โItโs a single-room suite. And of course it is! Why would we have expected the agency to book us anything different? Weโre married, for pancakeโs sake. But somehow in the mad dash to buy and pack our clothes and get to the airport and slip further into delirium from complete lack of sleep over the last forty-eight hours, I didnโt stop to consider that Derek and I might have to share a room. Share more than just the same space, in fact.โ
I blink at the only bed in the room.
Itโs enormousโwhich is good, I guess. But also, somehow daunting. A zing of desire strikes down my spine as I think of sleeping next to Derek again. Should I be having desire zings? I donโt think so.ย Youโre his agent, Nora!ย Wait, am I? He unofficially fired me.
Dear god, the enormity of the mess Iโm in fully hits me. Iโm married to my client who fired me. Who also happens to be Derek. Who I also happen to still have feelings for and find myself wondering every ten minutes if I made a mistake breaking up with. Wondering if maybe I could kiss him, and heโd kiss me back?
Not good.
My eyes slip to the man beside me. Up his solid tattooed arms to his hulking shoulders, over his square jaw and to that full mouth a man has no business possessing.
This is going to be tricky.
โWell now, this is a gorgeous suite,โ I say, stepping deep into the bowels of the beast but away from the offending bed. I drop my backpack next to the big black velvet couch and run my hand over its soft armrest.
โIโve always wanted a velvet couch.โ Iโm a blabbermouth with nothing important to say.
Derek watches me dramatically wiggle my butt around and make a big show out of loving this piece of furniture. โThis is sublime. I mean, what a couch. In factโฆโ I trail off while unzipping my backpack and pulling my laptop out onto the tops of my thighs. โI think Iโm going to claim it, if thatโs okay with you?โ
โNora.โ Thatโs Derekโs all-too-familiarย what is happening to you now
way of saying my name.
I force my gaze up.
Heโs still standing in his same place just past the door, but heโs so large it feels like heโs taking up the whole damn room. Another reason Iโm not sharing that bed with him. He seems to be hitting a growth spurt as we speak, and his shoulders are doubling in size. Thereโd be no room for me on there. Our butts would bump. Legs would tangle. Iโd have to lie facedown on his chest because itโs so big it would become the mattress. And then Iโd somehow wake up pregnant and thereโs no way Iโd be able to birth one of Derekโs monstrous babies; therefore, I will claim the couch.
I only glance up at him for a split second before I dive back into the world of my laptop. Even as I begin typing the response to an email that came through while we were in the air, I feel my shoulders relaxing. Some people use fidget spinners to distract their fingers from anxiety. I use work. Work is good. Work is where I go when I feel unsure in the world because for me, work is an equation that has a clear answer every single time. Plus, Iโm good at what I do.
Want to guess what Iโm not good at?ย Derek.
I feel his eyes on me and my fingers are clumsy on the keys. I backspace four times.
โNora, I feel like Iโm always asking this question lately, butโฆwhat are you doing?โ Derekโs voice rumbles at me. Or it rumbles extra at me. Itโs
gritty from his lack of sleep and heโs sporting a very nice scruffy jawline. โWorking.โ
โYesโI see that, and Iโll get to that in a second. But more specifically, I mean what are you doing saying youโre going to sleep on the couch?โ
โThe truth is, Derek, I have a serious lack of faith in anyone elseโs ability to really appreciate the importance of a great couch. I want to make sure the furniture in this suite is all treated fairly. Itโs equal opportunity or bust in my hotel rooms.โ
His head tilts, giving me an unamused look. โYouโre making sure the inanimate objects have a shot at equality?โ
I run my hands over the sofa like Iโm searching for its ears. โShh. You never know when this could turn into aย Beauty and the Beastย situation, and all this furniture might come to life. You want to be on their good side.โ
Derek pinches his eyes closed and rubs them with his thumb and forefinger. His bicep does that comet thing again. โNoraโฆI canโt let you sleep on the couch.โ
โWhy not? Do you want to sleep here? Tell you what, Iโll play you for it. We can both balance on our left foot and the first one to drop their other foot has to sleep in the boring bed.โ I continue to type type type while carrying on a conversation like Iโve watched Nicole do successfully dozens of times. But itโs harder than it looks. Iโve just written one long line of gibberish.
โBecauseโcan you stop working for a second?โ
โWhy?โ I frown up at him. โThe bird that catches the worm never sleeps.โ
โThatโs not the phrase.โ
โIt should be.โ I continue typing.
โNora, put down your laptop,โ Derek commands, but it barely pierces my consciousness because now Iโm eyeballs-deep in emails and feeling my purpose in the world restored. But then something slips past his lips that has me looking up.ย โPlease.โ
I meet his tired eyes and then gently close the laptop.
He watches me move it aside. โIโm not sure if youโve noticed or not, but thereโs a big elephant in the room.โ He moves to perch on the edge of the bed.
โOf course Iโve noticed. Sheโs bedazzled herself and is shooting off fireworks. Frankly, that elephant is an attention hog.โ
Derek fights a smile with all of his heart and loses the battle right there in the corners. I love it. Iโm a glutton for that smile ever since seeing it in the lobby.ย Give it to me, Pender.
โPlease answer honestly, Nora. Iโm too tired for anything else right now.โ
โOkay. The truth is, Iโm working because I donโt know how to act around you anymore. I donโt know how to breathe normal when you and I are married and sharing the same air in a room with a king-size bed. I donโt know how to make eye contact with you ever since you said you understand why we broke up, but now you donโt want to be friends. Because how the hell do we do that? Iโm your agent, who was also fired, who is also your ex- girlfriend, who is now your wife, but we also have this long list of rules to follow. Thereโs too much overlap and confusion here. The Venn diagram looks like a hypnotic swirl!โ I glance longingly at my laptop and pat the top. โBut in my emails, Iโm still just your agent for the time being. And thatโs not confusing at all so Iโd rather live there.โ
He nods slowly. โItโs good you brought it up. Iโm unfiring you.โ
I glance sidelong at Derek, all suspicion now. โWhy? I donโt want to be your agent if Iโm only getting the position because weโre accidentally married and you feel bad about it.โ
โThatโs not even close to the reason. I want you to be my agent because youโre resourceful and creative. Because you somehow managed to still cut killer deals for me even when I was running you into the ground with busywork. Because you stood up to me and told me to quit being an assโ something no one else would have done in your situation.ย Because youโre the best one for the job.โ
Iโm not convinced, and I have a chronic need to earn my place in life. โIf all those reasons are true, then why did you fire me in the first place?โ
He holds my gaze, his jaw ticking once. โHonestly? I thought it would be too difficult between us in the long run. But Iโm ready to get over it now and work together. Iโm really sorry, Nora, and hoping you can forgive me for it. All of it.โ
โOh.โ
โYouโre speechless?โ
โFor the first time in history, yes.โ
โThen Iโll take advantage of it.โ He pushes the sleeves of his lightweight hoodie up his forearms and then leans over to rest them on his knees. โI really do want you to be my agent, but not this week. This week, I think you should close your laptop and take your vacation days.โ
My mouth falls open. โItโs time to clean your ears out because clearly you heard nothing I said about needing my work to keep myself grounded during all of this.โ
He leans back, pressing his hands into the mattress behind him andโ dammitโhis chest grows again. โItโs too weird if youโre working and weโre acting married. For this week only, letโs just be Derek and Nora. Thereโre too many spinning plates in this scenario and itโs a mess for both of us. So I proposeโโ
โIronic word choice.โ
โโthat we close your laptop for the week, and then when we go back to L.A., we can double down on the rules and get back to normal.โ
I hate to admit it, but I think he has a point. โYou want to get rid of the rules also?โ
He frowns in thought for a minute. โWhere we can, yeah. But I want you to feel comfortable and safe, so we can stick to them if you want. But it might be difficult while trying to sell the relationship in public.โ
โI always feel safe with you, Derek,โ I say before I can stop myself. But itโs true and Iโm not sorry that he knows it. โWe could completely dump the rules out the window and Iโd still feel that way.โ
His sharp blue eyes bore into me, and the air feels thick. โIโm glad to hear it. And since weโre on the same pageโฆI think we can share this bed.โ
I cut my eyes to where his hand is denting the comforter. โHow can we share it withoutโฆโ
He lifts a brow at where I let my sentence dangle.
โAccidentally touching! Thatโs all I was thinking. Not sex. I wasnโt thinking about having sex with you at all. Sex never even entered my train of thought. Ever. Not even back when we were having it.โ
Somehow his entire body is a smirk. โYouโre saying the wordย sexย a lot.โ โIt really feels like it, doesnโt it?โ I grimace. โNow we definitely canโt
share that bed.โ
He laughs and unfolds his big body like the wordย sexย never fazed him. Probably because heโs had plenty of it over the years, unlike me who hasnโt touched a man in three whole turns around the sun. Jeez, I should fix that.
But not with him!
โWe used to sleep together, Nora, thatโs a fact and not something we have to be ashamed of. Open communication now.โ He grins at me from where heโs standing beside the bed, and it makes my knees feel like theyโre made of banana pudding.
โWhat are you doing?โ I ask, watching him add an extra blanket to the bed and then fling his pillow to the far end.
โThis way, we can share the bed without touching. Iโll sleep on top of the comforter, and you can sleep underneath it. And for good measure, weโll sleep feet to face.โ
โYou mean sixtyโโ
โDonโt finish that sentence,โ he interrupts, his serious tone suggesting he might not be as indifferent as he seems.