โImpossible. That was the word for what Celine had drawn. Hours later, as I sat down across from Kane Darby at the nearest FBI field office, Agent Sterling on one side and Dean on the other, I found myself staring at his faceโ
โat those familiar featuresโmy throat dry and my mind reeling.
Youโre alive. Youโre here. But it was your face in that sketch.
It wasย hisย face in my memory,ย hisย body crumpled at the bottom of the stairs,ย hisย blood on my motherโs hands. There was an explanation, and I knew in my gut that I could make Kane give it to me, but just looking at him, I was frozen, like a diver standing at the edge of a cliff staring down at rough waves breaking against the rocks below.
โDid my mother ever mention the BPEs to you?โ I asked Kane, somehow managing to form the words. โBehavior. Personality. Environment.โ
โLorelai was teaching you the tricks of her trade,โ Kane said. A decade on, I could still hear an echo of emotion when he said her name.
โShe taught me well.โ I let that sink in, sounding calmer than I felt. โWell enough that the FBI finds my skills useful on occasion.โ
โYouโre a child.โ Kaneโs objection was predictable enough to steady me, grounding me in the here and now.
โIโm the person asking the questions,โ I corrected evenly. I knew instinctively that Agent Sterling had been rightโif weโd tried this tactic without having identified our victims, I wouldnโt have been able to get anything out of Kane.
But Celineโs facial reconstructions had changed the game.
Youโll know, in a moment, that this is real. That your familyโs secrets are coming out. That thereโs no use in fighting it.
That the power of penance pales next to confession.
โWeโve identified the bodies found at Serenity Ranch.โ I gave Kane enough time to wonder if I was bluffing, and then I glanced at Agent Sterling, who handed me a folder. I laid the first picture on the table, facing Kane.
โSarah Simon,โ I said. โShe joined your fatherโs cult and thenโby all accountsโskipped town when it wasnโt what sheโd hoped.โ
โExcept she didnโt.โ Dean took over where I stopped. โSarah never left
the property, because someone killed her first. Based on the autopsy, weโre looking at asphyxiation. Someoneโmost likely a maleโslipped his hands around her neck and choked the life out of her.โ
โStrangulation is about dominance.โ I was all too aware of how strange it must have been for Kane, whoโd known me as a child, to hear me say those words. โItโs personal. Itโs intimate. And afterward, thereโs a sense ofโฆ completion.โ
For the first time, Kaneโs expression faltered and something else peeked out from behind his light blue eyes. I didnโt need Michael to tell me that it wasnโt fear or disgust.
It wasย anger.
I laid the second picture down on the table, the one depicting a man with Kaneโs face.
โIs this a joke?โ Kane asked.
โThis is the face of the second victim,โ I said.ย Impossibleโbut not. โItโs funnyโno one in Gaither ever mentioned that you had a twin.โ
That was the only explanation that made senseโnot Kane crumpled at the bottom of the stairs. Not Kane covered in blood.
โMaybe,โ I said, slanting my gaze to catch his, โno one in Gaither knew.
You told me the other day that growing up, you were the golden son.โ I looked down at the photo. โYour brother was something else.โ
Sometimes, a profiler didnโt have to know the answers. Sometimes, you just had to know enough to push someone else into filling in the blanks.
โMy brotherโs name,โ Kane said, staring at the picture, โwas Darren.โ The anger Iโd seen in his eyes was replaced with another emotion, something dark, full of loathing and longing. โHe used to joke that theyโd gotten us mixed up at the hospitalโthat he was meant to be Kane. In his version, I was Abel.โ
โYour brother liked to hurt things.โ Dean read between the lines. โHe liked to hurt you.โ
โHe never laid a hand on me,โ Kane replied, his voice hollow. โHe made you watch,โ Dean said. He knew what that was likeโ
viscerally, in a way he could never forget.
Kane dragged his eyes away from Celineโs drawing. โHe hurt a little girl back in California. He was the reason we moved to Gaither.โ
When Kane had moved to Gaither, he and his twin were all of nine years old.
โDarren was the reason your father started Serenity.โ I could see, now, shades in that action that went beyond the older Darbyโs thirst for power and adoration.
In Serenity, Iโve found balance.ย In Serenity, Iโve found peace.
โDarren wasnโt allowed to leave the property,โ Kane said. โWe kept a
close eye on him.โ
Iโd theorized before that Kane had developed his unnatural calmness as a result of growing up around someone who was unstable, volatile, unpredictable.
โYour fatherโs followers kept Darren a secret.โ Kane closed his eyes. โWe all did.โ
I thought of Malcolm Lowell, saying that his grandson had found his way into the compound. I thought about the animalsโ
They werenโt clean kills. Those animals died slowly, and they died in pain. โYour brother and Mason Kyle were friends.โ
I thought of Nightshade and the monster heโd become. Had he been that way even as a child? A sadist?
โMy parents thought Mason was good for Darren. Good for us. It was almost likeโฆโ
โAlmost like you were normal kids,โ Agent Sterling filled in. โAlmost like your brother didnโt have a fondness for hurting animalsโand people, when he could.โ
Kaneโs head bent so low that his chin nearly gouged his chest. โI let my guard down. I let myself believe that my parents were wrong about Darren. He wasnโt broken. Heโd just made a mistake. Just one mistake, that was allโฆ.โ
โAnd then came the Kyle murders.โ Dean knew, better than anyone, what it felt like to carry the blood of someone elseโs victims on your hands.
โDarren went missing that day.โ Kane closed his eyes, reliving what heโd seen as a child. โI knew heโd gone to Masonโs. I followed, but by the time I got thereโฆโ
Anna Kyle, dead. Her husband, dead. Her father, dyingโฆ
โMason was standing there,โ Kane said. โHe was justโฆstanding there.
And then he turned, and he looked at me, and he said, โTell DarrenโI wonโt tell.โโ
I could hear Malcolm Lowell stating that he didnโt think his grandson had been the one to torture and kill the animals heโd found.
I think he watched.
โThat was when your father built the chapel?โ Agent Sterling asked. I translated the questionโthe cell underneath the chapel. The shackles on the walls. Not for sheep in his flock whoโd gone astrayโfor his own monstrous son.
I tried to imagine being Kane, knowing that my father had locked my own twin away. Had Kane visited Darren? Had he seen the toll captivity was taking on him? Had he just left his own brother down there, day after day and year after year?
As if he could hear those silent questions, Kane closed his eyes, pain
etched into his features. โYou could catch Darren standing over a dying puppy and heโd tell you to your face that he didnโt do it. He swore, up and down, that heโd had nothing to do with the attack on the Kyles.โ Kane swallowed. โMy father didnโt believe him.โ
You didnโt believe him, either. You let your father lock him up. For years.
I understood now why Kane had never been able to leave town. No matter how disgusted heโd become with his fatherโs manipulations, no matter how broken his family was, he couldnโt leave his brother.
โHe was my twin. If he was a monster, I was, too.โ
โYears later, you met my mother,โ I commented, my mind racing. โAnd things were going so wellโฆ.โ My voice caught in my throat as I remembered Kane dancing with my mother on the front porch, Kane lifting me onto his shoulders.
โHow does Sarah Simon tie in to all of this?โ Agent Sterling redirected the conversation. โBy all accounts, she joined Serenity more than two decades after the death of the Kyle family.โ
โIโd left Serenity by that point,โ Kane said, his voice hoarse enough to tell me that I wasnโt the only one whoโd been caught up in memories of my mother. โBut from what I understand, Sarah spent a lot of time in the chapel.โ
I could hear the horror in the way Kane saidย chapel.
โSarah found out about Darren,โ I said, my mind on the cell where Holland Darby had kept his son.
โShe discovered the room. She snuck down to see him, probably more than once, and when he tired of playing with her, he killed her.โ Kaneโs voice was like a dull-edged knife. โHe wrapped his hands around her neck, just like you said. Power. Domination. Personal. And then, he got out and came after me.โ
Not you, I corrected silently.ย Power. Domination. Personal.
โHe went after the person you loved.โ I wondered how Darren had known about my mother, if heโd followed Kane to our house, but those questions died under the force of a memory that hit me with a tsunamiโs force.
Nighttime. Thereโs a thump downstairs.
I put myself in my motherโs position.ย Did you think he was Kane at first?
Did he try to hurt you? Did he wrap his fingers around your throat?
You fought back.
I thought of my mother smiling, hours later, dancing with me on the side of the road.ย You killed him.
Kaneโs eyes were closed now, like he couldnโt bear looking at me, couldnโt bear remembering, but couldnโt stop. โBy the time I got to Lorelaiโs house, she was gone. You were gone, Cassie. And Darrenโs body was at the bottom of the stairs.โ
I saw the entire scene through his eyes: the brother heโd hated and feared
and loved, dead. The woman heโd fallen for, responsible.ย It was your fault he came after her. Your fault he hurt her.
Your fault he was dead.
โLorelai killed Darren in self-defense,โ Agent Sterling surmised. โUnless youโd told her about him, she probably thought that sheโd killed you.โ
I tried to reconcile that with the mother I remembered, the mother I knew. โYou cleaned up the crime scene,โ Agent Sterling continued, offering
Kane no respite. โYou brought your twinโs body home.โ
โI never told.โ Kane sounded like a boy, like the child whoโd been forced to keep his familyโs secret, to carry his brotherโs burden.
โYour family locked Darren away, under the chapel,โ Sterling said softly. โHe was dead, and they still put him in shackles. And Sarah Simonโyou left her body down there. You let her family think sheโd left town.โ
Kane had no response. Something had snapped inside of him. Something had broken. And when he finally did speak again, it wasnโt to confirm Agent Sterlingโs statements.
โIn Serenity, Iโve found balance,โ he said, a shadow of his former self. โIn Serenity, Iโve found peace.โ
YOU
Youโve always protected Lorelai. Borne what she could not. Done what she could not.
But this time? You didnโt kill forย her.
You killed Five for yourself. Because you liked it. Because you could.
Lorelai is weak. But as the Masters take their seats at the table, youย are not. Some want to punish you. Some want to take the knife forever from your hand. But others rememberโwhat a Pythia is.
What a Pythia can be.
The Master who preceded Fiveโthe man who chose and trained him and has reclaimed the empty seat, a man you recognizeโputs an end to conversation when he hands you a diamond, bloodred, in honor of your kill.
This is a man used to leading. A man used to being in charge.ย โThere is a threat,โ the newcomer says. โI can take care of it.โ
Heโs talking about Gaither. About Lorelaiโs daughter and her little friends and how very close they are to discovering the truth.
You allow your gaze to capture his. โItโs already taken care of.โ
The acolyteโs third kill is already under way. The body should be showing up soon, and if victim two didnโt send your message, this one will.
โAnd if the problem persists? If their investigation leads them to our door?โ
โWell, thenโฆโ You turn the bloodred diamond in your hand. โIn that case, I suppose you can ask for judgment once more.โ