Chapter no 31

Nothing More to Tell

โ€Œโ€œMore coffee, hon?โ€ Regina approaches with a pot held aloft, Al trotting at her feet.โ€Œ

โ€œYes, please,โ€ I say, and she tops me off while ignoring Trippโ€™s empty

cup.

โ€œOnce again,โ€ he says humbly, โ€œI am very sorry.โ€

โ€œAl and I forgive you, but that doesnโ€™t mean weโ€™re ready to talk to

you,โ€ Regina says coolly, just as Al pokes his nose into Trippโ€™s leg to demand a scratch. โ€œTraitor,โ€ Regina tells the dog, then goes ahead and gives Tripp more coffee before returning to behind the counter.

โ€œThank you for not firing me,โ€ he calls after her.

Weโ€™re at Brightside Bakery on Sunday morning, but Tripp is just a customer today since Regina doesnโ€™t want him working until, as she puts it, โ€œYouโ€™ve gone at least twenty-four hours without making a damn fool of yourself.โ€

Heโ€™s clean-shaven, clear-eyed, and neatly dressed, and he smells like some kind of citrusy soap. His entire demeanor is so much lighter than itโ€™s been since my first day back at Saint Ambrose that any lingering doubts

about what I came to tell him disappear. I clear my throat and say, โ€œTripp, listen. After everything that happened last night, Iโ€™ve been thinking, andโ€ฆI have some ideas about Mr. Larkin that I want to run by you, but only if youโ€™re okay with that. Would you rather I drop it?โ€

โ€œDrop what?โ€ he asks.

โ€œMr. Larkin. The case. Everything.โ€

Trippโ€™s brow furrows. โ€œLikeโ€”we never talk about him again?โ€

It sounds a lot like a certain pact in the woods, but Iโ€™m not about to point that out. โ€œI wonโ€™t talk about him with anyone, if thatโ€™s what you want,โ€ I say.

When I lay in bed last night, unable to sleep, Trippโ€™s words in Charlotteโ€™s guesthouse kept running through my brain:ย You cared more about the school paper than about me.ย He truly believed that, and it hit me with an aching sense of regret that I donโ€™t want to be the same single- minded girl Tripp knew in eighth gradeโ€”or the girl who bulldozed through Sturgis last month in a desperate attempt to prove herself. Iโ€™ve never felt more alone than I did when people were mad at me for being sneaky about working atย Motive,ย which was bad enough. But itโ€™s been worse to realize how much my tunnel vision hurt my friends, my family, and especially Tripp.

Thatโ€™s the part I still need to make clear. โ€œYouโ€™re much more important to me than a story, Tripp. Iโ€™m sorry I never showed you that before now.โ€

Tripp is quiet for a while, eyes on the floor. โ€œIโ€™m sorry too,โ€ he finally says. โ€œAbout what I said to you in gym class, obviously, but also aboutโ€ฆ everything else. I used to go to Mr. Larkinโ€™s grave a few times a year, to apologize for how heโ€™d never get any justice because of me. But even while I was standing there, talking to his headstone, I knew it was just a bunch of empty words. It wouldnโ€™t change anything.โ€

โ€œYou visited Mr. Larkinโ€™s grave?โ€ I ask, my heart breaking a little at the mental image. โ€œThat must have been hard.โ€

โ€œIt was the absolute least I could do.โ€ Tripp grimaces before meeting my gaze. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to drop it, Brynn. Go ahead. Tell me your ideas.โ€

โ€œOkay, well, hereโ€™s the thing.โ€ I take a deep breath before pulling theย Union Leaderย article up on my phone. โ€œDo you remember when I said last night that your lie protected Shane, not your father?โ€ Tripp nods, and I explain everything Iโ€™ve learned so far: that Mr. Larkin had a brother at Saint Ambrose, that he may have changed his name from โ€œWilliam Robbins,โ€ and that if he did, he could have been the son of a controlling New Hampshire man whose second wife took off with their toddler son and hasnโ€™t been heard from since. โ€œIโ€™m thinking that the little boy who disappeared, Michael, might be one of our classmates. The age is right, so I was trying to think of kids who might fit, and then I thought ofโ€ฆโ€ I blow on my coffee as Tripp takes my phone. โ€œShane.โ€

โ€œShane?โ€ Tripp repeats, eyes glued to my screen.

โ€œYeah. Weโ€™ve only known him since kindergarten, and he doesnโ€™t live in Sturgis, so we have no idea what his life was like when he was a toddler.โ€

โ€œHe was adopted,โ€ Tripp says. โ€œFrom the foster system.โ€

โ€œMaybe,โ€ I say. โ€œOr maybe thatโ€™s just a cover story.โ€ Tripp blinks, startled, and I add, โ€œMaybe Laura Delgado is really Lila Robbins, and she wanted to hide their identities. Sheโ€™s the right age, approximately. Early forties.โ€

โ€œSo are half the parents at school,โ€ Tripp points out. โ€œAnd there are lots of kids at Saint Ambrose from other towns. Kids with families we donโ€™t know anything about.โ€

โ€œRight. But hereโ€™s the thingโ€ฆโ€ I hate to state the obvious to the new and improved Tripp, but: โ€œOnly one of them was found standing over Mr. Larkinโ€™s body with the murder weapon.โ€

Tripp studies the photo of Lila Robbins for a beat, his brow furrowed. โ€œThis isnโ€™t Ms. Delgado,โ€ he says, but his voice isnโ€™t entirely certain. โ€œI donโ€™t think so, anyway. Even if she dyed her hair, this girlโ€™s nose is too big.โ€

โ€œNoses can be changed,โ€ I say. โ€œAnd the name โ€˜Lauraโ€™ isnโ€™t all that different from โ€˜Lila,โ€™ if you were going to change your name and wanted to keep it close.โ€

โ€œBut that kidโ€”Michael Robbins, he had asthma, right? Shane doesnโ€™t.โ€

โ€œAre you sure? Do you know everything about him?โ€

Trippโ€™s jaw muscles tighten before he admits, โ€œNo. We donโ€™tโ€”weโ€™re not the kind of friends whoโ€™d tell one another stuff like that. Iโ€™ve never seen him with an inhaler, though. And he plays lacrosse. You canโ€™t do that with asthma, can you?โ€

โ€œYou can if itโ€™s well managed. Plenty of elite athletes have asthma.โ€ I tap my chin thoughtfully. โ€œIt can be invisible, so itโ€™s probably not a great clue to follow. Plus, itโ€™s not just that. My uncle Nick told me that he heard Mr. Larkin and Ms. Delgado arguing, back when Uncle Nick was our classroom assistant in eighth grade.โ€

โ€œArguing? About what?โ€

โ€œHe wasnโ€™t sure. But the timing is interesting, isnโ€™t it? Thatโ€™s right around the time when Mr. Larkin couldโ€™ve told her he knew who she really is.โ€

Tripp releases a long exhale. โ€œSo you think Shane is some missing kid from New Hampshire who killed his own brother?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s one theory.โ€

โ€œAnd Charlotte is justโ€”what? Fine with it? Never said a word?โ€

โ€œCharlotte might not have been there,โ€ I point out. โ€œYou have no idea how long theyโ€™d been together before you got there. But even if Charlotte saw everything, itโ€™s possible sheโ€™d cover for him. That sheโ€™s still covering for him.โ€

Charlotte has always been devoted to Shane; thatโ€™s nothing new. Whatย isย new, thoughโ€”at least to meโ€”is how almost fanatical the two of them are about keeping Tripp close. But after they tracked him down when he was at his most vulnerable, they left him alone. On the one hand, you could argue that they were giving him space. On the other, you could argue that they didnโ€™t so much want toย helpย him as keep him quiet. It seems like every time Tripp has โ€œa bad night,โ€ as Charlotte told me at her party, they try to keep him quiet.

โ€œBut remember what I told you Shane said that day?โ€ Tripp asks. โ€œHe heard yelling. I thought he was talking about my dad and Mr. Larkin, butโ€” maybe there really was a drifter. Maybe everything happened exactly like the police said back then.โ€ He swallows hard. โ€œExcept, you know, the part where I covered up evidence.โ€

โ€œYou accused Shane of making the yelling up,โ€ I counter. Tripp opens his mouth to protest, but before he can, I add, โ€œI know you only did that to protect your father, but you might have been right. Thatโ€™s genuinely the kind of thing somebody would say if they were trying to deflect attention. Didย youย hear yelling?โ€

โ€œI had my earphones in, listening to music for most of the time. I didnโ€™t hear anything until I took them out and heard Charlotte scream.โ€

โ€œDid she hear yelling?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t know,โ€ Tripp admits. โ€œI never gave her the chance to say. I shut the entire conversation down because I wanted them to follow my lead.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s a good chance Shane was covering for himself,โ€ I say. โ€œI mean, he was at the scene when Mr. Larkin died. Thatโ€™s something Carly always saysโ€”proximity matters.โ€

โ€œOkay, but if you put it that way, the whole school had proximity.โ€ When I tilt my head, puzzled, Tripp adds, โ€œKind of. I mean, the woods are right behind Saint Ambrose. People from school hike there all the time. Teachers, even. But nobody ever suspectedโ€ฆGrizz, for example. Or Ms. Kelso.โ€

โ€œMs. Kelso? Really?โ€ I ask, even though my mind ran along a similar track when I first started rethinking everything I thought I knew about the case. I wondered if, maybe, there was bad blood between Mr. Larkin and a coworker that I never noticed.

โ€œOr your uncle,โ€ Tripp says.

โ€œUncle Nick?โ€ I frown. โ€œWhy would anybody suspectย him?โ€ โ€œProximity,โ€ Tripp repeats. โ€œWas he working that day?โ€

I donโ€™t want Tripp getting sidetracked with something that doesnโ€™t matter, just because he doesnโ€™t want to haveย thisย conversation. Instead of

answering, I take my phone back and enlarge theย Union Leaderย article. โ€œLook, my point is that Shane couldโ€™ve been terrified,โ€ I say. โ€œDexter sounds like a control freak who dominated his wife and let his kid suffer. If Shane was in this great new life, with him and his mom feeling safe with Mr. Delgado, maybe he was afraid Mr. Larkin would lead Dexter Robbins to them, and everything would explode.โ€

Tripp looks a little green. โ€œJesus. Killer kids, getting away with murder. Youโ€™re telling me Gunnar Fox was actually right?โ€

โ€œWell, thereโ€™s a lot more nuance involved, butโ€ฆmaybe?โ€ Last night, as I drove Tripp home from Charlotteโ€™s, he told me about Lisa Marieโ€™s video

โ€”the one where she pretended to believe that Tripp couldโ€™ve killed Mr. Larkin. When we got to his house, I had him text her to warn that if the video ever goes public, Tripp will contactย Motiveย and show them Gunnarโ€™s messages offering to pay Lisa Marie for lying. โ€œHave you heard back from Lisa Marie?โ€

โ€œNot yet.โ€ Tripp grimaces. โ€œThis is so messed up. Do you really think itโ€™s possible? I mean, Mr. Delgado is like a guard dog with his family. Couldnโ€™t he just have sent a bunch of lawyers after Dexter Robbins? That guy would never get custody, or visitation, or whatever Shane mightโ€™ve been worried about.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t think we can be sure about that,โ€ I say. โ€œParental rights are a big deal, and Lila Robbins taking a kid from his father could be seen as kidnapping, even if thereโ€™s a good reason. Plus, if Ms. Delgado really is Lila Robbins, we have no idea how much she told her new husband. Maybe heย actuallyย thinks Shane was a foster child. I wonder ifโ€ฆโ€ I think back to all those defaced posters of Mr. Larkin. โ€œMaybe Shane is the one whoโ€™s been writing all over Mr. Larkinโ€™s face on the garden committee posters. Like, seeing his presence at school again, after the trauma of everything that happened in the woods that day, is too much for him.โ€

โ€œShaneโ€™s not a graffiti kind of guy,โ€ Tripp says. โ€œIf he didnโ€™t want to look at something, heโ€™d rip it down.โ€

โ€œMaybe,โ€ I say. โ€œBut thatโ€™s all sidebar, anyway. The main thing isโ€ฆโ€ I hesitate, not wanting to push him so far that he thinks I wasnโ€™t sincere about

dropping the case. He was so regretful about Mr. Larkin earlier that I want to make sure heโ€™s considering all the angles. โ€œAt some point you should tell someone that you werenโ€™t with Shane and Charlotte the whole time.โ€ I almost sayย tell the police,ย but we havenโ€™t even gotten into the whole Delgado Properties $250,000 donation to the Sturgis Police Foundation yet. Iโ€™m not sure who we can trust to be objective when it comes to this case, but Iโ€™d put my money on Carly first.

A flush darkens Trippโ€™s cheeks. โ€œI know,โ€ he mutters, hanging his head. โ€œIโ€™m just not ready yet. Because then Iโ€™d also have to tell them my dad took the money, right? And he and I havenโ€™t even talked about that, and

โ€”โ€

โ€œItโ€™s okay,โ€ I say quickly, relieved that heโ€™s at least considering it. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to do anything right now.โ€ I take his hand in mine, and it twitches beneath my fingers. I let go instantly, chagrined that I keep forgetting what he told me in Charlotteโ€™s guesthouse:ย Donโ€™tโ€”you canโ€™t touch me like that when you know how Iโ€”

Itโ€™s still not the right time to complete that thought. I wonder, fleetingly, if it ever will be, because Iโ€™d really like to know. โ€œItโ€™s just good to keep sharing information,โ€ I say, letting my palms rest on my knees. โ€œWeโ€™ve already learned so much more about Mr. Larkin than I ever thought we could. And if we can get answers about something that happened such a long time agoโ€ฆโ€ I sit straighter in my seat as a new thought occurs to me. โ€œIf we can doย that,ย maybe we can even get answers aboutโ€”โ€

And then I stop, realizing that I almost raised yet another painful subject. โ€œOther stuff,โ€ I finish limply, before taking a sip of lukewarm coffee.

โ€œOther stuff?โ€ Tripp eyes me steadily. โ€œThatโ€™s not what you were about to say.โ€

I take another sip. More of a guzzle, really. โ€œYeah, it was.โ€

โ€œCome on, Brynn. Weโ€™re being honest from now on, right? What other stuff?โ€ When I donโ€™t reply right away, he adds, โ€œAre you under the impression that I canโ€™t handle whatever it is, because Iโ€™ve been in freak-out mode ever since you got back to Sturgis?โ€

โ€œPossibly,โ€ I admit.

โ€œI got that out of my system. I can take it.โ€

I shoot him a worried look.ย Heโ€™s not as strong as he seems,ย Charlotte said during our library showdown, but then againโ€ฆI donโ€™t believe that. Charlotte has no idea what Tripp has been carrying for the past four years. โ€œWell, it just hit me that the one thing we havenโ€™t talked about yet when it comes to Mr. Larkin is, umโ€ฆMr. Solomon,โ€ I say.

โ€œMr. Solomon?โ€ Tripp recoils, but more like heโ€™s confused, rather than flashing back to finding our former groundskeeperโ€™s body. โ€œWhy would we?โ€

โ€œBecause the police arenโ€™t sure whether he fell and hit his head or was pushed. And if he ran his mouth about Mr. Larkin to us, he mightโ€™ve done it with other people too. Maybe the wrong people.โ€

Tripp blinks. โ€œBut it was a robbery.โ€ โ€œThat couldโ€™ve been a distraction.โ€

โ€œAre you sayingโ€ฆโ€ He shakes his head decisively. โ€œLook, thereโ€™s no way Shane did anything to a harmless old man, okay? There just isnโ€™t.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s not what Iโ€™m saying.โ€ And Iโ€™mย definitelyย not saying that Tripp told his friends what Mr. Solomon said to us, even though I know he at least told Charlotte. Iโ€™m not trying to cause a relapse, here. โ€œItโ€™s just that Mr. Solomon died under mysterious circumstances after talking about Mr. Larkin, soโ€ฆlike I said, itโ€™s good to keep sharing information.โ€

Tripp is silent for a moment, then reaches abruptly into his pocket. โ€œOkay, well, on that noteโ€ฆI found it.โ€ I canโ€™t help it; I let out a small gasp when he lays a silver disc on the table. โ€œThe medallion. The one next toโ€ฆ you know.โ€

โ€œMr. Larkinโ€™s body,โ€ I whisper, and he nods. I pick up the disc; itโ€™s about the size of a quarter and has a small hole on top, like itโ€™s meant to be worn on a chain. Thereโ€™s an emblem of a snarling dog with the wordsย Mad Dog Tavernย on the front, along with the wordsย Bite First.ย The back is engraved with the name โ€œBilly,โ€ in large block letters.

โ€œYou were right,โ€ Tripp says. โ€œThatโ€™s Mr. Larkinโ€™s name, so it mustโ€™ve been his.โ€ He hunches his shoulders. โ€œI wish Iโ€™d looked at it more closely

back then. That wouldโ€™ve saved me, and everybody else, a hell of a lot of trouble.โ€

โ€œDid Shane or Charlotte see you take this?โ€ โ€œI donโ€™t think so.โ€

I study the medallion, frowning. โ€œIโ€™ve never heard anyone call Mr. Larkin โ€˜Billy,โ€™ but it could be a childhood nickname. Even if he changed from โ€˜William Robbinsโ€™ to โ€˜William Larkin,โ€™ it might still fit.โ€ The emblem of the dog is raised, and I run my thumb over it. โ€œHave you Googled Mad Dog Tavern?โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Tripp replies, his lips twitching into a smile. โ€œFigured Iโ€™d leave that to you.โ€

I set down the medallion, open Google, and type in the tavern name. โ€œThere are a few Mad Dog Taverns,โ€ I report, scrolling through the search results. โ€œOneโ€™s in North Woodstock, New Hampshire.โ€ I pause and tap my chin, deep in thought. โ€œThatโ€™s pretty close to Lincoln, where Dexter Robbins is from. What ifโ€”Oh God. Do you think Dexter could have been in the woods that day? And thatโ€™s who Shane heard arguing with Mr. Larkin?โ€

โ€œThe woods are getting crowded if he was,โ€ Tripp says, picking up the medallion and turning it over in his hand. โ€œI could ask Shane, I guess. Do you think I should?โ€

โ€œBreak the pact? Iโ€™m not sure we want to open that Pandoraโ€™s box with Shane, especially after how he acted last night. It might be better to do more digging first.โ€ I hit the directions button and pull up Google Maps. โ€œMad Dog Tavern is only two hours from here, soโ€ฆโ€

Tripp looks up with a half-smile. โ€œSo, what?โ€

My stomach flutters. Iโ€™ve tried to dredge up middle-school memories and canโ€™t recall any feelings beyond friendship for Tripp from back then; as much as I liked him, I never thought of him that way. But things are different now, not only because I lose my train of thought every time he smiles. Despite everything heโ€™s been through over the past four yearsโ€”and even before thatโ€”heโ€™s not bitter. Heโ€™s still hopeful, hardworking, loyal, and funny, even if thatโ€™s mostly at my expense.

I pluck the medallion from Trippโ€™s hand and attach it to my keychain, then dangle the keys in front of him. โ€œSo how would you feel about a road trip?โ€ I ask.

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