talked to Mr. Solomon, and he said we should just take off again. But it would be a lot harder to do a second time, you know?โ
โSo Mr. Solomon knew that Mr. Larkin threatened you?โ I ask. Suddenly our old groundskeeper snarlingย That son of a bitch got what he deservedย makes sense. Iโm not sure itโs something Mr. Solomon would have said if heโd been 100 percent in his right mind, but itโs not out of left field anymore.
Mason nods. โHe came with us to Florida when we visited my dadโs parents. I know I told you guys it was a spur-of-the-moment vacation, but it was actually this intense strategy session with a family lawyer, and thenโ while we were gone, Mr. Larkin died.โ
โAnd heโd never said anything to his father about you?โ
โI guess he didnโt get the chance,โ Mason says. โWe kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, but it didnโt.โ I squeeze his hand, and he adds, โI thought I was over it, and I think I am, mostly, butโฆโ He gazes around the auditorium. โI was here over winter break with student council, making posters for the class play, and the red marker ran out, so I went backstage to look for another one. I found it, and then I saw the easel with Mr. Larkinโs portrait. It was covered, and I was curious, so I lifted the cloth andโI donโt know. Everything went hazy for a few seconds, andโฆI did what I did.โ
โAnd kept doing it?โ I ask, trying to keep my voice as judgment-free as possible. โTo all of Ms. Kelsoโs posters?โ
Mason cringes, then extends the hand Iโm not holding and flexes his palm, like heโs checking for the green residue we saw in the gymnasium. โIโm not proud of myself, believe me. It was a shitty thing to do to Ms. Kelso, and toโฆโ He swallows hard. โTo Mr. Larkin. Itโs not like I wanted him to die, or that I donโt wish things could have been different with us. But when youโve spent most of your life hiding, sometimes the pressure gets to be too much.โ He drops his hand back into his lap and meets my eyes. โYou really had no idea before tonight?โ
โNone,โ I say. โIn fact, I created an entire theory in my head where Shane Delgado was Michael Robbins.โ
โShane?โ Even as he winces at his old name, Mason manages a laugh. โThat has to be the first and last time Iโve ever been mistaken for Shane Delgado.โ Then his expression turns thoughtful. โFunny you should say that, though, because it turns out Shane was there.โ
โWhat?โ I ask, confused. โShane was where?โ
โIn the classroom, when Mr. Larkin told me who he was.โ I gape at him, and he adds, โWell, in the coatroom. Asleep, like always. After Mr. Larkin left, I was just sitting at my desk, shell-shocked, and all of a sudden Shane stumbled out of the coatroom, yawning, and staggered past me out the door. I donโt think he even noticed me.โ
โWait, soโฆโ I rub my suddenly aching temples. โDid he hear you?
Does Shane know Mr. Larkin was your brother?โ
โWell, Iโve always wondered,โ Mason says. โAnd I was worried for a while. I mean, he wasย right there.ย Heโs never said anything, though, or acted any different toward me.โ He snorts out a light laugh. โIn other words, heโs continued to ignore me as much as ever.โ
I canโt even process this right now. Just when I was ready to cross Shane off my suspect list, it turns out he mightโve known all along who Mr. Larkin was. Butโฆwhy would he care? What possible difference could that make to Shane? Before I can follow that train of thought, though, Mason asks, โWhat are you going to do?โ
โAbout what?โ
โAboutโฆโ He makes a sweeping gesture with his hand. โAll this. Are you going toโtell anyone?โ His voice catches. โIโm almost eighteen. I donโt think Iโd have to see Dexter if I donโt want to, but my momโฆI donโt know what kind of trouble she might get into, leaving the way she did, andโฆโ
โMason, no,โ I say quickly. โI wonโt say a word. Itโs your familyโs business.โ But even as I say it, I canโt stop thinking about how I accidentally showed theย Billyย medallion to maybe-Dexter in the pawnshop. I should tell Mason about that, probably, but the relief on his face is so stark that I canโt make myself bring it up.
Men like Dexter are a hornetโs nest,ย Rose said.ย Why poke it if you donโt have to, right?ย But I didnโt listen.
โWill Ellie or Tripp say anything?โ Mason asks.
โNo. Ellieโs a vault, and Trippโฆhe has his own demons when it comes to that day.โ Mason raises his brows, looking interested despite still being in a state of semi-shock, and I shove gently at his shoulder. โDonโt ask. Itโs not my story to tell.โ
โYouโre holding a lot of secrets, Brynn,โ Mason says. โBe careful. That can wear a person down after a while. I should know.โ I just smile tightly, and he adds, โNow what?โ
I unclench my lips. โNow go back to the gym and dance with your date.โ
Mason lets out a strangled half laugh. โOh, sure. Why not? Dance the night away.โ
โDo you have a better idea?โ
He sighs and gets to his feet. โNot really.โ
I stand too, and ask, โCan I give you a hug?โ
He chokes out, โPlease.โ We grab on to one another and hold tight, and I let him be the first to pull away. โAll right,โ he says, wiping his eyes. โIโm gonna find Geoff. You coming?โ
โIn a minute,โ I say.
Mason gives me one more smile and says, โSee you in there.โ
I watch him leave, then turn my attention to my phone, which is filled with check-in texts from Tripp and Ellie. My overstuffed brain is too exhausted to tell them anything exceptย Everythingโs ok. Iโll explain soon.ย And thenโI hear something. A light rustling sound, coming from behind the auditorium curtain. I freeze, my heart pounding loudly in my ears. Before I can lose my nerve, I lunge for the curtains and sweep them aside.
A flash of white rounds a corner, and I follow. โCharlotte!โ I call out, nearly tripping over an empty cardboard box. โStop, okay? I know itโs you.โ
From where I stand I can see Charlotte paused, one foot on the bottom of the stairs leading backstage. The jeweled pins in her hair sparkle beneath the dim lights. โHow much did you hear?โ I ask, which is a ridiculous question. Of course she heard everything.
Oh God.ย Nowย what have I done to Mason?
Charlotte turns to face me, her flawless features so empty of expression that she looks like a statue. โMasonย is Mr. Larkinโs brother?โ she asks.
โYou canโt say anything. Please, Charlotte. Itโs not safe for him.โ Iโm babbling, my words tripping over one another as I walk toward her, slowly, my hands clasped together as though Iโm praying. โYou understand that, right? His father is a monster, andโฆโ I pause when I get closer and spot the tear tracks on her face. โWait,โ I say. โWhy are you here? Whatโs wrong?โ
โNothing. I just needed some time alone.โ Charlotte folds her arms stiffly but canโt prevent another tear from slipping down her cheek. Then her face crumples and she says, โShane broke up with me.โ
โOh, Charlotte. Iโm sorry.โ And I truly am. I wish we were on better terms so that I could hug her, but Iโm pretty sure sheโd hate that. โMaybe itโs just temporary?โ I offer. โHe seemed pretty drunk.โ
โI donโt think so,โ she says, with genuine sadness in her voice. โIโd do anything for himโabsolutely anythingโbut heโs tired, he says. Tired of being in a relationship. What he really means, though, is heโs tired ofย me.โ
โCan I help?โ I ask. โWe could leave, maybe get a coffee, orโโ
She vehemently shakes her head, as if the very thought horrifies her, and Iโm glad I held off on the hug. โNo,โ she says. โIโm going home. And I wonโt say anything about Mason, I promise.โ My knees go weak with relief,
and Iโm about to thank her profusely when she adds, โBut you should knock it off, Brynn.โ
โKnock what off?โ I ask.
โThis wholeโVeronica Mars thing youโre doing,โ she says, waving her hand in a circle. โItโs dangerous, and if you keep going, you might learn something youโd rather not know.โ
โLike what?โ I ask as she turns away. โCharlotte? Like what?โ
Thereโs no answer except the tap of her heels, and then the squeal of hinges as she opens the exit door and steps outside.