โโMore coffee, hon?โ Regina approaches with a pot held aloft, Al trotting at her feet.โ
โYes, please,โ I say, and she tops me off while ignoring Trippโs empty
cup.
โOnce again,โ he says humbly, โI am very sorry.โ
โAl and I forgive you, but that doesnโt mean weโre ready to talk to
you,โ Regina says coolly, just as Al pokes his nose into Trippโs leg to demand a scratch. โTraitor,โ Regina tells the dog, then goes ahead and gives Tripp more coffee before returning to behind the counter.
โThank you for not firing me,โ he calls after her.
Weโre at Brightside Bakery on Sunday morning, but Tripp is just a customer today since Regina doesnโt want him working until, as she puts it, โYouโve gone at least twenty-four hours without making a damn fool of yourself.โ
Heโs clean-shaven, clear-eyed, and neatly dressed, and he smells like some kind of citrusy soap. His entire demeanor is so much lighter than itโs been since my first day back at Saint Ambrose that any lingering doubts
about what I came to tell him disappear. I clear my throat and say, โTripp, listen. After everything that happened last night, Iโve been thinking, andโฆI have some ideas about Mr. Larkin that I want to run by you, but only if youโre okay with that. Would you rather I drop it?โ
โDrop what?โ he asks.
โMr. Larkin. The case. Everything.โ
Trippโs brow furrows. โLikeโwe never talk about him again?โ
It sounds a lot like a certain pact in the woods, but Iโm not about to point that out. โI wonโt talk about him with anyone, if thatโs what you want,โ I say.
When I lay in bed last night, unable to sleep, Trippโs words in Charlotteโs guesthouse kept running through my brain:ย You cared more about the school paper than about me.ย He truly believed that, and it hit me with an aching sense of regret that I donโt want to be the same single- minded girl Tripp knew in eighth gradeโor the girl who bulldozed through Sturgis last month in a desperate attempt to prove herself. Iโve never felt more alone than I did when people were mad at me for being sneaky about working atย Motive,ย which was bad enough. But itโs been worse to realize how much my tunnel vision hurt my friends, my family, and especially Tripp.
Thatโs the part I still need to make clear. โYouโre much more important to me than a story, Tripp. Iโm sorry I never showed you that before now.โ
Tripp is quiet for a while, eyes on the floor. โIโm sorry too,โ he finally says. โAbout what I said to you in gym class, obviously, but also aboutโฆ everything else. I used to go to Mr. Larkinโs grave a few times a year, to apologize for how heโd never get any justice because of me. But even while I was standing there, talking to his headstone, I knew it was just a bunch of empty words. It wouldnโt change anything.โ
โYou visited Mr. Larkinโs grave?โ I ask, my heart breaking a little at the mental image. โThat must have been hard.โ
โIt was the absolute least I could do.โ Tripp grimaces before meeting my gaze. โYou donโt have to drop it, Brynn. Go ahead. Tell me your ideas.โ
โOkay, well, hereโs the thing.โ I take a deep breath before pulling theย Union Leaderย article up on my phone. โDo you remember when I said last night that your lie protected Shane, not your father?โ Tripp nods, and I explain everything Iโve learned so far: that Mr. Larkin had a brother at Saint Ambrose, that he may have changed his name from โWilliam Robbins,โ and that if he did, he could have been the son of a controlling New Hampshire man whose second wife took off with their toddler son and hasnโt been heard from since. โIโm thinking that the little boy who disappeared, Michael, might be one of our classmates. The age is right, so I was trying to think of kids who might fit, and then I thought ofโฆโ I blow on my coffee as Tripp takes my phone. โShane.โ
โShane?โ Tripp repeats, eyes glued to my screen.
โYeah. Weโve only known him since kindergarten, and he doesnโt live in Sturgis, so we have no idea what his life was like when he was a toddler.โ
โHe was adopted,โ Tripp says. โFrom the foster system.โ
โMaybe,โ I say. โOr maybe thatโs just a cover story.โ Tripp blinks, startled, and I add, โMaybe Laura Delgado is really Lila Robbins, and she wanted to hide their identities. Sheโs the right age, approximately. Early forties.โ
โSo are half the parents at school,โ Tripp points out. โAnd there are lots of kids at Saint Ambrose from other towns. Kids with families we donโt know anything about.โ
โRight. But hereโs the thingโฆโ I hate to state the obvious to the new and improved Tripp, but: โOnly one of them was found standing over Mr. Larkinโs body with the murder weapon.โ
Tripp studies the photo of Lila Robbins for a beat, his brow furrowed. โThis isnโt Ms. Delgado,โ he says, but his voice isnโt entirely certain. โI donโt think so, anyway. Even if she dyed her hair, this girlโs nose is too big.โ
โNoses can be changed,โ I say. โAnd the name โLauraโ isnโt all that different from โLila,โ if you were going to change your name and wanted to keep it close.โ
โBut that kidโMichael Robbins, he had asthma, right? Shane doesnโt.โ
โAre you sure? Do you know everything about him?โ
Trippโs jaw muscles tighten before he admits, โNo. We donโtโweโre not the kind of friends whoโd tell one another stuff like that. Iโve never seen him with an inhaler, though. And he plays lacrosse. You canโt do that with asthma, can you?โ
โYou can if itโs well managed. Plenty of elite athletes have asthma.โ I tap my chin thoughtfully. โIt can be invisible, so itโs probably not a great clue to follow. Plus, itโs not just that. My uncle Nick told me that he heard Mr. Larkin and Ms. Delgado arguing, back when Uncle Nick was our classroom assistant in eighth grade.โ
โArguing? About what?โ
โHe wasnโt sure. But the timing is interesting, isnโt it? Thatโs right around the time when Mr. Larkin couldโve told her he knew who she really is.โ
Tripp releases a long exhale. โSo you think Shane is some missing kid from New Hampshire who killed his own brother?โ
โItโs one theory.โ
โAnd Charlotte is justโwhat? Fine with it? Never said a word?โ
โCharlotte might not have been there,โ I point out. โYou have no idea how long theyโd been together before you got there. But even if Charlotte saw everything, itโs possible sheโd cover for him. That sheโs still covering for him.โ
Charlotte has always been devoted to Shane; thatโs nothing new. Whatย isย new, thoughโat least to meโis how almost fanatical the two of them are about keeping Tripp close. But after they tracked him down when he was at his most vulnerable, they left him alone. On the one hand, you could argue that they were giving him space. On the other, you could argue that they didnโt so much want toย helpย him as keep him quiet. It seems like every time Tripp has โa bad night,โ as Charlotte told me at her party, they try to keep him quiet.
โBut remember what I told you Shane said that day?โ Tripp asks. โHe heard yelling. I thought he was talking about my dad and Mr. Larkin, butโ maybe there really was a drifter. Maybe everything happened exactly like the police said back then.โ He swallows hard. โExcept, you know, the part where I covered up evidence.โ
โYou accused Shane of making the yelling up,โ I counter. Tripp opens his mouth to protest, but before he can, I add, โI know you only did that to protect your father, but you might have been right. Thatโs genuinely the kind of thing somebody would say if they were trying to deflect attention. Didย youย hear yelling?โ
โI had my earphones in, listening to music for most of the time. I didnโt hear anything until I took them out and heard Charlotte scream.โ
โDid she hear yelling?โ
โI donโt know,โ Tripp admits. โI never gave her the chance to say. I shut the entire conversation down because I wanted them to follow my lead.โ
โThereโs a good chance Shane was covering for himself,โ I say. โI mean, he was at the scene when Mr. Larkin died. Thatโs something Carly always saysโproximity matters.โ
โOkay, but if you put it that way, the whole school had proximity.โ When I tilt my head, puzzled, Tripp adds, โKind of. I mean, the woods are right behind Saint Ambrose. People from school hike there all the time. Teachers, even. But nobody ever suspectedโฆGrizz, for example. Or Ms. Kelso.โ
โMs. Kelso? Really?โ I ask, even though my mind ran along a similar track when I first started rethinking everything I thought I knew about the case. I wondered if, maybe, there was bad blood between Mr. Larkin and a coworker that I never noticed.
โOr your uncle,โ Tripp says.
โUncle Nick?โ I frown. โWhy would anybody suspectย him?โ โProximity,โ Tripp repeats. โWas he working that day?โ
I donโt want Tripp getting sidetracked with something that doesnโt matter, just because he doesnโt want to haveย thisย conversation. Instead of
answering, I take my phone back and enlarge theย Union Leaderย article. โLook, my point is that Shane couldโve been terrified,โ I say. โDexter sounds like a control freak who dominated his wife and let his kid suffer. If Shane was in this great new life, with him and his mom feeling safe with Mr. Delgado, maybe he was afraid Mr. Larkin would lead Dexter Robbins to them, and everything would explode.โ
Tripp looks a little green. โJesus. Killer kids, getting away with murder. Youโre telling me Gunnar Fox was actually right?โ
โWell, thereโs a lot more nuance involved, butโฆmaybe?โ Last night, as I drove Tripp home from Charlotteโs, he told me about Lisa Marieโs video
โthe one where she pretended to believe that Tripp couldโve killed Mr. Larkin. When we got to his house, I had him text her to warn that if the video ever goes public, Tripp will contactย Motiveย and show them Gunnarโs messages offering to pay Lisa Marie for lying. โHave you heard back from Lisa Marie?โ
โNot yet.โ Tripp grimaces. โThis is so messed up. Do you really think itโs possible? I mean, Mr. Delgado is like a guard dog with his family. Couldnโt he just have sent a bunch of lawyers after Dexter Robbins? That guy would never get custody, or visitation, or whatever Shane mightโve been worried about.โ
โI donโt think we can be sure about that,โ I say. โParental rights are a big deal, and Lila Robbins taking a kid from his father could be seen as kidnapping, even if thereโs a good reason. Plus, if Ms. Delgado really is Lila Robbins, we have no idea how much she told her new husband. Maybe heย actuallyย thinks Shane was a foster child. I wonder ifโฆโ I think back to all those defaced posters of Mr. Larkin. โMaybe Shane is the one whoโs been writing all over Mr. Larkinโs face on the garden committee posters. Like, seeing his presence at school again, after the trauma of everything that happened in the woods that day, is too much for him.โ
โShaneโs not a graffiti kind of guy,โ Tripp says. โIf he didnโt want to look at something, heโd rip it down.โ
โMaybe,โ I say. โBut thatโs all sidebar, anyway. The main thing isโฆโ I hesitate, not wanting to push him so far that he thinks I wasnโt sincere about
dropping the case. He was so regretful about Mr. Larkin earlier that I want to make sure heโs considering all the angles. โAt some point you should tell someone that you werenโt with Shane and Charlotte the whole time.โ I almost sayย tell the police,ย but we havenโt even gotten into the whole Delgado Properties $250,000 donation to the Sturgis Police Foundation yet. Iโm not sure who we can trust to be objective when it comes to this case, but Iโd put my money on Carly first.
A flush darkens Trippโs cheeks. โI know,โ he mutters, hanging his head. โIโm just not ready yet. Because then Iโd also have to tell them my dad took the money, right? And he and I havenโt even talked about that, and
โโ
โItโs okay,โ I say quickly, relieved that heโs at least considering it. โYou donโt have to do anything right now.โ I take his hand in mine, and it twitches beneath my fingers. I let go instantly, chagrined that I keep forgetting what he told me in Charlotteโs guesthouse:ย Donโtโyou canโt touch me like that when you know how Iโ
Itโs still not the right time to complete that thought. I wonder, fleetingly, if it ever will be, because Iโd really like to know. โItโs just good to keep sharing information,โ I say, letting my palms rest on my knees. โWeโve already learned so much more about Mr. Larkin than I ever thought we could. And if we can get answers about something that happened such a long time agoโฆโ I sit straighter in my seat as a new thought occurs to me. โIf we can doย that,ย maybe we can even get answers aboutโโ
And then I stop, realizing that I almost raised yet another painful subject. โOther stuff,โ I finish limply, before taking a sip of lukewarm coffee.
โOther stuff?โ Tripp eyes me steadily. โThatโs not what you were about to say.โ
I take another sip. More of a guzzle, really. โYeah, it was.โ
โCome on, Brynn. Weโre being honest from now on, right? What other stuff?โ When I donโt reply right away, he adds, โAre you under the impression that I canโt handle whatever it is, because Iโve been in freak-out mode ever since you got back to Sturgis?โ
โPossibly,โ I admit.
โI got that out of my system. I can take it.โ
I shoot him a worried look.ย Heโs not as strong as he seems,ย Charlotte said during our library showdown, but then againโฆI donโt believe that. Charlotte has no idea what Tripp has been carrying for the past four years. โWell, it just hit me that the one thing we havenโt talked about yet when it comes to Mr. Larkin is, umโฆMr. Solomon,โ I say.
โMr. Solomon?โ Tripp recoils, but more like heโs confused, rather than flashing back to finding our former groundskeeperโs body. โWhy would we?โ
โBecause the police arenโt sure whether he fell and hit his head or was pushed. And if he ran his mouth about Mr. Larkin to us, he mightโve done it with other people too. Maybe the wrong people.โ
Tripp blinks. โBut it was a robbery.โ โThat couldโve been a distraction.โ
โAre you sayingโฆโ He shakes his head decisively. โLook, thereโs no way Shane did anything to a harmless old man, okay? There just isnโt.โ
โThatโs not what Iโm saying.โ And Iโmย definitelyย not saying that Tripp told his friends what Mr. Solomon said to us, even though I know he at least told Charlotte. Iโm not trying to cause a relapse, here. โItโs just that Mr. Solomon died under mysterious circumstances after talking about Mr. Larkin, soโฆlike I said, itโs good to keep sharing information.โ
Tripp is silent for a moment, then reaches abruptly into his pocket. โOkay, well, on that noteโฆI found it.โ I canโt help it; I let out a small gasp when he lays a silver disc on the table. โThe medallion. The one next toโฆ you know.โ
โMr. Larkinโs body,โ I whisper, and he nods. I pick up the disc; itโs about the size of a quarter and has a small hole on top, like itโs meant to be worn on a chain. Thereโs an emblem of a snarling dog with the wordsย Mad Dog Tavernย on the front, along with the wordsย Bite First.ย The back is engraved with the name โBilly,โ in large block letters.
โYou were right,โ Tripp says. โThatโs Mr. Larkinโs name, so it mustโve been his.โ He hunches his shoulders. โI wish Iโd looked at it more closely
back then. That wouldโve saved me, and everybody else, a hell of a lot of trouble.โ
โDid Shane or Charlotte see you take this?โ โI donโt think so.โ
I study the medallion, frowning. โIโve never heard anyone call Mr. Larkin โBilly,โ but it could be a childhood nickname. Even if he changed from โWilliam Robbinsโ to โWilliam Larkin,โ it might still fit.โ The emblem of the dog is raised, and I run my thumb over it. โHave you Googled Mad Dog Tavern?โ
โNo,โ Tripp replies, his lips twitching into a smile. โFigured Iโd leave that to you.โ
I set down the medallion, open Google, and type in the tavern name. โThere are a few Mad Dog Taverns,โ I report, scrolling through the search results. โOneโs in North Woodstock, New Hampshire.โ I pause and tap my chin, deep in thought. โThatโs pretty close to Lincoln, where Dexter Robbins is from. What ifโOh God. Do you think Dexter could have been in the woods that day? And thatโs who Shane heard arguing with Mr. Larkin?โ
โThe woods are getting crowded if he was,โ Tripp says, picking up the medallion and turning it over in his hand. โI could ask Shane, I guess. Do you think I should?โ
โBreak the pact? Iโm not sure we want to open that Pandoraโs box with Shane, especially after how he acted last night. It might be better to do more digging first.โ I hit the directions button and pull up Google Maps. โMad Dog Tavern is only two hours from here, soโฆโ
Tripp looks up with a half-smile. โSo, what?โ
My stomach flutters. Iโve tried to dredge up middle-school memories and canโt recall any feelings beyond friendship for Tripp from back then; as much as I liked him, I never thought of him that way. But things are different now, not only because I lose my train of thought every time he smiles. Despite everything heโs been through over the past four yearsโand even before thatโheโs not bitter. Heโs still hopeful, hardworking, loyal, and funny, even if thatโs mostly at my expense.
I pluck the medallion from Trippโs hand and attach it to my keychain, then dangle the keys in front of him. โSo how would you feel about a road trip?โ I ask.