to a Girlโs Everything
I wake up slowly to the sound of a text coming in. I groan as I think about ignoring it, about staying wrapped up in my covers where itโs warm and comfortable andย perfect. But Iโve been slow in responding to Heatherโs texts since I got to Alaska, and thatโs not cool.
Except when I roll over and grab my phone, I realize two things. One, itโs after ten in the morning, which means I slept right through first period. And two, the text isnโt from Heather.
And itโs not from Macy, either. Instead, itโs from a number I donโt recognize.
Unknown:ย How is your ankle?
Flint?ย I wonder as I brush my hair out of my eyes and sit up.ย Or someone else?
For a moment, Jaxonโs eyesโdeep, dark, fathomlessโ come to mind, but I canโt believe itโs him. Not when heโs been so hot and cold the entire time weโve known each other. And definitely not when he told me last night that we were going to do things the hard wayโwhatever that means.
Deciding to play it safe, I text back:
Me:ย Who is this?
Thereโs a long pause. Then:
Unknown:ย Jaxon
Itโs only one word, and yet it somehow all but crackles with indignation. Like he canโt imagine that I donโt already have his number in my phone, just waiting for him to finally get around to texting me. I should be annoyed at the assumption, but Iโm amused instead. So amused that I canโt help answering:
Me:ย Jaxon who?
Jaxon:ย I donโt know the punch line
Me:ย To what?
Jaxon:ย Whatever knock-knock joke youโre setting up
I burst out laughing, because heโs funny over text in a way he hasnโt shown me in person.
Me:ย Iโm terrible at knock-knock jokes
Jaxon:ย Finally some good news
Me:ย Hey!
Me:ย How many tickles does it take to make an octopus laugh?
Thereโs a long pause, where I can totally imagine his face.
Then:
Jaxon:ย I didnโt realize octopi laughed
Yeah, thatโs pretty much the response I expected.
Me:ย eye roll emoji
Me:ย Come on. Play along.
Jaxon:ย I just wanted to know how your ankle was
Me:ย Take a guess and Iโll tell you Another long pause.
Jaxon:ย 17
Me:ย 17?!?!?!?!?!
Jaxon:ย Well, itโs obviously not 8 or it wouldnโt be a jokeย Jaxon:ย And I donโt have a clue otherwise, so why not 17?ย Me:ย double eye roll emoji
Me:ย Letโs try this again
Me:ย How many tickles does it take to make an octopus laugh?
This pause is so long that Iโve just about convinced myself that Iโve blown it and he isnโt going to answer. But then:
Jaxon:ย How many?
I nearly drop my phone in excitement, and Iโm grinning so hard that my cheeks hurt. Which is ridiculous, but Iโm learning that when it comes to this boy,ย Iโmย ridiculous.
Me:ย Ten-tickles
Jaxon:ย Thatโsโฆactually pretty good
Me:ย Wow. High praise
Jaxon:ย Donโt let it go to your head
Me:ย Believe me, I wonโt
Me:ย Triple eye roll emoji
Jaxon:ย What do you get when you cross a vampire and a snowman?
What? A joke? From the perennially serious Jaxon Vega? I canโt answer back fast enough.
Me:ย I have no idea.
Jaxon:ย Frostbite
I laugh out loud, because who is this Jaxon? And how do I keep him around?
Me:ย Halloween and Alaska all rolled into one, huh?
Me:ย Color me impressed
Thereโs another long pause, but this time something tells me not to give up on Jaxon quite yet. That he isnโt not
texting because heโs put down his phone but because heโs trying to figure out what to say next. Whichโฆcan you say mind-boggling? I can barely imagine a Jaxon who doesnโt know exactly what to do and say in any situation.
Finally my phone dings again.
Jaxon:ย You promised to tell me about your ankle
Itโs not a great segue from the fun conversation we were just having, but I go with it, because the alternative is not answering, and I donโt want to do that. At least not yet.
Me:ย I donโt know. Iโm just waking up. My uncle must have decided I donโt have to go to class again today.
Jaxon:ย Iโd say lucky you, butโฆ
Me:ย What, falling out of a tree not lucky enough for you?
Jaxon:ย Do you KNOW what lucky means?
The laugh hits me so unexpectedly that I nearly snort. Then slap a hand over my mouth in horrified amusement, even though thereโs no one around to hear.
Me:ย I walked away, didnโt I?
Jaxon:ย eye roll emoji
Jaxon:ย Pretty sure I carried you awayย Me:ย Oh. Right. Thanks again for that.ย Jaxon:ย All the eye roll emojis
Now that heโs got me thinking about it, Iโm curious how my ankle is, too. So I throw back the covers and try to climb out of bedโonly to whimper the second I put any weight on my right foot. Well, that answers that. With the added problem that I really have to pee.
Jaxon:ย What are you going to do today?
Me:ย I think Iโll lie in bed and feel sorry for myself
Jaxon:ย Good times
Me:ย Yeah, well, turns out the ankle hurts a little bit
Jaxon:ย You ok?ย Me:ย Of courseย Me:ย brb
I use the promise of Advil to propel myself across the room to the bathroom. When Iโm done, I wash my hands and grab two of the little round pills and a bottle of water before hobbling back to my bed. I force myself to take the pills before I pick my phone back up again, but itโs hard. Iโm dying to know if Jaxon texted me back.
He didnโt. Which is cool, I tell myself. I mean. Iโm the one who cut our conversation off so abruptly.
Me:ย Iโm back No answer.
Me:ย Sorry that took so long. Still no answer.
Ugh. I blew it.
Iโm pissed at myself for stopping our conversation. And just as angry for being pissed off. Jaxon showed me more of himself in the last fifteen minutes than he has since I got here. What do I have to be annoyed about that he stopped texting?
Absolutely nothing. I mean, the boy does have to go to class, after all.
Somehow, telling myself that only makes everything worse. Well, that and the fact that Iโm starving, and the peanut butter is all the way across the room. Of course.
I lie back against my pillows and fire off a couple of messages to Heather. Then I check Snapchat and Instagram and even play a couple of rounds ofย Pac-Manโall while
telling myself that Iโm absolutely, positively not waiting for Jaxon to text again.
But eventually my stomach starts growling, and I toss my phone aside. A girl canโt live on peanut butter alone, even if right now Iโm hungry enough to give it a try.
I start to hobble toward the fridge but get distracted halfway there by a knock on my door. For a second, just a second, I wonder if it might be Jaxon. Then common sense kicks in. Itโs probably Uncle Finn coming to check on me and my bum ankle.
Except when I answer the door, itโs not Uncle Finn. And itโs not Jaxon, either. Instead, itโs a woman carrying a heavily loaded food tray.
โGrace?โ she asks as I step aside to let her in.
โYes.โ I smile at her. โThank you so much. Iโmย starving.โ
โAnytime.โ She grins back. โWhere do you want me to put it?โ
โI can take it.โ I reach for the tray, but she shoots me a look that says to give her a break. โUm, the bed is fine, I guess.โ I gesture toward my side of the room.
She crosses to my bed and puts the tray down toward the foot of it. Then asks, โIs there anything else I can get you?โ
I have no idea, considering the food is under two of those silver dome things to keep it warm. But since Iโm hungry enough to eat almost anythingโand Iโm not in the habit of having anyone wait on meโI answer, โNo, this is perfect. Thank you.โ
Trust Macy to think of me even when sheโs in class. My cousin is a goddess.
Except, as I settle back onto the bed, I realize thereโs a
small black envelope on the tray. One that has my name written on the front in a masculine scrawl that definitely isnโt Macyโs.
Uncle Finn, I tell myself, even as my heart beats triple
time.
Because it canโt be Jaxon, I figure as I reach for the envelope with trembling fingers.
Canโt be Jaxon, I think again as I slide out the simple black card.
Definitely canโt be Jaxon, I tell myself one more time as I open up the card and search for a signature.
Exceptโฆexcept itย isย from Jaxon, and my heart is actually threatening to burst out of my chest.
I donโt know what you like yet, but I figured you were hungry. Stay off that ankle.
Jaxon
Oh my God. OmigodOmigodOmigod. Oh. My. God.
I mean, itโs not theย mostย romantic note in the world, but
that doesnโt even matter. Because Jaxon sent me breakfast.
Thatโsย why he didnโt text me back. He was busy doing this.
I grab my phone and fire off a quick text to him.
Me:ย Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!! You really are a lifesaver
He doesnโt answer right away, so I start poking around the tray, seeing what he had the cafeteria bring me. The answer isย everything.
Thereโs a cup of coffee and another one of tea. A bottle of sparkling water and a glass of orange juice. Thereโs even an ice pack for my ankle.
I lift up the domes to find one plate loaded with eggs and sausage and a giant cinnamon roll that smells amazing. The other has a Belgian waffle on it, topped with strawberry compote and what looks to be freshly whipped creamโฆin the middle of Alaska. Inย November.
Iโm so touched, I think I might cry. Or I would if I wasnโt so hungry.
Still, thereโs no way I can eat all this, and I should feel bad about wasting the food. But right now, Iโm too busy smiling to worry about anything else.
My stomach growls again, louder this time, and I dig in, starting with the waffle. Because whipped cream plus syrup plus strawberries equals nirvana.
Iโm halfway through the whipped cream covered deliciousness when my phone finally dings againโand I nearly upend the whole tray trying to get to it.
Jaxon:ย Sorry, taking a test
Jaxon:ย Waffles or eggs?ย Me:ย Waffles all the wayย Jaxon:ย I figured
Jaxon:ย Use the ice pack
Me:ย Wow. Bossy much?
Me:ย I am using it. I can take care of myself, you know
Jaxon:ย Now whoโs being bossy?
Iโm not sure if I should be offended or not by that latest crack. I probably should be, but a waffle this good gives the guy a little extra leeway. Plus, I maybe, possibly deserved it.
Me: How about you? Waffles or eggs?
Jaxon: Neither
Me: So what do you like to eat?
As soon as I hit Send, I immediately regret that last text. Oh my God, it sounds way more suggestive than I intended. Damn it. Heโs either going to think Iโm a creep or reply with something really off-putting, and Iโm not prepared for either outcome.
Itโs been a while since Iโve flirted with anyone, and Iโm definitely not ready for it to end.
Iโm especially not ready to stop talking to Jaxon, whoโs witty, charming, and makes me feel things no one else ever has. Besides, itโs so much easier to chat with him over text than face-to-face, especially when heโs all dark and brooding.
Seconds tick by with no response, and I consider either hurling my phone across the room or drowning my anxiety in the leftover maple syrup.
Ultimately, I do neither. I just wait, my patience wearing thin. When his reply finally comes through, I hold my breath and swipe open my screen. Then I burst out laughing because:
Jaxon: I donโt think weโre there yet, but Iโm sure youโll let me know when we are.
Perfect.