โDerek drops his duffel bag on the driveway and takes two steps to meet meโ
โwhere I throw myself into his arms and he catches me with zero hesitation.
Iโve done nothing but cry for the past hour. He gave it up. It canโt be for me.
His arms wrap around me so tight I can barely breathe, and I bury my face in his neck. His fingers sink into the back of my hair, and he whispers in my ear. โWhy are you crying, Nora? Whatโs wrong?โ
This jolts me back to reality and I wiggle out of his arms, landing once again on my feet.
And then I shove him in the chest. โWhat were you thinking? You retired! Derek!โ Fresh tears well again. โYou canโt retire for me! Tell me it wasnโt for me! Thatโs too much. You played so incredibly today. You broke your own freaking record; did you know that? Youโฆyou canโt give this up because of some absurd gossip magazine article. It would blow over on its own!โ
Derek smiles and cups my face, wiping my tears with his thumbs. โAre you done?โ
โNo. Iโm not done. You should have told me first. Run this by me!โ โYou would have told me not to do it.โ
โExactly! This is a mistake. I could have found another way.โ
Derek bends and presses a silencing kiss to my lips. โItโs not a mistake.
You know how I know?โ
I eye his beautiful face. His sharp cheekbones, the scar above his eyebrow. My heart aches with love for him. โHow?โ
โBecause on the way home, I felt a knot in my chest loosen for the first time in years. Itโs true, I didnโt plan for thisโbut Iโm grateful it happened the way it did. Iโve had such a great career in football, and now Iโm ready for a change, Nora. I want it. A new adventure. I just needed the push in the right direction. And I know you could have fixed this yourself another way. I know it likely would have blown over just fine in a few weeks. But I didnโt want you to weather a storm for any length of time when I had a perfectly good solution right at my fingertips.โ
I want to weep. In fact, I am. โYou canโt do it for me, Derek. Itโs too much. Youโll resent me.โ
โI could never resent you, Nora. And if it helps you sleep better at night
โremember that Iโm an arrogant asshole and Iโd much rather end my football career on the heels of playing the best game of my life than when Iโm washed up.โ He smooshes my cheeks together. โIโm happy, Ginger Snap. Iโm so damn happy. I want this for me. Iโm so ready for this change. Ready to see what else I have to offer in this world.โ
โBut if youโre notโฆif youโre regretting itโI willโฆI will go to the Sharks right now and tell them you made a mistake.โ
He kisses my forehead. โNo mistake, Nora. None. This is what I want. Even if you break up with me here and now, Iโll stay retired. Iโm so tired of striving at max effort every damn day. Iโve loved my football career, but I need to see what else is out there for me. Itโs just time.โ
I sigh, wanting to protest more. Feeling like I should do everything I can to make him change his mind. But I have to admit, his eyes are convincing. He seems like he genuinely wants this.
โOkay, but just know youโre allowed to still change your mind tonight.
Or tomorrow. Or even next week.โ
โNoted. But right now, all I want to do is go inside with my girl and lie on the couch and watch something chill on TV.โ
He takes my hand, ready to pull me with him into the house.
But I canโt move. I canโt do anything other than what Iโve wanted to do since the night on our honeymoon when he told me hazel was his favorite color.
Derek pauses when he feels the tug of my hand and turns aroundโ finding me down on one knee. The cement is sharp and hot under it, but I donโt care. I love the bite of it in this moment.
His brows pull together and then immediately soften when he realizes what Iโm doing. โDerek PenderโฆI know weโre already married butโโ
His hand juts out and covers my mouth. โWait.ย Is this happening because you feel guilty about my retirement?โ I shake my head. โDid you want to do this yesterday? Before any of this drama today? Or did the idea only just occur to you?โ
I nod, and then frown and shake my head. He releases my mouth so I can answer. โYes, to wanting to do it yesterdayโno to it being a recent development. Can I finish proposing to you now?โ
โNo,โ he says simply, and bends to scoop me up in his arms and carry me inside.ย Confusing.ย He marches me all the way to the living room and then deposits me on the couch and tells me to stay here. But then he turns back, brackets my body with his hands, and kisses me tenderly.ย โPlease.โ
And then heโs jogging up toward his room and Iโm left here on the couch to twiddle my thumbs, thinking this must be the weirdest proposal ever. He doesnโt leave me here long, though. And when he emerges from the top of the stairs, the look in his eyes has my heart shifting into fourth gear.
โI had to get something from my bedside table,โ he says meaningfully while moving to stand in front of me.
I know my eyes are lit up like stars right now. Who cares if he interrupted my proposalโฆI finally get to see whatโ
Oh.
Derek drops to one knee. And then he pulls a little black velvet box from behind his back. โYou donโt mind if I pick up where you left off, do you?โ He smiles, and every drop of blood in my veins rushes to accommodate my
bursting heart. โI know weโre already married, Nora. But it would mean the entire world to me if you would stay married to me. For real. For always. For eternity. Stay with me. Let me love you fully and desperately forever and ever.โ
He pops the top of the black box, and a shiny diamond ring sparkles up at me.
My lips tremble as I look between the engagement ring and Derekโs sharp blue eyes. โThis was what the guys found in your bedside table? This is the embarrassing thing?โ
โI never said it was embarrassing. I said when I gave it to you, it would change everything. Because thisโฆthis ring belongs to youโand it always has. I bought it for you in college.โ
โWhat?โ I breathe out. โYouโฆyou were going to propose?โ
He nods. โThe day you broke up with me actually.โ He grins at the horrified look on my face. โThere was a proposal waiting for you on the other side of my apartment door with way too many flowers. Itโs part of why I didnโt ask you to come in and talk it all out after you said you wanted to end it. This ringโโhe raises itโโwas in my back pocket.โ
โNo.โย The word comes out as a breath. โDerek. Thatโs heartbreaking.โ
Sensing my guilt, he tips forward, clutching the ring box in one hand and my face in the other so he can kiss me back into the present. โNo shame
โno guilt, Nora. Everything happened exactly as it was supposed to, Iโm confident of that now. If I had proposed to you back then, everything would have been a mess. We werenโt right for each other then, but I plan on working every day to be the right person for you now.โ
I loosen a breath lodged in my throat. โYouโve held on to this ring all this time?โ
He nods. โI could never bring myself to get rid of it. And now I know itโs because we were always going to find our way back to each other.โ His fingers bite into my hips and he pulls me to the edge of the couch. Weโre eye-to-eye with my thighs cradling his hips. โIโm yours, Nora. I always have been. Always will be.โ
Iโm struggling to find the words to convey the gooey mushy center of my heart. I wish I could just give him a peek inside; itโs exploding with color and confetti. Thereโs sprinkles and glitter. Itโs a mess.
Instead, I smile with tears in my eyes and lean forward to nip at his bottom lip. โMine,โ I whisper before pulling away so I can slide the ring onto my finger. Itโs a perfect fit.
Derek ruins the moment by grimacing down at my hand. โDamn, itโs small. I forgot I didnโt have money back then. We can get you a new one tomorrow,โ heโs saying while reaching for my hand, but I hold it away from him.
โNo way! I want this one.โ
He goes for it again. โYou can wear this one on your other hand. Let me get you a new one.โ
โAbsolutely not. This one is perfect. And if you take it, Iโll scream.โ I scramble away, standing on the couch to evade him, but he stands tooโ nearly eye level with me without having to stand on a cushion. Heโs laughing.
โI can make you scream if thatโs what you wantโฆbut Iโd prefer it be my name over and over again.โ
I gape. โWhat a dirty mouth you have, sir.โ
He leans closer to lace kisses up my neck and I secretly eye my ring over his shoulder as he does.
A minute later, as Derek has me pinned to the couch and is just about to remove my shirt, the front door bursts open. He groans and drops his head into the crook of my neck as the song โKiss Meโ plays loudly over someoneโs cellphone.
โYโall thought you had the evening all to yourselves to make luvvv, didnโt you?โ Jamal laughs one loud laugh and points to our position on the couch. โWrong!โ His wife, Tamara, just waves as she takes an armload of snacks into the kitchen along with Lawrenceโs wife, Coraโclearly already used to the way things are done in this friend group.
โGet out!โ Derek yells, but no one listens.
Instead, Nathan comes up to the couch and smiles. โSucks being interrupted, doesnโt it? Payback is a bitch. Where do you want me to put this cake? Bree had us stop and get it at the store on the way here. Said youโd probably propose. Andโฆโ He peeks over Derekโs shoulder at my hand. โBree Cheese!โ he yells back at his wife. โYou were right. He gave her the ring.โ
We hear Breeโs squeal before we see her. And then sheโs running into the house and jumping on the couch with us like itโs a dog pile. She wraps her arms around both of us and squeezes. Itโs delightful. โAh! I knew it! What a good day.โ
Price and his wife come through the front door next, kicking off their shoes and setting the car seat with Jayla inside on the floor.
โMaybe if we stay very, very still, they wonโt see us and theyโll all go away,โ Derek mumbles in my earโhis voice still dark with unresolved desire.
Bree pops over his shoulder with a wide smile and whispers, โNot a chance.โ But then she pushes off the couch and stands with a wicked gleam in her eye when she sees her husband and waves him toward her.
โBesides,โ she says as Nathan walks up to her and wraps a possessive arm around her waist, pulling her up close to him for whatever sheโs planning to say next. โSince it seems like the perfect day for big revelations and truth bombs, I thought Iโd go ahead and share with you all thatโฆIโm pregnant.โ
Derek and I both sit up quickly, ready to cheer for them with the rest of the group when we all seem to notice Nathanโs face at once. His shocked face. And thatโs when we realizeโฆBree hasnโt told him yet.
โSurprise,โ she says, looking up at him with so much love and tenderness it feels as if the entire room has just been blanketed with sunshine. โWeโre having a baby, Nathan.โ
โBreeโฆโ He blinks and looks for all the world like heโs just been crowned king. His jaw flexes and his nose wrinkles, as he tries and fails to keep his emotions at bay. And then heโs taking her face in his hands and
kissing her as they both cry. Weโre all crying. Even Derek is rapidly blinking back moisture.
โAwโhell no!โ says Jamal, wiping his eyes and then taking his wifeโs hand and pulling her toward the front door. โWe gotta go, love.โ
I blink at the door after they disappear through it. โWhere are they going?โ
โIโm guessing to make a baby,โ Derek says with a grimace. โJamal hates to be left out of group events.โ
โGroup events?โ My eyes widen at Derek, and I scoot away from him meaningfully. โDonโt get any funny ideas, Pender.โ
โOhโIโve got ideas,โ he says, pulling me from the couch and hoisting me over his shoulder. โBut all of them include protection, donโt you worry.โ He carries me to the stairs.
โDerek! All our friends are here! Youโre not being a hostess with the mostess!โ
His laugh reverberates through me as he carries me up the stairs. โAnd those friends have exactly sixty seconds to leave my house if they donโt want to overhear some things.โ
About sixty seconds later, we hear the front door slam, leaving Derek and me alone in our home.