Chapter no 38

Nothing More to Tell

โ€Œโ€œYour new boyfriend is kind of a dick,โ€ Mason tells me as I lead him out of the gymnasium.โ€Œ

โ€œHeโ€™s not really,โ€ I say, but I canโ€™t blame Mason for thinking so. I couldnโ€™t figure out what was going on, when Geoff danced me back to Tripp and he and Mason were just standing there awkwardly, not speaking or even looking at one another. Then Geoff spun Mason away, and Tripp told me what had happened. I ran after Mason, made some kind of excuse I donโ€™t even remember to pull him away, and here we are.

My eyes scan the hallway. Where can I take Mason so that we wonโ€™t be interrupted forโ€”whatever conversation it is that weโ€™re about to have? We pass Mr. Larkinโ€™s defaced poster, and I canโ€™t bring myself to look at Mason to see whether or not he reacts. What isย happening? What did happen? My brain is spinning between thinking thereโ€™s a simple, innocent, totally unrelated explanation, and trying to slot Mason into everything Iโ€™ve learned over the past couple of weeks.

โ€œHere,โ€ I say, pulling open the auditorium door. Itโ€™s cavernous, but empty, and at least itโ€™s a closed space. I head for the front near the stairs that

lead onto the stage, where weโ€™ll be sure to see any of the doors if they open. โ€œAre you going to tell me what this is about anytime soon?โ€ Mason

asks.

โ€œYes.โ€ I sit on the steps, and Mason folds himself beside me. โ€œHereโ€™s the thing. You know how someoneโ€™s been vandalizing posters of Mr. Larkin?โ€

Mason doesnโ€™t have a poker face. His eyes instantly go wide before he catches himself, and even then he blinks too fast. โ€œUm, yeah. Of course.โ€

Oh God. Heat rushes to my cheeks as I take a deep breath, trying to slow the sudden hammering of my heart. โ€œWell, Ellie wanted to find out who,โ€ I say. โ€œShe hung a poster of Mr. Larkin in the hallway, and left a marker coated with ultraviolet powder on the desk beside it. So that if someone picked up the marker to write on the poster, the powder would leave residue on their hands that would show up under black light.โ€ I take Masonโ€™s hand and turn it so his palm, unmarked beneath the standard auditorium lighting, is facing upward. โ€œLike yours did. Thatโ€™s why Tripp freaked when you held out your hand.โ€

Mason snatches his hand away. โ€œTripp was seeing things,โ€ he says. โ€œI saw it too,โ€ I say. โ€œBefore we left the gym.โ€

His jaw clenches. โ€œI donโ€™t know what you want me to say. I picked up a marker. So what?โ€

So what?ย I really, really wish that was a valid question, but I know itโ€™s not. The whole time weโ€™ve been talking, the enormity of what I missed has been making me almost dizzy. I pull my phone from the pocket of my dress and unlock it with shaking hands. โ€œThe thing is, Iโ€™ve been looking into what happened to Mr. Larkin. On my own, kind of, now that Iโ€™m not working forย Motiveย anymore. And I found out that Mr. Larkin changed his name, and that he had a stepmother, and a half brother our age, andโ€ฆโ€ What did Ellie say?ย Book smart isnโ€™t people smart.ย Iโ€™m the most people-stupid girl in the universe. โ€œMason, this is your mom, isnโ€™t it?โ€

I hand him theย Union Leaderย article about Lila and Michael Robbins, and watch his face collapse.

I should have seen it straightaway. I went to Masonโ€™s house plenty of times between fourth and eighth grade. But by then his mother was much older than Lila Robbins is in theย Union Leaderย photograph, and dark-haired instead of bleached blond. Ms. Rafferty has glasses and never wears makeup, and itโ€™s possible she had a nose job. But still. The similarities should have caught my eye, and maybe they would have, if I hadnโ€™t been so focused on Shane Delgado. Plus, I didnโ€™t know that Masonโ€™s father isnโ€™t his biological father untilย right this second.

โ€œYeah, it is.โ€ Mason hands my phone back, eyes glassy. โ€œIโ€ฆI never told you about any of that because it was a long time ago, and becauseโ€ฆโ€

โ€œBecause you didnโ€™t want me to know that Mr. Larkin was your brother?โ€ I ask.

โ€œHalf brother,โ€ he says bitterly.

โ€œCan you tell me what happened?โ€ My phone is clenched tightly in my hands, and my mind is still churning. Iโ€™m remembering more nowโ€”and one of the things I remember is that Mason and his family were in Florida visiting his grandparents when Mr. Larkin died. They didnโ€™t come back until after the funeral. Whatever desperation Mason or his mother might have felt four years ago, it couldnโ€™t have led them in the darkest possible direction. And even though thereโ€™s not a single part of me that believes Mason is capable of hurting anyone, Iโ€™m shaken enough in my own perceptions to feel deeply relieved that he was nowhere near the crime scene.

โ€œWhere would I even start?โ€ Mason says woodenly.

โ€œDo you remember yourโ€”father?โ€ I stumble over the word.

โ€œOf course I do.โ€ A spark of anger animates Masonโ€™s voice. โ€œIโ€™ve lived with him for almost fourteen years. Myย fatherย is my father.โ€

โ€œI know. I mean, do you rememberโ€ฆDexter?โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Mason says. His hands are knotted between his knees. โ€œI donโ€™t remember anything. All I know is what my mother told me. She was really young, and naรฏve, and he didnโ€™t seem so bad at first. But he got worse, fast. I was sick all the time, I guess, and he wouldnโ€™t do anything about it. He wouldnโ€™t even let her leave the house without him.โ€

โ€œYou have asthma,โ€ I say. Itโ€™s the least important detail, I realize, and yetโ€”itโ€™s another thing that I missed.

โ€œIโ€™ve been asymptomatic for a while,โ€ Mason says. โ€œThe chronic stuff in my lungs is still there, probably, but it doesnโ€™t bother me like it used to.โ€ He shoots me a wry look. โ€œBut yeah, I have an inhaler. I just donโ€™t use it much.โ€

I nod, absorbing that. โ€œSo your mom left when you were three?โ€

โ€œYeah. Mom told me that we were literally locked in the house while he was gone,โ€ Mason says. โ€œHe was making the whole place a fortress. Bars on the windows and padlocks on the doors. There was only one window he didnโ€™t bother with, because he thought it was too small. But it wasnโ€™t. Thatโ€™s the one she used. She didnโ€™t take anything except me.โ€

He exhales a deep, shaky breath. โ€œMom didnโ€™t have any family. Her parents died when she was in high school. But Mr. Solomon used to be a good friend of her dadโ€™s, so thatโ€™s who she called when she got us out. He

โ€”โ€

โ€œWait,โ€ I interrupt. โ€œMr. Solomon, from Saint Ambrose?โ€

Mason nods. โ€œHe came and got us, brought us to Sturgis and helped Mom find a job and an apartment. Introduced her to my dad, even. She took Dadโ€™s name when they got married, and changed mine. And everything was fine, for a while.โ€

โ€œUntil Mr. Larkin came here?โ€

โ€œI thought he was so great.โ€ Masonโ€™s voice cracks. โ€œThe cool teacher who was actually interested inย me.ย Always asking so many questions. But then one day, maybe a week before he died, he asked me to stop by his classroom after school to talk about my Shakespeare essay. I was excited, because I thought Iโ€™d done really well, and that maybe Iโ€™d get a prize or something.โ€ He shakes his head. โ€œInstead he told me who he was.โ€

โ€œWhat did you say?โ€ I ask.

โ€œNothing. I couldnโ€™t speak the whole time I was there. I just sat at my desk, totally silent, while he talked. At first I thought it might be okay, because he apologized for how things were back when I was littleโ€” apologized that he didnโ€™t do more to stop Dexter from being horrible. But

he also kept calling me โ€˜Mikey,โ€™ and trying to give me this medallion with that name written on the back. I wouldnโ€™t take itโ€”Iย couldnโ€™tย take it, because I was frozen in placeโ€”and I think that made him mad. He shoved it into my backpack and said I was a Robbins, and my mom had no right to hide me away from his father.โ€ I donโ€™t miss the way Masonโ€™s hands clench as he saysย hisย father. โ€œHe saidโ€ฆhe said Dexterโ€™s birthday was the next week, and he was going to tell him where to find me. Can you imagine? That was the last thing he said to me before he leftโ€”โ€˜Youโ€™ll be the best birthday present Dad has ever had.โ€™ โ€

โ€œOh, Mason.โ€ I slip my hand into one of his. โ€œIโ€™m so sorry. That must have been terrifying.โ€

โ€œIt was.โ€ Mason lowers his voice to a near-whisper. โ€œI mustโ€™ve sat there for an hour afterward, totally in shock. I didnโ€™t know what to do. I told my parents, and they talked to Mr. Solomon, and he said we should just take off again. But it would be a lot harder to do a second time, you know?โ€

โ€œSo Mr. Solomon knew that Mr. Larkin threatened you?โ€ I ask. Suddenly our old groundskeeper snarlingย That son of a bitch got what he deservedย makes sense. Iโ€™m not sure itโ€™s something Mr. Solomon would have said if heโ€™d been 100 percent in his right mind, but itโ€™s not out of left field anymore.

Mason nods. โ€œHe came with us to Florida when we visited my dadโ€™s parents. I know I told you guys it was a spur-of-the-moment vacation, but it was actually this intense strategy session with a family lawyer, and thenโ€” while we were gone, Mr. Larkin died.โ€

โ€œAnd heโ€™d never said anything to his father about you?โ€

โ€œI guess he didnโ€™t get the chance,โ€ Mason says. โ€œWe kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, but it didnโ€™t.โ€ I squeeze his hand, and he adds, โ€œI thought I was over it, and I think I am, mostly, butโ€ฆโ€ He gazes around the auditorium. โ€œI was here over winter break with student council, making posters for the class play, and the red marker ran out, so I went backstage to look for another one. I found it, and then I saw the easel with Mr. Larkinโ€™s portrait. It was covered, and I was curious, so I lifted the cloth andโ€”I donโ€™t know. Everything went hazy for a few seconds, andโ€ฆI did what I did.โ€

โ€œAnd kept doing it?โ€ I ask, trying to keep my voice as judgment-free as possible. โ€œTo all of Ms. Kelsoโ€™s posters?โ€

Mason cringes, then extends the hand Iโ€™m not holding and flexes his palm, like heโ€™s checking for the green residue we saw in the gymnasium. โ€œIโ€™m not proud of myself, believe me. It was a shitty thing to do to Ms. Kelso, and toโ€ฆโ€ He swallows hard. โ€œTo Mr. Larkin. Itโ€™s not like I wanted him to die, or that I donโ€™t wish things could have been different with us. But when youโ€™ve spent most of your life hiding, sometimes the pressure gets to be too much.โ€ He drops his hand back into his lap and meets my eyes. โ€œYou really had no idea before tonight?โ€

โ€œNone,โ€ I say. โ€œIn fact, I created an entire theory in my head where Shane Delgado was Michael Robbins.โ€

โ€œShane?โ€ Even as he winces at his old name, Mason manages a laugh. โ€œThat has to be the first and last time Iโ€™ve ever been mistaken for Shane Delgado.โ€ Then his expression turns thoughtful. โ€œFunny you should say that, though, because it turns out Shane was there.โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€ I ask, confused. โ€œShane was where?โ€

โ€œIn the classroom, when Mr. Larkin told me who he was.โ€ I gape at him, and he adds, โ€œWell, in the coatroom. Asleep, like always. After Mr. Larkin left, I was just sitting at my desk, shell-shocked, and all of a sudden Shane stumbled out of the coatroom, yawning, and staggered past me out the door. I donโ€™t think he even noticed me.โ€

โ€œWait, soโ€ฆโ€ I rub my suddenly aching temples. โ€œDid he hear you?

Does Shane know Mr. Larkin was your brother?โ€

โ€œWell, Iโ€™ve always wondered,โ€ Mason says. โ€œAnd I was worried for a while. I mean, he wasย right there.ย Heโ€™s never said anything, though, or acted any different toward me.โ€ He snorts out a light laugh. โ€œIn other words, heโ€™s continued to ignore me as much as ever.โ€

I canโ€™t even process this right now. Just when I was ready to cross Shane off my suspect list, it turns out he mightโ€™ve known all along who Mr. Larkin was. Butโ€ฆwhy would he care? What possible difference could that make to Shane? Before I can follow that train of thought, though, Mason asks, โ€œWhat are you going to do?โ€

โ€œAbout what?โ€

โ€œAboutโ€ฆโ€ He makes a sweeping gesture with his hand. โ€œAll this. Are you going toโ€”tell anyone?โ€ His voice catches. โ€œIโ€™m almost eighteen. I donโ€™t think Iโ€™d have to see Dexter if I donโ€™t want to, but my momโ€ฆI donโ€™t know what kind of trouble she might get into, leaving the way she did, andโ€ฆโ€

โ€œMason, no,โ€ I say quickly. โ€œI wonโ€™t say a word. Itโ€™s your familyโ€™s business.โ€ But even as I say it, I canโ€™t stop thinking about how I accidentally showed theย Billyย medallion to maybe-Dexter in the pawnshop. I should tell Mason about that, probably, but the relief on his face is so stark that I canโ€™t make myself bring it up.

Men like Dexter are a hornetโ€™s nest,ย Rose said.ย Why poke it if you donโ€™t have to, right?ย But I didnโ€™t listen.

โ€œWill Ellie or Tripp say anything?โ€ Mason asks.

โ€œNo. Ellieโ€™s a vault, and Trippโ€ฆhe has his own demons when it comes to that day.โ€ Mason raises his brows, looking interested despite still being in a state of semi-shock, and I shove gently at his shoulder. โ€œDonโ€™t ask. Itโ€™s not my story to tell.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re holding a lot of secrets, Brynn,โ€ Mason says. โ€œBe careful. That can wear a person down after a while. I should know.โ€ I just smile tightly, and he adds, โ€œNow what?โ€

I unclench my lips. โ€œNow go back to the gym and dance with your date.โ€

Mason lets out a strangled half laugh. โ€œOh, sure. Why not? Dance the night away.โ€

โ€œDo you have a better idea?โ€

He sighs and gets to his feet. โ€œNot really.โ€

I stand too, and ask, โ€œCan I give you a hug?โ€

He chokes out, โ€œPlease.โ€ We grab on to one another and hold tight, and I let him be the first to pull away. โ€œAll right,โ€ he says, wiping his eyes. โ€œIโ€™m gonna find Geoff. You coming?โ€

โ€œIn a minute,โ€ I say.

Mason gives me one more smile and says, โ€œSee you in there.โ€

I watch him leave, then turn my attention to my phone, which is filled with check-in texts from Tripp and Ellie. My overstuffed brain is too exhausted to tell them anything exceptย Everythingโ€™s ok. Iโ€™ll explain soon.ย And thenโ€”I hear something. A light rustling sound, coming from behind the auditorium curtain. I freeze, my heart pounding loudly in my ears. Before I can lose my nerve, I lunge for the curtains and sweep them aside.

A flash of white rounds a corner, and I follow. โ€œCharlotte!โ€ I call out, nearly tripping over an empty cardboard box. โ€œStop, okay? I know itโ€™s you.โ€

From where I stand I can see Charlotte paused, one foot on the bottom of the stairs leading backstage. The jeweled pins in her hair sparkle beneath the dim lights. โ€œHow much did you hear?โ€ I ask, which is a ridiculous question. Of course she heard everything.

Oh God.ย Nowย what have I done to Mason?

Charlotte turns to face me, her flawless features so empty of expression that she looks like a statue. โ€œMasonย is Mr. Larkinโ€™s brother?โ€ she asks.

โ€œYou canโ€™t say anything. Please, Charlotte. Itโ€™s not safe for him.โ€ Iโ€™m babbling, my words tripping over one another as I walk toward her, slowly, my hands clasped together as though Iโ€™m praying. โ€œYou understand that, right? His father is a monster, andโ€ฆโ€ I pause when I get closer and spot the tear tracks on her face. โ€œWait,โ€ I say. โ€œWhy are you here? Whatโ€™s wrong?โ€

โ€œNothing. I just needed some time alone.โ€ Charlotte folds her arms stiffly but canโ€™t prevent another tear from slipping down her cheek. Then her face crumples and she says, โ€œShane broke up with me.โ€

โ€œOh, Charlotte. Iโ€™m sorry.โ€ And I truly am. I wish we were on better terms so that I could hug her, but Iโ€™m pretty sure sheโ€™d hate that. โ€œMaybe itโ€™s just temporary?โ€ I offer. โ€œHe seemed pretty drunk.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t think so,โ€ she says, with genuine sadness in her voice. โ€œIโ€™d do anything for himโ€”absolutely anythingโ€”but heโ€™s tired, he says. Tired of being in a relationship. What he really means, though, is heโ€™s tired ofย me.โ€

โ€œCan I help?โ€ I ask. โ€œWe could leave, maybe get a coffee, orโ€”โ€

She vehemently shakes her head, as if the very thought horrifies her, and Iโ€™m glad I held off on the hug. โ€œNo,โ€ she says. โ€œIโ€™m going home. And I wonโ€™t say anything about Mason, I promise.โ€ My knees go weak with relief,

and Iโ€™m about to thank her profusely when she adds, โ€œBut you should knock it off, Brynn.โ€

โ€œKnock what off?โ€ I ask.

โ€œThis wholeโ€”Veronica Mars thing youโ€™re doing,โ€ she says, waving her hand in a circle. โ€œItโ€™s dangerous, and if you keep going, you might learn something youโ€™d rather not know.โ€

โ€œLike what?โ€ I ask as she turns away. โ€œCharlotte? Like what?โ€

Thereโ€™s no answer except the tap of her heels, and then the squeal of hinges as she opens the exit door and steps outside.

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