A knock came about an hour after I returned to my chambers. Unsure who it could be, I cracked open the door first and then swung it wider when I saw the young mortal.
I stepped aside, allowing him entry. โHello, Paxton.โ
He made his way into the chamber, favoring his right leg over his left. A curtain of blond hair fell forward as he bowed. โHis Highness asked that I see if you were in need of fresh water for a bath.โ
โI have the water that was brought in this morning,โ I told him.
He investigated the bathing chamber, immediately spotting the full, unused tub. โThe water has to be freezing by now.โ
Probably, but it wasnโt like I planned to soak in it. โItโll be fine.โ โItโs no trouble.โ Heโd already turned, making his way into the hall.
He was faster than I expected him to be. I hurried after him. โIt really isnโtโโ
โIโll get His Highness.โ Paxton headed straight for the door next to mine. โHeโll fix it right up for you.โ
โYou really donโt have to do thatโโ โItโs no problem.โ
โI understand, butโโ
โHeโll take care of it. Youโll see.โ
Nyktosโs door opened before Paxton could even knock on it. The Primal stepped out into the hall, and all coherent thought sort of abandoned me.
His damp hair was free, brushing his shoulders, and that piece Iโd cut with the sword kissed the curve of his right cheek. He wore no shirt. Beads of water lingered on the hard, lean lines of his chest and stomach. His soft leather pants clung indecently to his lean hips as if he barely allowed his body time enough to dry from the bath before pulling them on. He hadnโt even fastened them.
โWhatโs going on out here?โ Nyktos asked.
โI was doing as you asked, Your Highness, seeing if she would like water to bathe, but she said sheโd use what was brought in this morning.โ
Nyktos said something, but I wasnโt exactly sure as I was really engrossed in the swirl of tattooed drops that traveled along the sides of his waist and inner hips, disappearingโโSera.โ
Blinking, I lifted my gaze to his. โIโm sorry. Did you say something?โ There was that warmth in his eyes again, turning them a molten silver.
โPerhaps if you stopped ogling me for five seconds, youโd hear me.โ โIโm notย oglingย you,โ I muttered, blinking.
Paxton frowned. โWhat does ogling mean?โ
โTo look at someone amorously,โ Nyktos answered. โAnd rather impertinently.โ He paused, his eyes meeting mine. โAs if they have no control over where their eyesย stray.โ
The boy grinned before ducking his chin. โYeah, thatโs totally what you were doing.โ
I turned to Paxton. โYou donโt know what ogling means, but you know what amorously and impertinently are?โ
โPax is well familiar with all the various phrasings of impertinent,โ Nyktos said, and the boyโs skin crinkled at his eyes as his grin grew. โYou didnโt use the water brought in this morning?โ
โNot really, but Iโโ
โThe water has to be freezing by now.โ
Paxton threw up his arms. โThatโs what I said.โ
Walking forward, Nyktos dropped his hand to the top of Paxtonโs head as he passed, ruffling the boyโs floppy strands of hair. The gesture wasโฆit was kind of sweet. โIโll heat it up.โ
โThatโs not necessary,โ I repeated to no avail as Nyktos brushed past me and entered the bedchamber. Wait a secondโฆ โHow are you going to heat the water?โ
โMagic,โ he tossed out in a light tone that I hadnโt heard from him in far too long.
โReally?โ I replied dryly, ignoring whatever silliness my heart and mind were engaged in. โYou can use eather to heat water?โ
โHeโs a Primal god,โ Paxton said, sounding incredibly exasperated for someone his age. โThereโs nothing heย canโtย do.โ
โThatโs not entirely true.โ Nyktos glanced at the bed, a slight frown pulling at his lips. โThere are many things I canโt do.โ
โName one,โ Paxton challenged.
โGetting my soon-to-be Consort to follow instructions would be one of them.โ
Paxton giggled as my eyes narrowed on the center of the spiraling ink scrawled across his back. I crossed my arms over my chest. โThatโs going to get even harder for you now.โ
โAs if it would have gotten easier.โ Nyktos stopped at the entrance to the bathing chamber.
I inched forward, followed by Paxton. I wouldnโt admit it, but I was curious to see just how Nyktos would warm the water.
However, much like I did every time I entered the space, Nyktos just stood there. The breadth of his shoulders tightened. He looked over his shoulder, first at the made bed and then me.
โAre you heating the water with your mind?โ
โHe has to actually touch it.โ Paxton shook his head as if Iโd suggested something ridiculous. โI donโt know what heโs doing.โ
โWell, then, that makes two of us,โ I said.
Nyktos closed the doors and faced us, drawing his lower lip between his teeth, showing just a hint of fang. โPax, why donโt you go see if Nektas has returned?โ
โWill he have Jadis with him?โ the boy asked, his chin jerking up and eyes aglow with excitement.
โHe should. And Iโm sure he could use your help keeping her entertained.โ
โAwesome.โ Pax wheeled around and shuffled toward the door. He stopped suddenly, hastily bowing at the waist. โGood day, Your Highnesses.โ
โBye,โ I murmured, thoroughly confused byโฆwell, just about everything.
โHeโs not really going to be of any help to Nektas,โ Nyktos said after Pax had disappeared into the hall. โHeโs just going to join Jadis in whatever trouble she gets herself into, and then together, they will likely terrorize Reaver.โ
I turned to Nyktos, discovering that heโd moved closer in that silent way of his. A long moment passed as he studied me. The silence and the
intensity of his stare got to me. I cleared my throat. โDid youโฆfinish training with your guards?โ I asked, which was an asinine question since he was standing in front of me.
โI did.โ His gaze finally left mine. โWait here. This will take a couple of minutes, but I will be back.โ
I nodded, and it was only when he walked out my doors that I wondered why he hadnโt used the door that adjoined our chambers.
Then I remembered. The door was obviously locked from his side, remaining only unlocked when he saw fit. Then again, if he could truly heat water with his fingers and had a warhorse living in his cuff, he could probably unlock the door with a thought.
Sighing, I returned to the chaise and sat. A little achy from handling the sword, I closed my eyes. I had no idea how much time passed, but it was more than a few minutes when the adjoining door opened, startling me.
Nyktos stood there, all softness gone from his features. The now- familiar hardness had settled into the set of his jaw, and his eyes had cooled. He hadnโt even looked that coldโthat detachedโwhen Iโd cut his arm or held the dagger to his throat only an hour or so ago. โCome.โ He held the door open. โI have something for you.โ
โUhโฆโ I rose slowly, peering into the darkness of his private quarters. โYou sure about that?โ
โI wouldnโt ask if I wasnโt.โ He waited. โAre you coming?โ
Too curious for my own good, I got my legs moving and quietly followed him into his chambers and past the unmade bed. He went to where I knew his bathing chamber was located and pushed open the door to the softly lit space.
โYou want to show me your bathing chamber?โ My steps slowed. โNot exactly,โ he replied, looking back at me. โYou can come closer.โ The stone floors were cool against my bare feet as I crept forward,
feeling out of sorts as I stopped beside him. I had only caught a glimpse of this space before, when he had been standing at the vanity cleaning up the blood from when the dakkais attacked. There was another door straight across, but I had no idea what it led to. The space was like everything else about himโbare except for a few bottles lined up neatly on a shelf above the vanity and theโ
My eyes went wide. Iโd only seen a hint of the tub before, but now I saw that it was at least three times the size of the one in my bathing chamber, with a wide enough ledge to sit upon. Big enough for several people. Maybe even a small draken. Made sense. Nyktos was a large man, but the tub wasโฆ
It was full of steaming water and frothy bubbles, and my chest constricted. It had nothing to do with breathing. This was what had taken him so long.
โBaines said that he didnโt think you were making use of the bath in your chambers,โ he stated, and I felt my skin start to warm. โIt shouldโve occurred to me that bathing in the chamber where you were attacked would be less than appealing.โ
โI havenโtโโ Whatever lie I had been about to tell got caught on the knot forming in my throat. I stared at the wisps of steam rising from the tub, my eyes blurring.
โYou will be safe here,โ Nyktos told me, his tone softening, and a faint shudder rolled through me. โI will make sure of it.โ
I couldnโt speak. Not yet. My mouth was clamped shut so tightly that my jaw was beginning to ache. This wasโฆthis was an incredibly thoughtful gesture. I wiped my suddenly damp palms against my hips. It was too thoughtful.
โSera?โ
I inhaled deeply through my nose. โYou didnโt have to do this.โ โYes, I did.โ
โNo.โ I shook my head. โIโฆI donโt deserve this.โ
โEveryone deserves fresh water to bathe themselves in, and to do so in peace.โ
โI donโt deserve this fromย you,โ I corrected.
Nyktos stiffened beside me. I didnโt look at him. I couldnโt. But I felt the tension coursing through his body. โWhat you didnโt deserve was to be strangled in your bathing chamber.โ
โI agree with that, butโโ
โYou must be covered in a fine layer of dirt from being out there in the courtyard. Iโm sure you want to bathe. Itโs simply a bath,โ he said, but it wasnโt simply anything. โOne youโre more than welcome to use at your discretion.โ
My head swung toward him. โThis wasnโt something I asked for.โ
โI know.โ He didnโt look at me as he said, โThere are soaps on the stool that you can use. And the towels are here.โ He gestured to the rack against the wall. โThe other door is locked. No one can enter from there. Take your time. Iโll be waiting in the bedchamber.โ
Nyktos didnโt linger. He stepped out of the bathing chamber, closed the door behind him, and left me there, hands trembling slightly. I turned back to the tub, unsure what to make of thisโof anything.
This was an act of kindness. I shouldnโt be surprised, because despite whatever issues we might have had with one another, Nyktos was a kind man. He was thoughtful. I knew that, but this unexpected act frayed me at the seams and made that crack in my chest feel even more unstable. I felt as if I were one breath from unraveling. And that was the last thing I needed.
Besides, I really did want a bath. There likely was a fine layer of dirt covering me, and the hasty cleanups had left me feeling a little gross.
Unsheathing the dagger, I placed it on the ledge and then shimmied out of the gown. My chest immediately appreciated the freedom. I winced as I shrugged off my undergarments, seeing pink indentations in the flesh of my breasts from where the seams of the bodice had been too tight. Leaving the clothing and undergarments in a somewhat neat ball, I touched the sudsy water. Hot. Perfect. I stepped into the water and then sank into it. There was only a faint sting from the cut on my waist as the heat seeped into my tense muscles and the knots all along my back. Strands of my hair spread out over the water as my shoulders slipped under the surface. I stretched my legs out and didnโt even reach the other side.
This tub was deliciously obscene.
Letting myself slide under the surface, I stayed there. I just existed, neither here nor there. I floated, holding my breath until my lungs burned and tiny bursts of light appeared behind my closed lids. Then I resurfaced, dragging in deep breaths of air as I blinked the water from my lashes.
Glancing at the closed door, I scooted across the floor of the tub, sending the bubbles into a frenzy and stirring up the scent of peppermint. I refused to think about the fact that Nyktos had thought to add that to the water since he didnโt strike me as the type to enjoy bubble baths.
Grabbing one of the bottles, I quickly scrubbed the soap through my hair while also ignoring the fact that heโd even thought to leave two
pitchers of clean, warm water by the tub. I also didnโt think about how heโd washed my hair upon my arrival in the Shadowlands. Nor did I think about how heโdย helpedย dry me off afterwards.
Once my hair was free of soap, I had no reason to linger, but the water was still wonderfully warm, and the size of the tub reminded me a little of my lake. My heart twisted as I pushed myself into the corner of the tub, letting my head rest against the ledge as I stared at the small window and the gray sky beyond.
What allowed me to relax wasnโt that the tub or room was different. I knew that. It was who waited just outside the door. I knew I was safe.
I didnโt mean for my eyes to drift shut or to be lulled into sleep.
Honestly, I wouldnโt have thought it possible, but that was what I did.
The sound of my name and a featherlight touch to my brow woke me, much as it had the evening before. My eyes fluttered open.
Nyktos sat on the ledge of the tub, the hair Iโd cut falling forward, grazing his cheek and the curve of his jaw. Heโd donned a loose black shirt but had left it untucked and unbuttoned.
The dagger remained where Iโd left it, now beside his thigh. โI thinkโฆโ I cleared my throat. โI think I fell asleep.โ
Nyktos said nothing for a long moment, and I glanced down to confirm what I already suspected. Most of the bubbles had evaporated, leaving only patches of weak foam scattered throughout the tub. I was acutely conscious that nearly all of me was visible to him. โThe water must be cold by now.โ
โA little.โ I forced a swallow. โCan you really heat water with a touch?โ
He nodded. โItโs not really magic. Itโs eather responding to my will.โ That sounded like magic to me. โI bet that comes in handy.โ
โIt can.โ A moment passed, and then he dipped a hand into the water.
My pulse skittered as a faint glow appeared around his fingers, muted by the suds. The water swirled gently, forming tiny whirlpools. A strange sensation hit me, a tingling along my stomach, legsโand between them. My breath caught as the water warmedโasย Iย warmed.
โBetter?โ Nyktos asked.
โYes,โ I whispered as the tingling sensation eased. โThat wasโฆa unique experience.โ
โVery,โ he murmured, his bright-eyed gaze traveling over my face so intensely it felt like a physical touch. His stare lowered over the slope of my throat, lingering on the faint bruise left there, and then to where my shoulders broke the surface before moving lower still. The tips of my breasts tightened under his heavy stare, and the muscles low in my stomach followed suit. His gaze drifted farther, over my hand resting against my navel and then to the space between my parted thighs. Heat flooded my veins as a sharp, twisting pulse darted through me.
Nyktosโs gaze shot up. The aura behind his eyes was bright as wisps of eather seeped out.
My heart kicked against my ribs. โI think youโre the one doing the
oglingย now.โ
Thick lashes lowered, shielding his eyes, but I felt his gaze. It had returned to where the tips of my breasts were just below the surface of the water. โYou do know you donโt have to allow me to look upon suchย unmentionableย places.โ
โI know.โ
One side of his lip curled up. โAnd yet you continue to allow it.โ
The spark of irritation further flamed the fire in my blood. โI do. What do you think that means? That Iโm trying to seduce you,ย Nyktos?โ
His eyes rose to mine again. The strands of essence churned slowly. โIs that a serious question? Everything you do is seductive.โ
โYou are the one who said you would await me and then chose to enter the chamber where I was bathing,โ I reminded him. โAnd yet you think Iโm trying to seduceย you?โ
The knuckles of the hand on the rim of the tub turned white.
โHow long did you sit there and look upon me while I was unaware?โ I pushed away from the corner of the tub, sitting up. Water dipped below the swell of my breasts. โBetter yet, how was I trying to seduce you when you came into my bedchamber uninvited and watched me pleasure myself? Then touched me?โ
Every part of him went still. His chest. His features. The eather in his eyes.
I smirked. โOh, Iโm sorry. Was I not supposed to bring that up again? Forget that you watched me, wishing it was your fingers instead of mine inside me? Or were you wishing it was your cock?โ
The air became electrified, filling with power as his eyes locked onto mine. That shouldโve been a warning, but I was angryโwith him for behaving as if his response to me was my fault, and with myself because that ache was there, throbbing and wanting.
โThe thing is, Nyktos.โ I rose, stirring what remained of the suds. Water coursed down my stomach, running over my hips and between my thighs. โMy want of you isnโt something I canโt control. Itโs aย choice. I have the courage to admit that, and you donโt. Now, if you will excuse me
โโ
โNo.โ Nyktosโs hands landed on my hips, stopping me. He stared up at me, his eyes swirling, burning spheres. โYou are not excused.โ