Nash
The thieves looked even more pitiful than their haul of crushed snack cakes and potato chips.
Three boys under the age of fourteen in varying painful stages of puberty sat on cold metal chairs outside the store managerโs office, looking like they were ready to puke. Beyond them, Nolan Graham hovered in the cookie aisle.
After that morningโs three-vehicle fender bender on the highway, the hardware storeโs โstolenโ string trimmer display that turned up in the storeroom, and Mr. and Mrs. Wheeler nearly getting scammed over the phone by someone claiming to be their grandson, Iโd had a busy damn day already.
It was a good thing Iโd had my first full nightโs sleep in weeks. Thanks to Lina.
I usually woke with a start to the sound that haunted my brain. And while I did remember it in my dreams, this morning Iโd woken to Lina in my arms. Sheโd sought me out in her sleep. That factโand my reaction to it
โmade me think that just maybe I was still alive, still worth trusting.
I owed her, the woman who was taking up every available brain cell that wasnโt occupied with work and breathing. Thanks to the talk and the sleep, I was feeling more hopeful than I had in a long time. Sheโd opened up just a
crack, and what Iโd seen beyond her s*xy exterior had me wanting a longer, deeper look.
โHate to call you in here for a couple of Little Debbieโs, Chief, but I gotta set an example,โ Big Nicky said. Manager of Groverโs Groceries for nearly as long as Iโd been alive, the man took his job seriously.
โI understand your predicament, Big Nicky. All Iโm sayinโ is I think thereโs a way around this that doesnโt involve pressing charges. We all do stupid things. Especially at that age.โ
He huffed out a breath and glanced over my shoulder at the kids. โHell, when I was that age, I was stealinโ my daddyโs cigarettes and cutting class to go fishing.โ
โAnd you made it out of childhood without a record,โ I pointed out.
He nodded thoughtfully. โMy mama scared me straight. Guess not all of us are lucky enough to have parents who care enough to scare the shit out of us.โ
I knew what that was like. Could still feel the tilting of my axis after Momโthe glue, the fun, the love of our familyโleft this world, and us, behind.
โToby and Kyle, their parents are gonna ground them until it comes time for learnerโs permits,โ I predicted.
โBut Lonnieโฆโ Big Nicky let that hang there. But Lonnie.
Knockemout wasnโt good at keeping secrets. That was how I knew Lonnie Potter was a tall, tough kid who had a mom that skipped out on him and his siblings two years ago. His dad worked third shift, which left little time for raising kids. I also knew that Lonnie had quietly joined the Drama Club at school. First, probably to have a place to go when no one was home, and then because heโd taken a liking to trying on other peopleโs lives. He was good at it, according to Waylay. But no family members ever showed in the audience on opening night.
โNoticed the paintโs peeling outside,โ I mused.
โThatโs what I get for hiring that yahooโs crew outta Lawlerville. Did a shit job with shit paint because they donโt give a shit. Pardon my French. None of them live here to be embarrassed by watching their half-assed work flake away.โ
โBet some motivated young labor could get the job done for you for the cost of materials.โ I nodded toward the hallway.
Big Nickyโs smile was slow. โHuh. You might be right, Chief. Nothing like a little manual labor to keep you out of trouble.โ
I hooked my thumbs in my belt. โThat option sits well with you, Iโll talk it over with their parents. I have a feelinโ theyโll be amenable.โ
โIโm feelinโ pretty amenable myself,โ he said.
โThen Iโll get โem out of your hair and weโll work it out with the parents.โ
โAppreciate that, Chief.โ
I found Grave standing guard over the boys, frowning like a terrifying specter.
โAll right, gang. Iโve got a one-time offer for you thatโs gonna save you from a lifetime of grounding and me an acre of paperworkโฆโ
Grave and I trooped the boys out the back and into my SUV to
keep the gossip mill from getting any hotter. Piper greeted the troublemakers with nervous peeks between the seats.
We ran through the situation with Tobyโs and then Kyleโs parents. Punishments were doled out, community service and official apologies agreed upon.
โMy dad ainโt home,โ said Lonnie, the remaining member of the felonious trio in the back seat. โHeโs workinโ a double.โ
Piper wagged her tail from her perch on Graveโs lap. โIโll get a hold of your dad at work,โ I told him.
Lonnie stared out the back window, looking mournful. โHeโs gonna kill me.โ
That crust of tough wasnโt as thick as he thought it was. โHeโs gonna be mad. But mad means he cares,โ I told him. โI fucked up.โ The kid winced. โSorry. I mean screwed up.โ Grave and I exchanged a look.
โYou ever set fire to your daddyโs shed with fireworks you stole from your drunk neighbor?โ Grave asked him.
โNo! Why? Someone say I did?โ
โYou ever get busted for fighting four guys on the playground just because they said your brother was an asshole when they werenโt wrong
and your brother was an asshole?โ I asked. โNo. I only have sisters.โ
โPoint is, kid, we all fuck up,โ Grave said.
I met Lonnieโs gaze in the rearview mirror. โWhat matters is how we handle things post-fuckup.โ
โWait.ย You guysย did all that?โ Grave smirked. โAnd more.โ
โBut we learned that raisinโ hell gets old and the consequences of bad decisions last a hell of a long time.โ Lucian came to mind. Iโd wondered over the years what path he would have followed if heโd had it easier in the beginning. One thing was for sure, he never would have ended up behind bars at seventeen if someone had given him a chance. โThat goes for life and women and everything in between.โ
โYou should be writinโ this down, kid. This shitโs gold,โ Grave told our passenger.
After dropping Lonnie off at home and calling his father at work, I
sprang for sodas at the Pop โN Stop. I parked in the school zone to scare the shit out of speedersโฆand to annoy Nolan, who stuck to my ass like glue in his black Tahoe.
Grave took off his KPD cap and rubbed a hand over his bare scalp. โGot a minute?โ
That was never a good sign.
โProblem?โ There was a reason he hadnโt wanted to have this talk at the station, I guessed.
โDilton.โ
And there was the reason. Tate Dilton had been a rookie patrol cop when Iโd taken the helm from longtime chief Wylie Ogden whose decades of good-olโ-boy โleadershipโ had left a stain on the department.
Dilton was what I labeled a โjockโ in the profession. He wanted the adrenaline, the pursuits, the confrontations. He enjoyed showing off his authority. His takedowns were more aggressive than necessary. His citations were lopsided with him coming down harder on people who rubbed him the
wrong way personally. He also spent more time in the gym and at the bar than he did at home with his wife and kids.
I just plain didnโt like him.
Clearing out the entire department when I took over hadnโt been an option, so Iโd kept him on, invested time trying to mold him into the kind of cop we needed behind the badge. I partnered him with a solid, experienced cop, but training, oversight, and discipline only went so far.
โWhat about him?โ I asked, reaching for my drink so my hands had something to do.
โHad a few issues with him when you were laid up.โ โSuch as?โ
โHe was a dog off the leash while you were on leave. Roughed up Jeremy Trent for public intoxication in the parking lot after the high school football game couple of weeks ago. Unprovoked. In front of the guyโs kidโ defensive tackleโwho got in Diltonโs face along with half the team. Rightfully so. Things woulda gotten real messy if Harvey and a couple of his biker buddies hadnโt stepped in.โ
Fuck.
โJeremy okay? He press charges?โ
โLaughed it off. Paid his fine. Pair of bruised knees and some road rash as souvenir. Didnโt remember a damn thing after sleepinโ it off. But there would have been a hell of a lot more to remember if it had gone any further.โ
Jeremy Trent had been captain of the baseball team and beat out Dilton for homecoming king their senior year of high school. Theyโd had more than a handful of run-ins over the years ever since. Jeremy was an affable guy who worked for the sewer authority and drank too much on the weekends. He thought he and Dilton were friends. But Dilton still seemed to think they were in some kind of competition.
Graveโs mouth was tight as he stared through the windshield. โWhat else?โ
โTried to take a traffic stop too far. Real nice Mercedes SUV goinโ just a hair over the speed limit on the highway. Just got passed by a souped-up pickup going about twenty over the limit. Dilton ignores the truck driven by his drinkinโ buddy Titus and pulls over the Mercedes instead. Black driver.โ
โGoddammit.โ
โDispatch flagged me as soon as Dilton called it in. Had a bad feeling about it so I headed out with Bannerjee. Good thing too. He had the driver out of the car and cuffed, was yellinโ at the wife who was recording him on her phone.โ
โWhyโs this the first Iโm hearing about it?โ
โLike I said, you were laid up. And youโre hearinโ about it now cause last night he was overheard running his mouth at that shithole bar Hellhound talkinโ bout how heโs gunninโ for chief since you canโt do the job.โ
Grave pulled no punches.
โIโll take care of it,โ I said, putting the car in gear and scaring the hell out of seventeen-year-old Tausha Wood when I pulled out behind her pickup truck.
โNow?โ Grave asked. โNow,โ I said grimly.
A day ago, I wouldnโt have had the energy for this shit, but Iโd
woken up with a mostly naked Lina pressed up against a mostly naked me. It was more powerful than any prescription Iโd tried.
I ran a small, solid department that served a small, solid community. A few thousand people who had more history between them than most families. Sure, we were a rough-and-tumble community maybe a little more likely to solve an argument with fists and alcohol. But we were tight-knit. Loyal.
That didnโt mean that we didnโt see trouble. Being this close to Baltimore and DC meant it occasionally spilled into town limits. But having trouble come from a badge in my department? That wouldnโt stand.
We were good men and women dedicated to serving and protecting.
And we were getting better with every response, every training.
There were a thousand ways beyond our control a call could go south. A thousand ways we could make a dangerous mistake. There was no room or reason to add attitude and prejudice to the list.
So we trained and drilled and debriefed and analyzed.
But a department was only as good as its weakest officer. And Dilton was ours.
โHere he comes,โ Grave said, giving the heads-up.
Tate Dilton didnโt bother knocking. He strolled into my office like he owned the place. He was a reasonably good-looking guy despite the receding hairline and beer belly. His mustache pissed me off, probably because it reminded me of Marshal Graham, who had helped himself to an empty workstation and was doing a goddamn sudoku.
โWhat can I do ya for, Chief?โ Dilton said as he took a seat, ignoring the rest of the roomโs occupants.
I closed the case folder Iโd been reading, added it to the stack on my desk.
โShut the door.โ
Dilton blinked before getting to his feet and closing the door. โHave a seat,โ I said, indicating the chair heโd just vacated.
He dropped down again, kicking back and lacing his fingers over his belly like he was on his buddyโs couch watching the game.
โOfficer Dilton, this is Laurie Farver,โ I said, introducing the woman heโd yet to acknowledge standing by the window.
โMaโam,โ he said, giving her a dismissive nod.
โYou know, Tate, growing up, my neighbor had this dog that he kept on a leash. From a distance, that dog looked nice. Soft, yellow fur. Big, fluffy tail. As long as he was on that leash, he was fine. But the second that leash slipped, it was game over. You couldnโt trust him. He started gettinโ loose. Chasinโ kids. Bitinโ people. My neighbor didnโt shore up that hole in his fence. Didnโt tighten up the leash. Eventually, one day, that dog attacked two kids out ridinโ their bikes. Dog had to be put down. And his owner got sued.โ
Dilton sneered around the gum he was chewing. โNo offense, Chief, but I donโt really give a flying fuck about no neighbor and no neighborโs dog.โ
Beneath my desk, Piper let out a low growl from her dog bed.
โHereโs the thing, Officer Dilton.ย Youโreย that dog. Iโm not always gonna be here to keep that leash on tight. Bottom line is, if I canโt trust you in the field on your own, I canโt trust you period. Your recent actions have made it clear that you arenโt prepared to serve, much less protect. And if I canโt depend on you to do your job to the best of your ability, then weโve got a serious problem.โ
Diltonโs eyes narrowed and I saw a glint of mean in them. โMaybe you donโt get it since youโre basically riding a desk these days, but I got shit to do out there. Someoneโs gotta maintain order.โ
I sat with that for a second. I had been slipping. And that had consequences. Dilton had taken advantage of the loose leash, which meant not only were his actions on me, it was also up to me to make it right.
โIโm glad you brought that up. Letโs talk about that shit youโve been doinโ. Like tripping Jeremy Trent outside a football game, kneeing him in the back, and cuffing him in front of his kid and half the stadium when all he did was remind you that you owed him twenty bucks on the Ravens game. Or shit like letting your buddy Titus drive twenty miles an hour over the speed limit while you pull over a Black aerospace engineer and his civil rights attorney wife in a Mercedes for going five over. You then proceeded to remove the driver from his car under the probable cause ofโฆlet me check your report to make sure I get this rightโฆโ I glanced down at the paperwork in front of me and read. โThe wanted poster of a prison escapee thatโs been hanginโ on our bulletin board for three years.โ
Diltonโs face twisted into an ugly mask. โI had the situation handled until your lap dogs showed up.โ
โYou had the driver handcuffed, bruised, and lying facedown on the road in a tuxedo while his wife recorded your actions on her cell phone when Sergeant Hopper and Officer Bannerjee arrived on scene. According to their report, they could smell alcohol on your breath.โ
โThatโs bullshit. Hop and that bitch are out to get me. I observed the suspect driving erratically above the posted speed limit and Iโโ
It felt as though someone had switched a light on inside me. Gone was the icy numbness, the dark void. In its place, a simmering anger bubbled to life, warming me from within.
โYou fucked up. You put ego and prejudice ahead of your job, and in doing so you put your job at risk. You put this department at risk. Worse, you putย livesย at risk.โ
โThis is bullshit,โ Dilton muttered. โIs that bitch wife waving her law degree around, makinโ threats?โ
โOfficer Dilton, you are hereby suspended with pay, but only because thatโs procedure. Pending a full investigation of your conduct as an officer. I wouldnโt get used to that paycheck.โ
โYou canโt fuckinโ do that.โ
โWeโre opening an official investigation. Weโll be talking to witnesses, victims, suspects. And if I findย anythingย that looks like a pattern of abuse, Iโll have your badge permanently.โ
โThis wouldnโt be happening if Wylie was still here. You stole this office from a good man andโโ
โIย earnedย this office and Iโve worked damn hard to make sure men like you donโt fucking abuse it.โ
โYou canโt do this. Ainโt no union rep here. You canโt throw some bullshit suspension at me without my rep.โ
โMs. Farver is your union rep. Though Iโm guessing sheโs not as enthusiastic about repping you after hearing your bullshit. Mr. Peters? Mayor Swanson, are you still with us?โ I asked.
โStill here, Chief Morgan.โ
โYep. Heard it all,โ came the replies from my speakerphone.
โOfficer Dilton, Mr. Peters is Knockemoutโs solicitor. That means lawyer who represents the town in case you need the definition. Mr. Peters, does Knockemout need me to cover anything else with suspended Officer Tate Dilton?โ I asked.
โNo, Chief. I believe you covered everything. Weโll be in touch, Officer Dilton,โ the lawyer said ominously.
โThank you, Eddie. How about you, Mayor Swanson? You want to say your piece?โ
โIโve got a lot of pieces Iโd like to say of the four-letter variety,โ she said. โYโall are lucky Iโve got my grandkids in the car with me. Suffice it to say I am looking forward to a thorough investigation and if, like Chief Morgan says, we find a pattern of a-b-u-s-e, I will not hesitate to kick your a-s-s.โ
โThank you, maโam. Message received.โ I looked at Dilton, who was turning a shade of lobster. โIโll take that badge and service weapon now.โ
He came out of his chair like he was on a spring. His hands curled into tight fists at his sides, fury flashing in his eyes.
โYou wanna take a swing at me, do it. But understand that thatโs got its own consequences and youโre about up to your ears in them already,โ I warned. โThink on it.โ
โThis wonโt stand,โ he snarled, throwing his badge and gun on my desk, knocking over my nameplate in the process. โThis is supposed to be a brotherhood. Youโre supposed to have my back, not take the word of a
couple of asshole outsiders or some pathetic drunk who peaked in high school.โ
โYou can run your mouth about brotherhood all you want, but the bottom line is youโre in this work for yourself. For the power trips you think you can get out of it. Thatโs not a brotherhood. Thatโs one pathetic kid trying to make himself feel like a big man. And youโre right, Iโm not gonna stand for it. Neither are any of them.โ
I pointed to the window where the rest of Knockemoutโs officers stood
โeven the ones who had the day off. Arms crossed, legs braced. Behind Dilton, Grave grunted in satisfaction.
โNow get out of my station.โ
Dilton yanked the door open so hard it bounced off the wall. He stormed out into the bullpen and laid a glare on the rest of the department.
Zeroing in on Tashi, he got in her face, looming over her. โYou got a problem, little girl?โ
I was halfway out of my seat and Grave was already in the doorway when Tashi smiled up at him. โNot anymore, asshole.โ
Bertle and Winslow stepped up behind her, smirking.
Dilton raised a finger, shoved it in her face. โFuck you.โ He glared down the other officers and pointed at them. โFuck you too.โ
With that, he stormed out of the station.
โโNot anymore, asshole?โ Bannerjee, thatโs someย G.I. Janeโlevel shit there,โ Winslow said, slapping her on the shoulder.
She beamed like the teacher had just handed over a gold star. Even I couldnโt help but smile.
โGuess Iโll be on my way,โ the union rep said with a marked lack of enthusiasm.
โGood luck,โ I said.
She rolled her eyes. โThanks.โ
โGood to have you back, Chief,โ Grave said to me before following her out of my office.
Piper scrabbled at my legs. I leaned down and put her in my lap. โWell, that went well,โ I said to the dog.
She gave me an enthusiastic slurp with her tongue before hopping down onto the floor again.
I picked up my nameplate and ran my fingers over the letters. Chief of Police Nash Morgan.
I wasnโt back. Not all the way yet. But it felt like Iโd finally taken a step in the right direction.
Maybe it was time to take another.